Shi Xiangnan didn't give me a choice, he knew me, and he knew that I would not refuse Qiao Chenfeng's request under the current circumstances, so he left me and Mia in the apartment, and he went to do it himself.

Before leaving, he told me to stop worrying about self-blame.

I knew it wouldn't be fair to him to let Shi Xiangnan arrange a phone call for us.

After all, he didn't have a reason to help Qiao Chenfeng, after all, they were rivals in love before, but after all, he was willing to help because he was worried about me.

I feel that I owe Shi Xiangnan a favor again, maybe I owe him too much in this life, and I can't pay it back.

With this mixed feeling, after about an hour or so, I received a strange phone call.

I don't know if it's Qiao Chenfeng, Shi Xiangnan didn't call me back, and I was apprehensive when I answered the phone.

But when I heard the other person's voice, my heart fell.

It's Qiao Chenfeng's, a phone from Shanghai, it is said that the rules there are very strict, and prisoners are almost not allowed to call, I think this call can be called, it must be a relationship with Nantong at the time.

His voice hadn't changed much, just more hoarse than it had been a few months ago.

I don't know why I feel so strange on the phone, and I don't even know how to say when he doesn't speak.

After a minute or two of silence between us, I heard him suddenly say: "He Anning, I miss the time when we were in school in Zurich in the past, when I was very simple, I just liked you, it would be nice if I could turn back time." ”

He was a big man, and when he heard this, his voice was a little choked, as if there was still a little bitterness.

He didn't allow me a chance to speak, and continued at the moment when I just opened my mouth: "Shi Xiangnan is a good man, worthy of trust, since you still have him in your heart, go back to him, when I was in Africa, the moment I saw you looking at his photo in a daze, I knew that I had never entered your heart." ”

I felt my eyes sour, and just as he said the third sentence to me, I couldn't hold back and flowed.

He said: "Don't blame yourself for my affairs, it's useless to blame yourself, this is the wrong path I have taken, so I will not accept your affection." ”

"Qiao Chenfeng, you must not be doing well in it now."

Listening to my words, Qiao Chenfeng actually laughed, and comforted me: "Okay, it's really good, there's nothing better than this, don't worry about being found out when transporting weapons, and you won't worry about not being able to sleep all night, let alone worrying about getting involved with Qiao's family, although I am in prison now, my heart is extremely relaxed." ”

When he said it, his tone was very relaxed, but I couldn't relax on the phone.

"How long will you be sentenced for a crime like this?" I asked him cautiously.

But he replied to me without hesitation: "Maybe ten years, maybe fifteen years, no matter how long, it's the same for me anyway." ”

I suddenly remembered the woman who was with Qiao Chenfeng before, how is she doing now, will she still be with Qiao Chenfeng?

When I asked, I heard that the woman was dead.

Just after we left Uganda, there was a tribal war in Uganda, because they provided weapons, which led to the upgrading of weapons on both sides, and the fighting power was very strong, so the war lasted for a long time, and the woman was unfortunately hit by a stray bullet in the war and died in the war.

Qiao Chenfeng said that he blamed himself very much, he was responsible for her death, and he wrote a letter of denunciation, so he was easily caught.

To be precise, this is a voluntary surrender, shouldn't the sentence be commuted if the surrender is made?

So I comforted him and said, "I know that Qiao's is helping you, just like you said I don't need to blame myself, she died in the war, if Qiao's strength is insufficient, I think I will go and ask him to help you." ”

"No, you don't! He Anning, there is no need to do such a thing. Before I could say anything, he was firmly interrupted.

I heard the wry smile on the other end of the phone and continued: "You really don't have to be so good to me, I used you before, and almost let you carry the black pot for me, if it wasn't for Shi Xiangnan to find me, let me release you, and give me a sum of money, otherwise you are the one who is waiting for a heavy sentence in prison now, so don't bother for me, I killed the woman who loved me, even twenty years in prison can't reduce the burden on my heart, understand?" ”

I can understand how he feels, but can he really redeem himself after so many years in prison?

Although I feel sorry for him, I can't argue with it at the moment.

And I really heard it from him, and I wanted to know why he would return the shares I bought to me at the original stock price.

It was really Shi Xiangnan who paid for me to get out of this war unscathed.

I listened to the long sigh on the other end of the phone in a daze, and felt very uncomfortable, Shi Xiangnan did so many things for me, but he never wanted to reciprocate, so far I was not only sad for Qiao Chenfeng, but also more distressed when Xiangnan, the man who loved me.

There was another silence between me and him, and it didn't take long for him to let out a faint breath and say: "He Anning, I have been in prison for so long, I have rarely thought about it quietly, in fact, I may not like you as much as I imagined." ”

"Probably because you rejected me, out of a man's desire to conquer, I will always chase you, so when I was in Africa, I wanted you to carry the black pot."

"If I really love you, how can I be willing to let you bear this charge, probably I'm more selfish, and I only love myself from beginning to end, so you let go of your self-blame for me, and be with Shi Xiangnan well, what about me, just atone for my sins here, I don't want to see anyone, you don't have to come to see me, even if you come, I won't see you, okay, that's it, I'm done with what I should say, hang up."

Qiao Chenfeng didn't give me a chance to talk to him at all, and hung up the phone directly after he finished speaking.

I'm the only one left here alone in a daze.

Every word he said was spinning in my head, maybe he was telling the truth, maybe he really loved himself more than anyone else.

But I'm still sad, in fact, his life can go very smoothly, graduated from medical school, even if he doesn't take over the family industry, he will do well as a doctor all the time.

Maybe it was really his desire to conquer that made him go on another path, I only hope that Qiao Chenfeng will not be complicated anymore in the future.

Even if we don't see each other in the future, as he said, I hope he can spend the rest of his life well.

Maybe after he thinks he has atoned for his sins, he can meet the woman who can spend the rest of his life with him, and I hope that by that time, he will love her well, not just himself.

Hung up the phone, I didn't call Shi Xiangnan, I didn't even know how to face him, and suddenly felt that I had been letting down this man, but he had been guarding me in his own way by my side.

Shi Xiangnan didn't come back immediately, I was lying in bed tossing and turning and couldn't sleep, and finally I had a lot of tears unconsciously, and even the pillow was wet.

I can't tell whether these tears are for Shi Xiangnan's kindness to me that makes me uncontrollable, or if Qiao Chenfeng has told me so many seemingly false truths that make people feel particularly determined, but I can clearly know that these two men have penetrated into my life.

I stood in front of the mirror and stared at myself inside, my face was pale and ugly, I hadn't rested well for two nights in a row, and today I still didn't seem sleepy, I didn't know if my body could hold up.

After listening to Qiao Chenfeng's phone call, I tried my best to calm my heart and emotions.

But in the end, I still couldn't calm down, and finally after struggling in bed for more than half an hour, the pointer had clearly pointed to half past one in the morning, and I felt black and draped in a dress, and even came to the living room barefoot without shoes.

Some distance from the switch of the living room light, I simply took advantage of the moonlight outside to find my bag, took out a box of medicine from it, pinched out a pill and put it in my mouth.

I didn't think much about using drugs before, but after all, I still couldn't escape the drug sedation.

Even though I know that taking this medicine often inhibits my nerves and damages my cranial nerves, I still can't control myself from taking it, after all, I need sleep and sedation.

Because this medicine stimulates the stomach a lot, I am physically and mentally exhausted from playing this day, so when I eat at night, I actually have no appetite and don't really want to take it.

I took this medicine almost on an empty stomach, which caused constant nausea in my stomach, a burst of sour water came back, it was very uncomfortable, and I squatted in the bathroom and vomited constantly.

Just when I was spitting the most acid, the light in the living room suddenly turned on, and the toilet was facing the door, and Shi Xiangnan stood at the door with a frown and looked at me.

I leaned the toilet and looked at him with my arms propped up, "I thought you weren't coming back tonight." ”

When he saw me like this, his face was very dark, and he hurriedly poured a glass of water and handed it to me.

Just after I tilted my head and drank the water, he snatched the tranquilizer from my hand.

He said with a blue face: "This tranquilizer can no longer be eaten, you will become dependent, and the side effects are very big." ”

Because I vomited just now, I vomited out the medicine I had just taken, and if I wanted to have a good rest and sleep to stabilize my emotions, I had to take it again.

So I shook my head and sighed: "Impossible, I can barely sleep without this medicine, I'm used to it, I used to be a doctor, and I know my current situation. ”

As I spoke, I reached out to take it, but Shi Xiangnan stubbornly took the medicine away.

Seeing this, I was a little annoyed and said, "Give me back the medicine." ”

Shi Xiangnan was more determined than me, said that he would not give anything, and threw my medicine directly into a ball and threw it into the trash.

Seeing him like this, I suddenly had a kind of forbearance about to explode, and just as I was about to shout, I was directly embraced into a warm embrace.

Shi Xiangnan leaned close to my ear and whispered in a dark voice: "I will accompany you to treat your illness, and I don't want you to take medicine in the future." ”