93 I'm Just Scared (Fat Change)
Gu Liangye stood up, put one hand in his trouser pocket, and said lightly, "I'd better go!" ”
"Day."
Yan Yu's angry face was speechless, and her beautiful face twisted into a twist in a second, "This is to see a man and not to sleep with a woman, you rob me?" ”
Gu Liangye didn't explain much, and insisted, "Take care of her, I'll come out soon." ”
"Wait...... wait"
Yan Yu grabbed Gu Liangye's arm, and her voice suddenly sank as if she had been stimulated for no reason, "I said brother, brother, what kind of mess are you doing, are you a lawyer or am I?" ”
"Yan Yu."
I suddenly spoke, my voice a little stiff because I was too nervous, "Let him go, you accompany... Stay with me. ”
So, the three of them sat with me and waited.
"Eccentricity."
A big man sat there aggrieved, talking to himself and saying some nonsensical things, pitiful as if I had done something hurtful to him, "I have a heart for you, the sun and the moon can be seen, you are so good to do something that hurts my heart, I really didn't expect you to be such a person." ”
I didn't say a word.
Yan Yu didn't get a response for a long time, and seemed to have noticed something wrong with me, and asked tentatively, "Little Ancestor, what's wrong with you?" ”
"I .........," I said, opening my mouth.
Yan Yu sighed lightly and comforted, "Don't worry, anyway, whoever you see will see you, as long as you see people." ”
"Why do you think he doesn't want to see me? I can't see it, or someone won't let me see it, or is it ...... Or does he really not want to see me? ”
"It's more likely that someone won't let you see it, probably...."Yan Yu paused, looked like he was thinking seriously, and thought for a while before he said, "I probably don't want you to have any communication in this situation, this is called psychological tactics." ”
"I hope that's all there is to it."
………
About half an hour later, Gu Liangye came out.
I got up from my seat and rushed over, "How's it going?" See? Hmm, see? How is he? ”
Gu Liangye snorted, his expression was free, and he couldn't see anything unusual, "I saw it, don't worry, it's okay, it's not like the first time I went to prison, go back." ”
Hearing him say this, I wanted to say anything more, but I couldn't find a line.
"What did he tell you?" I asked eagerly.
"What else can I say, just tell you to be obedient, take care of yourself, and don't run away with the ball while he's not there."
This seems to be what Si Hanjing can say, and even the tone is so similar.
I was a little disappointed, "Oh. ”
There was no reason to stay any longer, so I could only go back with them temporarily, but I didn't see anyone, and my heart was always empty.
The string on the heart seems to be easy to break if it is stretched for too long.
For the first time in more than 20 years, I felt that willfulness and weakness were not as contemptible as I imagined, but rather a sign of being loved and pampered.
I've never had such selfish thoughts before.
Neither to relatives, friends, nor lovers.
In April, the weather was getting warmer, but in order to meet him and not let him think that I had not taken care of myself, I deliberately cleaned up, wore fluffy flat shoes, and put on an oversized casual dark coat, and wrapped it tightly.
Han Tao helped me to follow behind them, Gu Liangye, who was two steps faster, suddenly paused, turned around, looked at me and said, "The place where I live now has been harassed all day long~, move to Qingshuiwan, and I'll let Aunt Zhang take care of you." ”
Clearwater bay....
When Gu Liangye and Gu Liangchen returned to Gu's house, grandpa felt that the two boys were skinned, and the house was not big enough, so he bought the house after looking at it for a long time.
At the beginning, the so-called home, there were three bear children who were lively all day long, and I don't know when it began, it became more and more deserted.
It seems to have passed away from my grandfather...... It's out of popularity.
"I...."
"Miss Gu."
Xiao Qian was a few steps faster than all of us, and when he heard this, he suddenly turned around and said, "Mr. Si has arranged a new house before, and he also specially designed a children's room for the child himself, do you want to go over and have a look?" ”
Children's room?
I froze.
Surging in his heart was looking forward to it, "Okay, you can take me over later." ”
Gu Liangye didn't say anything more, glanced at Yan Yu, who bent down into Xiao's car, and turned around and walked towards his car.
Seeing that the bones of Nala's hand that pulled the driver's door were a little red, I suddenly stopped, "Is he injured?" ”
Gu Liangye's expression and the movement of his hands frozen in the car door told me that I guessed right.
I immediately turned around and walked back.
"Alas, Xiaoyu, where are you going?" Han Tao's voice sounded behind him.
I didn't care, and continued to walk back, but before I took a few steps, my wrist was grabbed and stopped from moving, "Gu Liangyu, you give me honesty, can you calm down when you encounter something?" ”
"Let go of me," I tried hard to pull my hand out of Gu Liangye's hand, "Calm down? Okay, you tell me how to calm down? ”
"He doesn't want to see you, it's useful for you to rush in like this?"
"Don't want to see me? It's not because I'm injured that I'm afraid that I'm worried that they don't want to see me. ”
"I don't want to see you, I naturally don't want to see you, what are you guessing blindly, just be obedient?"
Obedient?
What does it mean to be obedient? Knowing that he was injured and not asking and not going to see him?
This reminds me of the time when Si Hanjing was drugged and cut a knife on himself, and it was so shocking that I realized that the word "distressed" was never a noun, but a verb that would continue to deepen.
For example, at this moment, I am so distressed that I can only wonder how much he is so reluctant to see me, whether it is more serious than last time.
Although theoretically, Si Lao will not leave no room for error.
But what if.
I took a deep breath and tried to adjust my emotions, "He didn't want to see me because I was afraid that I would know that he was injured, and being emotional is not good for children, but now that I know and my emotions are under control, can I see him?" ”
Gu Liangye's brows furrowed, and he sneered, "I sometimes think that you are stupid and really annoying, but at this time, it is time for you to be stupid, you have become smart again, and it is even more annoying." ”
Seeing him hesitate, I said a little numbly, "You know, I've always been a disobedient person, it's impossible to do whatever others say, don't want me to worry, okay, don't let me notice anything if you have the ability, but once I notice it, I won't see it with my own eyes, I will only be more worried and afraid." ”
"Baby, listen to me."
Yan Yu suddenly came up and took Gu Liangye's hand away, forcing me to face him, "Trust me, it's better for you not to meet." ”
Better for you?
For a moment, I suddenly woke up.
Pushing Yan Yu away violently, he glanced at Han Tao, who had red eyes, and Xiao Qian, who couldn't bear it.
"Y'all know?"
No one answered, and I sneered, "You're too self-righteous too." ”
......
At the moment when I saw Si Hanjing's face, I only felt that a hand suddenly reached into my chest, clutching my heart tightly, as if it was about to burst.
Even if I imagined it, I expected it, but it still hurt so much that I suffocated.
I endured it and kept telling myself I couldn't cry.
Fortunately, the tears did not fall.
"Come here," Si Hanjing held out his arms to me.
My eyes flashed, and I tried to pounce on him with eagerness and joy, but in view of his injuries, I hesitated to approach him slowly.
Si Hanjing pulled me over, raised his hand and touched the side of my face that had been fanned, his eyes darkened, and he smiled, "If you want to cry, cry, what are you holding back?" ”
It's okay not to say it, but as soon as I said it, my tears fell uncontrollably.
Looking at him with a blue nose and swollen face, I cautiously wanted to touch the corners of his mouth, but when I got closer, my hands trembled and retracted, and my voice was a little distressed, "Did you rub the medicine?" I'll help you.... No, I forgot. ”
I was a little at a loss and said, "I forgot to buy you medicine, I'll buy it for you and send it to you when I can." ”
"No need, someone will arrange it."
He grabbed me and held me in his arms with one hand, "Didn't it hurt at the time?" ”
"It hurts."
I hugged his sturdy waist tightly, and my slender arms wrapped around him like a snake, as if nothing was as strong as holding him, and I wanted peace of mind.
Repeated, sullenly, "It hurts." ”
This answer is diametrically opposed to Gu Liangye's.
I don't know what a person's mature and strong appearance looks like in the depiction of the world, but I know that for a man like Si Hanjing, occasional willful weakness can clearly give him a feeling of being relied on and needed.
Si Hanjing also seemed to feel my strength, but he didn't hug me so strongly, and his other hand soothed back and forth in my lower abdomen.
"He's fine," I said.
"Hmm."
In less than a minute, I looked up at him from his arms, and couldn't help but ask in a low voice, "Isn't it very powerful to see you fighting Gu Liangye before?" How could they be injured? ”
"I can win alone, but if there are too many people, it will inevitably take a few hits."
"Crowded?" I looked up from his arms, tears blurring my vision again, "How many?" ”
I don't know what he said now, and Si Hanjing didn't answer.
Until I received a video of how he was injured and how he was beaten every day, the torment was far more heart-wrenching than what I could see and touch at this moment.
Seeing that I was a little excited, he pulled me to sit down on a chair and half-squatted in front of me and looked at me levelly, "Do you know why you want to slap me in the face?" ”
I shook my head.
"It's just to deliberately want you to see it, to make you uncomfortable, it's actually not a big deal, it's just some inconsequential minor injuries, believe me, it's not as good as the last time the knife hurts, huh?"
Si Hanjing said it lightly.
My heart trembled, I pursed my lips and thought for a few seconds, but I couldn't help but whisper, "Then when will you come out?" ”
"Maybe soon, maybe for a long time."
"So what can I do for you but wait?"
"You can do a lot for me, in addition to being dry and waiting, but also taking care of yourself and your children."
I looked at him incredulously.
His voice was calm, and his expression didn't look panicked or embarrassed, "His best tactic in the army is to wear down people's will and endurance. He didn't hesitate to spend so much effort and self-harm to deduct me, so that I watched the video of you being abused all day long, and arranged for someone to hurt me before I learned that you were coming, just to make you more devastated than you are now. ”
The whole sentence was frightened by "let me watch you being abused all day long".
The heart seems to be pressed by something, sinking for no reason.
More crashes....... What is the extent of the rundown?
Soon he lost confidence in whether he could survive the kind of collapse he said.
I involuntarily pulled his big hand against my face, and looked at him for a while, "Si Hanjing." ”
"Huh?"
"Why is your grandfather so opposed to me being with you?"
The air suddenly fell silent.
Si Hanjing pinched my fingers a little harder, "What do you want to say?" ”
I didn't look him in the eye, as if I was thinking of something to say, "Since you won't tell me, can I think that if I say that if your grandfather refuses to agree to us being together, and I refuse to compromise with you, and refuse to separate, then the next days will be more difficult than now?" ”
I don't know why I had this thought, but I just had this thought in my head.
When a man and a woman are together, they are either in love or sex, or they will settle for 10,000 steps back.
But in the case, I don't know how much I have with Si Hanjing.
As for sex, he also said that it is not necessary for me.
As for the future, we don't need each other.
So is it right to insist on the option of endlessly causing harm to each other as it does now?
Is it worth it?
I didn't hear him speak, I looked up and met his cold dark eyes staring at me for a moment.
I panicked inexplicably, and held his hand hard with both hands, "Si Hanjing, I, I, I didn't mean that." ”
"And what do you mean?" He asked rhetorically.
"I ....."
I wanted to explain, but for a while I couldn't find a reasonable explanation.
"Do you think we should be separated because of this? Should I marry a woman with a good family background and continue to work for the Si family, while you take my child and wait for the man who loves you and can accept my child to appear and get married? ”
Every word in his voice permeated with a chill, a bitter chill.
Anyone could hear that he was angry.
"No, it's not."
I shook my head desperately and choked up, "That's not the case, Si Hanjing." ”
Si Hanjing withdrew his hand from my hand, got up and fought with his back to me, and laughed at himself, "I knew you couldn't bear this, sure enough, it's only been a few days, and you have begun to think about separating, are you still worried that such a long time will delay your youth." ”
"I said no."
I yelled out a little uncontrollably, "I'm just scared." ”
Fear is just the beginning, fear that he will get hurt more, and fear that the child will be unhealthy.
But I'm even more afraid that I won't be able to make it through.
I couldn't help but stand up, hugged him from behind, and muttered a repeat, "Si Hanjing, I'm just scared." ”
"Gu Liangyu, no matter how much others do, it is not as lethal as any of your words."
My heart palpitated.
Breathing heavily, he walked around his body, raised his head and hugged his neck, and buried himself in his shoulder socket, "I'm sorry, Si Hanjing, don't say that, I don't think so anymore." ”
He pushed me away and looked at me quietly with his eyes down, his gaze seemed to be penetrating, and I was panicked when he saw it.
The palm of his hand slowly rested on my waist, "I know what you're afraid of, but Gu Liangyu, I know better than you what I want." ”
I have a slow-and-half-beat sluggishness in my head!
"I can ignore the inconsequential things, even."
After a pause, he said in a dumb voice, "The child is gone, we can have it again, but if you leave, I may not know what to do." ”
"I know, I know," I said softly, "I won't leave you." ”
"Really?"
"Well, my daughter and I will wait for you obediently."
"Then you remember what you say, don't forget."
"Okay."
Si Hanjing pulled the corners of his mouth with satisfaction, lowered his head and kissed my face, "Then you obediently listen to Yan Yu's words." ”
"Yan Yu?" I wondered.
Why is Yan Yu not an ancient cool night? Before, he was jealous and said that Yan Yu had bad intentions towards me.
In my puzzled gaze, he smoothed my hair and said, "There are also various examinations for the child, just go to Sibai, he will arrange it for you, understand?" ”
"yes, okay."
"And don't forget what you just promised me, you have to remember that even if you forget, I won't forget."
"Well, it won't."
kissed me on the face again, "Okay, let Xiao Qian send you back now." ”
Seeing that the time is almost up, I have to leave no matter how reluctant I am, "Can I come to see you often?" ”
"Stupid, you think this is your own home, come and go freely!" His eyes darkened a little, and he said helplessly.
.......
On the way back, the phone in my bag rang and rang, and I took it out and looked at the screen, but there was no note.
I guessed who it was.
After connecting, I didn't take the initiative to speak, and after a while, there was a voice over there.
"Miss Gu."
The voice was majestic and vigorous, "I heard that Miss Gu went to prison, I am curious, are you more distressed at this moment, or are you more touched by his deep affection for you?" ”
Every word in the earpiece made my heart cool a little.
The meaning of the words is nothing more than telling me that every move now is under his nose.
I bit my lip hard, wishing that my nails would dig into my flesh, and the pain was enough to restrain the anger in my heart.
Seeing this, Han Tao, who was sitting next to me, exclaimed in surprise and broke my fingers hard.
I tried to restrain myself to speak slowly, "Half and half." But I also want to know that an old chief in the hall actually used the way of hurting his grandson to force a woman to be soft-hearted, you ask yourself, do you have the qualifications to be an elder, as an old soldier, do you have a little consciousness? Let your grandson sacrifice happiness to fulfill your ambitions? Isn't it sad and ridiculous. ”
When I heard it on the other end of the phone, I didn't get angry, and chuckled, "I am an old man sad or not, whether he laughs or not, what does it matter, as long as you have a soft heart, there is a nine-point possibility of compromise, as for how long the battle line will be extended, it is up to you to decide, it is Ah Jing and you who are tormented." ”
To put it mildly, but it's bigger than the threat of an oath.
"What the hell do you want to do?"
The person on the other end of the phone didn't go around in circles, "It's very simple, he quickly found a man to marry before he came out, and completely broke his thoughts." ”
Find a man to marry? I laughed out loud, I laughed out loud.
I've seen the pipe wide, but I've never seen the pipe so wide, as if the earth belonged to his family, and I owe him a hundred and eighty years of rent.
But before I could speak, he continued, "Child, take the initiative to take it before this, of course, it would be better if you could create a misunderstanding and make him think that you don't want to give him a child." ”
I was shocked, and the blood in my whole body cooled down in vain.
For the sake of the purpose, even the unborn child can be used in this way.
I was furious, "Aren't you afraid of retribution?" This is the flesh and blood of your family. ”
"Gu Liangyu, don't say that you are Gu Shi's daughter, I can't let you marry in, even if you give birth to this child as you wish, let me see it in the future, maybe you will strangle to death."
“.........”
After hanging up the phone, I gritted my teeth fiercely and watched the car stop in a single-family courtyard at some point.
"Smack"
The phone was thrown out the window, and the screen burst open.
The people outside the car were stunned when they heard the sound and turned around.
I looked at the corpse of my phone lying quietly on the ground, and my eyes slowly turned red.
He clenched his fists hard, his chest rising and falling violently, trying not to let the tears flow.
Han Tao tried a few times before getting into the car and reassured, "Don't be angry, Xiaoyu, cry if you want to, there are no outsiders here." ”
I rubbed my eyes and said, "I'm not crying. ”
What to cry about, crying by that kind of scumbag, destroying the mood, affecting the child's health, and making makeup, it's not worth it.
I took a few deep breaths, tried my best to calm myself down, and smiled at Han Tao, "Let's go, look at the house, and ignore these bad things." ”
But in his mind, he repeatedly recalled what Si Lao said.
The heart hurts, and the position of the heart hurts even more.
After walking around the villa, my ears were full of all kinds of provocative sounds of Yan Yu and Han Tao's chatter, and I pushed open the door of the children's room under Xiao Qian's guidance.
The visuals that caught my eye made me stunned.