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Meng Fan is a lot more honest, I don't want to worry about the little things of my roommates, in the final analysis, it's all a little girl's mind, it's not a big deal. If they don't get used to their way of doing things, they won't watch it, and if they can't talk about it, they won't talk about it. If you can say more, you can say more, and if you can, you won't say it. Everyone has their own way of living, why should I live the way they want, and in the same way, people don't have to live the way I want. I can't get used to people, and people can't get used to me. It's all mutual, there are no absolutes.

I wrote down the original story of me and my third brother in a letter and sent it to my brother. I've sent a lot of them one after another, and I've never seen a reply.

About a month later, I received a reply from my brother.

It is also in this letter that I know that our letters will be reviewed by the prison guards, and after the review is passed, they will be stamped for confirmation. It is then sent to the prisoners, and the prisoners write letters, and the prison guards also review them, and only send them after the review is passed. It does take a month to get a letter back and forth like this.

The first time I saw my brother's reply, I shed two tears. I always feel that it is okay, he has not forgotten me, and he has actually received all the letters I sent him.

My brother said in the letter that he knew everything about me and the third brother, including Meng Fan, and told me that the third brother was a good person, and if I felt good, I could choose to be with the third brother.

My brother's letter was written very briefly, only to the point and no nonsense. To sum up, I just said these things. It always feels like my brother has changed.

After this letter, I began to write to him continuously, but I never mentioned me and my third brother again. Because after reading my brother's letter, I sat alone on the playground and thought a lot, and it was from that time that I learned to think, think alone, and began to solve my own problems with my own methods.

I sat in the playground that night and watched the people come and go. Maybe it's because I'm living too much in my own world and not seeing the wider sky.

The meaning of human life should not only be the present and tomorrow. Therefore, if you want to change the present and change the status quo, the first thing to change is your own heart.

There is a song that sings, giving equals gain, that is self-righteousness, thinking like this, maybe everything is over, and my heart will not be so aggrieved. After all, it's all small things that have nothing to do with life and death, or things between "little girls", how big can they be.

As for me and the third brother, my brother and I. It dawned on me that I might already be in a love triangle. If you want to solve this problem, it's actually very simple, just reject someone directly, and when you keep interrupting, you will suffer from it.

I think my head is quite good, I have been beaten many times by the third brother, and I can finally think like a normal person. I don't know if this is a sign of growth or maturity.

Since then, I have not been complaining about my grievances in my letters to my brother, but also telling him about the happy things around me. Including the fact that I got a provincial scholarship that year, I participated in the sports meeting, I didn't finish the course, and so on. Although it is still a daily part of my life, it is already full of color and not all gray.

Soon the semester was over. When I went home during the summer vacation, I went to see Aunt Zhang first.

When I met Aunt Zhang, I gave her a big hug, had dinner at Aunt Zhang's house, and talked about my college life. Before leaving, Aunt Zhang said, "The eldest lady has grown into a big girl." ”

"Aunt Zhang, what's the bullshit Miss. There is no eldest lady or eldest girl outside alone, and in a few years, what you will see may be pure masters! ”

Aunt Zhang smiled happily.

During the chat, I asked Aunt Zhang about the way to go to my brother's prison, and I wanted to see him. At this time, I am not very strictly guarded, and occasionally I have time at my disposal.

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In the northern city, the air is dry, and the summer sun is scorching, so I braved the scorching sun to go to the outskirts of the city, changed cars several times, and walked for half an hour before finally arriving at the prison gate.

If I want to go to prison, I have to go through all kinds of procedures, and the only thing that stops me is that of my immediate family, and I am not. I thought about it and thought about it, and finally came, so I could only lie that I was his own sister, and the prison guards also suspected my surname.

I was so nervous waiting for my brother to come from the glass window, so nervous that my hands started to get cold and sweaty again. When my brother actually appeared in front of me, I stiffened.

Floor-to-ceiling glass, I was on the right, on the left was the guard and a table, on the opposite side of the glass was my brother, a square stool and nothing else, and the guard was standing behind him. There is no need to talk on the phone like in TV.

My brother came in handcuffs, and the guards opened the handcuffs before he sat down, and the moment I saw him, I turned my head and didn't dare to look at him, because there were tears rolling in my eyes.

He looked at me and didn't say anything, and I saw surprise in his eyes. Probably surprised I was able to come.

Aunt Zhang said that his brother didn't let Aunt Zhang go to see him again, and he rarely saw anyone else except for the third brother. When the prison guard picked him up, he only said that someone had come to visit, it was a woman, but did not say who it was.

He sat down with tears in his eyes and said, "I thought it was my mom." "The atmosphere of sadness was relieved.

Actually, I have a lot of questions I want to ask, but I can't ask anything. Sometimes that's it, the more you want to say it, the more you can't say it.

I froze there and watched him for a long time, so long that the prison guards couldn't stand it anymore. Originally, the prison guards were ready to record, but we didn't speak, and the prison guards waited for a long time, and said helplessly, "Nothing to say?" It's time for visiting. ”

But I could only look at my brother speechless, and it was my brother who spoke first, "You came by yourself?" ”

"Well, I'm here by bus."

"Why didn't Shen Jue come with you, be careful on the way back, you don't have to come to see me in the future." After saying that, I got up and was about to leave.

I shouted anxiously, "Brother, wait a minute." He looked back at me, but I didn't know what to say, with tears in my eyes, I only said, "I'll wait for you to come out, you try to come out early!" ”

He walked away without looking back. I couldn't see his expression, I didn't know if he was angry.

I watched as the guards handcuffed him again and then disappeared from my sight. I had to be stunned until the prison guard next to me reminded me that "you should go" and I came back to my senses and walked out of the lookout room in silence. Follow the path you came from and walk out of the prison gates.

On the way back, I thought a lot about it and decided to meet the third brother. The meeting place was at my brother's house. I didn't know that from the location of my prison to my brother's house, it was basically crossing City A.

When I got to my brother's house, it was nearly dusk.

At that time, I finally had a broken mobile phone, my sister didn't need to give it to me, and on the way to it, the third brother called me countless times to ask where I was, and the process of crossing the city was relatively slow, and I didn't know where I was, so I couldn't answer.

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Aunt Zhang opened the door for me and gave Aunt Zhang a big hug when she entered the door. Suddenly, I felt that Aunt Zhang was much older. I asked Aunt Zhang for a book of water, poured it down, and saw the third brother come out of it with his hands in his pockets.

"You're from the other side of the world?"

I gave him a blank look, and didn't bother to pay attention to him, "Aunt Zhang, please cook some food, I'm hungry." He looked at Aunt Zhang with begging eyes. Probably because of my brother, Aunt Zhang has always been very good to me. She nodded and went to prepare my meal.

I brushed past my third brother and said, "Let's go to the study and say", this is like my home. Theoretically, if I signed the papers, the house would indeed be mine. But I never signed those documents.

The third brother didn't say anything and followed. When I entered the study, I closed the door.

"I'm going to see my brother today, I've seen him"

"Well, you said it on the phone."

"Can you go see my brother?"

"Yes!"

"Isn't it only immediate family members who can see you, why can you see it?"

"I have my own way, what do you want to say!"

"My brother wrote back to me. The letter said that if I want to, you are a good person as long as I want to, and you really like me, let me consider being with you"

"Then what do you think!" With that, he sat down on his desk and looked at me.

I walked up to him and stared at him, I had never seen his face up close except the last time I had drunk too much at the hotel and had not worn glasses.

"You like me, don't you?"

"Hmm" he nodded, but honestly.

"I like my brother, you know, right?"

"Hmm"

"Then why do you still like it?"

"I like you, does it have anything to do with your liking Wang Hao?"

"Oh, then if you say so, I see!" I said with a very serious expression, "Third brother, I don't like you, I like my brother, I'm going to wait for him to come out, you give up on me, don't like me anymore." ”

Telling the truth often hurts the most.

I didn't want to tell the truth, but I had to say it. In this way, the problem between the three of us can be solved, and then it can be regarded as a quick knife to cut the mess.

The third brother was stunned, he didn't expect the painting style to change so quickly, "Are you rejecting me?" ”

"Yes, I didn't refuse before, I didn't think about what to say, I went to see my brother today, I think we should make it clear between us, if we continue to be entangled like this, maybe we will all be very uncomfortable. And my brother treats me very well, I don't want to be sorry for him, I feel guilty about being with you. Also, to say something from my heart, although you sound like a high-sounding person, I really feel like you should find someone better, I'm not worth it. ”

The third brother scoffed at this passage: "What did Wang Hao tell you?" ”

"Today? Didn't say anything. It's my own thoughts, it's just that after seeing it, it has strengthened my thoughts, I have never stopped thinking about it, you know it too, I really think that I treat you as a brother, and you can also be my sister. ”

The third brother laughed for a while: "Then you treat Wang Hao as an elder brother?" Is it just my brother? ”

"Third brother, I don't want to argue with you about anything. At least you have to admit your preconceived notions. No matter what happens to me and my brother in the future, I don't want me to affect your relationship with him. I always thank you for showing up. You are also his brother for many years, and there is no need for a rift for an unrelated person like me. Or I will return to my world in many years, so why bother with your brothers for many years! ”

"Flip-eye? You're too high on yourself, what do you have to turn us off! ”

One sentence stunned me, yes, I'm a fart, how long have I known them, what can I influence, it's really like a dish for myself. A wry smile.

"yes, I'm a fart. Since that's the case, I won't say much, thank you these days, third brother. If you still recognize me as a sister, I still call you the third brother, in my heart, you will always be the third brother. After saying that, he turned around and was about to leave.

"Where are you going," he grabbed me, "I haven't finished speaking, you go." ”

"What else is there to say?"

He stood up straight, and I hated looking at him like that, because I had to look up at him, "You said everything you had to say, shouldn't you listen to what I had to say?" ”

"Okay, you say, I'll listen."

"Do you know how many years I've known Wang Hao?"

"Does it have anything to do with me?"

Suddenly, I felt the atmosphere be tense.

The third brother smiled, "What we have experienced now from the realization is something you can't imagine, at least you can't understand now." First of all, we will not be affected by anyone in any way, and secondly, it is your freedom to decide who you like, and we do not and do not want to influence your thoughts, as for whether we like you or not, that's our business. ”

I don't understand that, "What do you mean?" ”

"It means that you don't have to reject me in the future, I understand your intentions, and I understood it a long time ago. You just have to go as you wish. After speaking, he hugged me into his arms and stroked my hair, "I have the same idea as Wang Hao, as long as you are happy and happy, just don't say anything about leaving our world, from the moment you appear in our world, I think Wang Hao will not let you leave again, and now, even if Wang Hao will let you leave, I will not let you go." You have successfully entered our hearts. ”

The words sound very numb, but they are also very heartwarming. In my own consciousness, I am a child who has lacked love for many years, and the reason why I like my brother unconditionally is that he makes me feel warm. And the third brother's care in the past few years, although sometimes I am deliberately estranged, I know that they are really by my side, and there are people who can help me solve difficulties. It's all false to say that you don't like it.