46. Lonely self-appreciation
Recently, I haven't slept well, and Hong'er is always dozing off in the barracks.
The soldier came to report, "Report, the military doctor, the military advisor called you over." Interrupted by this voice, Hong'er was also a little awake, and replied half-asleep: "Oh, okay." ”
Hong'er stretched her waist and patted her face, so that she could sober up and go to see Kong Ming, and came to the camp tent of the Chinese army, Kong Ming was sitting in front of Tai'an, dealing with official documents, Hong'er couldn't bear to disturb, so she had to stand aside,
I don't know when, Kong Ming raised his head, noticed that someone was coming, and said, "Hong'er, you are here." ”
Hong'er stepped forward, "Strategist, is there anything you are looking for me?" Kong Ming was stunned for a moment, they hadn't seen each other for a long time, and as soon as they met today, they blurted out such words, Kong Ming spoke seriously, "Hong'er, the lord has taken down Xichuan, and ordered me to enter Sichuan quickly, I will leave tomorrow and move my family to, you, will you go with me?" ”
Kong Ming's words had a tentative tone, Hong'er was also a little sudden, and her eyes were a little gloomy, "Kong Ming, we have already spoken first, we don't talk about family affairs in the barracks, why don't we wait until we go home?" ”
Kong Ming was also a little disappointed, "Go home? You haven't been back in a few days? Can I still see you at home? ”
Hong'er also felt a little guilty, yes, in the past few days, in order to prevent Yiyang from retaliating against Kong Ming, Hong'er has already hid in Ma Chao's house, but the symptoms are not cured, now that there is time, Hong'er thought for a while.
"No, you guys go first, I still have some things to deal with, when I take care of everything, I'll go to you." When Hong'er finishes all this, she will make peace with Kong Ming, but even if Kong Ming drives her away, Hong'er will not leave.
Kong Ming paused, with a look of disappointment in his eyes, "You still don't go with me, it's okay, I can't stop you, I'll wait for you." Hong'er nodded solemnly, she will definitely go to see Kong Ming alive, and soon Kong Ming and Huang Yueying are gone, and Ma Chao is also gone.
Only Hong'er was left, and there was only one person left in the huge mansion, empty, and I couldn't help but think of the bits and pieces of the past, in fact, the relationship between her and Kong Ming, Kong Ming and her, would not have been like this, but every time Hong'er saw Kong Ming approaching, her heart would pound, but when she thought of Huang Yueying, Hong'er would push Kong Ming away, pushing far away, not wanting anyone to get close.
Maybe Hong'er was born to be a lonely life, this is Hong'er's fate, since she was a child, someone taught Hong'er to practice martial arts, and she also learned this and that, no one has ever asked Hong'er, if she wants to learn,
No one has ever asked Hong'er what she likes, Hong'er has always lived for others, never lived for herself, Hong'er wants to fulfill others, but she has never thought of herself, it's really boring to live like this, it's better to die, but everything,
It's hard to live, but it's easy to die, how can Hong'er have the face to see his father under Jiuquan if he doesn't take revenge, if he escapes this time, Hong'er will go to Cao Cao for revenge, it will be.
Hong'er was supposed to be a wolf, but she was dressed as a sheep, but she had the heart of a sheep, in this world of the jungle, how should Hong'er survive, she had to be ruthless, doing something she didn't want to do, just to survive in this world,
Unconsciously, Hong'er has become familiar with the rules of the game, and she is very handy, but she is more and more lost in herself, and she is no longer the innocent little girl she was at the beginning, and her kindness at the beginning has been extinguished little by little, until Hong'er met Kong Ming, and when she looked at him for the first time, Hong'er knew that she was trapped and couldn't extricate herself.
Kong Ming is like a god in the eyes of others, he always wears a gossip fairy clothes, holds a feather fan in his hand, as long as he waves his hand, he can change the color of the wind and clouds, as long as he wants, he can play the world in applause,
However, in Hong'er's eyes, he is just an ordinary person, just smarter than others, he is always gentle and elegant, the expression on his face is never tepid, and he seems to be smiling.
Hong'er likes him, likes his gentleness, likes everything about him, and when she meets him, Hong'er has the idea of living and the hope of living.
Hong'er felt that she had met Kong Ming, she became a little stupid, and her heart couldn't be hardened, all she thought about was Kong Ming, and she often dreamed of Kong Ming at night, every time she thought of him, her heart was always beautiful, and there was always a smile on the corner of her mouth,
When you meet his eyes, Hong'er's heart will beat very fast, maybe this is like, love is really magical, it can make people fascinated, make people can't help it, make people lose their minds, it can make a short-tempered woman become very gentle, very understanding from a wolf, and back to a sheep.
Hong'er has endured a lot for Kong Ming, she is willing to be a concubine, Hong'er has always been arrogant, unwilling to be subservient, and now the two daughters serve a husband, every time I think of this, Hong'er's heart is always not a taste,
Hong'er also thought about giving up revenge, wanted to go to Longzhong with Kong Ming, and lived a quiet life together, but now it's impossible, with Huang Yueying, everything is different, Hong'er still remembers that afternoon, she snuggled in Kong Ming's arms, her heart was very calm, and she felt very secure, Hong'er missed that time very much, I was afraid that it would be the last sweetness.
Kong Ming didn't know, in fact, Hong'er always left, unwilling to stay, because Hong'er didn't want him to be in a dilemma, rather than the two of them would be miserable together, it was better to let Hong'er bear it alone, lonely alone, Kong Ming didn't know,
If Kong Ming said that let Hong'er stay, Hong'er would resolutely stay without the slightest hesitation, but he didn't say it, he thought he knew Hong'er very well, but he didn't understand,
Hong'er waited for this sentence for a long time, but Kong Ming never said it, and what Hong'er was waiting for was only endless pain and full of sadness.
It's late at night again, and a cold feeling hits Hong'er's back, "What, abandoned?" ”
Hong'er turned his head suddenly, it was Yiyang, he wouldn't be here to kill people, and now Hong'er has nothing to fear, "Oh, you're here, I've been waiting for you for a long time." Facing Hong'er's words, Yi Yang was a little surprised, "Do you know that I will come back?" ”
Hong'er stayed to deal with the grievances with him, it seems that there will be a bloody storm tonight, "Look at the way you look at me, as if you want to tear me to pieces, how can you let me go." "No matter how big the feud is, we must deal with him tonight.
Hong'er pulled out his sword first, facing Yiyang, there was anger in his eyes, he made a fierce move, and the move was close to the point, just like that night, Hong'er was quickly seriously injured,
"Hong'er, be careful." Turning around, Fufeng stood in front of her, and although he had a hat, he was still immediately recognizable as him.
Fufeng rushed up and made a move with Yiyang, but there were not ten rounds, and he was defeated, Hong'er stepped forward to support him, "Are you okay?" He gasped, pointed his sword at the ground, and braced himself,
"Hong'er, let's go, let's go." How? He doesn't have the confidence to beat him, is he so powerful? Could it be that the two sisters will die here? Push Hong'er away, "Hurry up." ”
"No, I'm not leaving, I'm going to walk together." How could Hong'er abandon him and run away alone, but Yi Yang sneered on the side, "Okay, I'll let you die together." ”
Yi Yang suddenly stabbed a sword, helping the wind to block in front of Hong'er, Hong'er panicked, she didn't think that she would affect him, and covered his bleeding wound with her hand, "You'll be fine, I'll cure you, it's okay if you don't have poison in your body, and it's okay now,
Go, I'll take you to heal now. "Hong'er didn't think she would lose him.
How could Hong'er win Yiyang? Hong'er put Senior Sister Jing down and picked up the sword, will she die here today? There was anger in Hong'er's eyes, but anger could not make Hong'er stronger, Hong'er rushed over with resentment and anger, and Hong'er was injured in the shoulder and leg.
Hong'er could only use her hands to support the ground, barely supporting her upper body, but Yiyang walked over step by step, Hong'er was in danger, Fufeng slowly stood up, and Yiyang was also a little surprised, "Do you really want to do this?" ”
He also picked up Hong'er and quickly ran out of the house, they came to the back mountain, but Hong'er was angry with the wind in front of him, and forced him to ask him with a sword, "Who are you, why can't you get along with me?" ”
He didn't speak, Hong'er walked forward, wanting to take off his hat and see his true face, but he stepped back in a panic, covering his hat as if it didn't seem like letting others see his appearance, Hong'er didn't want to know the reason, and said, "Thank you for saving me." So saying, he was about to go down the mountain.
And this time Fufeng stepped forward to grab Hong'er and didn't let go, his strength was very strong, and Hong'er's wrist was painful, Hong'er shook him off hard, but it was just in vain, Hong'er was a little impatient.
Although he saved himself, Senior Sister Jing's hatred made Hong'er have hatred for him and Yiyang.
Unconsciously, the sky was already dawning, Hong'er changed into a mourning dress, all dressed in white, Hong'er came to the door of Luomei Teahouse, but there was a notice posted at the door, they moved away, no one knew where they moved, Hong'er flashed a thought in his mind, Hanzhong, they wouldn't be going to Hanzhong, right?
Kong Ming, Hong'er didn't dare to imagine the consequences, Hong'er bought a horse and rushed to Hanzhong day and night.
Fufeng is really a terrible existence, he can't kill him, he can't win him, so what can I do to get rid of him???
"Who's coming?" There was a figure behind Fufeng, and when he saw the appearance clearly, he ran over quickly.
"Yao'er."