Chapter 44: Reluctance

In the world, the most irresistible thing is a tacit understanding.

What I thought in my heart was to think of this adventure as a trip, and it turned out that Shen Jingyun had the same idea.

When Shen Jingyun told me, I didn't respond to Shen Jingyun at the time, but on the subsequent journey, I responded to Shen Jingyun with a tacit understanding, and I really did that.

If you don't come out for a walk, you won't know that the rivers and mountains in China are so beautiful, Shen Jingyun and I will be amazed by the famous mountains and rivers, and we will stop and rejoice in the green mountains and rivers of an unknown place on the side of the road, we will taste the best hotels in each place, local specialty food, and will also sit in roadside stalls to truly feel the real food culture of each place.

When we are interested, we will go to the mall to buy and buy specially, and we will also go to the village, just walk quietly on the path, and we will be happy because of the wild fruits we occasionally find.

We maintain this kind of mentality that we don't need to say it again, and Shen Jingyun also deliberately avoided the highway, and I also turned a blind eye to the old national highways.

I enjoyed the feeling of the national highway, the most authentic scenery along the way, and the freedom to park at any time...... I also like to look at Shen Jingyun on the side of the road with a smile and a smile, bargaining with those vendors who set up stalls on the national highway.

At this time, Shen Jingyun is neither a high-ranking young nor a heroic cultivator, he is just the most ordinary ordinary man, who will cheer for buying a cheap fruit, and can't wait to bring it to the car to show me, and then carefully peel the skin for me, and the two of them will eat it in a fight.

I also bought a very distinctive gesture on the side of the road, and I was very interested in asking me to wear it for him immediately.

And in all this, the most important thing is that it was during this journey that I felt that the relationship between us had fallen to the ground, and there was a real and accessible ordinary happiness, instead of the feelings that were always floating in the sky and entangled in various things.

During this journey, many times when I looked at Shen Jingyun's figure, I would secretly think that it would be good if this period of life never ended.

However, the passage of time never stops for anyone, and no matter how reluctant the days are, they will only become memories of life.

Shen Jingyun and I traveled all the way, stopping and stopping...... After all, I still arrived at the destination, the small fishing village where Wang Yun once lived.

On the day of arrival, it was the time of sunset.

Shen Jingyun and I came to the beach tacitly, and watched the sunset, which was the last memorial of this time. After that, it's a brutal adventure, and no one can guarantee life or death.

And the illusion that it's just an ordinary person in love should also be put away, I shouldn't think too much about it, what I wanted at first was just a memory that can be engraved in my life?

When the sun completely disappeared from the sea level, and there were two or three stars in the starry sky, I was still calm.

Shen Jingyun had been silent, but at this time, he stood up and said to me, "Although it's summer, it's still very cold at night, let's go back." "Before arriving at the beach, Shen Jingyun had already set up two rooms in the town near the fishing village, and tomorrow, if everything went well, he should start the expedition, and he would have to rest tonight.

I didn't object, there were only two days left in Shen Jingyun's time, and the seal that Miss Leng had repaired with all her might was about to break. And at this time, I suddenly regretted that if I hadn't been so greedy for this journey along the way, turning the two-day journey into six days, wouldn't we have had enough time? Although Shen Jingyun has repeatedly told me that he is confident that entering the queen's tomb can solve this problem, there is still time.

Thinking about these things, I can't help but feel a little depressed in my heart.

But at this time, Shen Jingyun suddenly grabbed my hand, we got along very well along the way, and along the way, I found that there were so many tacit understandings and topics between each other, but we never had any intimate actions, and each other was guarding this taboo in our hearts. When Shen Jingyun grabbed my hand, I instinctively wanted to break away.

But I remembered all the way, I just struggled a little and stopped moving...... There's only one last bit of good time left, so why can't you indulge it once?

I looked back at Shen Jingyun, under the inky blue sky, his eyes were deeper than the stars in the sky, and under the depth, there was a deep affection that could not be dissolved. Looking at such a look, my heart beat uncontrollably.

"Xiaoshuang, I suddenly started to be reluctant to you." Shen Jingyun took my hand and approached me, less than 10 centimeters away from me, I could feel his breathing, a trace of itching on my face.

Just one sentence made my face very hot, I lowered my head and whispered, "Am I not there?" Why do you say reluctant? ”

"I just...... I'm just afraid that when this journey is over, I will never see you so close to me again. I'm afraid you'll revert to the way you used to be, always separated from me by a layer of distance. So, I'm starting to be reluctant to give up on you now......" Shen Jingyun pulled me and said in the gentlest voice, with unconcealed sadness in his tone.

I suddenly felt very distressed, very distressed for Shen Jingyun, under his somewhat childish and aggrieved eyes, I only knew how to squeeze his hand hard, I didn't know what to say, what to do?

"Xiaoshuang, just tonight, let me indulge this time, okay?" Shen Jingyun suddenly pleaded with me.

I subconsciously nodded, and I didn't want to ask any more, what would his request be? With my nodding motion, Shen Jingyun finally hugged me gently, first cautiously, and then hugged me tightly.

He looked at me deeply, and then, rubbing his lips against my face, the hot breath hit my face, but my heart was distressed, I don't know why, my eyes were sour and tight, and tears gradually blurred my eyes.

At this time, Shen Jingyun held my face with both hands, and finally kissed it gently.

This time, I didn't have any struggles anymore and responded to him gently.

Nothing is more sinking than a lover's kiss, under such a night sky, such a sound of waves, such a wind, I almost forgot my existence, as if I had turned into a pool of autumn water, just wanting to melt into Shen Jingyun's arms.

However, Shen Jingyun still stopped kissing with a slight gasp, and still looked at me with such deep eyes: "Xiaoshuang, I need some time to get used to." So, after I let you go, you let me go first, and I waited for you in the car. Don't ask me why I'm doing such childish behavior, at least give me some time to get used to our relationship and get back to what it used to be. ”

Shen Jingyun ......, "I'm sad, but I don't want to be separated from him now, so it's not cruel to me to go back to the original point?" However, I couldn't find any reason to say anything, and at that moment, I suddenly had a strong urge to find Helian Cheng to apologize, even if it was to compensate him with my life, as long as I could be with Shen Jingyun.

But this thought was finally suppressed by me, Helian Cheng never wanted my reward, he didn't even want anything...... The more he is like this, the more guilty I am that I can't be with Shen Jingyun.

My mood was very complicated, but Shen Jingyun gently let go of me, and he smiled: "Xiaoshuang, I have always been a very confident person, to anyone, anything. But I don't have confidence in one thing, and that is whether I can really wait for you. Because I know you, I know more and more that you value love and righteousness in your bones. As long as Helian Cheng doesn't let go for a day, you won't be able to be with me with peace of mind for a day. Even if you are barely together, you will be haunted by this matter, and then all three of us will not be happy. And Helian Cheng, that guy, heh......"

"Seriously, I don't think he'll let you go. I don't blame him, because he's probably the same as me, when will I be able to let go again? So, if I die on this adventure, I really have no regrets, and it may be a relief. ”

After Shen Jingyun said this, he let go of me, didn't let me speak, and turned around and walked forward.

I want to chase, but I don't know what to say? My mind was in a mess, looking at Shen Jingyun's slightly lonely back, I don't know when I burst into tears.

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The next day was a fine day.

In the unique climate of the seaside, the sky is always very blue, and the sky here has a more translucent feeling than the bustling S City.

I woke up, but my mood was not half lightened by such a sunny day. Last night's scenes, Shen Jingyun's words are still beating my heart little by little, making me sad.

Recalling the scene when I got on the bus yesterday, he and I were extremely silent, which made this sadness spread even more in each other's hearts.

I can't adjust my mood to him. However, the work had to be done, and in a heaviness, I got out of bed and began to wash.

It was still early, and I didn't know if Shen Jingyun got up.

Just as I was washing my face and preparing to pack my luggage, there was a knock on the door, and I opened the door, but it was Shen Jingyun standing in front of the door, carrying breakfast.

"Eat it. We're going to start early. After I came back last night, I looked through Wang Yun's diary again, and probably sorted out a route. In fact, the secret passage is not too far from the fishing village where Wang Yun's family used to be. The point is to rent a fishing boat smoothly today, and if you hurry up and set off, you will probably be able to reach the entrance of the secret river in the early hours of tomorrow morning. Shen Jingyun said quickly as he put breakfast on the table in my room.

At this moment, he has regained his composure, and it is so natural to look like when he was with me before.

Just looking at his somewhat reddened eyes, I knew he wasn't calm either.

However, he had already put on an attitude, and I knew that it was time for me to correct my mentality, so I forced a natural and said, "You're really early, okay, I'll pack my luggage and leave." Let's have breakfast in the car. ”