Volume 1 21 Contradictions arise
In the evening, as the host, Lin Hao and I needed to accompany Yin Ge and them to dinner. At the dining table, she still faced Lin Hao with the face of an ancient special industry practitioner, diligently pouring wine and accompanying the wine. Lin Hao exchanged his wine for a drink on the pretext of driving, and ate the dishes that Yin Ge laid for him. I watched their disgusting interactions, confronted with a table of delicious food and lost interest in eating them.
I turned my head to Xiao Wang, who was eating next to me. Sure enough, it was a child from the mountains, simple and clean. In the face of this kind of picture, there is no trace of discomfort, is my heart dirty?
Feeling my gaze, Xiao Wang raised his head from the dish and looked at me with questions in his eyes.
I smiled at him. "After eating, I will take you to see the night view of Chang'an Street?"
"Okay." He smiled innocently.
"Eat." I say.
He nodded, continuing to fight the dish in front of him.
I really envy him, he has such a good appetite. I sighed, withdrew my gaze, and lowered my head to look at my empty plate, since I don't want to look at Yin Ge and Lin Hao, I can't always stare at the other Xiao Wang, so let's stare at the plate. I thought helplessly.
Just as I was staring at the empty plate in a daze, a pair of chopsticks put a piece of fish fillet into my plate. I looked up and looked at Lin Hao, who had withdrawn his chopsticks.
"What's the daze, don't you love fish? Eat it. Lin Hao's eyes were cold when he looked at me, not like the gentleness he was with Yin Ge just now.
Looking at his face, the grievances in his heart suddenly surged out. Why did he smile like a flower when he looked at her? But I always don't want to give a smile! Even give me a piece of fish, and my breath is full of charity. I'm not his pet! He throws it aside when he's upset, gives him a bone when he's happy, and I'm still grateful to him!
I gritted my teeth and held back from crying in front of him. It's really intimidating! Although I am usually a coward, but today, facing him and Yin Ge, I don't want to let my cowardice be put in front of the world no matter what.
"Don't just eat fish, come, eat some food." Xu saw that my emotions were not quite right, so in order not to be so embarrassed, Yin Ge smiled and gave me a bite of green vegetables.
I clenched my fists under the table, my freshly trimmed nails stabbing my palms. My hand didn't let go of a single bit, and I tried to calm myself down with the pain.
I took a deep breath, picked up my chopsticks, took the green vegetables that Yin Ge had put on my plate and put them in my mouth, and smiled at her, although I didn't know if that smile looked sincere. "Thank you."
"You're welcome." Yin Ge's voice was as clear as her name and singing.
Seeing that the atmosphere was no longer as tense as just now, she stopped caring about me and continued to cook for Lin Hao.
I lowered my head and tried to match the seemingly harmonious atmosphere now. He began to eat the food on the table slowly, even though he couldn't eat it as deliciously as he should when he put it in his mouth.
Until the end, I didn't touch the piece of fish that Lin Hao gave me, just lying quietly on the plate, reminding me of his position. And I didn't look at Lin Hao again, nor did I see his eyes looking at me from time to time.
After the meal, Lin Hao settled the account.
Out of the hotel, I sat in Lin Hao's car and looked at Chang'an Street outside the window speechless. I promised Xiao Wang to accompany him to watch the night view, but Lin Hao insisted on stuffing me, Xiao Wang, and Yin Ge into his car on the grounds that he, as a partner, should fulfill his responsibility to accompany the guests.
The atmosphere in the car was eerie. Yin Ge sat in the co-pilot and tried to find a topic to talk to Lin Hao; Xiao Wang looked out of the window excitedly, not thinking about the two of them; And I was still sulking alone, looking out the window and not saying a word.
After swimming in the Che River, Lin Hao sent Yin Ge and Xiao Wang back to the hotel. Before leaving, Yin Ge also gave Lin Hao a flying kiss. That kiss was glaring to my eyes.
Sitting in the car where Lin Hao took me home, I couldn't say a word.
"What nerves are you having today? Is the big aunt coming? Lin Hao opened his mouth to break the silence.
"Yes! My aunt is here, my whole family is here! "Yin Ge is not here, I have endured the anger and grievances for a long time and gushed out like a volcanic eruption.
Lin Hao drove the car, turned his head and glanced at me, his eyes seemed to say, "You took the wrong medicine, what are you crazy about!" ”
"Stop." Looking into his eyes, tears filled my eyes all at once, and I endured it, trying not to let it fall out.
"What are you crazy about! This is on an elevated shelf! "Lin Hao thinks I'm making trouble unreasonably.
"I'll let you stop!" I shouted, hysterical.
Lin Hao slowly parked the car in the emergency lane, I opened the door and got out of the car.
The moment I got out of the car, tears finally fell out of my eyes one by one. I walked along the road, and Lin Hao drove alongside me. So that I could get rid of him, I turned around and walked in the opposite direction. Because he couldn't turn around, Lin Hao had no choice but to leave.
His car drove away, and my last insistence dissipated in the wind. I crouched down and hugged myself, trying to warm my heart a little. But no matter how hard I held myself, tears flowed uncontrollably.
With tears in my eyes, I stepped off the elevated road, sat on the side of the road, took out my mobile phone and dialed Chi Linxi's number.
"Lin Xi." I whispered her name.
"Si Liluo, you have no conscience! If I don't contact you, you won't know that you will take the initiative to contact me! It's been days, and you haven't called me! On the other end of the phone, Chi Linxi's complaints fell at me like raindrops.
"Lin Xi." Listening to her complaint to me, the tears that I had just collected flowed out involuntarily.
Hearing my crying voice, Chi Linxi asked nervously, "Luoluo, what's wrong with you?" What's wrong? Where are you? ”
"Lin Xi." I couldn't even say half a word except by her name.
"Where the hell are you? Don't scare me! ”
"East Second Ring Road." I reported where I was.
"You don't move there, send me a location. Wait for me, I'll go to you. I could hear the anxiety in Chi Linxi's voice.
"Hmm." I hung up and sent her a location.
For many years, apart from watching TV series and novels, I hardly cried in real life. Because my parents weren't around, I had to make myself strong enough to handle all the difficult things in life. Even if I was surrounded by crowds of fans at school on the day of the defense, and everyone was embarrassed at the graduation ceremony that day, I could deal with them one by one. Calmly, as if it were someone else's business. and later forced to change companies, as well as in the face of Lin Hao's various difficulties, I didn't feel the same as today, I felt that the whole world was gray, I felt that my life was trampled on by others, and I felt that I was wronged.
At this time, the only person I can think of is Chi Linxi, I want to hug her and cry, hoping that she can comfort me.
I sat quietly on the side of the road, waiting for Chi Linxi. Ji Tong's car stopped in front of me.
The car door opened, and Chi Linxi rushed out of the co-pilot, pulling me, whose eyes were red, full of nervousness. Ji Tong got out of the car and stood next to him nervously.
I hugged Chi Linxi all of a sudden, and tears flowed out again, I really didn't know that I had so many tears. Maybe it's too little in normal times.
"Luoluo." Chi Linxi called me cautiously.
"Don't talk, let me hug for a while, just for a while." I replied in a hoarse voice.
In this way, Chi Linxi silently let me hold it, and stroked my back with his hand from time to time. And Ji Tong was also quietly accompanying us on the side.
After a while, I felt like I was calming down a lot and let go of her.
"Luoluo, what's wrong with you today?" Chi Linxi was still cautious, for fear that I would cry again.
"It's okay, I just feel wronged and miss you. It's much better to hug you. "I don't want to tell her what I'm sad about, this kind of thing is only known to me, I can't tell.
"Then you don't want me? Do you want to hug too? Ji Tong stretched out his arms and made a begging look.
Looking at him I burst out laughing and gave him a push. "I don't want to."
"It's really upright, is it that hard to think about me?" Ji Tong covered his heart with his hands and made a sad appearance.
"Don't be out of shape, let's go, send Luoluo home." Chi Linxi kicked him.
I feel so much better looking at them, at least someone still cares about me and tries to make me laugh, doesn't it? Am I greedy? Lin Hao himself is the kind of person who doesn't eat oil and salt, I actually expected him to have some temperature for me, am I wrong?
I shook my head. I don't think about it, I still have them, that's enough.
"Lin Xi, can I go to your house today?" I looked at Chi Linxi and asked, I don't want to go back to that deserted home today.
"Absolutely. My parents knew that I was looking for you, and they were always worried. If you go back with me, they can rest assured. ”
"Thank you." It's nice to have her.
"Thank you. Which of us is with whom. She touched mine on the shoulder, "Let's go, let's get in the car." ”
"Hmm."
Ji Tong sent us to Chi Linxi's house.
"Ji Tong, I'm sorry for your trouble today, thank you." I thanked him.
"No thanks, if you're really embarrassed, invite me to dinner another day. I remember last time you said that next time you would invite it. ”
"Okay. I'll treat you to dinner. I smiled at him.
"It's decided, I'll wait for you to contact you." After speaking, Ji Tong drove away.
Lin Xi and I went upstairs, and Mother Chi opened the door for us.
"Luoluo, you're here, you don't know, you scared me and your uncle to death when you called Lin Xi. Nothing, right? Mother Chi said with concern.
"It's okay, I'm sorry to worry you and your uncle."
"It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, say I'm sorry." Mother Chi touched my head.
"Mom, don't you always stand at the door and talk, okay? Let's go in first, Luoluo will live in our house today. Chi Linxi looked at Chi's mother who was blocking the door and said helplessly.
"Oh, come in, come in. I'll go get you a quilt, and you can sleep with Lin Xi." "After Mama Chi hurriedly let us into the house, she went to look for the quilt.
Lying in bed at night, Chi Linxi changed the stinky problem of gossip, was quiet like a cat, didn't say a word, just looked at me quietly.
I slowly closed my eyes beside her. Finally, neither Lin Hao nor Shao Hongwen appeared in my dream this night, and I had a good night's sleep after a long time.
When I woke up the next day, I made a phone call to Manman and asked for leave, not wanting to go to the company to face Lin Hao's indifference.