This is the first time I have felt Si Hanjing's irascible desire for control.

In the quiet darkness, I could vaguely see Si Hanjing's outline, and couldn't help asking, "You like me, right?" ”

"I don't know."

I was a little overwhelmed, and my heart sank and sank.

After a while, I heard him say again, "But you gave me truth and ease, so I am very cautious with you." ”

I really appreciate this man's honesty.

I rolled over, put my hand on his sturdy waist, and lay on his stomach at the mouth of his heart, learning his ruthless tone, "Fortunately, I just like you, not you." ”

Si Hanjing stiffened as he put his arm around me.

Then, kissing the top of my hair, "Well, I forgot, your lover looks like that." ”

Surprised, I asked, "What is it?" ”

"Don't die."

I muttered dissatisfiedly, "Who said I don't want to die, I regret my life." ”

"Spare your life?"

Si Hanjing snorted coldly, his voice was very oppressive, "It's also a pity to kill a man by committing suicide?" ”

I'm angry.

Immediately raised his head, glared at him, and said angrily, "Where did I commit suicide?" ”

In the silent night, I could see Si Hanjing's eyes with a little looming gloom.

Suddenly, half of the arrogance was extinguished.

But Si Hanjing didn't say any more, but retracted his arm and pressed me back to his chest to cover it.

I couldn't breathe in an instant.

After holding it for a while, I broke free and asked with some grievances, "You don't want to know what's going on?" ”

"You say, I'll listen, don't speak," he jerked me away, rolled over, and turned his back to me, "then don't disturb my sleep." ”

Cold and ruthless.

I immediately had a little temper or two of unreasonableness in my heart.

Balls..... coaxed him, and before he had spent the night, he turned his face and didn't recognize people's blame psychology.

Straddled his body, forced him to face me, and deliberately propped himself up and pointed his breath into his ear groove and teased, "I'm going to tell you." ”

This bold behavior made Si Hanjing's whole body freeze.

"I'll tell you," I said in a very soft voice, with a coquettish and demagogic tone.

Si Hanjing compromised.

I was only eighteen years old when I met Li Feng. At that time, I went to the mountains for a vacation with Li Zishu and Li Xiyang, and it was raining heavily, and Li Zishu asked his brother to pick us up.

At that time, I met Li Feng for the first time, in fact, I didn't feel much at the time, I didn't think that anything would happen to this man, but I have to say that Li Feng really has the capital to attract girls, at least Li Xiyang was infatuated with him at that time.

Next, because of Li Zishu's relationship, we have more contact with Li Feng, and he has clearly rejected Li Xiyang's implicit confession, so I won't think too much about him.

Later, it was also to go against my flowery and abusive father that I had so much thought about Li Feng.

Because in his thinking, the girl is the receiver, she can't take the initiative, she must be reserved, otherwise she will be like my mother, shameless and debauched.

But I didn't have a good relationship with my parents at that time, and I was rebellious in my bones, and Li Feng was tall and handsome, whether it was to provoke my parents or the girl's vanity, it met my requirements.

So I took the initiative to pursue Li Feng.

When he first chased Li Feng, it was a period when he had a bad relationship with his family, was addicted to alcohol and amorous, and his temper was stinky and hard. I'm not the only one chasing him, but I'm the one who lasts the longest.

It was probably because I was annoyed that I agreed to try to look everywhere with me.

As everyone knows, we all took it seriously later.

At first, I was okay with kisses and hugs, but when I went further, my resistance was inexplicably great.

In order to overcome our psychology, we have tried many methods, and even secretly watched 'action banned movies' ourselves, trying to stimulate our own psychology.

"Silly woman," Si Hanjing's hand stroked my hair over and over again, very gently.

I nodded, "Well, it's silly indeed. ”

Because every time I watch those forbidden films, it can cost me half my life.

Si Hanjing held my face in his hand, bit my lip vigorously, and said dissatisfiedly, "Go on." ”

I pushed his evil hand and calmly stated, "Later, when I saw her and my trusted person flushed and rolled on the bed in disheveled clothes, I was so desperate that I didn't even have the courage to question, so I turned around and .........fled in a hurry."

In fact, at that time, I was young and didn't know how to hide, and my father's ridicule and ridicule seemed to be free and easy, but in fact, I loved to drill the horns.

Then a series of events happened, causing me to lose sleep all night long.

In order to sleep, I would rather see a neurologist and take sleeping pills than receive counseling from a psychiatrist.

Because I knew what was going on, I had a strong resistance to the way I was dissected again and shown to the psychiatrist.

So I'm decadent like mud.

Drinking, taking medicine, and sleeping are all I have in life.

But sleeping pills, the more you eat, the more difficult it becomes, you can control it at first, and finally you can't control it.

Later, I remember that after drinking the whole bottle of spirits, I ate more than half a bottle of sleeping pills in a daze, and after being sent to the hospital by Han Tao, she kept laughing at me for committing suicide for love.

Overnight, I learned to grow and become what I am now.

Love?

It's a luxury for me.

I can't touch it, and I don't dare to ask for it again.