Originally, at that banquet, Zuo Qiu's several pots of drunken peach blossoms made almost everyone open their minds to vent, and it was almost inevitable to be embarrassed to see each other again.

Lin Ruolan is an exception, and the reason is very simple, she doesn't put her feelings too seriously at all, and it doesn't matter if she says what she thinks.

I thought that my meeting with Shen Jingyun would be the most embarrassing, but I didn't expect that when I saw him standing in the courtyard wearing an M65 navy blue windbreaker, I found that I was not as embarrassed as I imagined.

He didn't either, his face was calm, he just stood there and waited for me.

"It seems that it is not so easy to see you." When Shen Jingyun spoke, he gently tugged at the one-shoulder canvas bag he was carrying, and I noticed that the bag was a little dusty, bulging, and it was clearly going to travel far.

I have a question in my heart, didn't I say to act together? Why did Shen Jingyun leave? Thinking that he was leaving, there was still some indescribable melancholy in my heart. However, I didn't show any thoughts on the surface, but said with a natural smile: "Now I'm also a cultivator, and I started a little late, so I can only step up my cultivation." ”

Although my words are true, my attitude has been very polite and polite, and it has deliberately indicated that the distance between me and Shen Jingyun has been invisibly widened. If it's an intimate relationship, maybe I'll complain about the hard work of cultivation in front of him, and vent my little emotions and grievances.

It's no longer possible. And I also found that I don't know when I started to pretend to be so familiar, polite and polite so naturally, no longer the little girl in front of Shen Jingyun who followed behind his buttocks, sometimes dared to be angry and didn't dare to speak, and there was no longer the trembling that first entered the mysterious world.

I don't know if Shen Jingyun felt my politeness, or for some other reason, he frowned slightly.

The sky was a little gloomy, the wind was still cold, in a somewhat dull silence, I squeezed my neck, Shen Jingyun subconsciously wanted to tidy up the collar for me to block the wind, but he withdrew his hand again, and naturally took out a cigarette and lit it: "Xiaoshuang, are you sure you want to become a cultivator?" In fact, after this incident is over, you can live a normal life again, your grandfather is back, and the debt you owe will ......"

"If you don't say it, I almost forgot, and I still need your money. You are not the eldest young master of the Shen Group anymore, and the economy is not so rich. I said naturally, avoiding the topic of whether or not to become a cultivator, but there was a trace of sourness in my heart. In the end, Shen Jingyun still understands me, only he doesn't care about me becoming a cultivator at all, but cares about my heart's desire, so if I cultivate so desperately, he will frown, thinking that I am reluctant, right?

It's just that these touches can't change any facts, and I can only do that.

"The identity of the Shen Group? How could I possibly care? In the end, I'm just soft-hearted and thinking about some family affection. I'm not short of money. Shen Jingyun's tone was calm, but his tone had cooled down, in fact, with my understanding of him, he was not happy at all that I had to raise money with him, and it was not much, it was just a year's rent in advance.

I also don't understand why I know him so well? So much so that I can clearly see the emotions behind his every word, which is not such a mentality when I am in love with him. Do you really have to break up to see a person more clearly? What is the so-called bystander clear? When have I become a bystander to Shen Jingyun?

It was an inexplicable sourness again, which made me bow my head slightly, and suddenly I didn't have the heart to speak.

Shen Jingyun leaned lightly against the tree, smoking a cigarette, squinting at me and saying, "Lin Xiaoshuang, don't perfunctory me, okay?" If you don't want to become a cultivator, you don't. You know what the world of cultivators looks like. No matter what, at least, at least I support you to live happily and peacefully. ”

"Huh." I raised my head and looked at Shen Jingyun, the wind blew through my drifting sea, my eyes were lost, and I couldn't see Shen Jingyun's expression clearly at the moment, and it was like this that I could speak more calmly, and there was only one sentence: "I want to become a cultivator now." ”

"Is that really the case?" Shen Jingyun stretched out his hand to push away my drifting sea and looked into my eyes.

However, I was not used to such unintentional intimate actions with him, so I avoided it quietly, Shen Jingyun was not embarrassed, but there was a trace of coldness in his eyes, but I said with a smile: "This kind of dress suits you very well, it looks good in it." But how do you look at it, it's like you're going to travel far? ”

I don't want to talk to him about the cultivator forever, because the distance between me and him makes it impossible for me to confide in him about what happened to me. Moreover, he should have come to say goodbye to me, so I simply changed the subject.

Shen Jingyun looked at me: "Why do you say clothes?" ”

"Because it's so good-looking, I originally thought that this kind of dress didn't suit your temperament." I said it casually, and in fact, M65, a coat full of military tough guy atmosphere, is also unexpectedly suitable for Shen Jingyun, his original temperament is dusty and clean, although his face is not a little girly, but his facial features are that kind of delicate and handsome. But it was his indifference and alienation that supported this dress that I thought was not suitable for him.

Actually, I don't know at all, I still care about many details of him as before, including every time he dresses, I can't help but appreciate and love him. He's very good at dressing, or in my eyes, he looks good in anything.

"I know, in fact, you are perfunctory to me, and it is useless for me to continue." Shen Jingyun smiled faintly, and there was a little loneliness in his smile, which made people feel distressed. However, he didn't wait for me to speak, he casually stroked the slightly messy drift sea in front of his forehead, and brought them to the back, then he regained his calm expression and looked at me and said, "Well, I'm leaving." Because the Southeast Asian cult still has a lot of things to do, I don't need you to participate in these trivial things, I will arrange everything, and I still need your help for the most important action at that time. ”

I will naturally help, but the idea that I thought that all actions would be together is naturally frustrated, and my heart is empty.

"Well, that's what I'm talking about. It can be as short as a month, as long as three months, and I will definitely be back. Shen Jingyun snuffed out the cigarette in his hand, stood up straight, and looked at me, looking like he was about to leave.

Another three months? This time makes me sensitive, I always think back to the days when I was next to the Shen family, and suddenly it seems that all my feelings are overflowing, and I am waiting for him again?

"Gone." Shen Jingyun approached me coldly.

This distance made me subconsciously want to dodge, and he always kissed and hugged again and again, as if words could not make him communicate.

However, when I dodged, his hand only patted me on the shoulder, and I couldn't understand the emotion in his eyes, as if there were a thousand words because I deliberately distanced him, so that he couldn't say it, and he didn't want to say it anymore.

He turned to leave, looking at his back, I began to bite my lower lip again, and struggled for a while before I shouted, "Shen Jingyun." ”

"Huh?" He turned to look back at me with a little hope and surprise in his eyes.

I'm still worried, and I still can't fully face him leaving to do what I know is dangerous. I can't do more, but I always have to ask, as if just asking, I can feel much more at ease: "Is what you're going to do safe?" You said it and will definitely come back. ”

"It's not safe." Shen Jingyun suddenly smiled, he was the kind of person who rarely smiled, but under this somewhat dark sky, the smile he turned to the side of his head was as bright as lighting up the sun, such a beautiful smile.

"Can't you just say it's safe?" My heart was so angry that I couldn't stop him from going, I don't know why, but I suddenly wanted to cry sourly.

"Let's practice well. What about insecurity? Who am I? I'm Shen Jingyun. He looked at me and said, and then his smile became brighter and brighter: "So, Lin Xiaoshuang, I will definitely come back." ”

With that, he turned around, raised his hand at me, and strode away.

I don't know when, my eyes were clouded with a layer of mist, and I didn't understand why I wanted to cry at the moment.

"You still care about me." When he stepped out of the hospital, Shen Jingyun said something coldly, but he didn't look back, as if he was afraid of hearing my denial, he ran away, almost running.

I originally wanted to say no, I wanted to say that my friends would care about it, but I didn't say it, my lips opened, and I fell silent.

I know I'm cut off with him, but why am I afraid that I won't be able to give him even a little comfort?

At this time, my grandfather finally walked out of the door, put his arm around my shoulder, and said to himself: "Little children, only you have such feelings." Grandpa is envious. ”

"Grandpa, why do you say that? Shen Jingyun and I have nothing left, and when Helian Cheng, who I haven't seen before, came to say goodbye, you said this. "I deliberately moved out of Helian Cheng, I didn't want my grandfather to evaluate me and Shen Jingyun, so I just messed up for a while.

But my grandfather was not affected at all, he just tightened my shoulders and muttered: "I'm not old and confused, I can still see at a glance who my granddaughter likes." ”

I didn't speak, is it that obvious?

Grandpa said, "If you want to cry for a while today, just cry." Starting tomorrow, I still have to practice well with a calm mind. ”

Who wants to cry? I was a little angry and didn't want to pay attention to my grandfather, but tears just slipped down my eyes and flowed hot down my cheeks.

Grandpa let go of me and turned around and went into the house, he probably knew that when he was crying in this weakness, he didn't want anyone to see it, but his small muttering was still in his ears: "What's the matter, it's all gone when it comes, this garden is deserted again, Zuo Qiu, this kid will pick a time to ...... party."

And I, on the other hand, was thinking, why did I avoid not wanting to see him when he was there, and why did I cry when he left? In this world, what is it that keeps cutting and messing up?