He Bingxia took out his mobile phone and turned on the flashlight.

Even though she stumbled several times along the way, she didn't turn on the flashlight, which was a kind of self-paralysis, not wanting to admit her current deep environment; It is also a respect for the deceased, and I may involuntarily shine the light on them, and those who have rested, or don't make a noise with them.

Li Xin began to be silent again at this time, and she didn't care, at this moment, he needed a space for himself.

He Bingxia turned on the flashlight, and the dim light shone on the tombstone that the old man said, she saw a young face, and looked closely like Li Xin, but it was not like Uncle Li, maybe more like their mother.

The young man's eyes shone with a different kind of brilliance, and I could imagine his wanton and free and easy at that time.

Looking down further, it was engraved, "Li Rong, a native of Jiangbei City." Student, born in 1995, died in 2015. Monument erector, father, Li Zhigang; Brother, Li Xin. ”

It turned out that he also had an older brother, who was only twenty years old at that time, according to his date of birth.

He Bingxia finally understood why Father Li was so excited just now, the white-haired person sent the black-haired person, it would be good to experience it once, and if he endured it again, he would be completely crushed.

No wonder he would look at Li Xin so closely, I see.

"As soon as I was born, my mother left, and my brother watched me grow up little by little. At that time, my father was not working well, there was an accident in the family, and he drank heavily all day, so he had no time to take care of me. ”

"It was my brother who watched me all day, he was so young at that time, only seven years old, he was still a child, but he had already learned how to do laundry and cook."

Li Xin sat in front of the steps of the tombstone, looking at the bright night sky, and there was silence all around, only occasionally hearing a few crickets singing, as if to accompany the story.

He Bingxia looked at him who was suddenly silent, felt distressed, and sat beside him.

"I sometimes think that my seven-year-old brother at that time needed his mother's comfort, but after his mother left, he didn't mention it once. Only once, I saw him staring at a small sweater that had shrunk badly, probably because he saw me, he put the sweater away, and he never saw it since. ”

"And then?"

"Later, I don't know when the family got better, and I have the impression that my father, who has a scruffy beard all day long, has sunken eye sockets, and has a thin face with yellow muscles, has begun to become more energetic, and he no longer beats and scolds his brother, and he begins to have a smile on his face." Li Xin also had a kind of longing on his face when he said this.

In the room, Dad Li also began to tell.

"At that time, Li Xin was only five years old, Xiaorong was twelve years old, and one day I had no money to drink, so I could only go home and see what else I could sell."

"The things in the house are messy, the garbage and food are mixed together, the clothes don't know whether they are dirty or clean, I just took a look at the surrounding environment, the original whitewashed walls have been smoked to a dark yellow, the furniture is thrown in every corner at will, I entered the room and saw the scene that made my life imprinted in my mind."

"Xiao Rong should have just come back from school, wearing a white-washed school uniform, a mess on the bed, there was my five-year-old son sitting there, seeing my brother come back and stretch out his arms to hug, I saw Xiao Rong untie the rope tied to Li Xin's body first, and then hugged him into his arms, I don't know what my brother said, with an innocent smile on his face, black and bright eyes, and the home environment is incompatible."

"Li Xin was the first to see me when he was held, but I saw the fear in his eyes, his dark eyes suddenly lost their brilliance, and he went straight into his brother's arms, Xiaorong saw me, and there was a trace of horror in his calm eyes, and he subconsciously hugged Li Xin tighter."

Father Li said this, and the forty-year-old man cried bitterly, "At that moment, I felt that I was really not human, I was their father, my own father, but the children were more wary of me than strangers." ”

Mother He knew that these wounds would not go away, but would only stay in the past forever, but they would affect the future of the family, and even if the wound stopped the blood gushing out, it left such a big scar.

Looking at Father Li's trembling body, she didn't know how to comfort him, so she could only hug him tightly.

"I couldn't stand that scene, I couldn't see the guarded eyes of the children, I rushed out the door and punched myself, and I'm glad that the store owner stopped giving me credit anymore, so that I had a moment of soberness and realized how mixed I was."

"Later, I started to look for a job, but I was already famous in that area, no one wanted to use me, there was no way, I had to move with the children, Xiaorong seemed to realize something, I obviously felt that his eyes were not calm, and he was a little relaxed."

"But he has always been lukewarm to me, he doesn't express his opinion on what I want to do, I cleaned the room by myself, take everything I can with me, and throw away what I can't take away, Xiaorong just stands by and looks at me, he will only come to take care of Li Xin when he takes care of him, even if it's just like that, I'm like a thorn in my back."

"After his mother left, he never called my dad again, and I knew that this was his test for me and revenge for me."

"I knew that this boy was still wary of me, and I did not dare to force it, so I could only carefully please him, but he didn't seem to care about anything, and then suddenly one day he came to me and told me that he liked a car, and this was the first time I saw the plea in his eyes, and I never saw the slightest rise and fall in my eyes, even if it was difficult before."

"At that time, I thought racing was very dangerous, but I still agreed to him, bought him all kinds of equipment, sent him to a special place to study, he called my dad for the first time in more than ten years, my eyes were red for several days, I was excited when I thought of him calling my dad, I felt that there was hope in life, and the life of the family was finally on the right track."

"However, suddenly one day, someone came to tell me that Xiaorong was dead, I thought I was hallucinating, and I couldn't believe this fact on the way to the hospital, I thought he might just be injured, and he would be fine."

"But when I saw the face covered under the white cloth, I was sure that Xiaorong was really gone, leaving this world, leaving me forever."

Mother He listened to the tears streaming down her face, she also knew that Li Xin had an elder brother who died, but she didn't expect things to be like this, she could only sigh at the injustice of the world, let a child suffer so much, and just take away a young and fresh life.

Under the same night sky, the garden tomb.

"After my brother died, my father grew a lot of gray hair overnight, and the originally rigid middle-aged man actually looked old. In fact, I know that my brother has forgiven my father a long time ago, but I am afraid that my father will repeat his mistakes, so I will always have that attitude towards him. ”

"He loves racing and he tells me about it in his free time, and he takes me for a ride, and I've watched them race, and they're not as good as my brother."

"I don't believe that my brother died like this, I told my father about my doubts, and my father also went to check, but nothing was found, so we had to give up."

"I remember when my brother talked about racing, he said that there was an international race that he was allowed to participate in, he said that he would win the race and bring glory to his family, and he said that he would invite me to a big dinner when the time came, but these things could never be done again."

Li Xin hung his head and covered his face, his eyes could no longer hold his tears.

It's autumn, and the wind at night is biting, but He Bingxia feels that there is no cold wind against Li Xindi's heart at this moment.

She was also at a loss in the face of such a Li Xin, and she felt helpless in the face of such a contradiction between father and son.

one for his brother's last wishes; One is worried about his son's safety, and he doesn't want to send a white-haired person to a black-haired person again, no one is wrong, but no one will give in to each other.

"Hey~"

It's much better to say it, this matter has overwhelmed him all these years, and when he heard He Bingxia's lamentation, he felt funny, "What are you worried about, these things have nothing to do with you." ”

"Who said it had nothing to do with me, after all, I caused this incident."

"I said you, what do you want to do so much, and if you say it has nothing to do with you, it has nothing to do with it." He didn't bow his head again, the tears in the corners of his eyes had dried, his hands were propped behind his back, he stretched his legs, and looked at the night sky, "You don't say that I plan to buy it too, otherwise where do you think the money came from, but it's not that I am thrifty, just your little savings, you still see if you can buy a good-looking Barbie doll." ”

He Bingxia felt that Li Xin's mouth was getting worse and stronger, and she could only be ashamed of herself!

"But, we're a family now, I want this family to be well, I want to see the smile on my mother's face, and my uncle can't take a big blow anymore, can he?" He Bingxia will lean on his shoulder.

"Uncle seems to be strong, but in fact he is very fragile, he was supported by the two of you brothers, but my brother left him first, if something happens to you again, what should you do if you let him?" Li Xin put his arm around He Bingxia's shoulder, "Uncle is broken, my mother will not be good, and this family that has been rebuilt with great difficulty will be broken up again." ”

"But if I don't fulfill my brother's wishes, I will have a troubled conscience in my life, my brother has done so much for me, but I can't even do this for him, what do you want me to do?" Li Xin's tone became excited again.

He Bingxia grabbed his arm and shook it: "No one doesn't let you do this, don't you think your uncle doesn't want to?" If it weren't for his age, poor physical coordination, and one you have to raise, he would definitely be ruined. ”

"So what do you say?"

He Bingxia knew that he didn't really ask what to do, he just wanted to stop getting in his way.

But she still said it, "Didn't you say that my uncle checked the things of the year and found nothing, but don't you think it's strange?" It stands to reason that in that circle, who doesn't have a little illegal record, not to mention anything else, there will always be things like overtaking, fighting, etc. But don't you think it's strange that my uncle hasn't even found out about these? ”