I said, "I can understand your sister, why didn't your mother ask and stand on your father's side?" ”

Li Yu said: "Because she admires my father very much, she thinks that everything my father said is right, and if I am not happy, it must be because I don't understand him enough." ”

I asked, "Is everything your dad really right?" ”

"Pretty much." Li Yu said: "He is indeed like a god. ”

"Uh......"

Li Yu glanced at me with a smile and said, "What? ”

I said, "I can't answer." ”

Li Yu smiled again and said, "I used to admire my dad and liked to imitate him, but I found that no matter what I did or did, he would pick out the problem. Of course, it was my fault, but I was really frustrated, especially since he was extremely tolerant of my sister. So, gradually, I no longer wanted to imitate him, and I was willing to work with him. ”

I said, "I think your father thinks that when you inherit his family business in the future, your little mistakes now will become a fatal weakness, right?" And your sister is not in this option in the first place, she just needs to grow up happily. ”

Li Yu said: "I have always known this. But at that time, I was young after all, and although I knew the reason, I still felt sad, and I hoped to get more encouragement from him...... When we have children in the future, I'd rather not let him inherit my stuff than let him bear it, it's too tiring. ”

I said, "We're not going to have children." ”

It's not that I poured cold water on him, it's that this thing really can't exist, I'm a person who doesn't have a heart now, even if I successfully install someone else's or an artificial heart in the future, my body can't be like a normal person, and besides, I can't change a uterus again, right?

Li Yu was silent for a moment and said, "Then I don't have to worry about it." ”

I asked, "You really want children, don't you?" It has already been said more than once. ”

"I don't want to." Li Yu said: "I'll be honest, I'm just afraid that you will feel different from others, feel sad in your heart, and want you to feel that everything can be fine." Actually, I don't want to have children at all...... I also don't like to use condoms. ”

I was speechless for a moment and said, "I'm already a corpse now, can you still do it?" ”

Li Yu said hesitantly: "I'm afraid that your heart can't bear it, as for the corpse is not a corpse, am I not also a corpse?" ”

I said, "You're still working, aren't you?" ”

"Yours is also here, eating and drinking properly, and your body is still hot." As he spoke, his hands became restless, groping around my body, and for a long time, he smiled contentedly, "Still so soft......"

I grabbed his hand and tried to pull him out, but I couldn't pull it, so I had to let him go, and said, "When I called that day, she said you were busy, what are you doing?" ”

Li Yu said: "I'm looking at her experimental data. In fact, her father began to study artificial hearts, and the first person who had a successful transplant died quickly, and the third one who is still alive is still alive for more than 20 years. However, although this man is alive, because his heart has been constantly improved, and his body has been destroyed by too many drugs. ”

I said, "So I have to use a lot of medicine?" ”

"No, what she's researching now is up to date, and it's even comparable to the human heart." Li Yu said: "However, this was three years ago, three years ago this heart was put into the body of a volunteer, and now he is still alive and working normally, judging from the data, there is no problem, and he only takes some medicine regularly, although there is also some damage to the body, but it is small enough to be negligible." But after all, it's only been three years, and the data is too little. ”

I asked, "How long will it take?" Do you wait twenty years? ”

"Of course not," Li Yu said, "I want to get all the information about this heart, and then hand it over to Ji Lang, and then we will study whether it needs to be improved." Even if we can't improve it, it can live for at least three years, and mine only let you live for more than a year, and there are constant problems during this time, and the reason why your body is so bad is because we used a lot of medicine for you to keep this heart running without your knowledge. ”

I said, "Don't tell me about any of this...... However, although Wu Jilang explained it to me, I still don't understand, why can't I wait for someone else's heart? ”

Li Yu said: "Because all the matching types have failed. ”

"But ......" I don't know what to say: "My blood type is not rare, is it so difficult to match?" ”

"There is a small source of heart, even in the black market, the heart is a relatively sought-after product, after all, it is not like the liver and kidney, and the person who donates it can still live. But even so, I found quite a few people, but none of them were successful. Li Yu paused for a long time and said, "We even tried to use Song Jiayan's ......."

I asked, "What do you use Song Jiayan?" Do you want to be a match for me? ”

"Hmmm......"

I couldn't help but push him away and said, "What do you want to do?" Cut out his heart for me? Do you think this will work? ”

Li Yu immediately smiled and said, "What do you want?" He's your brother! We asked him to match, but we suspect that you may not be worthy of anyone. ”

I said, "Even my brother is not 100% worthy, what does this prove?" Don't lie to me, look at me seriously, and answer if you want his life? ”

At first, Li Yu still avoided my gaze, but after my repeated insistence, he finally looked at me and stopped smiling.

After a while, he said, "I'm sorry...... I've found a lot of people, but none of them work, I can only think of him. ”

I'm so angry, "That's my brother!" ”

"You have no feelings for him!" Li Yu said: "What's more, his father deprived him of everything that belongs to you, I didn't force him, I talked to him, and he agreed." ”

"If you tell him that he has deprived me of everything and ask him to donate his heart to me, is he likely to refuse?" I said, "I don't really have a relationship with him, but you know, he's very kind." ”

Li Yu sighed and said, "I'm sorry. It's me who is in too much of a hurry. ”

"You're going too far." I said, "And you're hiding it from me, why do you always hide it from me?" Did you know that this makes me feel very insecure? ”

Li Yu drooped his eyebrows and put on an honest expression.

I was angry for a while and asked, "Why did you tell me about this?" ”

Only then did he cowardly speak, "When I saw that he couldn't do it, I began to wonder if your body was not worthy at all." At that time, there was no Blue Fairy, and Wu Jingkang told me that you are indeed not worthy, because your soul is too weak. Later, after I got the family history of Lan Xian'er, I learned about the relationship between the soul and the body, I thought, the problem may really arise in your soul, then the machine heart has no soul, it can always be, right? ”

I understood what he meant, but I felt that the details were very problematic, "So what's my problem?" What exactly is the problem of the soul? ”

"Wu Jingkang said he didn't know, he only said that your soul is too weak, different from normal people." Li Yu said: "Lan Xian'er's family chronicle says that the spirit and the body correspond and are indispensable. ”

I asked, "Then why can't you make up for one?" ”

"Because ......" Li Yu was silent for a long time before finally looking at me and said, "One body can't withstand two souls that have nothing to do with the body. ”

I didn't speak.

Li Yu looked into my eyes and said, "After all that, should you also tell me about it?" Every time Wu Jingkang sees you, what is the specific situation? What has he done and said to you? ”

I was stunned for a long time before I nodded and said "yes" before I started talking.

It's quite time-consuming to talk about this, and I've been in a bit of a trance during this time, so I don't have a preface to say it.

Finally, when I finished, there was silence in the cabin.

It was I who broke the silence, "I don't usually think that you just said that, plus I summarized it myself, and suddenly found that he had said it very clearly." ”

Li Yu looked at me with a look of no surprise. Apparently he had just said that because he had guessed it, but he couldn't be sure.

I said, "He kept calling my body 'that body,' and that was already very obvious, he didn't think it was my body." ”

Li Yu nodded and said, "Because it's not your body, your soul has always been very weak. Later, with the help of Wu Jingkang, it became stronger, and it was even able to drive a dead body. That's why you always fail to match, and the reason is that the soul in your body is not your own, and your body is dead. ”

I was a little panicked, "I'll go ask Wu Jingkang." ”

"Don't ask yet, since he hasn't told you, you can't ask. And as early as when I doubted this matter, I had already asked Wu Jingkang, and he kept avoiding it, obviously not planning to say a word. Li Yu said: "I tell you this because I want you to rest assured, this matter is not necessarily a bad thing, if this is not your body, then you must have your own body." I don't think your own body would be so crippled. ”

I said, "All my memories are in this body, and if it's not my body, then when was I replaced?" And...... I'm afraid that the so-called 'my body' has been rotten for a long time, right? ”

Li Yu said: "This is not necessarily, when part of my soul is in the mirror, my body is still alive. I venture to guess that I suspect that you are only part of it, and that the previous weakness was due to being sealed like me, only that I was sealed in Pluto's body, and you were sealed in the body of a 'dead man', and your body was still alive. Now you're strong, but you can't go back because you haven't found your body. ”

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