For a long time, there has been a saying called bystander Qing.

In fact, in my opinion, the authorities are not necessarily or unclear, and everyone understands the truth, but why are the authorities still confused step by step?

Just because I was in it, I moved all kinds of feelings and emotions, and I couldn't help myself.

I don't need to refute Shen Jingyun's words, I am grateful to Helian Cheng, and even Helian Cheng himself knows it.

I think of the summer night a year ago, Helian Cheng walked downstairs repeatedly on crutches.

At that time, he was obviously so struggling, but he seemed to be tireless step by step.

This scene made Nanfeng, who lived in the same house with me, uncomfortable, and said to me helplessly with a mint cigarette: "Xiaoshuang, do you want to go down and persuade me?" I was tired of watching a man like this. What's more, a handsome man is even more uncomfortable. ”

I didn't respond to the south wind, in fact, I was especially afraid that in this situation to face Helian Cheng, there would be a feeling of his deep affection that I couldn't bear, the more I understood, the heavier I went.

Later, I went downstairs anyway.

At that time, Helian Cheng was completely tired, so he sat in the garden of the community, smoking a cigarette a little tiredly.

I remember his silhouette at that time, sweaty T-shirt against his body, looking up slightly at the slightly hazy moonlight that night, and his eyes sad.

"Xiaoshuang, I'm not doing this to ask you to come down and persuade me, nor to get your attention." Before I could get closer, I heard Helian Cheng say this to me.

As he spoke, he looked back at me, with beads of sweat on his face and wet bangs on his forehead, and despite the sadness in his eyes, he was still smiling and gentle when he looked at me.

I handed him a bottle of mineral water, sat down next to him, took out a pack of tissue, asked him to wipe his sweat, looked at him and said, "I don't think you'll catch my attention like that." But why are you bothered? Torture yourself like this in the middle of the night. ”

Helian Cheng wiped away his sweat, shook his head a little mischievously, and smiled.

This kind of him reminds me of him when I first saw him, with deep dimples, big shining eyes, a sunny boy, and a slightly naughty appearance.

"I didn't torture myself. I just want me to move, if people don't move for a long time, many things will become more and more hopeless, and when I move, although I haven't recovered yet, I always feel that if I go down, my legs will slowly recover, and I will become more and more familiar with walking......" Helian Cheng opened the mineral water, drank half a bottle in one go, and then looked at the sky and said softly.

Before this, Helian Cheng didn't care more about the injuries of his legs than anyone else, he had always been so warm and sunny.

That night, what he said made me sad and guilty, because from that moment on, I knew that he was actually proud in his bones, and he cared so much about the injury of his legs.

When confronted with his words, I wondered how I could comfort him. But he suddenly looked at me, and his eyes became extremely serious and said, "Xiaoshuang, in fact, I don't know how many chances I have to get what I want. You know, my wish is that you can like me too, the kind of love that comes from the heart. But I still dream, you know? ”

"Dreaming?" I don't understand.

"Well, dreaming." Helian Cheng gestured for a moment, and then smiled, the familiar dimples made me feel a little sad, and then he said with hope: "It's just a dream, one day, you are finally moved by me and fall in love with me." By that time, I will marry you without delay. And I can't cripple my legs like this, I don't want others to see that your husband is not walking well. How can I bear to be laughed at by others? And I will also feel that such a self is not worthy of you, I want to stand up and marry you with dignity. Do you understand this feeling? ”

I didn't speak because I didn't know how to answer at all.

Denial? I can't do it, who can bear to break this man's dream? Is it recognized? Isn't it more cruel to deceive him about my feelings? In the end, none of us mentioned it again. As for what to say, I forgot about it.

I just remember the hazy moonlight that night, and the sweat that shone on Helian Cheng's forehead.

In the face of Shen Jingyun's questioning, I don't know why, this memory suddenly jumped into my heart clearly, yes, gratitude has nothing to do with love, but how can I bear it? Don't say anything about long pain, short pain, this is something that can't be tolerated! I can't please either end, so I can only force myself.

I love Shen Jingyun, I don't want him.

I'm ashamed of Helian Cheng, so I'll accompany him as a good friend and repay him.

I've been lonely all my life, okay? That's the best answer.

Thinking of this, I suddenly broke free of Shen Jingyun, barely squeezed out a smile, and said, "Don't delay, Wang Yun should be back soon." I think we haven't really investigated the secrets of this house yet, so we probably have to take a risk. It's been a few minutes, and I think her brother has gone away. Why don't we go through the secret passage, maybe we can find ......."

Before I finished my words, I suddenly felt my body leave the ground, and Shen Jingyun hugged me with a force that I couldn't resist.

"Shen Jingyun, you ......" After I reacted, I naturally had to struggle, I wanted to ask Shen Jingyun what he wanted to do? However, before I finished speaking, I was thrown on the sofa by Shen Jingyun.

I immediately wanted to sit up, but Shen Jingyun knelt on the sofa suddenly, pressed my legs, and grabbed my hands tightly.

In fact, since I practiced martial arts, my strength is not small, but in the face of Shen Jingyun's strength, I can't struggle at all, so I can only scold Shen Jingyun: "Shen Jingyun, are you crazy? What do you want to do? ”

Shen Jingyun looked at me, it was the first time I saw his eyes, as if a flame was burning under his eyes.

He didn't seem to hear my words, just as I questioned him, he kissed me, at that moment, I felt his lips were very hot, his breath was tough and domineering around me, his behavior was very rude, but my heart didn't really resist, just an emotion in my heart, let me turn my head with all my might.

Shen Jingyun didn't mean to stop, his whole body was pressed down, he rubbed my neck, and said in my ear: "What do you want to do?" Don't you know? Rather than having you grind and chirp here, you can't figure out the situation. It's better for me to ask for you, whoever said that raw rice can't be cooked into rice, you should brand my traces, and only then can you understand whose woman you should be! ”

As I spoke, Shen Jingyun began to kiss my collarbone lightly, and his hands began to pull at my clothes.

My heart was clearly full of anger, but my body was the most honest reaction, I couldn't resist Shen Jingyun's intimacy at all, and even wanted to indulge like this, letting his breath completely cover me.

"Lin Xiaoshuang, you are mine, today you must understand, you are mine!" Shen Jingyun muttered in a low voice as if he had lost his mind, and his movements became more and more out of bounds, he seemed to be crazy, and said in a daze: "Do you know? Except for you, I would never be so proactive with other women, never! ”

My heart didn't know why, but because of these words, I was provoked by a lingering anger, at this moment I used all my strength, struggled hard, took off my hands, pushed Shen Jingyun away, and sneered: "Then you mean that other women are taking the initiative for you, right?" Including Lin Ruolan too, right? ”

After I said this, Shen Jingyun's eyes suddenly cleared up, and he asked with some annoyance, "Why did you mention Ruolan?" ”

"Can't you mention it?" I looked at Shen Jingyun stubbornly.

Shen Jingyun was a little overwhelmed, and simply pressed me again, and said directly: "No matter what you say? What kind of environment is it today, I don't want to let go of you. ”

But I was overwhelmed by Shen Jingyun's momentary overwhelm, if I was calm, why should I be overwhelmed? I don't know the story of him and Lin Ruolan, and now how he and Lin Ruolan are doing, and whether they are still in contact, I don't know anything.

I didn't think I needed to know, and I didn't want this relationship anyway.

But now I realized that in fact, I cared about my life, and I just kept running away.

Thinking back to when Lin Ruolan was leaving, she didn't look like she had a bad relationship with Shen Jingyun and wanted to give up Shen Jingyun.

Therefore, when Shen Jingyun pounced again, I bit Shen Jingyun's shoulder hard, without mercy, very hard.

"Hmm!" Shen Jingyun let out a low sigh of pain, and finally raised his body, looking at me like this with his arms propped up, his eyes were angry and sad: "You resist me so much? ”

"Yes, I forgot to tell you that the one I wanted to mention most was Helian Cheng. What reason do you have, what qualifications do you have for me to do this? "When I'm sad, I always don't choose what to say, and whenever I see such a plot, I always feel that there is something wrong with the person who does it, and it's not good to say it directly? But at this time, I realized it deeply.

There is a kind of hatred, which is an emotion that can only be produced by the person you love, and when that hatred floats in your heart, you hate to say the most vicious and cool words to hurt the other person.

We love each other, and we are like enemies, stabbing each other fiercely, you stab, I stab, mercilessly.

Shen Jingyun's eyes dimmed suddenly, and he looked at me like this, his eyes shattered at that moment, and his gaze was scattered, like a messy puzzle, which could no longer be put together.

My heart was bleeding, but I just pretended to be looking at him as if nothing had happened.

What qualifications does he have, it is clear that he still can't completely cut off Lin Ruolan, but he keeps saying that he loves me like his life. Helian Cheng proved it with real deeds, but what about him? Did he hurt me like that? This is the reason to support me, so that you don't have a soft heart if you grit your teeth.

After being silent for a while, Shen Jingyun stood up, tidied up his clothes very calmly, and said lightly: "Okay, I know." ”