Chapter 37: Neglected Feelings
At least once in your life, you should forget yourself for someone's sake.
I don't ask for results, I don't ask for peers, I don't want to have them, I don't even ask you to love me,
I just want to meet you in my most beautiful years. (from Xu Zhimo)
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If we hadn't met, I wouldn't have known what love was.
If it's not a fateful encounter, I just ask God to let me have more time to take care of you.
If there is a probability of parting when we meet, I will do my best to pamper you every minute
If one day you let go of me, I won't cry, I will smile and bless you.
But I'll still be in the same place, waiting for you to ............ by chance Back. (from senior Xiaofeng)
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Senior Xiaofeng has been in love with Mu Die for 7 years, and has been silently guarding him all these years. Mu Die's unexpected leave yesterday and the figure of getting out of the car from Xiang Shao's driver in the morning were all seen by him. I couldn't hold back the waves in my heart anymore and decided to express it.
He put all the hard work he had gained over the years in a beautiful wooden box. When the box opens, it will make a musical sound, sounding the theme song of the Titanic, which contains the bank book, card and seal of the senior Xiaofeng, as well as a set of real estate certificates. What's more, there are several yellowed letters that have not been sent, which are full of the love he wants to say to Mu Die over the years. He picked up the pen and wrote the last letter,
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Fluttershy,
When the Titanic was in the first place, you asked me if I had known that this would be the end, and if I didn't get on board in the first place, I wouldn't have met.
Although I know that the ending is not perfect, I will still fight to meet you. If my world is without you, everything will no longer make sense, and even breathing will be superfluous. The scenery is no longer beautiful, because without your scenery, there is only silence. All things are tasteless, just because of the lack of your figure.
Thank you for making me realize what it means to truly love someone. Even if I know that you don't have a little room for me, I am willing to be for you all the time, just in exchange for your happiness, and occasionally smile at me.
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I can't remember when I fell in love with you, maybe it was the freshman ball that year with your first dance. Or the surgery in the ward that year, your mercy on me. Or you wash the feet of the homeless elderly. More likely, a hug to those orphanage children who have no one to love. Or, maybe it's a smile of satisfaction when you eat fried chicken. ………… It all made me like you unconsciously.
I thought that over time, I could be able to dilute my feelings for you.
I really didn't expect that your name has been engraved in my psyche, your figure has been imprinted in my mind, and your smile lives in my pupils.
I know that a man like me is not worthy to say he loves you. So I always stay where I am, just to be by your side, to see you, to laugh with you, to cry with you, to shout with you, to chase your dreams, is enough for me to be satisfied.
Watching you look at the male protagonist of the Korean drama, showing an expression of appreciation. I dressed myself up and trained myself to be the male protagonist of the idol drama you love. It didn't get the slightest attention from you.
Watching you read the food magazine Five-Star Restaurant Cuisine, I excused myself to say that I had made a small fortune and invited you to eat high-end cuisine, but in fact, it was my hard-earned salary for working hard for several days.
Listening to what you said, what house do you want to live in the future, after leaving the society, I worked hard until the company was scattered, just to be able to afford it as soon as possible and make you live happily.
I bought a million cars, just so that I could take you and your best friends around the mountains and rivers. Makes you feel so comfortable.
Hearing a colleague say that his wife doesn't want to work, there will be financial pressure. I have made money and invested in a small company as an independent director, just to make you happy and happy in the future.
Looking at the stinky flies around you all these years, I wanted to crush them all.
Listening to the sweetness of your relationship with your boyfriend at the time, although I was jealous, reason did tell me that as long as you are happy, I will be happy.
Looking at that kind of rotten man, it hurts your heart, in fact, I have already beaten him in private.
Blame him for not being caring enough, breaking your heart, and wanting to break his hand even more. Because he took you by the hand, he did not put you in his heart.
Finally, one day, there is no one else around you, and I am really happy.
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I want to express my sincerity over the years, the box is my real estate, bank book, seal and bank card, and the password is your English name and birthday. You can use it however you want, these only represent the happiness and insignificant thoughts I want to give you.
I only have one true heart to protect me, and this time, I don't want to be Fluttershy's mentor anymore, I want to be Fluttershy's boyfriend.
Please rest assured, follow Xiaofeng, it won't be hard.
Fluttershy............................................................ please. Become Xiaofeng's girlfriend.
One may fall in love with many people during the lifetime. When you finally get your own happiness, you will understand the previous sadness is a kind of treasure, which makes you better to hold and cherish the people you love.
(A person can fall in love with many people in his life, and when you get the happiness that truly belongs to you, you will understand that the pain of the past is actually a kind of wealth, which allows you to learn to better grasp and cherish the people you love.) )
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And you are the one ,I want to cherish in this life.
Xiaofeng pen.
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He put it safely in the wooden box. is going to hand these over to the school sister Mu Die, and express to her all these years of guarding. And I have ordered 30 roses in the flower shop, ready to confess in a few days.
It's just ......, will senior Xiaofeng succeed?