I, my name is Hong'er, and my biggest wish in life is to be an ordinary person, but the will of God is unpredictable, and I often fail to fulfill my wishes.

When I was born, the sky was abnormal, all the auspicious signs that I am extraordinary, when my parents saw my dark eyes, there were joys and sorrows, it was the arrangement of fate, I had no choice.

My father often said that I was a lin'er given to him and his mother by God, hoping that his son would become a dragon, and he trained me as a boy since he was a child, teaching me to ride a horse and shoot arrows.

Day after day, year after year, I rode my horse and galloped to the woods outside the city, and saw a plum tree, and when I saw him for the first time, I was deeply attracted by it, and opened my arms and hugged the plum tree, and an inexplicable sense of security came to my heart.

In the summer, I hid under the tree to enjoy the coolness, to escape the heat, leaning against the thick tree, into a sweet dreamland; In winter, I silently smell the refreshing fragrance, open my heart, and pleasant my god.

I treat it as a friend, confide in it, it doesn't comfort me, it doesn't persuade me, but I treat it as my only friend.

And who knows how I'm feeling? While other children snuggled up in their mother's arms, I practiced archery alone in the courtyard;

When those children were playing together, I was buried in the bamboo slips and looking at those whimsical articles, and when those children dreamed back at midnight, I was alone in the room rubbing my injured feet from practicing martial arts with medicinal wine.

And such a day was completely subverted on that day, the lights were bright everywhere, the corpses were everywhere, my Cangzhou city gate was breached, the door was opened, my father's half of his life's hard work was in vain, my mother was in flames, and we two sisters were left alone.

From that moment on, I swore to heaven that as long as I was alive, I would still have a breath of life, and I would definitely avenge the hatred of the heavens, and he would repay the lives of thousands of people in Cangzhou City. Cao Cao, you and I are destined to be hostile to death.

Later, I was rescued by the master, and I met Sister Jing, I thought that my life would not be boring, Sister Jing was silent, and she didn't want to see me, and I went back to that lonely day.

The night is like water, the stars are sparse, I got acquainted with Fufeng by mistake, I felt familiar when I first met, I and him, also a teacher and a friend, have been with us for many years, and the days are slipping away like water,

I also gradually grew up, and with the martial arts I learned from my master in the past few years, and the art of war learned by Fufeng, I resolutely went down the mountain.

Revenge, this is a difficult road to take, but this is the fate of my life, my enemy is the biggest traitor of the Han Dynasty, there will be a day, I will eradicate the national thief. Straighten out the Han Dynasty that was about to fall.

I changed into men's clothes, rode a horse, and walked this winding sheep intestine path little by little, leaving without the slightest reluctance, to a little happy, because I was going to take revenge.

Looking at the general trend of the world, Dong Zhuo is in chaos, but they are all some rabble, vulnerable, and there are few princes left of the Eighteenth Road who originally conquered Dong Zhuo, and Yuan Shao, the general of Jizhou, is strong and strong, but they are all some ant soldiers

, besides, there are many wise men under him, but Yuan Shao's strength is narrow, he can't tolerate people, and he can't take refuge;

Liu Biao of Jingzhou, the land is dangerous and the people are rich, but the lord is guarded, does not want to forge ahead, and is content with the status quo, if Cao Cao leads the army to conscript, he must lead the people of the city to open the city and surrender;

Look at Liu Bei again, the current emperor's uncle, the orthodoxy of the Han family, he raised troops to recruit Cao Cao, which can be described as justifiable, but his capital is too small, and he has no size, he wants to dominate one side, and there is not much hope within three years, and he can also ignore it for the time being.

Now the only Ming master, only Sun Quan is left, the Sun family has been guarding Jiangdong for three generations, Sun Quan is young and promising, he will never abandon his father and brother's foundation and surrender to Cao Cao,

Moreover, the Jiangdong soldiers are well fed, and there are Yangtze River moats, with Han Dang, Zhou Tai, Chen Wu, Pan Zhang, Huang Gai, Zhou Yu and other generals who can recruit and fight, all of them have been on the battlefield for a long time, and there are few enemies in time.

There are also Zhang Zhao, Lu Su, Yu Tuo, Lu Ji and other well-educated people to assist, one day, will be able to hundreds of Cao Cao, Kuang Fu Han family.

I didn't hesitate to take my sister to Jiangdong, but things were not as simple as I thought, but in order to take revenge, I had to endure it all the time, waiting for the day of revenge.

The emperor lived up to his painstaking efforts, and finally let me wait, Cao Cao led a million troops to attack Jiangdong, vainly wanting to level Jiangnan and dominate the world, but I couldn't be happy, with Jiangdong's juxtaposition, it was only one-tenth of Cao Cao's, how to win?

Could it be that God really doesn't bless me as a big man, watching those people mess with the government and slaughter the world?

Immediately afterwards, news came from Liu Bei, saying that they were going to connect Wu to resist Cao, I don't know whether to be happy or sad, I heard that Lu Su will Zhuge Liang come to Jiangdong, I have heard that 'Wolong, phoenix, one person can settle the world.' It's just that I've heard of it, but it's rare to see it, but this time I have to get to know him."

I went to the meeting hall that day, I was deliberately late, to see if Wolong was in vain, but when I heard Zhang Zhao being speechless by him, I understood that there was no one in Jiangdong who could fight against him.

The moment I stepped through the door, the back of a Confucian scholar came into view, and a person like 'Wolong' was rumored to be a god, and I thought that he would be an old man with a beard.

His graceful figure stood in front of my eyes, and when the whole figure was reflected in my bright eyes, he was a young man, with a pale blue robe and a light feather fan, like a fairy-like figure.

He was close at hand, a few steps away, but I felt that he was so far away, he saluted me, and when I saw his warm smile like a spring breeze, I was stunned, I didn't know what to say, and went straight inside,

His extremely gentle voice, the dark and deep eyes under the sword eyebrows, as if a whirlpool had buried me, my face flushed, it was a feeling that I had never felt before, maybe I liked it!

I've read countless people, I've seen a lot of handsome men, I've never felt like this, and when I look at him, my heart beats faster, and my face is a little hot.

When I looked back, he also walked in front of me, he didn't seem to notice me, quietly walked in front of me, I didn't want to stop him, but I kept thinking about turning back, but I didn't dare to look into his eyes,

But the courage that came from nowhere, it was I who met his gaze, his thin lips curled, as if laughing at my stupidity, my face was hot, I lowered my head, I did not dare to look at his beautiful face, I turned my back to him, because I knew, looking directly at him, I could not speak at all.

The farther I walked away from him, I wanted to get closer to him, and I was afraid of blaspheming his beauty, and he was so light and pleasant as a spring breeze that I was completely trapped in it,

That day was my most gaffe day, and during the conversation with him, I trembled so much, I felt as if I was counting nine cold days, there was no sarcasm in my words, harsh, I didn't want to make enemies,

But I couldn't help myself, but it was not only me who saw Kong Ming that day, but also my sister Zhihan, she also liked Kong Ming, no way, that is, I am Zixuan, I am a man, what can I do?

Until someone called me and said that the Lord had invited guests to the banquet, I didn't know how I got in.

But when I saw the lord walking out angrily, I followed everyone out, and when I walked out, I didn't forget to look at him again, but who knows, he looked at me with a smile, and his mood was surging, and he couldn't help himself, so he had to take leave and go home.

When I saw him again, it was in Zhou Gongjin's house, such an excellent person, there are many people who like him, including my young Fang Ai's sister, for her, I love her in every way, to him, I can only look up to him,

In the future, I will not be lukewarm to him, in the eyes of others I am withdrawn and arrogant, not easy to approach, but who knows my thoughts?

Gongjin wanted him to die, after hearing the news, I went against his will for the first time, I was not a talkative person, but my body involuntarily walked to his tent, or told him everything I heard, it was really me who was too worried,

He would have expected it a long time ago, he liked him and wanted to protect him, at this time I couldn't extricate myself, even if he would threaten Jiangdong in the future, it didn't matter, hearing his news, I rushed to the Seven Star Altar without the slightest hesitation,

I knew the consequences, and Gongjin wouldn't let me go, but I went anyway. I used the token that Sun Shangxiang gave me at that time, and skillfully evaded the search, in the car, I didn't speak, and he didn't speak, maybe there was really nothing to say between us.

Later, alone, I came to Jingzhou with the county lord, the old people met, life was much easier, and the love of children made me physically and mentally exhausted, I made an unexpected decision to let go,

Because my mission has not yet been completed, then I have always relied on the hope of living. Vanity and vanity, all of them are fleeting, hurry up, escape from this endless entanglement, just look forward to the coming day, and then stroke the piano for him, composing the sorrow of "Autumn Wind Speech".

When the sun sets, the sky in the northwest is dark, the sky is gradually darkening, my heart, as gloomy as the weather, when I hear his news again, I will not leave thousands of soldiers, day and night, and rush back with stars and moons, just to see him,

He was full of pain, but I could not comfort him, nor could I let him know that I was coming, so I hid, and when I heard him shout my name, I burst into tears, and covered my mouth tightly with my hand, so that he could not hear my voice, and could not let him know that I was by his side.

I lost to Cao Cao, maybe it was the creation of people, I saw him again, and it was as cold as yesterday, but I entrusted my sister to him, I believe that he will take good care of my sister,

I don't know how many times the army has been reorganized, I this time, alone, without any worries, I can finally fight with him, my young and frivolous, ill-considered, so that our army was defeated, and I was also trapped in the enemy camp, near the water and the platform first got the moon, there were more opportunities to start, but later,

But I changed my mind, not because my opinion of him had changed, but because his life was cheap, and it was not worth dying with him, and I wanted to escape, escape from the cage, and one day let him try to fail in fear.

After I went back, I learned the news that my sister was seriously ill, I was discouraged, and hit him for the first time, and he only had guilt in his eyes when he looked at me.

The afterglow of the setting sun was so beautiful on his face, I thought I would give up revenge and forget hatred, but she appeared and disrupted my plans,

Huang Yueying, a name I hate with itchy teeth, she is his, he is also hers, it has nothing to do with me, if I continue to be entangled like this, for a long time, I will be annoyed, painful, epiglottis, and sad...

Looking back, it's not that I can't get along with things, but I can't get along with myself, as long as I get out of the way, everything will suddenly become clear, and only by giving up will it be easy.

Once, I thought bitterly that without this person, I wouldn't be able to live, but in the end, I am not alive, but, thinking that I am living like this now, it is better to die,

I tried, but there are still some things in my heart that I can't let go, and I am more and more determined, I want to live, I can't die, I don't want to die yet.

She and him are a perfect match, and I am just a little redundant, although they are not talented women, but they are also like glue, Huang Yueying is ugly, so what

Both civil and military, and his virtuous helper, if he wants, they can also talk about world affairs and deal with government affairs together, but what about me?

They all guard me like thieves, treat me as an outsider, I'm just a military doctor, heal the sick, save the dead and help the wounded, it's also good, so that I can wash away my sins.

She's generous, I'm stingy, she's virtuous, I'm spicy, she's tolerant, I'm calculating, so it seems that I'm not as good as her,

However, my greatest advantage is to win the hearts of the people, the world of those who win the hearts of the people, I have always believed in this sentence, but I still have low self-esteem, I am not worthy of him, he is a gentleman, worthy of the sky, bow down to others,

And my hands are full of blood, and the souls that died under my sword are innumerable, we are not all the way, we are destined not to go together, we can only bury him in my heart and cherish him for a lifetime.

The past can't be changed, but where is my future path?