When I heard Dr. Chan say this, my brain seemed to be a little out of bounds.

I quickly blinked my eyes and asked him with some excitement, "Is it true?" ”

Dr. Chen didn't say much, just nodded: "Trust me, you're already fine, I said that as long as you get rid of your demons, your world will be beautiful." ”

By the time I walked out of the clinic, I didn't believe I was cured.

I thought that this anxiety disorder would accompany me for the rest of my life, but I didn't expect to be saved by this Dr. Chen's advice every time.

At first, I didn't trust him so much, but then I don't know why I became so trusting and dependent on him, probably because he put himself in the perspective of others, and he could help me point out an incomparably bright path on the road of confusion.

A year and a half of treatment, neither long nor short, I am very glad that I met Chen Mo, if it weren't for him, I think I would still be addicted to anxiety and unable to get out.

Now I like the current state of life very much, and I am not in a hurry.

Until one day, an unexpected news fell from the sky and hit my head, which made my life explode, and even this accident was so unexpected.

My "good friend" didn't come back for three months, and at first I thought it was an endocrine disorder and didn't pay much attention to it, but after so long, I started to mumble in my heart.

Eventually, I was a little restless and bought a pregnancy test from the pharmacy.

I know how unattainable pregnancy is for my body, but I still have a fluke mentality, so when I hold the pregnancy test stick in my hand and watch it gradually turn into two bars, my heart is indescribably sour.

I thought I might not have a baby in my life, but when I came back from fishing on the island a year and a half ago, I still had hope of pregnancy.

After such a long time, Shi Xiangnan and I have never used any contraceptive measures and have never conceived, I have already been disappointed and no longer have illusions.

At this moment, I don't want to be fortunate enough to say that this thing really happened.

But I don't really want to tell Shi Xiangnan, after all, this is a matter that has not settled.

If it was a misunderstanding, I knew he would be disappointed, but he never showed it to me.

For example, in the past year and a half, he has never brought up the topic of having children, because he is worried that my emotions will be affected.

It just so happens that I am going to go to the hospital for a formal check-up when I am on a business trip to the south, and if so, then I think we will wait for her to come with peace of mind, and if not, I will no longer have any illusions in the future.

The next day, I drove Mia to school in a leisurely car.

On the way, I intentionally or unintentionally brought up the topic of my younger siblings and wanted to test Mia.

To be honest, I didn't want to ask Mia directly, after all, she had reached a more sensitive age, and I was worried that when she had enjoyed everyone's love for her for so many years, a younger brother and sister suddenly popped up, which was a little difficult to accept, so I asked slowly.

"Mia, your good friends seem to have their own brothers and sisters, do you feel lonely?"

Mia was rummaging through her schoolbag, but as soon as my words fell, she suddenly raised her head and looked at me with straight eyes: "Well, sometimes I feel very lonely, and seeing that they all have brothers and sisters, I desperately wish that I could have a brother or sister." ”

I was overjoyed that although Mia was not my own, I would not have snubbed Mia just because she gave birth to my own child.

No, never.

She will always be the softest concern in my heart.

Sending Mia to school, she opened the car door and was about to get out of the car, but she looked back at me very seriously: "When will my mother give Mia a younger brother, what a beautiful thing it is to have both children and daughters." ”

She must have understood what I asked her, and at such a young age, she will be observant, because she is born with flaws than others, so she matures early.

I knew she must really like her younger siblings, too, and I told myself that even if I did have a child, it wouldn't make Mia feel like she loved her any less.

I looked at her back as she left, and for a moment I felt a little sad beyond words.

simply pressed the car window and called out to her, saying, "Baby, Mom's love for you will never change." ”

On the way to the hospital, I had very mixed feelings, and I was stuck in the scene where I had just seen the pregnancy test turned into two bars.

No one knew how tormented I was while waiting for the results.

I clutched my bag tightly and walked and stopped and walked down the hallway, and I couldn't sit still, and for a moment I wanted to rush into the lab to see what was going on.

Eventually, after waiting for almost two hours, everything was settled when I saw the inspection report.

When I saw the simple words written on the inspection report, my whole body fell into an endless tremor.

I couldn't hold back my emotions for a while, and I exploded all at once, leaning down and holding my head and crying a little uncontrollably.

In the end, I didn't know how I dragged my body back to the car, all my emotions were trapped in it for a while, and even in the car, I couldn't stop taking out the report and looking at the content column in a daze.

At this point I received a call from Shi Xiangnan that he was supposed to be on his way back from the airport.

Looking at his name, I couldn't help my emotions even more, covering my face for a while, tears suddenly burst out of my eyes.

In order not to worry him, I wiped away my tears and stabilized my emotions to close his call.

"What are you doing, it's been so long to answer the phone." His voice sounded anxious on the phone, and I knew he was worried about me.

I cleared my throat and said, "I just went to the supermarket to buy some things, and I carried a lot of them before I had my hands free to answer the phone." ”

But I found that as soon as my voice came out, it was already clear that I had just cried, and my nasal voice was too strong.

"Crying when you hear the voice?"

Although this matter has already come to an end, I want to tell him in person that it is reassuring to look at him.

"No, you know, the winter in Shanghai is still very cold, and today it is already below zero, probably because I am wearing less, and I am a little stuffy from the cold."

In fact, my heart has not calmed down, and I am trembling even when I speak.

Presumably he couldn't imagine the scene where I was already in tears on the other end of the phone.

"Disobedient, you always wear so little on such a cold day, which supermarket are you in, I'll ask Fu Chen to pick you up and take you to the hospital."

I don't think I'm suitable for talking on the phone anymore, and I can't calm down when I hear his voice, so I simply covered my nose and pretended: "Brother Nan, don't talk about it, my nose is very uncomfortable, I came by car, I'll go back, I'll see you later." ”

I hung up the phone and slowed down, my emotions could not be calmed down, looking at the scene of cars rushing outside, and the picture of me when I first got the report kept appearing in my head.

This isn't a dream, it should be true.

When I held the report and saw the words "first trimester" clearly written on it, I trembled so much that I didn't even hold the report and fell to the ground.

At that time, when I showed the report to the doctor, I repeatedly confirmed with the doctor, probably she has seen too many people like me, and the doctor kept nodding with a smile: "Yes, you read that right, she is really pregnant." ”

I was already uncontrollably excited there, and kept asking the doctor: "My uterus was damaged before, am I okay?" ”

The doctor waved his hand, motioned for me to sit down, and then told me that it was indeed damaged, and looking at the previous diagnosis records, it was indeed that the fallopian tubes on both sides were blocked, and the imaging showed that one side was almost blocked, and it was of little significance to do laparoscopic surgery, and the other side was due to the adhesions caused by a miscarriage many years ago, so it has not been able to get pregnant.

And this pregnancy may be largely due to the sudden improvement of the adhesion on the other side, so the pregnancy thing is a matter of course.

After the doctor finished speaking, I felt that my world suddenly became brighter at some point, as if after all the suffering, the rest was beautiful.

It turns out that this world is fair, and in the fickle world, you have no idea when happiness and turnaround will fall on your head.

As I thought about it, my eyes began to sore again, this time with tears in my eyes.

When Fu Chen drove the car to pick up Mia from school and back to the villa, I was still sitting in the car with my face half-covered and wiping my tears, while my car was parked outside the villa and didn't dare to drive into the garage.

When Mia approached and saw me, she opened the car door in a panic and asked me anxiously, "Mom, why are you crying, what happened?" ”

I didn't want to tell Mia about it, even though she was eight years old, she was still a child, and there were some things that she couldn't necessarily understand.

Just wanted to find an excuse to prevaricate, but when she got out of the car, the report sheet on her lap fell directly to the ground, and she picked it up and frowned and couldn't understand it.

But Fu Chen next to him just glanced at it and showed a surprised expression, and even said a little more excited than me: "Mrs., Mrs... Are you pregnant? ”

"What? Pregnant? Uncle Fu Chen, do you mean I'm going to be a sister? ”

Mia asked Fu Chen in surprise, and when she saw him nodding, she hugged my waist excitedly: "Mom, Mom, this is great, I'm going to be a sister, the teacher said that you have to learn to congratulate when you have something happy, so Mom congratulate you." ”

When I saw Mia's heartfelt joy at this time, I couldn't help but hug her and feel the blessing from my favorite daughter.

I think Mia is mature, and I can really feel her excitement when I hold her, and she is trembling with excitement because I have a baby.

……

I carried Mia into the villa, and when I opened the door, I saw Shi Xiangnan standing in the hallway, putting his black coat on his body.

A family of three just looked at each other like this, I saw him open his mouth slightly, and before the words could be spoken, I saw Mia hurriedly run to Shi Xiangnan's side, holding his arm and kissing.

Shi Xiangnan was just about to squat down and hug her, when he heard Mia say to him very excitedly: "Dad, I'm going to be a sister, my mother has a baby, why don't you hurry up and hug her?" ”

Shi Xiangnan said a little ridiculous, his unbelievable appearance was not much better than mine, after Mia's words fell, he was also stunned for a long time before looking at me, and spit out a sentence: "What, what?" ”

I stroked my lower abdomen, and then handed him the report sheet in my hand: "What Mia said is true, I didn't expect to be pregnant, I think it's probably because God has mercy on us, and thinks that your family's huge family has no heir, so I gave you a baby." ”

I pretended to be very casual when I said it, and even said it in a relaxed tone, but God knows that deep down I can't calm down.

Shi Xiangnan took the report, and at this time, Fu Chen quietly took Mia away, and he and I were left standing opposite each other in the entire living room.

I saw that his hands were shaking, and I always thought that he had experienced strong winds and waves, and he should not look like me when he saw this, but I was wrong, he looked panicked like a child who had never been in the world.

As I spoke, he suddenly walked up to me, and a long arm took me in his arms, and he held me tightly in his arms.

He didn't speak, but I could clearly feel the tremors coming from his body.

Even though they were both dressed thickly, I could still hear his heart throbbing as if it were about to jump out of his mouth.

"I—I didn't expect it, I thought it was going to be in this life..."A choked voice came from above my head, and I was even so excited that I couldn't say a word intermittently.

I interrupted him, buried my face in his shoulder and said in a low voice: "Brother Nan, don't say it, I understand your heart, this kid is not easy to come by, this time we treat him well, don't let him receive any harm, okay?" ”

"Well, I promise you, none of us will be hurt again."

He stroked my hair, imprinted a trembling kiss on my head and continued: "He Anning, before welcoming him, we should also welcome our wedding. ”

Wedding?

I haven't thought about having another wedding since I came back, and I feel like we're already together and it's already good.

Shi Xiangnan knew me, so before I spoke, he hugged me tighter and said: "I wanted to give you this wedding for a long time, I originally wanted to surprise you, but I didn't expect you to surprise me first, so He Anning, don't refuse me, okay?" ”

I looked up at his inky eyes, and finally agreed with moist eyes.

Because what I saw in his eyes was the truest affection, and it was also the truth I had never seen in him.

……

Since it was winter in Shanghai, and since my belly had not yet started to grow, Shi Xiangnan scheduled the wedding to Bali next month.

I didn't expect that day to come very quickly, and the wedding process is also as simple as possible, I don't like to be complicated when Xiang Nan knows it.

But what I didn't expect was that Shi Xiangnan and I received a gift before the wedding began.

The sender's address is from Shanghai, and I think I already know who it is.

When I opened the gift box, there was nothing left but a check and a note.

The note read: "He Anning, I wish you happiness, this check was obtained south when I threatened with your life when I was in Africa, so I will return it to you now, help me say sorry to him." ”

I looked at Shi Xiangnan, and my heart was sour for a while.

At the wedding, when he put the ring on my finger in front of the priest, I couldn't help but ask him with tears in my eyes: "Why were you so stupid to give Qiao Chen Feng money in the first place?" ”

He held my face and kissed it, and then gently wiped my tears with his fingertips: "As long as it has something to do with you, I'll be in a mess, but it's all over, and it doesn't matter anymore." ”

yes, it's all gone.

It was only at this moment that I realized that in this relationship, the person who really gave was Shi Xiangnan, and he gave up the most, and he gave up not only money, power, but also life for me.

I also want to tell him that as his wife, I don't just enjoy what he has done for me.

In the days to come, I am also the one who is willing to give up everything for him, even his life and freedom, as long as there is such an opportunity, I will never hesitate.

I smiled and looked at Shi Xiangnan, who said softly to me, "I love you." ”

In this noisy wedding, the sound of the fireworks fell on my ears so crisp and bright, and along with the flowers, there were these three words whispered to the south.

He smiled and hugged me into his arms, and he was holding not only me, but our children, and the whole world.

And I leaned firmly into his arms, feeling that happiness was right in front of me, as if it was within reach, and I couldn't run away anymore.