At this time, it was already late at night, and there were not a few pedestrians left in the huge suburban park of Jiangzhou City. The street lights in the park are half off, and in the dim light, only by careful observation can you faintly see the back of a man on the edge of the artificial lake, who seems to be holding something in his hand, and his figure swaying and trembling from time to time, making people can't help but worry that he will fall into the lake at any time.

Since he was diagnosed with depression, Xiao Jian can't remember how many times he has wanted to die in his life.

Jump? Xiao Jian has a fear of heights, and he has not dared to ride a swing since he was a child, let alone the pirate ship in the amusement park. wanted to find a landmark building to end his life, but when he came to the top floor of the 38-story commercial building in the center of the city and looked down, a feeling of dizziness and nausea suddenly made him collapse to the ground.

Drinking pesticides? It's so unpalatable, the pungent smell is a hundred times worse than the worst Chinese medicine in my life, and I can't swallow it at all.

Hit by a car? Xiao Jian stood in the middle of the busy road, watching a car drive past him with a rough throttle. The current drivers are all road rage patients, none of them slow down, Xiao Jian's legs tremble in fear, and he doesn't dare to move. As a few cars passed by, they lowered their windows and heard the sound of cursing. In the end, Xiao Jian was taken away by the police for obstructing traffic.

Hang oneself? Xiao Jian tried it at home. Attach the upper end of the rope to the ceiling and tie a dead knot underneath. Xiao Jian brought a chair, stood on it, gently put his neck into the knot, and then kicked off the bench hard, his whole body lost its support in an instant, and was attracted downward by the gravity of the earth, but the rope firmly wrapped around his neck to prevent this fall. The body was hanging in the air and swinging, Xiao Jian felt that the rope was like a pair of huge iron fists, tightly choking his throat, his breathing became more and more rapid, and his consciousness became more and more blurred. Just when he was about to suffocate, there was a "snap", the rope broke in two, and at the critical moment, the rope could not bear his weight of nearly 200 catties, and Xiao Jian was slammed to the floor. Xiao Jian touched the sore buttocks, looked at the broken rope on the ground, and scolded: Damn, the knockoff goods of the Pinshao APP really live up to its reputation.

Xiao Jian felt that his life was a piece of.

The cause is not successful. After 14 years of working in the municipal bureau, 37-year-old Xiao Jian is still an unknown deputy chief clerk. The section chief put on small shoes for Xiao Jian from time to time, and picked thorns in his work. Xiao Jian has a cowardly personality and does not dare to fight. Other colleagues often like to ask Xiao Jian for help, but Xiao Jian is honest and kind, and he doesn't know how to refuse. The first to come to work every day, and the last to leave after work. In this way, Xiao Jian, who is diligent and hard-working, still can't take his turn when the unit evaluates the best at the end of each year. Xiao Jian felt that this was the end of his career. As a small civil servant in a department-level unit, after the age of 35, he has not yet mixed with the main department, so he will not want to be promoted in this life. At most, if you are lucky enough to be taken care of by your leaders when you retire, it would be good to arrange a non-leadership position for yourself as a chief clerk.

Failed marriages. Xiao Jian inherited his father's character, honest, lacking humor, not knowing how to please girls, and not falling in love. After entering the unit to work, Xiao Jian hid at home every day after work to play games on the Internet, and did not go out to socialize. After the age of 30, only Xiao Jian, an unmarried older young man, was left in the unit. The leaders of the unit are in a hurry, and if the young people do not get married, it will not be conducive to the stability of the cadre ranks. A few years ago, a deputy director of the unit introduced Xiao Jian to a girlfriend, who was a dancer in the Municipal Art Troupe, young and beautiful. Xiao Jian, who had been in drought for a long time, soon fell in love, and pampered and cared for the actress in every way. Until there was a unit dinner, a colleague drank too much, hugged Xiao Jian and whispered that Xiao Jian's wife and the deputy director who was the matchmaker had a leg, and all the colleagues in the unit knew about it, and Xiao Jian was the only one who was kept in the dark. Xiao Jian was angry at that time, and immediately returned home and slapped the actress with the strength of alcohol. The actress cried and made a fuss, saying that Xiao Jian didn't believe in her and didn't love her at all, so she packed up her things that night and never returned.

Stock speculation loses all the money. A few years ago, when the stock market was hot, Xiao Jian saw that the people around him were discussing stocks all day long, and he couldn't help but invest some money in it, and he did make some small money at the beginning. Later, he was fooled by the deputy director who introduced him to him, saying that he needed financing and leverage to make a lot of money, so Xiao Jian entrusted the deputy director to find someone to mortgage the house, and all the funds were invested in the stock market. Unexpectedly, the stock market collapsed soon, and Xiao Jian, as a stubble of leeks, was harvested before it could grow, not only did he lose everything he earned before, but he even lost his mortgage. In the end, Xiao Jian couldn't repay the loan, and even the house was taken away by the debt collectors, and now Xiao Jian can only rent a house outside.

All kinds of setbacks, failures, and blows completely tormented Xiao Jian, he was physically and mentally exhausted, mentally collapsed, and had to use sleeping pills to fall asleep every day, and was diagnosed as a patient with major depression during a hospital examination last year.

All of this was caused by that damn deputy director Zheng Xuan! My own life was ruined by that bastard! Zheng Xuan and Xiao Jian entered the unit in the same year, although Zheng Xuan did not learn and did not know, but he was good at speculative drilling, sneaking and shooting, he had used Xiao Jian and seized the credit, won the favor of the leaders, and his career was prosperous, and he is now the deputy director in charge of Xiao Jian's department.

"Zheng Xuan of the dog day!!"

Xiao Jian's memory returned to noon today.

Deputy Director Zheng Xuan was leaning on the wide and comfortable boss's chair, flirting with his lover on the landline phone of the unit.

With a "bang", the door of the office was pushed open heavily, Zheng Xuan was startled by this sudden sound, and quickly put down the phone. Then a pungent smell of alcohol hit, and I saw a red-eyed guy standing in the doorway, glaring at him.

"Zheng Xuan!!" The comer shouted.

This person was full of alcohol and stood in front of him angrily, Zheng Xuan suddenly felt a murderous aura and was a little panicked. However, when he saw that the person who came was Xiao Jian, he silently said in his heart: "Hmph, this nest is a waste." In just an instant, Zheng Xuan regained his composure, pulled his face, and began to reprimand: "Xiao Jian, have you drunk?" You don't know the rule that civil servants can't drink alcohol during working hours, right? Zheng Xuan said lightly, not angry.

"I ......" Xiao Jian obviously planned to trouble Zheng Xuan, but when he saw Zheng Xuan put on this leadership frame, he felt a powerful aura that overwhelmed him.

Seeing that Xiao Jian instantly softened, Zheng Xuan sneered in his heart. Unhurriedly, he picked up the soft bag on the table and took out a stick.

"Tell me, what's going on, do you want to get yourself punished?"

"No, it's not," Xiao Jian said nervously.

"Xiao Jian, you are a good comrade, and many colleagues in the unit like you, don't you?" Zheng Xuan suddenly changed his tone, as if he was comforting Xiao Jian.

"Now that the party style and party discipline are so strict, I don't want our unit to have a negative example and be exposed by the media."

Zheng Xuan paused, watching Xiao Jian being pressed by himself, and couldn't help but feel proud in his heart: "Although we are superiors and subordinates, we are still brothers after work, what can I say directly." Say, which play are you playing today? ”

"It's okay, I'm sorry to disturb Zheng Ju's rest," Xiao Jian laughed and turned around to leave.

"You wait," Director Zheng suddenly called out to Xiao Jian.

"What's the matter, Zheng Ju?" Xiao Jian turned his head and asked.

"Oh, you helped me report my travel expenses this month," Zheng Xuan pulled out a stack of bills from the desk drawer and stretched out to Xiao Jian.

Xiao Jian stood stunned and looked at Zheng Xuan, he didn't expect this person to be so shameless. In an instant, the previous humiliation, shame, unwillingness, and resentment came to his body, Xiao Jian's facial muscles kept twitching, his throat was blocked by something, and he wanted to open his mouth but couldn't make any sound. The brain swelled for a while, the temples protruded violently, and time seemed to stop at this moment.

However, just in the midst of the lightning and flint, a different peak protruded, Xiao Jian's eyes turned and aimed at an object, and he instantly picked it up and slapped it fiercely at Zheng Xuan's head. "I'll fuck you uncle!"