He stopped talking, looking at me nervously and intently like a scientist watching a chemical reaction.

I was so uncomfortable with his gaze that I couldn't help but turn my head to try to avoid his gaze.

He then touched my cheek with his hand, so that I had to look at him, and he looked nervous, "Good news...... None of this is true, just to cope with the lies my dad made up. ”

I nodded and said, "I know, you've just explained." ”

"But your expression doesn't look like you believe my explanation." Li Yu said softly: "The reason why I tell you this is because my father will definitely let you know this." Rather than that, I told you myself, lest you misunderstand me again. ”

"Nope." I hurriedly said, "I didn't misunderstand you. ”

Li Yu's expression was not relaxed at all, "But your expression is not like this." Don't be so sad, I'm not telling you to be so sad. ”

I shook my head busily, "I'm not sad. I ......, "Well, I do feel sad, I think it's because I'm so pessimistic, and I feel like he's right...... It didn't sound like he was lying to his dad. But there is no need to say this, after all, he will definitely deny it, and it is impossible to dispel this negative feeling of mine, and it is a waste of time, so I can only say, "I just need time to digest it." ”

"Digest what?" Li Yu said anxiously: "These are not true, you know that I will not leave you." ”

I said, "Your 'lie' just now is also saying that you will not leave me, you will wait until I die." ”

Li Yu didn't seem to expect me to say this, and was stunned.

I said, "Let me digest it." It's time for you to rest, I'm going to sleep too......"

He grabbed my arm, "Then even if you die, I won't be with anyone else." Can I tell you this reassuringly? ”

"There is no need to promise what happens after death, because it cannot distinguish between truth and falsehood." I said, "Besides, even if you did, it would be just a stupid decision that no one would benefit from." ”

Li Yu looked a little broken, "So I shouldn't tell you about it?" ”

"No, I'm grateful you didn't hide it from me. I actually don't like you to hide everything you think is bad for her like you did to your mother, just like you hid it from my heart before, I don't think it's respectful to me at all. I said, "And I'm now very accepting that I don't have many years to live, because my heart is not matched, and although you didn't say it explicitly, and lied to me that there was no problem this time, it was enough for me to stop beating at any time." It stands to reason that I shouldn't care what you think...... It's just that you told me so suddenly, I was a little ...... for a while Still a bit ......"

I can't go on, I can't say clearly.

Seeing this, Li Yu hugged me again, his heart was beating fast, "Stupid ......" He said sadly: "Baby, I won't let you die." ”

I know it's powerless.

Even if you are rich and powerful, you can't change the things like birth, old age, sickness and death.

But I'm grateful he said that.

Leaning into his arms for a while, I felt that my emotions calmed down a lot, and the negative feelings were less intense. I also felt that Li Yu's heartbeat gradually stabilized, and understood that his emotions had also been relieved, so I said, "You can go sleep for a while." ”

Li Yu said: "I can't sleep. You sleep. ”

"Of course I can't sleep right now." I said, "But we can lie down separately and talk while we try to sleep well." ”

It's only three o'clock in the morning, what can you do without sleeping?

Li Yu readily agreed, and then he went back to lie down, and I also lay down and turned off the light.

I closed my eyes, but I didn't feel sleepy, so I whispered, "Are you asleep?" ”

"Didn't you say you wanted to talk?" Li Yu said: "Of course I didn't sleep. ”

I asked, "Then why don't you keep quiet?" ”

"I'm waiting for you to speak." He said, "Maybe you're asleep, and I'm talking to be an interruption." ”

I said, "You're really different......"

He asked, "How?" ”

I said, "You didn't care so much about other people's feelings before. ”

It was so dark that I couldn't see his face, but I could feel that he seemed to be smiling and asking, "Let's say?" ”

I said, "Let's say, you're always pulling me up in the middle of the night like that." ”

His tone was rising, "I still want to." When you get well, I will pull you up in the middle of the night every day to do this and that, so that you can understand what it means to be easy to change and difficult to change. ”

I was amused by his mischievous tone, "I hope there really will be a day like that." ”

He fell silent.

I also realized that what I said unintentionally was actually a bit offensive. This is mainly because this negativity has grown in my heart.

I felt a little embarrassed and couldn't speak.

After a while, Li Yu's soft voice came, "Baby? ”

"Huh?"

"I haven't slept yet." He asked with a smile.

"No," I said, "I thought you were asleep." ”

"Nope." He smiled and said, "Let me ask you a question." ”

"Okay."

"Do you have any wishes?" He asked.

"Well......," I said, "I'm going to go outside the hospital tomorrow." ”

"How can this be considered a wish? It's just a requirement. Li Yu said: "It's difficult to say something. ”

"Hmm......" I thought about it for a while and said, "That's to get rid of Wu Jingkang." ”

"About yourself." Li Yu said: "For example, do you have any places that you really want to go? Things you'd love to experience? ”

When I asked this, I said, "I don't have any places I want to go, but I do have things I want to experience." ”

Li Yu was interested: "What is it?" ”

I said, "It's the kind that can't be done." ”

"I didn't say I was going to make it happen for you," Li Yu said, "I just wanted to ask." I don't think I've talked to you about this topic before, so I don't know what kind of expectations you have in your heart. ”

"Well......" I said, "I'd love to try extreme sports." ”

Li Yu may have been a little surprised, and was silent for a moment before asking, "For example?" ”

"Like skydiving, bungee jumping, rock climbing, racing...... Such. I said, "I think it's cool." ”

Li Yu asked, "Then why didn't you tell me?" ”

I said, "Racing is too expensive. I can't afford it. ”

"Why should you buy it?" He said, "And I will do anything else." If you had told me before, I would have taken you all over the place. ”

I said, "No, I've never been in good shape, and I even feel dizzy after running for a long time." ”

Li Yu was silent for a while, and his tone was low, "What the hell was I doing before?" How come you don't know anything? ”

I said, "I didn't tell you." However, I always felt that you knew that I was weak, so I often took me to eat delicious food to replenish my body. ”

Instead of being comforted, he said sadly, "I didn't expect to be so weak." ”

I said, "Lan Xian'er said that I have a spiritual problem, which will affect my body, maybe because of this. ”

"I think it's because I was so tired before." Li Yu said: "After all, with him, you can't eat well or sleep well." ”

I said, "It's okay anyway." Actually, I don't understand any of this, but I just think it must be very exciting, and I want to try it, and it's not a dream, and I won't feel lost. ”

Li Yu was silent for a while and asked, "Did his father ask you to go with him alone?" Or is it their whole family? ”

I said, "He said it was the whole family, but the plan was canceled because I couldn't go." ”

Li Yu said: "I remember that Chi Fengmin is weak, he can go rock climbing? ”

I said, "He can't, he's a very picky eater, so he's malnourished." He was in a worse situation at the time than he is now, and he couldn't even catch up with me when he was running. ”

Li Yu said faintly: "Then how did he get it?" ”

"What?" It's not that I didn't understand, I just couldn't believe it.

Li Yu stopped talking.

I waited for a while, feeling more and more anxious. I couldn't help but get out of bed and came to the sofa.

Li Yu was lying down, also with his eyes open, when he saw me coming, he reached out and took the remote control, turned on the light, sat up and hugged me, and asked with a smile, "What's wrong?" Baby? ”

I said, "What do you mean by that?" ”

"What?" He looked dazed.

"Do you mean that his body was so weak at that time, and it must be because I didn't resist?" I looked at him and asked, "Is that so?" ”

Li Yu hurriedly said: "Of course not! What do you think? ”

I don't believe it, "So what do you mean by that?" ”

"I wonder if he drugged you." He hugged me, stroked my back, and said softly, "It's me who is wrong, I don't want to." ”

I was still very dissatisfied, pushed him away, and said, "I hope you don't mention this matter again in the future." ”

"Okay." He nodded sincerely.

"You don't want to." I asked, "Can you do it?" That's none of your business anyway. ”

"But I want to say one last word," he said. It's just related to it, but it's mostly our business. ”

I didn't want to hear it, but I said, "Say it." ”

Li Yu said: "The last time I mentioned this matter, my emotions were actually out of control. For the first time I came out of the mirror, I couldn't control my emotions, especially my hatred for you...... Because it was so painful, and I didn't know you had done so much to make amends. ”

I said, "I understand." ”

"So the reason why I said that kind of thing at that time was just out of revenge." Li Yu said distressedly: "Actually, I don't think so. From the first time we started, I knew that this might be the case for you, and I was very distressed. ”

I said, "But I still hope you don't mention it again." ”

He nodded, "Of course." ”

I said, "Go to sleep." Bian was about to stand up.

But Li Yu hugged my waist again and said with a smile: "Let me kiss me before going to bed." ”

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