In this psychological warfare, it was obvious that Shen Jingyun had the advantage and broke through the patient's already somewhat fragile defense.

The patient was a little devastated, and Shen Jingyun did not immediately ask aggressively, but gave the patient half a minute before taking out a cigarette from his trouser pocket, handing it to the patient, and asking, "Do you smoke?" ”

Seeing the cigarette, the patient's eyes flashed with a hint of longing, first a little hesitant, and then firmly took Shen Jingyun's cigarette, and took the lighter that Shen Jingyun handed over casually, after lighting it, he took a deep breath and said, "It's fucking poison, I admit it." It's been very painful to live here, and I've been wanting to smoke a cigarette these months! ”

The patient's words made my heart move slightly, and before Shen Jingyun didn't ask any more questions, I couldn't help but ask, "How can it be so miserable?" Didn't your family bring you to this hospital? Isn't your family coming to visit you? Even if I don't take you home, I still come back to visit you, and it's not very difficult to smoke a cigarette. ”

In response to my question, the patient took several puffs of cigarette before saying, "Are you really here to investigate this hospital?" If so, I advise you not to wade into this troubled water as soon as possible. You don't even know the basics of this hospital. Here, there are too few patients who can go out, and occasionally a few, and that is just for the public. As you know, the probability of mental illness being cured is very low, and those patients who can be cured, such as insomnia, and irritability and collapse caused by excessive psychological pressure, will be sent by real family members. ”

As he spoke, he glanced at me and Shen Jingyun with some mockery: "How many patients do you think there will be?" At least, how many of these symptoms will be sent to a psychiatric hospital? Do you see, how many patients live in this building? ”

I began to look a little surprised, in fact, I felt that something was wrong before, a general mental hospital, it is good to have two small inpatient buildings, I have never been to a psychiatric hospital, I don't know the occupancy rate of it, but it is hard to imagine that this psychiatric hospital is three inpatient buildings are full of people.

At this time, Shen Jingyun also lit a cigarette and said, "Yes, when I inspected the fifth or sixth floor, I felt that something was wrong." Why is every ward in this hospital full? Even if it is an ordinary tertiary hospital, this situation may not occur every month. So, you're not a patient at all, so who are you? ”

This question seemed to make the patient a little painful, and he did not answer Shen Jingyun, but took a big gulp with an ugly face. The moonlight stretched his reflection for a long time, but it was inexplicably a little lonely and desolate.

Shen Jingyun and I were not easy to urge him at this time, but I felt cold in my heart. According to Shen Jingyun, the person in front of him was not a patient, but he was locked up in a psychiatric hospital. What a terrible scene that was? I don't know if there is a real case of this kind of incident in reality? After all, not every side of society is bright.

But even if it happens for various reasons, it is absolutely impossible to be a large-scale and high-probability event, but in this Qingshan Hospital, the meaning of the patient in front of him seems to be that many people are normal, but they are locked up here.

A cigarette was quickly smoked by the patient.

He wiped his face, grabbed his hair again, looked at Shen Jingyun and said, "Give me another one." ”

Shen Jingyun was silent and took out another cigarette, handed it to him, and lit it for him personally this time. Maybe standing in front of a sitting person would cause a sense of oppression to the sitting person, Shen Jingyun slowly sat down in front of him, and pulled me to sit next to him.

The green smoke curled, the patient frowned slightly, half-squinted, seemed to look at the sky unconsciously, and said softly: "I will believe that you are the ones who have come to investigate here, and I will also believe that you can go well, although I myself have long been desperate." But if one day, I really forget everything, in this world, it is also a good thing to have two people to help me remember. ”

His tone was really full of sadness and despair, I couldn't bear to hear it, and I wanted to open my mouth to comfort him, but he waved his hand, as if to ask me and Shen Jingyun not to talk, he himself continued: "My name is Xu Lang, before I came to the mental hospital, I was a policeman, not an ordinary policeman, but a special policeman. ”

This sentence not only surprised me, but also made Shen Jingyun a little surprised, I couldn't imagine that a person with such an identity would be imprisoned in a mental hospital! But we didn't interrupt Xu Lang's words and let him continue.

"The reason why I want you to remember that I will forget myself is because after being locked up in this hospital, I found that many of the details of the past began to be slowly forgotten. You know? One morning, I woke up and I forgot how old I must have been. I kept thinking about it, and finally, when it was about to lunch, I remembered that I was 31 years old. I was afraid that I would forget, so I quietly carved a 31 with my fingernails in the corner of the wall, hoping that whenever I saw it, I would never forget my age. ”

"But aren't you normal?" Shen Jingyun didn't want to interrupt the other party's words, but this point really made him confused.

A normal person may be tortured and have a mental breakdown, but from a psychological point of view, the more difficult the environment, the more deeply he will remember every detail of the past. Even in the later stage of numbness, these things will be condensed into the most precious seeds and buried deep in the heart.

After saying this, Shen Jingyun raised his eyebrows and said again: "Is it the relationship between those drugs?" ”

This statement should be true, drugs such as sedative, tranquilizer, etc., most people know that there will be great side effects, as a person who does not know much about medicine, I don't know if these side effects include amnesia, but vague memory, will lead to the decline of people's memory.

It is understandable to imagine that an ordinary person who takes this drug for a long time will have such consequences.

Thinking like this, I couldn't help but spread out my palms and looked down at the two pills in my hand, which were the pills that Shen Jingyun took out from under Xu Lang's tongue, from the outside, it was not much different from ordinary cold capsules, but there was a row of strange small characters printed on it, I thought it would be English or something like that, but if I looked closely, the text was very unfamiliar, and I was sure that it was not Latin.

I handed the pill to Shen Jingyun and said softly, "This medicine is a bit strange. It's not European and American drugs, it's not Nissan, it's not our country. ”

Shen Jingyun lowered his head, frowned for a while, and didn't say anything, but put the two pills into the pocket of his jacket.

Seeing us doing all this, Xu Lang didn't express any opinions, but said, "Maybe the pill has a certain effect, but I haven't taken this thing for two months." ”

"I suspected that the drug was causing my memory to deteriorate. Supposedly, as long as you stop taking the medication, the side effects will slowly disappear. But I found that it didn't work, just like now I can't even remember any relatives I have other than my closest relatives and best friends. At first, I couldn't remember many details about my past, but now, I can't even blur my upbringing. When Xu Lang said this, the wisp of bitterness between his eyebrows became even heavier.

"Do you remember how you got to this hospital?" Shen Jingyun asked, this question is very critical.

"I still remember this, it was a mission, I vaguely remember the specific task, it was to investigate a missing person case, you should know, there are a lot of people in our country, there are missing people every day, it is said that this kind of missing person case is the most difficult to investigate, the general police station does not know how much, but the real investigation results, maybe less than one-tenth. Maybe I'm overestimating. ”

"Of course, there are many reasons for this, such as the tight police force, and the clues are difficult to find. Disappearance cases, supposedly have a high probability and low efficiency in investigation, in short, it is not the turn of our special police to take action. But I remember that disappearance, but it was a rage above, do you believe it? In two neighboring villages, more than 40 girls disappeared overnight. ”

When talking about the issue of police professionalism, Xu Lang's words obviously became more, and the unintentional sentences also revealed professionalism. This made me and Shen Jingyun believe a little more in his identity as a special policeman.

At the same time, he was also shocked that the case he investigated would find more than 40 girls missing from the village overnight.

And when Xu Lang said this, he hugged his head a little painfully, he seemed to still be haunted by the case that was investigated before he was imprisoned in a mental hospital: "I can't remember many details, I only remember in my heart, this case is very strange and strange, the missing girls are almost all the unmarried girls in those two villages." I still vaguely remember that the villagers were very uncooperative, so we dispatched our special police and quietly infiltrated the investigation. Speaking of this, Xu Lang asked Shen Jingyun again for a cigarette.

"I won't say much about that case. Because I really can't remember that much, I can only tell you that I, as a special police officer, was attacked by a woman in the village, rolling pin, do you know that thing? As he spoke, Xu Lang stretched out his hand and gestured: "Such a long, thick rolling pin smashed heavily on my head, how dare ordinary women start, but the one who attacked me was very decisive." And she was a village woman, I'm sure of that, and when I fell, I couldn't believe that she had knocked me down in the house. ”

Speaking of this, Xu Lang finally lit a cigarette and laughed self-deprecatingly: "Do you believe it? I forgot a lot of details, but I just remember that the moment I fell, the way she looked at me, fierce, decisive, resolute and crazy. I often wonder, what makes her have such eyes? ”

Xu Lang took a puff of cigarette, his face was deeply confused.

And I couldn't help but ask with concern, "And then?" ”

Xu Lang looked at me and smiled: "Then?" That's what you saw, I'm in a mental hospital. ”