The snow was falling so hard outside the window that it was almost impossible to see the road five metres away by the time the train reached Hamburg. Chen Ying dragged the suitcase and followed the crowd of people heading north to the dock, the sky was gray, and the passengers waited in the only lounge in a trembling manner, watching the dark waves roar on the shore as the wind instigated them. The snow-covered beach is covered with white foam left behind by the waves. What could be more desolate than this? Chen Ying thought to herself. She believed it was a punishment from above, a curse from the gods. She looked at the rising waves, and felt the urge to be swallowed by the waves. She wanted to be a part of this cold world.

"Be careful, kid, it's dangerous here." A tall lady kindly reminded her. She was wearing a very thick down jacket with a flower shawl around her neck, and her appearance immediately reminded Chen Ying of Yona.

"Thanks, I-didn't notice." She replied in German and immediately repeated it again in English. Wang Yi is right, different languages can have different memories, and she decided not to speak German in the future, unless life forces her.

"Where are you going?" The lady didn't seem to realize the change in her and continued to ask.

"Copenhagen." Chen Ying replied simply.

"That's good." She said and led Chen Ying into the café in the waiting room, and the two of them each bought a cup of hot coffee and sat down at a small table, "I'm going to Sweden to see my family, in Gothenburg." It's a two-hour drive from Copenhagen. ”

"It's so hard to live together." Chen Ying sighed.

"Oh, it's not too hard, I only go once every two weeks. Look at the kids, they're all living with my ex-husband, and his current wife. ”

Chen Ying looked at her stunned, not knowing what to say.

"There's no way around it. I have been working in Munich for the past two years and moved to Berlin for the past two years. And he has always been in Gothenburg. I can't go back. She took a few sips of coffee and smiled with satisfaction, "The oldest child is about the same age as you, and he is also a girl." I'm glad my ex-husband found another woman who took good care of my children. ”

"That's good."

"yes. I always feel that at my age, there is no need to talk about all that red tape. I don't know if the Chinese feel the same way. She paused here to look at Chen Ying from above the half-moon-shaped lenses, "I don't want to explore the right and wrong in marriage anymore, it's just a process anyway." I wish I could retire early and be with my children. After all, there are too many things that have been delayed because of work. ”

"It's nice to have a chat with you." Chen Ying smiled.

"I love chatting with other passengers. Otherwise, the journey is very long and too depressing. I'm a lonely-minded person. ”

They drank their coffee and chatted as they joined the boat ride. The huge cruise ship was parked at the pier, painted white throughout, with black lines painted on the railings and important edges, and the most visible part of the bow was written in slightly slanted font. Everyone consciously lined up in a long line, waiting for the ticket inspector to check the tickets and board the ship. Water vapor was faintly coming out of the high chimney on the top of the ship, and there were sporadic people seeing off the way. All dressed thickly dressed and standing in the wind and snow.

"Goodbye, Germany." Chen Ying glanced back before entering the cabin.

The harbour city is completely submerged in snow, and many of the red houses on the waterfront have X-shaped decorations under the windows, as if to distinguish them from Scandinavian architecture. Seagulls fly back and forth around the cruise ship. The bell of St. Michel's church, not far from the harbor, was heard in the wind and snow, and the sound guarded Chen Ying's wandering from city to city, even in the moment when she could not see clearly. She stood on the side of the ship on the side of the sea, trying not to look back at the land she was about to leave, there was something here that she couldn't bear to look back, she preferred to pay attention to the fishing boats floating in the sea, and the freighters that had just entered the port.

She has a secret in this country. By the time the ship arrived at Denmark's largest port, her spirit remained in the heart of Germany. She didn't tell anyone about it, not even Liang Jing, who was closest to her. She felt very different from when she first left Denmark, she was no longer afraid or hesitant, she became a bit like those Nordic people who wanted absolute equality between men and women.

The lady she was talking to went to the smoking room to chat, and Chen Ying stood as far as she could see the bow of the boat. She insisted on standing on the deck, but the wind and waves made her knees hurt, and the hem of her long down jacket couldn't hide them. She had to shrink into the cabin and peer out the window through the round glass. It was a somewhat dangerous trip, with a forced recourse along the way, and everyone was forced to wear orange-red life jackets.

"If we fall into the sea, we won't survive in such cold weather." A young passenger said as he looked out the window at the waves.

Chen Ying ignored him. There was no air conditioning in the cabin, and the water vapor was all condensed on the glass and cold iron plates. The seat supported her to follow the hull of the ship up and down, and the sky and the sea blended together on the vast sea, boundless. After entering the Danish sea, the wind and waves were much lighter, and the heavy snow did not leave Chen Ying a trace of sunshine to think. In the evening, the steeple houses painted in yellow and blue appeared in front of her, and she woke up from her trance and suddenly felt very relieved. On weekdays, the small fiberglass boats are still moored in the harbor, and many of the white masts have snow on them. She disembarked from the boat and walked on the gravel path from memory. Dive headlong into a graffiti-covered subway station. After a while, passing by the racecourse, she got off the bus in front of the convenience supermarket as the last passenger. Then he dragged the box and ran on the path paved with white stones, and the forsythia around him had long been buried in the snow. She rushed towards the only house with the lights on, nearly slipping on the carpet in the doorway.

"I knew you were back." Yona said and opened the door. She was still wearing a dark blue yukata, exactly the same as the day Chen Ying left.