Chapter 387: Estrangement
On hot nights, even the river is warm.
Chenguang and Shen Run sat among the flowers.
They have known each other for many years, but they rarely travel together for nothing, and the number of times they play outside is only a handful.
Shen Run silently took it in his arms for a long time, and Chenguang looked at him for a long time with his spare eyes, curious about what he was digging for, but he didn't ask, lest he think she asked too much and be annoyed. In the end, he took out a hairpin from his arms, and through the moonlight reflected by the river, the morning light saw clearly that it was a hairpin of a kitten playing with a hydrangea.
Chenguang remembered the hairpin he had brought up on the way to Flame City that she didn't remember, and she laughed at him if he had given it to her in a dream, and she was surprised to think that there really was such a hairpin.
Shen Run leaned over, put the hairpin into her bun, and stepped back.
Chenguang touched the head of the kitten on the hairpin and said with a smile:
"When did I have this hairpin, why don't I know?"
"Yes." Shen Run replied briefly.
"When did you do it?" Chenguang asked curiously.
"I came back from out of town when you pretended to be dead." Shen Run said in a flat tone, sounding somewhat reproachful in the morning light.
She stroked her hair and decided to keep her mouth shut and not speak, lest he pour the rotten grain on her again, and if she didn't pick up, he would be angry again.
Shen Run is also reluctant to talk to her about the past to ruin today's atmosphere, he prides himself on being generous, he decided to write off the bad things she did in the past after the marriage agreement, he is a person who likes to look backwards, and the key is to live every day well in the future.
"I heard Qin Shuo say, you haven't decided on the marriage date, do you want to discuss the date of marriage with me?" Shen Run asked.
"Well, this will be decided after the Five Congresses." Chenguang replied with a smile.
She replied quickly, saying that the Five Congresses would be decided later, although for now, the Five Congresses were indeed very important, but when these words came out of her mouth, he always felt that she didn't pay enough attention to their marriage, and didn't seem to care very much. Shen Run at this time really wanted to see her reaction as a girl rather than as a phoenix master, girls attach great importance to their marriage, even if they will not expose their joy because of reserve, but others can also feel the silent happiness that overflows her. Unless she wants to marry a bastard who is inferior to a beast, a woman will not look forward to it.
Shen Run thought to himself, he was not a bastard who was inferior to a beast, why didn't he feel a little joy from her, she agreed, but did she want it in her heart?
Whether she wants Shen Run or not, she wants to marry her, even if she doesn't want to, he will marry her, but they have been together for so many years, he thinks she likes him, why can't he feel the slightest excitement and expectation from her? Even he occasionally dreams about what happened after they got married, doesn't she even have a little bit of joy?
But he can't ask this kind of doubt, as a man, he can't ask, it's ridiculous to really ask, he doesn't have to ask to know what she will think of him, she will definitely treat him as a fool who is dazzled by her beauty.
He hadn't been stunned by her yet.
The topic of marriage ended here, Shen Run didn't continue to ask on this topic, she didn't want to talk about this topic, and Shen Run didn't want to rush to talk to her. He had already found someone to make her wedding dress, it was very beautiful red, and he wanted to tell her to let her try the size, and then modify it if it was not suitable, but he didn't want to say it at this time.
His silence dawned on him, and although he acted like usual, he knew he was upset again. It's not that she doesn't understand his heart, since he decided to marry her, no matter what happens to them in the future, at least now he wants to be happy, of course he wants to see her happy, her indifference and absent-mindedness is a basin of cold water poured on his head, and of course he will be disappointed.
But......
Her marriage to him is not just two people happy, he can no matter what happens in the future, just be happy now, but she can't. Because until now, he could still dominate her, as long as he wanted. He is the one who has the upper hand, she is the one who is chosen, the controller can choose whether to be happy or unhappy at will, and he can also freely decide whether to let her live happily or not, even if Chenguang likes him very much in his heart, but in this situation, it is difficult for Chenguang to be interested.
She has lived so hard not to find an excellent husband, husband and children, and maybe to discipline the concubine for him. She didn't dislike him or didn't believe him, and she couldn't mix what she knew and whether she liked him or not. She can't give herself completely to him, maybe many girls can, but she can't, because she didn't grow up innocently.
Shen Run and Chenguang sat among the flowers.
happily went out for a night tour, and didn't really do anything unpleasant to each other, they were a fiancé with a fixed name, since they liked each other, they were a couple, but there seemed to be an indescribable barrier erected between the two, obviously side by side, but they felt very far away, no one could cross this transparent barrier, and it was not even as good as getting along better when they pretended to love each other during the Rongwangfu period.
This estrangement does not need to be created by discordant language, and it can be felt more clearly when there is silence.
Compared to Chenguang, who knew that this barrier was made by himself, so it was calmer, Shen Run felt it, but he couldn't understand her hidden heart, so he felt awkward.
Shen Run felt that he was obviously not a person without a city government, but his calmness and calmness were nothing in front of her, and he couldn't bear this too long silence with her.
"I heard something recently." He spoke, saying.
"What's the matter?" Morning looked at the river and asked with a faint smile.
"It turns out that there is a more effective way to increase mystical power than using elixir."
Chenguang knew what he was going to say at the beginning of his words.
"Make people into elixirs." He looked at her side face intently, her expression did not fluctuate, it seemed that she knew that there was a strange anonymous notice in the territory of Longxi Kingdom, and the news was transmitted from the territory of Feng Ming Kingdom before, and that notice also appeared in Feng Ming Kingdom.
Chenguang didn't speak.
Shen Run looked at her, her beautiful face was hidden in the dark shadow under the moon, she was the morning light, the soft morning light that loved to laugh, but when she flattened the corners of her lips and didn't smile at all, Shen Run saw the shadow of the cold and silent Si Chen from her side face.
This illusion made Shen Run in a trance for a moment, and at that moment he almost felt that he couldn't tell who she was.