Chapter Ninety-Eight: Embrace
Hearing Helian Cheng's words, a hint of gloom flashed in Shen Jingyun's eyes.
I wonder if he is gloomy because he is no longer the genius he once was, or because he is sad that the person who saved me is not him?
Actually, I didn't dare to hope for the latter possibility, because he was the one who drove me out with my own hands.
I don't think Shen Jingyun is a bad person, he should feel guilty when he came here.
The thought of this possibility made my heart ache uncontrollably. Then it became cold, and the wrist held by Shen Jingyun also wanted to break free.
"What? You don't want to come with me? Shen Jingyun looked at me and raised his eyebrows slightly.
I couldn't see what kind of emotion was in his deep eyes, and in front of him, I, who was used to cowardice, couldn't say anything to his inquiry.
Helian Cheng looked lazy, with one hand in his trouser pocket, but the other hand held me tightly, and said, "Lin Xiaoshuang, you are very powerful, I need your help." In the future, when I make a name for myself in the rivers and lakes, you will also shine. β
What is famous, what is brilliant, what rivers and lakes? Helian Cheng has never been reliable when he speaks.
It's just that his sentence "Lin Xiaoshuang, you are very powerful" touched the bottom of my heart. In Shen Jingyun's eyes, have I ever been "powerful"? It's still a burden to him, although he shouts that he needs my help, I don't know what I can help him, so he will abandon him.
During this time, I almost forgot how strong I used to be.
Shen Jingyun frowned, a trace of exhaustion flashed on his face, he didn't seem to want to argue with Helian Cheng anymore, he just pulled me hard and was about to walk towards the door.
Helian Cheng didn't let go, and I suddenly became in a state of being pulled by the two. Caught off guard, I screamed in pain.
With my shout, Shen Jingyun's suppressed anger also broke out, he turned his head and looked at Helian Cheng with some ferocity, and roared, "Let go." β
I had never seen such a look on Shen Jingyun's face, I was a little scared, but Helian Cheng didn't mean to let go at all.
At this moment, looking at Shen Jingyun's expression, I always remembered the coldness when he asked me to go. In the chaos of being pulled again, my emotions finally exploded.
I subconsciously shook off Shen Jingyun's hand holding my wrist, because he was too hard, and I didn't shake it off at once, I shook it hard a second time before I broke free of his hand.
"Lin Xiaoshuang, what are you doing?" Shen Jingyun seemed to be in disbelief, and at that moment, there was finally a hint of a look in his eyes that I had never seen before, as if he was a little injured.
But I don't dare to expect it, he really cares. Because every time he would walk away from me just when I thought he cared about me. There was an instant indifference that I couldn't understand.
It's like the story of the wolf, over and over again. How do I trust him? It's just that in the face of his momentum, I didn't dare to speak, but took a step back more firmly and stood beside Helian Cheng.
"Lin Xiaoshuang." Shen Jingyun looked at me with his hands in his pockets, and his tone seemed a little weak.
The atmosphere fell silent.
But Shen Jingyun still took another step towards me, trying to hold me again, I avoided it all at once, and I didn't know where the courage came from, and finally said to Shen Jingyun: "When you need me, just tell me to let me help you, and occasionally treat me with the same kindness." When you don't need me, a single word is enough to send me away. I admit that when you were good to me, my heart was very moved, and I even had a little extravagant hope that I shouldn't have, who made me Lin Xiaoshuang in this world, except for Nanfeng, I have no relatives and no friends, and I can't refuse others to be good to me. β
"Before, I was afraid that I would owe everyone a favor and I couldn't afford it, so I didn't dare to accept this kind of goodness. But Shen Jingyun, you let me be by your side, under the banner of my life in danger, how can I stay away from you? I'm used to it, but you let me go, implying that the good things you give me are what you give me so much. I'm not going to fall for you again, because I almost forgot when you ever treated me as an equal in your eyes? When did you give me a true dignity as a human being? β
My words made Shen Jingyun's hand stand frozen in mid-air, as if it was not raised or put down.
I could feel him looking at me, but I didn't dare look at him.
I was afraid that if he showed a little distress or hurt look, I would relent, and then follow him again, and indulge in the good that he occasionally gave me.
Then, I don't know when, he had an emotional attack and drove me away without care.
I desperately thought about the helplessness of being scribbled on Xiaoqiang's face in the morgue, and the despair of being placed on the iron bed of the incinerator. Shen Jingyun, where were you when I needed you the most?
I don't blame you for kicking me out, because you didn't know about it. But I blame you for the coldness when you drove me out, and when I think of it when I think of it in despair, it is like a knife in my heart.
The atmosphere was a little awkward, but Helian Cheng turned his head to look at me with a bright smile, and said to me: "It's okay, follow me in the future, who dares to bully you again, see if I don't beat him into a pig's head." As he spoke, he seemed to take pity on me and couldn't help but reach out and touch my hair.
I looked up, I was a little resistant to his behavior, but when I saw the sincerity in his eyes, I never dared to look at Shen Jingyun, and I didn't know how he reacted now.
But at this moment, Huo Kai coughed embarrassedly, and just wanted to say something, but a person in uniform hurriedly ran over and whispered a few words to Huo Kai.
Huo Kai's expression changed, and he was extremely serious, and he said: "Now is not the time to talk nonsense, those suspected cult people who appeared outside inexplicably before have all run away. The rest of them are also strangely dead, and it seems that the owner behind this will not leave us a clue. Fortunately, there is another one here, so take it away quickly, lest it be too late to change. β
As he spoke, he strode towards Xiao Qiang, who was bound, and our eyes also fell on Xiao Qiang, and we found that he had no sense of existence, and he had been silent for a long time.
Huo Kai stood beside Xiao Qiang with an ugly face, hesitated for a second, and then squatted down, and after being silent for five seconds, he finally burst into a foul mouth with an angry expression.
I couldn't help but take a step towards him, and when my eyes fell on Xiaoqiang's face, I exclaimed.
He was already dead, blood flowed from the corners of his eyes, nose, and ears, and the handkerchief that Helian Cheng had stuffed in his mouth before was also stained red with blood, like a blood clot in his mouth.
But that's it, there was still a weird smile on the corner of his mouth, his expression was distorted, and that nervous expression still stayed on his face.
It was the first time I had seen the face of a person who had died unnaturally and it was so terrible that I couldn't help but retreat again and again, but crashed into a warm embrace behind me.
"Don't be afraid." Almost in unison, I heard Helian Cheng and Shen Jingyun say to me at the same time.
But Helian Cheng was in front of me, he pulled me over, and glanced at Shen Jingyun provocatively.
I was a little worried that Shen Jingyun would be angry again, but I didn't want to, but there was a step-by-step footstep in my ears.
I turned my head and saw the back of Shen Jingyun turning away, the back was a little lonely, there was a trace of loss, my heart ached, and a coldness spread in my heart.
Sure enough, I'm still not that important.
His previous dispute is probably unwilling, he and Helian Cheng know each other, but the relationship is not very good, maybe that kind of dispute is just unwilling to lose to Helian Cheng?
This thought made me feel more and more like a joke, and my face became ugly.
At this moment, Huo Kai walked up to me and said, "Xiaoshuang, you have suffered. But don't bother with that guy, his personality is so weird, not honest at all. Actually, he was very worried about you, and he was very anxious before..."
I bit my lower lip and shook my head, signaling that I didn't want to listen to him anymore, after all, Shen Jingyun and me, how much can he know? Besides, what is the relationship between me and Shen Jingyun? I'm not in a position to ask for more from him.
A crisis ended, and we walked out of the basement in silence.
On the way, Huo Kai asked me unwillingly: "Xiaoshuang, are you really not going with Shen Jingyun?" That guy is annoying, but you're safe with him. β
I didn't want to say a word, just shook my head firmly.
Huo Kai asked me tentatively again: "Otherwise, go to our department?" You'll definitely be well protected there. β
But at this moment, Helian Cheng firmly grabbed my wrist and said, "I can protect her too." β
Huo Kai raised his eyebrows: "Where did you come from?" β
Helian Cheng said a little unconvinced: "Don't think that only Shen Jingyun is powerful, he is no longer a genius." As for who I am, you go and ask Shen Jingyun. β
We had walked out of the basement and down a long hallway through a somewhat old wooden door out of the building.
Before I could take a closer look at where it was, I saw Shen Jingyun leaning against the side of the door, smoking a cigarette and holding his chest, as if waiting for something.
I don't look at him, I pass by him.
The night was also a little depressing, Helian Cheng took my wrist from beginning to end, and said in my ear: "It's a shame that these people can come up with this place, do you know where this is?" β
I shook my head blankly.
In fact, at this time, I was not in the mood to care about anything, but Helian Cheng continued: "This is a former secret research institute, as for what to study?" I didn't know that the institute was abandoned because it was so haunted. But for some unknown reason, it has not been demolished. But I didn't want to, I was used by this group of guys, and I built a morgue and an incinerator..."
As we spoke, we had walked through an empty courtyard and out of a rusty gate.
Outside the door, there were many cars parked, and Helian Cheng pointed to one of the motorcycles and said to me, "Are you really coming with me?" β
Behind me, there was always a sound of footsteps, and among the many footsteps, I was not in the mood to distinguish between them, and there was only one question in my mind, should I go with him? Who is he?
But there is another emotion that controls me, otherwise pretend to go with him, and then get out of the car. I don't know if this kind of naΓ―ve idea is that I am angry with Shen Jingyun.
But at this moment, a hug clinged to me without warning, and his hands gently wrapped around me, and a somewhat tired voice sounded in my ears: "I'm sorry, but please come home with me." β