43. What is the injury
Back to Zhuge Mansion, it was already late, Kong Ming had not rested, Kong Ming saw Yao'er with a scarred face, and asked with concern: "Yao'er, how did you get the injury on your face?" โ
Yao'er didn't know how to answer, looking at Hong'er, Yao'er had an indescribable fear of this 'father', unlike the feeling with Ma Chao, when they were with Ma Chao, they would fight together, like brothers, and Kong Ming was very strict with Yao'er's education and strict requirements, perhaps it was this cumbersome etiquette that alienated them from the distance between 'father and son'.
Hong'er stroked Yao'er's head lovingly, with a hint of affection and a hint of doting, "I fought with someone." โ
Hong'er didn't want to deceive Kong Ming, she said that she wanted Kong Ming to believe her, Kong Ming could do it, otherwise, she wouldn't bear to lie to Kong Ming.
"What, it's worth it, with whom? ......" Kong Ming asked a series of questions, and Hong'er smiled lightly: "Okay, I've solved the problem, don't you still believe me?" โ
Hong'er's rhetorical question, Kong Ming had no choice but to stop asking, Hong'er turned around and said to Yao'er: "Yao'er, go back and rest." Yao'er saluted them politely and went back to her room.
Kong Ming couldn't bear to blame Hong'er, "You, you're always used to him." "Hong'er likes Yao'er very much and always excuses him, because Hong'er doesn't want her son to be tied up and be like her
"You, don't be too him." Poke him lightly on the shoulder~ It's not bad to be naughty occasionally, "It's good for Master Yan to be a high apprentice, but Father Yan will make children afraid." โ
Kong Ming and Hong'er have a big difference in educating their children, Kong Ming wants his son to become a dragon, Hong'er goes with the flow, and wants Yao'er to be an ordinary person, "How a loving mother is a failure!" "Hong'er is protecting Yao'er, but it's not enough, indiscriminately.
"No, my son, I know it."
Hong'er walked into her room, embroidered a brocade robe when she couldn't sleep, and just wanted to extinguish the candle, but saw that there was still a candle flame in Kong Ming's study, Kong Ming always approved official documents until late at night, is it worth it for him to do this for Liu Bei?
Is he preparing to help Liu Bei dominate the world? Hong'er knew how far away that day was, maybe it was in the next life, Hong'er looked at her hands, how white-skinned, how capable, and at the same time so ugly, how much blood these hands had stained, no one could count,
Hong'er herself doesn't know how many people died in her hands for no reason, just for her ambition and her hatred.
Hong'er hadn't thought of revenge for a long time, and Fufeng once said to her, 'If your parents hadn't died tragically, maybe we wouldn't have met in this life.'" โ
It's a short word, but it is meaningful, if her parents hadn't died tragically, Hong'er wouldn't have sat here and dared to pursue her own love, maybe she would have been forced to marry a long time ago;
If Hong'er hadn't thought about revenge, maybe she would still be living happily in the mountains with Fufeng Hejing and Senior Sister and Master until she was old... Too many ifs, too many ethereal facts.
Hong'er sometimes wonders, is this because God loves her, or is God punishing her? Hong'er doesn't know if what she has done is worth it, but finding someone in the troubled times who loves and loves herself is the greatest happiness.
Being able to be with Kong Ming, Hong'er feels that everything is not important, but there are also Huang Yueying and her daughter Zhuge Guo, as long as they are in her, she will not get all of Kong Ming's love, it seems that what the master said is true, so will the master's final prophecy come true? No, no, don't underestimate Hong'er, Hong'er is not the one who can afford to take it and can't put it down.
Early in the morning, Hong'er felt a little uncomfortable, like typhoid fever, or got up to look for Yao'er, but when he got to the house, he didn't see him, Hong'er stretched out his hand and touched it, the quilt was still hot, it seemed that he hadn't been gone for too long, Hong'er folded the quilt for him, no need to guess, he knew it with his toes,
Yao'er must have gone to find Ma Chao, hey, these two people, Yao'er and Ma Chao seem to be a family.
Hong'er packed everything up and rushed to Mafu, coincidentally, Kong Ming was also there, Yao'er saw that her mother was coming, so she quickly pulled Hong'er over, and said happily, "Mother, I have good news for you, I'm going to war." โ
This is not good news for Hong'er, but there is a surprise, "Who said that?" Yao'er, you are not allowed to go! โ
There was a hint of sternness in Hong'er's tone, for Yao'er, her mother was a gentle person, a woman as gentle as water, she had never punished Yao'er, nor had she spoken loudly to him.
"Why?" Yao'er asked childishly, looked back at Kong Ming, and asked, "Kong Ming, it's Meng Qi who is going to fight!" โ
Kong Ming nodded, and Ma Chao also said: "Hong'er, Yao'er is a man, can't you let Yao'er lose the opportunity to practice because you're worried?" "The battlefield is not a child's play, it is not as simple as they think, how can Hong'er rest assured that Yao'er is in danger, "No, Meng Qi, no, Yao'er is still young!" Yao'er also shouted, "Mother, I'm fourteen." โ
In the eyes of the mother, no matter how old the child is, he is still a child.
Hong'er looked at Kong Ming for help, Kong Ming shook the feather fan lightly, and without speaking, Hong'er asked, "Strategist, you shouldn't agree, right?" Kong Ming said: "Yao'er is older, and she should also exercise." โ
Hearing Kong Ming's words, Hong'er became even more angry, Yao'er didn't have any experience, he went to the battlefield, didn't he go to die? If you want to experience Yao'er, it is better to let Yao'er learn more with Kong Ming, Hong'er just wanted to say something, but it was dark in front of her, she fainted, and when she woke up, she only saw that the bed was full of people.
Hong'er raised her hand, and Yao'er came to her side and said, "Yao'er, if you go, my mother will go with you." Yao'er hurriedly refused, "The doctor said, my mother needs to rest more, and she can't run around anymore!" โ
Seeing that her son cared so much about herself, Hong'er smiled happily, but she was still a little uneasy, "Mother, it's okay, when did your father-in-law go to war and his mother didn't follow?" Mother, it's your father's military advisor. โ
Ma Chao crossed his fingers on the side, as if he was counting something, Hong'er was a little curious, and asked, "Meng Qi, what are you counting?" โ
Hearing Hong'er call herself, Ma Chao raised his head, "I'm counting, how many times have you not been to the battlefield with me." Yao'er was snickering on the side, and Kong Ming was also covering it with a feather fan, snickering, "Can I be the same now as before?" Don't say it, I'll decide this time. โ
Hong'er lifted the quilt and wanted to get out of bed to clean up her things, but her feet were soft and she fell into Yao'er's arms, "Okay, mother, I'll be fine, besides, what about my father-in-law?" Yao'er's tone had a hint of blame, as if Hong'er underestimated him, and Hong'er had no choice but to let him go.
They walked in a hurry, and the next day they counted the number of people and embarked on the journey, looking at the horse Chao, whose face was like a crown of jade, his eyes were like meteors, the arms of a tiger and an ape, the waist of a wolf, the lion helmet and beast belt, dressed in silver armor, wearing a red robe, embroidered with the pattern of phoenix nirvana, holding a red tassel spear, and riding a white horse โกโก;
And Zhuge Yao on the side also turned over on the horse, wearing a phoenix winged helmet, wearing a dragon red brocade robe, a sword hanging from his waist, and a โกโก in his hand, heroic and extraordinary; Look at the soldiers with bright armor and brilliant robes; The golden drum shook the sky, the spear was shining brightly, and the flag was raised.
A picture of victory, but Hong'er is still very worried, looking at the back of her son's departure, what can Hong'er do even if she is reluctant and helpless?
Seeing Hong'er's reluctance, Kong Ming gently patted her shoulder, "Okay, you always take care of him like this, then when we return to the mountains and forests, when Yao'er is alone in the court as an official, what should you do?" โ
What the? Kong Ming is still thinking that he and her will have a day, it seems that Kong Ming really likes Yao'er, but the way they express their love is different.
After Yao'er left, Hong'er didn't sleep for a day, always thinking about Yao'er, Er's mother was worried, she had been gone for more than a month, and there was still no letter, Hong'er was in the house, surprisingly poured a glass of wine, and wanted to pick up the wine glass, but when she was about to get it, the wine glass suddenly fell to the ground, and suddenly a sense of foreboding came to her heart.
Someone knocked on the door, "Who?" There was some fear and expectation in Hong'er's tone, "It's me, Kong Ming." Hong'er owed a little crack in the door, "Is there something wrong?" Kong Ming's expression was a little serious, his tone was a little heavy, and his eyes were a little red, as if he had just cried.
Hong'er asked tentatively, "Kong Ming, is there something wrong with Yao'er?" โ
Kong Ming nodded, Hong'er's legs were already weak, she couldn't stand steadily, and leaned against the door weakly, "Kong Ming, you go on." โ
Hong'er has no intention of listening to it anymore, but just listened to a rough idea, Yao'er in order to resist Cao Jun, with 3,000 soldiers to guard Yandang Mountain, did not let Cao Jun go over alone, it can be said that although death is still glorious, that is Yao'er with blood in exchange for glory, as soon as she thinks of Yao'er gone, Hong'er's heart is about to break, she thinks of Huang Yueying, she has also experienced the pain of losing her child, it turns out that this pain is really thorough.
Kong Ming blamed himself on the side, "It's all my fault, I shouldn't have let him go, I should have listened to you and left him behind." Hong'er saw it and was very distressed, "I can't blame you for this, you are not a god, you can't know everything in advance." โ
Kong Ming is just a mortal in Hong'er's eyes, people say that he is clever, but he knows more than others, sees things deeper than others, and even loses two sons, even if Kong Ming's heart is strong, he can't bear it! What's more, he is a mortal, "Kong Ming, the grudge between you and me has been settled." โ
Kong Ming raised his head, grievances? Is there one between them? Hong'er saw that he was at a loss, and said, "My sister's son was killed by me, and today my son is also dead, and we are even." โ
Kong Ming didn't look at Hong'er, his eyes stared straight at the ground, and said, "Hong'er, you said that you want me to believe you, this?" How can you tell me to believe it? Hong'er stopped all the sins herself, but she was not a cruel person, not a vicious person, and even a little jealousy would not kill his child.
"Hong'er, do you think I don't know? That day, before you went out over the wall, I vaguely saw a man in black, I trusted you, I thought you would tell me everything clearly, but you didn't, you didn't say anything, do you know how heartbroken I feel when you keep burying the pain in your heart and don't tell anyone? โ
Forgive him for knowing early on that it was Hong'er who misunderstood him, Hong'er thought that Kong Ming had always thought that he was a murderer, Kong Ming asked Hong'er to explain that he didn't believe the fact that she had done it, in order to let her say it herself, childishly comforted herself,
Kong Ming continued: "If you want to kill Fufeng, why didn't you tell me, why did you go to Ma Chao, why didn't I know anything like an idiot before?" Kong Ming's tone was a little reproachful and angry, but he didn't shout out like a reckless man,
Hong'er really didn't tell Kong Ming at the beginning, she didn't think about anything at the time, and she told Kong Ming that he couldn't catch Fufeng, so she didn't say it, and she didn't want him to misunderstand.
Kong Ming said all the doubts buried in his stomach today, "Hong'er, why do you want to bear the blame for Fufeng?" Kong Ming looked at Hong'er suspiciously, "Is it because of my inner turmoil?" Kong Ming looked at Hong'er, as if he wanted to get this answer, and Hong'er didn't know why he said this,
He didn't think about it at all before he said, and said, "A little, but not all." Kong Ming closed his eyes in disappointment and shook the feather fan lightly, "Then what else?" Hong'er was asking herself the same question when she said this, what else?
Is it because after so many years of getting along, do you have some feelings? It seems to be; Hong'er still regards him as a brother, and she has some admiration, as if she is a little bit; It's still so many years, Fufeng has been so heartfelt and heartfelt to Hong'er, Hong'er is a little moved, and this is also some, but Hong'er doesn't know how to open her mouth to Kong Ming,
"Kong Ming, he ...... It's my mentor, I know the art of war, music, swordsmanship... He taught most of it. Kong Ming was a little stunned for a while, he didn't expect that Fufeng, who seemed to be weak, was also a powerful character.
"As the saying goes, 'a teacher for one day and a father for life', I treat him as a brother, but he has a vicious heart and kills innocent people, and Yao'er is the only child in that village who survived."
Although this sentence is a little unreliable, but for a while, Hong'er couldn't think of too good words, so he forced it up, Hong'er deceived Kong Ming, Fufeng is a little cruel, but he is not bad, and this is not the reason why he wants to kill him,
Hong'er's heart was a little sad, she didn't want to, but she was helpless, Kong Ming walked out after listening, his steps were a little shaky, I don't know if he believed it, who would believe this reason, but Hong'er had time to make him believe.