Chapter 9 Painting or Writing a Suicide Note
Halfway through, Gu Yi'an remembered that the sketchbook had fallen in the café, and shook his head along June's hair.
Forget it, let's go get it tomorrow.
When passing by the Shiyue dormitory building, Gu Yi'an stopped, recalled yesterday's cloak outfit, today's dance, and subconsciously looked in the direction of the dormitory building, there were a few people coming and going at the door, but they were not that one.
Ah Fei turned around and looked at it, but what he remembered was Nanyi's meticulous care of Gu Yi'an in the café, and he really couldn't figure it out, "Hey, that girl is so good to you, you can't bear to bear others?" It's been three years, and you don't plan to find a long-term one? ”
At first time, I thought it was talking about Shi Yue, but when I heard it again, I understood that it was about that group of ex-girlfriends, and suddenly remembered that this dormitory building that seemed to be the girl just now, "It's because Nanyi is so good that I can't delay her, I'm just a prodigal, and I've been ...... for a long time Scold? ......" suddenly stopped, and as far as his eyes could see, it was a girl, and the two silly boys around him had been looking for a girl for a day, and they were standing on the balcony of a dormitory on the second floor at the moment. It's really nowhere to find the iron shoes, so I'm drying my clothes in the lamplight.
The mirror flowers and water are fleeting, and he is left with a dream-like reality, or a reality-like dream, Gu Yi'an smiled bitterly, when will it be the turn to look up to others in obscurity? Feng Shui takes turns, what a retribution.
Shaking his head and continuing to pick up his words, in a self-deprecating tone, "It's not for me for a long time!" "The people who can last a long time are no longer there, where is the long-term thing to speak of? tried to recall An Ge's face, but all that appeared was the little girl from Shiyue-
The cuteness of the infirmary, the confusion of waking up and opening your eyes, the agility downstairs of the dormitory, the amazement of the small open space and the ...... just now Warm?
Inexplicably, I remembered the home many years ago, the welfare home, when An Ge was still there, it was not called Gu Yi'an at that time, boys and girls were crammed into one room, and there were many people and it was very warm.
Caught off guard, a hand reached over, and all exclamations disappeared—
"What are you doing?" Gu Yi'an took a step back, and the fat cat June in his arms meowed, also expressing dissatisfaction.
Ah Fei didn't care, he had to put his hand on Gu Yi'an's forehead and try it before he was willing, "I don't have a fever, I'll go, you actually remember Nanyi's name, miracle, if she knew that Zhile would be crazy." "There is a tendency to take out your mobile phone and spread the news.
Gu Yi'an rolled his eyes, "If you're really pitiful...... "After thinking about it, it's better to be a girl, what about remembering the name?" He is only suitable for being a lover, not for a lover, "It's better that I haven't heard anything, and I'm not responsible for coaxing people who are sad and sad when they turn around." ”
continues to play a wanderer, "Forgive me for being uninhibited and indulgent in my life, I will be afraid of ......" humming stopped abruptly, and a song was just in line with him, so he sang it to himself over and over again, as if he didn't know what to erase.
But the brain has to do the opposite, the more you suppress it, the more you think, and you have to explore the bottom of the ban. Gu Yi'an didn't dare to face it, even after three years, he still couldn't face An Ge's departure. This time, the brain was instructed to automatically switch to the channel, and in a flash, it was full of the eyes of the infirmary.
Gu Yi'an didn't avoid it, but let himself think about the details, not letting go of any place, thinking carefully until he found any clues that could get close to the girl, too little, too little, too little information, think of a way, think of a way, think of a way to get close to her.
I don't know if I thought too hard or slept in the café for too long, but I didn't feel sleepy at all when I returned to the dormitory after a long absence. There are too many pictures of girls in my mind, and I want to draw them every frown, but unfortunately there is a big brother next to me.
It's just that if he is afraid, it is not him Gu Yi'an, who puts the fat cat June on the bed and lets it sleep, eat or play. Propping up the easel and starting the night creation, painting her eyebrows and eyes like makeup on the canvas, gradually taking shape and remembering An Ge.
Staring at the unfinished painting for a long time, I couldn't get back to my senses, and the hand holding the paint shook unconsciously. Or -
Same.
Gu Yi'an couldn't control himself, his chest began to be dull, something was blocking and pressing, slowly climbing up from his chest and wrapping around his throat, round and round, making him suffocate, and the edge of the suffocation was loosened again, back and forth, dead and alive.
The pain in the left shoulder broke the restraint, and suddenly the body relaxed, and the invisible rope turned into a wisp of smoke and returned to the painting. Gu Yi'an came back to his senses, only to see Ah Fei, who was originally holding the guitar, picked up June at some point, looked at him with a worried face, and his mouth opened and closed as if he was talking. After seeing clearly that it was the word "Yi'an", I thought about it and realized that it was my name.
I think it's boring, I think it's ridiculous, and then I look back at the painting, the ordinary eyebrows and ordinary eyes are no different, nothing good-looking. Hooked the corners of his mouth to sneer or ridicule, he couldn't tell, but he was more and more interested in this little girl, and she was the first one who could make him think of An Ge so strongly.
turned around and gave Ah Fei a big smile and touched June's head, "I'm just drawing a picture, and I'm not writing a suicide note, so I don't need to be so nervous." ”
Ah Fei was helpless, but he was relieved to see him so badly beaten again. I still have some palpitations when I think of his trembling and restless appearance just now, a little like three years ago, that night, he fell on the road with a wine bottle. However, the poor man must have something to hate, and then he remembered that that night someone kissed him while he was drunk, and instantly lost any sympathy, "Hurry up, draw a suicide note and die!" ”
"Okay, okay, remember to leave me a window on the full moon night tomorrow, and my soul will float back for the holiday."
"I'll ask a few pieces of rune paper to seal up the dormitory."
"Rune paper? No, no, no, you should prepare a Dao aunt to take me. ”
"Do you want to be Aunt Dao in June!" Saying that, he spread his hands and cooperated very well, and June jumped up and rushed towards Gu Yi'an.
Gu Yi'an, whose hands were occupied, didn't have time to pick up, and was hit by the fat cat outside the sky and retreated again and again, and retreated straight to the edge of the table to stand firmly, "Big nephew, it's time for you to lose weight." ”
Holding June to sleep, Xu is sleeping consciousness is wrong, in a dream actually dreamed of An Ge, vague face, he has always had an excellent memory, remember the face of each girl, where each girl looks like her, but forgot the face at the beginning. It's a very lucid dream, and I can't tell whether it's asleep or not, and I can't tell whether it's a dream or a memory.
In a dream, she met him for the first time in a welfare home, she protected him, and she was happy and laughing in the midst of suffering; to leave that yard, compete on campus, and strive for good results in various competitions; and then to the last parting two wide, heaven and man are separated forever.
At that time, Han Yu sacrificed twelve langs, and Wen said, "I don't know when you are sick, I don't know when you die, you can't support each other to live together, and you can't care for you to mourn." The burial shall not rely on its coffin, and it shall not be near its hole. ”
I didn't understand it in middle school, but now I understand that the ends of the world and the corners of the earth, life is not dependent, death is not dreaming, old age and death are not connected, is this the case?
In the dream, someone was rubbing his face, fluffy and wet and soft, the dream that was not deep had no meaning to insist, and it was pitch black when he opened his eyes, and two green shiny beads hung in front of his face in the dark. It's a little scary to say, but it's extra warm in the horror.
June curled up beside his face, licking the water from the corners of his eyes with his little tongue, wetting his whole face, unable to tell whether it was his own tears or the cat's saliva. Lifting June in extreme disgust, his eyes slowly adjusted to the night, and also to June's terrible eyes. I wanted to say something, and after thinking about it, I hugged June in my arms and rubbed it.
wiped his face and couldn't sleep anymore, so he simply turned over and got out of bed, and didn't forget to be light when he got out of bed. The unfinished painting on the table under the bed was still standing there, and half of the curtain was gently opened, and some moonlight was put in, faintly not bright, but enough to see the eyebrows on the painting.
Turn on a small night light, dim and dark, and finish the unfinished painting under the lamp like candlelight. With one stroke, you can't tell who is drawing.
Girl, girl, who are you?
As the long night continued, the girl in the painting slept soundly, smiling in her dreams, but through a quilt, the clenched hand clutched the cross on her chest. Only the cross knows the complete dream, the first half of the smile is sadness, despair and fear, and the second half of the dream finds the cross to really sleep peacefully.
After a painting is finished, before dawn at night, turn on the computer and start his own work, his grand plan has just begun, whether it is for the two brothers to "stay and fly" or to look at the eyes that look like An Ge again, to find a shortcut to approach the girl. grabbed ahead of the two brothers, Ah Fei and Si Cheng, carried the two brothers Lin Yan and Xu Shi'an, and quietly took down the little girl.
Calm down and write a program.,Only then did I have a little bit of the consciousness of a computer student.,Fortunately, I didn't waste my studies.,Otherwise, the girls would have to line up.。
Dig out the Mid-Autumn Festival gift prepared for the so-called father, take a photo and upload it, and then hide the written program code in the photo, send it to Lin Yan, just wait for the dawn to gamble, bet that Lin Yan will not block his little brother, and must open the photo according to the script so that he can successfully hack his mobile phone.
After thinking about it, he added a greeting like a good son, "Big brother, help me take a look, is it appropriate to give this painting to my father as a gift in the Mid-Autumn Festival." ”
Make all the preparations, the sky is slightly bright, stretch your waist and simply clean up, pick up June who is curled up on the table and sleep, and take the key to go to the store for June's mommy.
When passing by the girls' dormitory, I took another look at Shi Yue's dormitory building, and the people who were preparing for the morning training had already gotten up, and the people who had finished the military training early were still sleeping: the disgusted voice was a little loud, and the small quilt was pulled over his head, and he fell asleep again when he was angry.
Gu Yi'an followed the flow of people in the morning training, and when he went to a certain intersection, three or five people were sparse and sparse on the road, and they didn't know what they were in a hurry. Of course, such a beautiful scenery is to find a quiet place to drink a cup of coffee and pet the cat, thinking that I envy the life of June, eating, drinking, playing and sleeping all day long, and being spoiled by a group of people, no accusation and no pretense.
Put June at the door of the café and push it with your hand, shaking like a cradle. Open the door early, make a cup of coffee for yourself, don't wait for the customer to wait for the boss, it would be nice if you could take it home for the reunion festival together, but it's a pity, you can't.
Waiting for the successful plan on the way, the news of the successful invasion was sent to the mobile phone, followed by Lin Yan's reply, "Suitable, find a timetable to load up, and go home early to prepare for the holiday."
"Na na, big brother, don't just open the photo." Click OK to enter, and watching Lin Yan's mobile phone page being copied, there was still a trace of guilt.
Drinking coffee and looking at Lin Yan's mobile phone information through his mobile phone, the album was full of work information, and the only private photo was a group photo - he returned to Gu's house and was voluntarily photographed with his brothers, including his younger sister Xu Changning, and of course, his second brother Xu Shi'an.
"Big brother, big brother, you hide one person so carefully, oh no, two people, but I still found out, and you are sincerely afraid."
There was no photo of the girl, and I was inexplicably disappointed, and after looking through it for a long time, I finally locked on a girl with a moon pattern. One after another overly concerned news was replied with "little uncle" one after another.
Little uncle? Niece? Didn't all the family members pass away? How? And a niece? Or is it ...... Peculiar fetishes?