Chapter 38: Feelings
Vaguely sensing something, Calamus determined: "What if one day we have to go?" ”
"You're going to be responsible for what you've done." Sun Qi played dumb riddles with her, "Even if you don't think about yourself, you should think about Yun'er." If he has something to do, the saddest thing is yourself. ”
"I understand what the prince means."
She turned around, and Sun Qi reminded her behind her: "You not only have to understand, but you also have to know how to do it." ”
Calamus smiled, with a solemn face: "It's not too early, the prince should go back and rest early." ”
It is not difficult for a man to say that he loves you, and it is not difficult for the sea to be difficult for water, but the difficult thing is that he really treats you well. Good or bad, just like people drinking water, cold and warm self-knowing.
Sun Qi endured and didn't embarrass Calamus and Yun'er, she was already content, how could she ask him to treat herself as always?
Closing the door, Sun Qi hadn't left yet: "Tomorrow, I'll come again." ”
All night, Calamus barely slept, she didn't know what she was thinking, but she felt a faint palpitation.
For the first time, Calamus carefully examined all the causes and consequences: from being scattered, to being demoted to Yongxiang, and then difficult to produce the palace, to the point where she is today, she doesn't know how many intrigues and deceit have happened in the middle, and things are getting more and more confusing.
Sun Wen, Sun Qi, Queen, Wen Jieyu, Cheng Jun...... Maybe there are still many characters behind her who don't know her, and they all use their tricks to hide deeply, and what is she herself? Maybe it's just an insignificant pawn.
From the very beginning, she didn't want to get involved in any struggle, she just wanted to have a safe place.
At the end of the day, Xiao Yan came and told Calamus to get up: "Please Madame, wash up, and move to the garden." ”
No need to guess, this must be Sun Qi's order.
Calamus got up silently, combed her hair in a bun, wiped her rouge, and changed into a blue dark pattern and a colorful halo brocade spring shirt, and a moon-white carved silk Fu pattern soft satin jade skirt.
Xiao Yan looked at the dressed-up calamus, and said sincerely: "This set of clothes was sent by the prince, and it looks good on the lady." ”
The gladiolus in the mirror is like her in the past, elegant and special.
For a while, Calamus had mixed feelings, and she turned to Xiao Yan and said, "Let's go." ”
He was followed to the garden, where the morning dew had not yet subsided, and the garden was filled with cool moisture.
"Why are you here?"
Xiao Yan bowed: "The slave doesn't know, please wait here for the lady." ”
was reprimanded by Sun Qi last night, and she naturally did things more carefully, for fear of causing trouble.
After Xiao Yan left, Calamus was still standing in place, she was silent, waiting.
Until there was footsteps behind him.
Calamus slowly raised her head, her eyes full of astonishment.
Sun Wen didn't look like he did any better than he did at the beginning, he was thinner, darker, and haggard, and at this moment, his eyes were bloodshot and staring at Calamus: "I thought you were dead." ”
How many days and nights he spent in regret and pain, the calamus he had loved deeply for ten years, left him forever, and he could not accept the fact that he could not accept such a fact.
If he hadn't heard about the flaw from Master Huikong and started to suspect it, he would definitely not have found this place.
As soon as he learned about the whereabouts of Calamus's mother and son, he frantically searched for them without even thinking about it.
If he really couldn't let go of her, he wouldn't be so impulsive with his temperament.
When the love is strong, you will feel how cold you are.
Seeing that Calamus was still alive, he thought he would be angry and hateful, but at this moment he didn't care about it at all, as long as she lived...... It's good to live in peace.
He got closer and closer, until he approached him, Calamus looked up at him, his eyes were sour: "How could the emperor find here?" ”
"If I don't find this place, are you going to keep the news that you're still alive?" He almost choked up, "Gladiolus, you know what? I've never been so sad for someone, you're the first. ”
"Concubine...... The concubine ......, "Calamus wanted to say something, but she couldn't say anything."
She grew under his chin, her head bowed, her hands intertwined, tears falling little by little on the placket of his clothes, and he saw it.
This moment aroused all in Sun Wen's heart. He stretched out his hand to hold her face, and said solemnly, word by word: "Gladiolus, you give me a good listen, I love you, and I don't want to lose you." ”
Calamus looked up at Sun Wen in front of her, and huge tears dripped down her eyes.
Sun Wen inhaled, and said in a low voice: "I can't completely guarantee the safety of you and the child for the time being, but you have to believe that I will treat you well." This is what I have to do, and this is what I have been working for. ”
At this time, he is more like an ordinary man promising his wife and children. Affection is deep.
Calamus saw Sun Qi standing behind him, holding Chengyun in his hand, looking at them meaningfully.
He wanted Calamus to know the importance of leaving and staying, and to weigh it carefully.
Sun Wen stretched out his hand for her? Removing the tears on his face, he suddenly panicked: "Don't cry all the time, I've never seen you cry so much." ”
Calamus's heart ached, and she said hoarsely: "Thank you for the emperor's kindness, the concubine has it." ”
"What do you mean by that?"
Calamus lowered her eyelids: "The concubine is just a powerless woman, maybe it is not suitable for the court's deceit, if you can, I hope the emperor thinks that the concubine and the child are dead." ”
Her answer made him almost hopeless.
"What do you say? Say it again. ”
"Even if the concubines are a little smart, how can they fight the concubines who have backers in the palace? Your Majesty, Yun'er is destined to be an unhealthy child, and without him, it will be a good thing for the royal family. The emperor should know all this. ”
Sun Wen grabbed her arm violently: "Tang Calamus, you look up at me and say." ”
Calamus didn't dare to look up.
"Look up."
She raised her head slowly, her eyes cold: "The concubine will not return to the palace with the emperor." ”
The four eyes met, and time came to an abrupt halt.
Sun Wen didn't know how to describe his mood, and was endlessly lonely and disappointed: "Did you plan to leave after you planned to retreat?" To spend the rest of your life with your sweetheart? ”
"The Emperor's ......"
"Don't think that I don't know the ins and outs of this matter, although your name is written on this mansion, I know that he is behind you from beginning to end, taking care of everything for you."
"The concubine doesn't understand what the emperor is saying."
"I may never be able to take his place in your heart." Sun Wen said sadly, "Even if you become my woman, give birth to my flesh and blood, and understand my intentions, you are still on his side." ”
Calamus couldn't help but reach out and touch Sun Wen's face, and the warm jade ring was attached to Sun Wen's skin, touching each other's heartstrings: "The emperor can come today, and the concubines are already deeply honored." It's just that the concubines really can't go back to the palace with the emperor, and if they want to kill or chop, please ask the emperor to decide. ”
Sun Wen grabbed her hand: "I just said that as long as you live safely, it will be enough for Yu Zhen." Calamus, no matter what you decide, I respect you because I love you. ”
Calamus smiled slightly: "It's the concubine who is not blessed." ”