"......What do you say," Liu Yang asked a little sadly, "Will Jin Ye be lonely down there alone?" There is not even a person to chatter. ”

The tears in my eyes were forced back by me, and I smiled and replied, "He's a lonely fart, and so many pets follow him below." Besides, a tomb is at most one or two square meters, and seven square meters must be treated at the landlord level. It's good for him to rub such a big tomb and repair it himself, which is similar to the Mausoleum of Qin Shi Huang. ”

Liu Yang smiled bitterly twice and said, "That's the same, let's bring some wine and food over to worship at night, and we can accompany him." ”

Kong Xian has always disliked me smoking and drinking, but this time he didn't say goodbye, and it was too inhumane not to let me drink.

I answered Liu Yang's call, and after breakfast, I prepared something with him for the evening. We came out of the downwell, although it was not easy to walk, it was relatively gentle, and the car could drive to the nearby grass and forest, and we could take everything down.

We bought more than a dozen kinds of braised vegetables on the street, two bottles of seed wine, plus a case of beer, some lettuce such as leek eggplant and chicken fillet, and borrowed a set of barbecue equipment. Liu Yang was exquisite, bought some incense and paper in a proper manner, and also built a set of small western-style buildings, ready to burn them for Kong Xian.

At four o'clock in the afternoon, we drove there to catch up, but the road was not easy to walk, and it took two hours to get there.

Taking advantage of the dawn, I prepared all the things that should be prepared, and Liu Yang said that there was no atmosphere if he didn't light the bonfire, so he brought a pile of firewood over.

I reminded me a little uneasily: "Clean the grass next to the fire, and don't set fire to the bottom of the mountain prison when the time comes." ”

"Don't keep believing in people, okay?" Liu Yang said dissatisfiedly: "Lao Tzu has been in the rivers and lakes for so many years, don't you understand this common sense? ”

"Pull it." While wearing a meat skewer, I glanced at him and said, "I have a bottom in my heart for a few pounds and a few taels, if something happens, you can run faster than anyone else, so can I rest assured." ”

Liu Yang said: "In your heart, Lao Tzu is so unrighteous? Then you really misunderstood me, Lao Tzu is called to stay in the green mountains and is not afraid of no firewood. ”

I snorted and said sarcastically, "Your old man has left a lot of Qingshan." ”

The two of us went back and forth one sentence at a time, and the sadness really dissipated a little. As soon as the wine and food are put out, I don't want to think about what I should think about or not, and I will eat my internal organs first.

Halfway through the wine, Liu Yang became sad again, and muttered: "You say, how good is Jin Ye, we can still fight for the amount of wine." ”

I smiled bitterly, and said in my heart, if Kong Xian is here, I really don't want to eat comfortably at this meal, even if he doesn't drink himself, if he wants to see me drinking, he will be angry and give us all these wines.

However, if he can live, I am willing to fall as much as he wants, let alone drop our box of wine, even if I want to quit smoking and drinking.

"Little brother, why haven't you got married yet? It's also a big man. Liu Yang drank a little high, and his tongue swirled when he spoke.

I didn't answer him, and said with a smile: "Dayang, you can't drink this much, this white one hasn't finished yet, and you're about to stutter, can't you come to the case of beer?" ”

Liu Yang was not convinced, waved his hand and said, "What...... I'm about to stutter, Lao Tzu has a good amount of wine, don't look down on me, we don't know who will lie down first. ”

I didn't quarrel with him, seeing that the two bottles of seed wine were all over the place, I simply refilled a glass of fortune wine, holding the wine glass and saying: "Come on, come, lie down or not is an afterword, how can this fortune wine be stuffy." ”

Liu Yang drank excitedly, and sighed with a wine glass: "I didn't expect our little brother to be a heroine among women, and this amount of alcohol really can't let go of you." ”

"Hahaha." I laughed twice and boasted, "When it comes to drinking, my sister really hasn't been drunk." ”

After drying the cup in our hands, the two of us fell silent again, and ate a few bites of the braised vegetables in the bowl. Liu Yang said again: "Little brother, you haven't replied to me yet?" Why aren't you looking for a partner yet? ”

I still didn't dodge this level, so I sighed and replied: "Why do you ask this question so clearly?" Even you think I'm like your brother, who do you think would dare to ask me? Alas, don't say it, if you keep asking, I feel like you're going to chase me. ”

Liu Yang laughed twice and said, "Although you are not the type that my Dayang likes, but ...... I really think Jin Ye is a good match for you. ”

Liu Yang doesn't know, and I can't say it, the two of us are not quite compatible, that is, they are quite familiar.

I joked, "What do you mean by that?" Are you going to send me down to find Jin Ye? Or are you going to give us a ghost marriage? ”

Liu Yang knew that he had said the wrong thing, so he stopped talking.

The two of us ate some more food and drank some wine, and then we both lay down on the grass, too lazy to move.

After lying down for a while, Liu Yang suddenly remembered the things he had bought for Kong Xian. I ran into the car step by step, picked up the incense, paper and paper building, and began to light it, and I also threw it into the fire next to me.

Liu Yang asked me while burning: "Little brother, do you know why men always feel that they are difficult and bitter?" ”

I sneered and said, "Who in this world is not bitter? Do you think that women have a better life? ”

Liu Yang saw that I had misunderstood, so he explained: "I didn't mean that, I meant psychological suffering." Physically, it's not a problem, we don't care how hard or tired it is. But psychological suffering is something that few people understand. ”

"Oh?" I was a little curious, so I asked him to talk about it.

He threw a stack of paper money into the fire again, and said: "Your girl's family, you can rely on your parents when you are a child, grow up, find a good family, what is the matter, a phone call to your husband, he doesn't care if he can solve it or not, he is also a backer on the psychological level." We are different, we can also rely on our parents when we are young, but when we reach a certain age, we can only rely on ourselves, and we have to carry everything by ourselves, because you are a man and a strong man, you can't let your parents, wife and children at home distract you. So, slowly, men are getting more and more lonely and miserable. ”

For a man like Liu Yang, I don't know how to give him an evaluation, he is a typical machismo, which is the so-called straight male cancer. But to be honest, although this temperament of looking down on women is annoying, I have to say that he also has a good side. For example, if a woman marries him, he will definitely take care of him, and whenever you need him, he will definitely say, "I'm here, I'm afraid of a fart!" ”

However, I still hate this kind of machismo person, my tone is a little cold, and even said with unhappiness: "Love yourself and give yourself a high position, you should carry it yourself, and go to suffering." The Bible says that husband and wife are one and destined to share the storm, and since you insist on making women an accessory, don't complain that you are lonely. ”

Liu Yang sighed, feeling that I didn't understand his heart, so I didn't continue. Instead, he asked me, "Do you have any cigarettes, bring me two?" ”

I went to the co-pilot's drawer, took him a bag of 1916, and threw it to him.

He smiled and said, "Such a good thing, huh?" Then he couldn't wait to light the fire that was burning with paper money.

My mind was dizzy, so I staggered to lie down on the grass farther away.

Thinking about it, in fact, Kong Xian also likes to carry everything by himself, and he doesn't say anything when he asks, and I don't ask again if he doesn't say it. However, this guy knows that when he is sad, he will come to me.

The deepest impression was a snowy night five years ago, when the wind was particularly strong and the bones were cold. I had just returned to the rental house after the self-study class, it was already past ten o'clock, shivering from the cold, and as soon as I opened the door, I quickly boiled a kettle of hot water to burn my hands and feet.

Not long after hiding under the covers, there was a sudden knock on the door. I was a little surprised, I didn't know anyone in that city, I just came to study, and my classmates didn't talk much, so I really couldn't guess who it was. At that time, the rental house was relatively simple, and there was no cat's eye on the door, so I couldn't help but be a little worried, this place is remote, and if you encounter robbers, it will be a trouble.

I took a folded fruit knife in a drawer, put it in my pocket, and broadcast my phone to 110 before cautiously going over to open the door.

Unexpectedly, it was Kong Xian standing at the door, he was covered in snow, his clothes were almost all wet, and the skin on his face and hands was frozen red. I looked at him stunned, unable to understand why he had come to me out of nowhere, and the look on his face that I had never seen before......

"Why......" I wanted to ask him how he came so suddenly.

But he didn't wait for me to ask, he hugged me and buried his head in my shoulder.

I felt that he was crying, I was so scared that I didn't dare to speak, in my impression Kong Xian had never cried, even when he was a child...... When I was very young......

I let him hold him for seven or eight minutes before I came back to my senses, pulled him into the room, and closed the door. My rental house is very basic, although there is a bathroom, there is no water heater. I boiled some boiling water in a kettle, got him a bath towel, and told him to take a hot shower first. He nodded and went into the bathroom.

He didn't say a word the whole time, but I understood that something must have happened, otherwise he wouldn't have shown such a sad mood. I don't bother to ask, and if he wants to say something, he will naturally tell me.

When he came out with a bath towel, I had already warmed the bed with an electric blanket, and he naturally got inside and wrapped himself in it. I asked him if he had eaten and if he wanted to eat something.

He said no, and he said, "I want to sleep with you." ”

He hugged me and cried all night that night, and I didn't sleep all night, so I stayed with him. It wasn't until morning, when I was ready to go to class, that he said in a very small voice, "My parents...... It's gone. ”

When he finished speaking, I froze in place, my hand on the doorknob hanging down. I don't blame him for telling me now, but I can't help but crouch down and hug my knees and cry bitterly. Until the moment before Kong Xian came to me, I felt that I was a child, and there was always the umbrella of the elders behind me. As long as I go home, my uncle and aunt always treat me closer than Kong Xian, and I can't wait for all the stars in the sky to pick up for me.

At that time, my parents liked to quarrel and didn't give me a few phone calls a year. On the contrary, my uncle and aunt called me twice in three days to ask me if the money was enough, whether I had enough to eat, and told me to remember to call them when I had something. I even wondered if I was my aunt's own daughter, who was raised by my parents.

"Why not?" I asked, choking up.

Kong Xian didn't say anything specific, only said: "I will definitely investigate clearly." ”

I didn't want to go to class that day, and I wasn't in the mood to go to it, so I asked the teacher for leave. Kong Xian said that he wanted to eat Lanzhou ramen, and I went out to buy it for him. When he came back, he was gone, still walking in that wet suit. I only left a note with the word "cherished" written on it, and the money was written by Kong Xian.