If I could, I would rather have a heartache a hundred times than face the current Shen Jingyun.

When you make up your mind to let go, and you think you can let go, the person you love tears in front of your eyes and asks you if you remember that you used to like him, this feeling is too uncomfortable.

It's hard to feel that my heart is strained, twisted, I can't breathe, and I can't breathe in front of his teary eyes, and I can't wait to cry with him.

I can't wait for the whole world to disappear, only him and myself are left, so that you can hug him tightly without any burden, as if only hugging him can relieve the sadness of the two people.

However, the world will not disappear, and many realities are still in front of us.

Shen Jingyun never seems to be sober, and the relationship between me and him is not a question of whether he will express it at all, but that his feelings are not crisp, unclear and unclear.

As a woman, I don't ask for how good he is to me, nor do I ask him to be rich and powerful, but at least I want to ask for a clean and clear relationship that belongs to me, which is the minimum sense of security and belonging. Otherwise, it's better not to.

And he couldn't explain why he called Lin Ruolan's name in his sleep.

Now, he is so close to Lin Ruolan, saying that he is a friend, and he is ambiguous...... made my heart cold again and again, I didn't give him a chance to ask him clearly, and the answer he gave me turned out to be that he still needed time to figure out his feelings for Lin Ruolan.

At this point, how can I still accept his feelings? Yes, it's not just me and his world, there is Lin Ruolan, there are all kinds of disputes, my life is not just about love, I don't want to waste more time on it.

Just in an instant, I thought about it a lot.

My hand gently held Shen Jingyun's hand on my shoulder, and said to him: "I naturally remember, I am not a wolf-hearted dog, I said I liked you yesterday, and I can forget it today." ”

Shen Jingyun looked at me and smiled with a hint of surprise.

My heart tugged, how difficult it was to let the proud and indifferent Shen Jingyun do it like this, looking at his smile, my heart was so soft, I didn't even know such a Shen Jingyun, in my lifetime, would I have a chance to see it for the second time? But what about seeing it? It's just entanglement.

Thinking of this, my hand was slightly harder, and I clenched Shen Jingyun's hand, but in the end I took his hand away slightly.

Helian Cheng was behind Shen Jingyun, and he didn't pull Shen Jingyun anymore, and there was still a trace of blood on the corner of his mouth at the moment, looking at me worriedly. I guess he should be able to understand my thoughts at this point, right? He must have been afraid that I wouldn't be able to bear it.

So, at this moment, Helian Cheng came to my side, held my arm, and whispered, "Xiaoshuang." ”

Shen Jingyun's eyes suddenly turned cold, looked at Helian Cheng and said, "Let go of your hand and don't touch her." ”

"Shen Jingyun, you don't want to be like this, Helian Cheng is my friend, and I don't want to hide anything from you anymore, take the innocent Helian Cheng 'blocking the knife'. Things have passed between us, and even if I haven't forgotten my feelings for you now, it will definitely be in the future, because I have made up my mind. Do you know? Leave it to time. "I immediately interrupted Shen Jingyun, I didn't want to see him and Helian Cheng fight again, so I just said everything.

Shen Jingyun's hand was taken away by me, he listened to my words, lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking? I don't want to look any further, I turned around to see how Helian Cheng was hurt, after all, he was very innocent, and I used it to stimulate Shen Jingyun, so it would cause Shen Jingyun's hostility. And how hard Shen Jingyun's punch was just now, I saw it.

I found that I was actually very naïve before, and in my relationship, both me and Shen Jingyun were a little naïve, and this game should have stopped.

"Why?" But the moment I turned around, Shen Jingyun spoke in a low voice.

"Don't you think that in a relationship, three people are too crowded? Besides, a relationship that you still need time to figure out, don't I have the right to quit? Shen Jingyun, I have a lot to do, and I don't want to talk about feelings now. "What I'm saying is the truth, if it weren't for the past that my grandfather told me, maybe I would have softened my heart today, as long as Shen Jingyun can completely figure out what his mind is between me and Lin Ruolan.

It's a pity that I only found out a few days ago that I have carried so much, what relationship am I still qualified to entangle?

"You don't talk about feelings, you can. Is that from now on, you don't want me, and you won't want him? Shen Jingyun suddenly looked up at me. His words are very clear, which means that if I am not with him, will I not be with Helian Cheng.

"It's naïve." Wei Mushroom and Nanfeng opened their mouths at the same time to comment.

I was speechless, I only profoundly discovered at this time that Shen Jingyun, who was once omnipotent in my eyes, was not emotionally mature at all, and at this time he completely exposed his naivety, just like a child, you don't play with me, don't play with him.

Actually, I'm very soft-hearted, I think maybe in Lin Ruolan's matter, he may just be naïve and can't distinguish some things, and I don't have time to accompany him to mature.

I don't answer his questions, and there is no need to answer them and commit to them. With so much time and so far to live, what can I guarantee? Even though, I know very well now that I like Shen Jingyun and am just full of emotion towards Helian Cheng.

"Have you done anything?" I turned around and hugged Helian Cheng, only to find that the wound at the corner of his mouth was shocking, it was dark red, and there was a cracked opening, and I didn't know how Shen Jingyun's punch made Helian Cheng look like this.

I felt very guilty, for my previous naivety, I couldn't help but touch Helian Cheng's wound, Helian Cheng "hissed" and took a breath, but he smiled at me, his eyes were very clear, he didn't blame me in the slightest, but it made me even more guilty. As smart as he is, how can he not know that I am using him as a "shield"?

"Xiaoshuang, you shouldn't hurt Shen Jingyun like this." At this time, an abrupt voice joined in.

I turned my head, I don't know when, Lin Ruolan was already standing by Shen Jingyun's side, she looked at me, her eyes looked at me from the surface, there was no intention to blame me, only distress for Shen Jingyun.

And Shen Jingyun wiped the corner of his mouth where Helian Cheng knocked him down, but he was silent, I don't know what he was thinking?

"I don't mean to hurt, I just think that long pain is better than short pain, and it's better to make it clear than to dwelling on it. I think he won't be distressed in a few days, right? "I don't know why I took Lin Ruolan's words, but I also tried my best to control my emotions and make my words appear as rational as possible.

Why did she stand up and speak at this time? The problem between me and Shen Jingyun from beginning to end was her, and her behavior towards Shen Jingyun, tidying up her clothes, and being in Shen Jingyun's arms, did she really mean no intention? Forgive me for thinking darkly, I am a woman, and there is no way to be insensitive and generous in a relationship.

"However, I will feel sorry for him, and I will always feel sorry for him. I've never seen Shen Jingyun like this. Yes, Shen Jingyun and I used to be together, and I know you mind. So, I've always treated you with the friendliest feelings, and we are family, and I value my family, and we were so close when we were kids. Do you know? If you have any misunderstanding between me and him, you can ask me. However, I found that you are very wary of me, you have no sense of affection for me, you are polite and detached from me, even if there is a deep misunderstanding, you will not come to ask me half a sentence. Lin Ruolan looked at me and said word by word.

I looked at Lin Ruolan in silence, Nanfeng stood up suddenly, took a breath, and said, "No, the old lady can't bear it." ”

Because Nanfeng and I saw the scene of Lin Ruolan in Shen Jingyun's arms at the same time, how can she tell me that she is misunderstanding now? I'm just suffering a dumb loss, because her intentional or unintentional intimate actions are evidence that can be brought out? It's a bit of a stinginess to say it.

However, Nanfeng was inexplicably pulled by his grandfather and said, "Little girl, what an old lady, sit down." ”

I don't know why, Nanfeng was a little afraid of my grandfather, although she was very unwilling, she still sat down, Wei Mushroom looked at Nanfeng with a smirk, and said, "It's good-looking." ”

"What's pretty?" The south wind is not angry.

"This emotional drama, sit down and watch, don't get involved." While speaking, Wei Mushroom narrowed his eyes and said extremely seriously: "In my opinion, isn't it actually a great joy for Shen Jingyun and Helian to be together?" ”

The corners of Nanfeng's mouth twitched, he snorted twice, glanced at Wei Mushroom with the eyes of an alien, and was obediently silent.

What kind of mess is this? I suddenly felt very tired, but Lin Ruolan didn't let me go, but continued: "Lin Xiaoshuang, you don't know Shen Jingyun at all, you don't know what he has experienced, you don't know how he doesn't grasp his feelings, and he doesn't know how to express them. If it weren't for these problems, there would be no separation between me and him at all. Seeing that he likes you, I feel uncomfortable, but it doesn't matter, I have always gone with the flow and can't keep it. However, I don't want to see you hurt him like this, and I will still be sad. I know you have a grudge against me, and since I've talked about it today, why don't you come and ask me if you have any misunderstandings. ”

I pursed my lips and found that I was really too weak, in the face of Lin Ruolan's series of words, I was in an extremely passive situation, and it seemed that I was stingy and unreasonable.

This time the south wind finally couldn't help it, and he couldn't take care of my grandfather anymore, so he stood up at once, sneered and said, "What a good one is upright and righteous." Then let me ask you, since you have to decide to let go and decide to bless, what did you do in Shen Jingyun's arms that I saw Xiaoshuang and I that day? ”