The furnishings in the room are very simple, it can be seen that it is a more diligent and thrifty old man, there is no extra electrical appliances at home except for a TV, there is no induction cooker in the kitchen, and the dishes bought on it are almost the cheapest, the fruits are already a little broken, it is estimated that it is bought at a special price in the supermarket.

Then walked to the bedroom where Chen Tingting lived, in addition to a bed, there was a very shabby table, the table was carved with many things, like wooden but a little shabby, not like it was specially bought, the chair was also very ordinary, the sheets seemed to be a little worn out and still in use, there was no air conditioning in the house, only a small electric fan, and the most important thing was that one of the windows was still broken.

And the design of the room here is not good, the roof is not high, the first feeling in the house is a little breathless, the broken piece of glass will always make a very harsh sound, if I sleep here at night, I will not be able to sleep, a little noise I will feel very annoying, in such an environment I don't know what she thinks.

There was no place to put things on this table, just a place like a book hole where books could be placed, and there were some books in it, which were ordinary textbooks, but I saw a small inconspicuous book, like the kind that could be carried around, with a pen on it.

The refill is almost used up, I estimated that I wrote a lot, I took the small book from the book hole, it was a small pink book, basically available in the stationery store, very small but there are a lot of pages can be written for a long time, I didn't read it for the first time, twenty casually flipped through it and saw that there were dense words written on it, every day, until Friday, it didn't end until Friday, because she jumped off the building and committed suicide after she didn't continue.

Li Qianyu took it casually after seeing this book, and after flipping through a few pages, she collapsed on the ground as if she was stimulated and made a heart-rending sound, I was even more curious about what kind of content was in the book, so I sat on the position that originally belonged to Chen Tingting and looked at the diary she insisted on writing every day.

I turned to the first page, it was the first time she wrote a diary, it was a few months ago, of course, I didn't know anything about that time period, I didn't know all this, and I didn't understand why Li Qianyu's emotions suddenly became like this, so I had to find the truth from it.

The first page reads, "I have no emotions in class today, I quarreled with my grandma when I was at home, why I want to buy a beautiful dress, my grandma thinks I'm wasting, why can Li Qianyu live so freely, why is life so unfair to me, I want to please live like this, who can help me, why should I live under such a family, my parents don't care about me at all, they only care about my younger brother, I am the most redundant existence." ”

Seeing this, my heart is mixed, it seems that she is a poor child who has been delayed by the family, if it weren't for this kind of separation, she shouldn't be like this, I continued to look at it

The pages are full of content like this, and every day I hate the life I live, and I am not satisfied with anything.

This kind of life makes anyone feel dissatisfied, it is estimated that every day is torment for her, recalling that Chen Tingting I saw at the time was indeed the same, always sitting there silently, her eyes have always been empty, and it seems that the little sister organization with Li Qianyu is not very happy.

After turning to the tenth page or so, her mood changed, as if she was not dissatisfied with the present, because she had always shown that she was complaining about the current situation of life, but now she almost kept silent about these things, and kept talking about the things she encountered every day, but it was just trivial things, as if she was an ordinary girl without trouble.

Almost all of what I said a month ago was something I encountered at school, but I didn't say too much, and those words seemed too vague, as if there was an unsightly self hidden beyond her beautiful surface, and I always felt very strange, and I kept looking at every small detail carefully.

A diary is basically going to be read by me, and finally I saw the diary a week ago that said, "I'm really fed up with Li Qianyu, if it weren't for her money, who would be by her side, she really regarded herself as a little princess with such a bad temper, I don't know how long I will have to survive like this, just let the people around me squeeze her away." ”

At this time, I looked at Li Qianyu who was sitting on the ground and collapsed, she must have seen these contents before she collapsed, after all, she has always regarded these people as her sisters, although she usually has a bad temper, but she also treats them sincerely, if it is someone else, the last thing she wants is to see Chen Tingting treat herself like this, after all, in her heart, Chen Tingting is definitely the first among these people, which is undeniable.

I just continued to read, and the next page read, "Today is the same mixed day, and the friends around me have already shown some impatience, it seems that they all hate Li Qianyu but it's hard to express, in fact, everyone knows it, at this time I can only act that I don't know anything, try to let Li Qianyu continue to trust me, but it's quite annoying to pretend." ”

The next few pages are mostly whining, but five days ago, on Tuesday, the day of the diary, it seemed to be written that something was wrong, and it seemed to me that things were not so simple, as if they were giving me clues.

It reads, "Today, someone suddenly sent me a message, saying that he could dispose of me and the person I hate the most, and the person I hate the most is of course Li Qianyu, I just can't get used to her always being favored, obviously the family conditions are not very good, and she should have lived the same life as me, but why is it so different from me, she doesn't deserve a good life at all, I can't figure out why her sister is willing to give her so much money, she doesn't deserve it at all!"

Wednesday's diary "The person from yesterday finally replied to my message, but her identity

It's always been mysterious, I want to know but don't want to tell me, I can see that she didn't lie to me, she can actually guess my heart, and she knows who the person I hate is, and tomorrow she will tell me a brilliant plan, and I finally don't have to pretend!"

Thursday's diary "She told me a plan this morning, and it won't be seen through, this plan seems to me to be seamless, it's to play with the pen fairy, although I don't know about this, but she has been explaining it to me, and now I have fully understood, just let her play with me today, let her die." ”

The word death was very simple for her to say, as if killing people was not a very excessive thing in her opinion, although Li Qianyu's life made her jealous, but it was not like this, playing the pen fairy was to kill Li Qianyu, but now the only person who died was herself, which is called self-inflicted sin and cannot live.

I continued to look at the diary entry for the last day, and the handwriting looked like it was crooked, and I guessed she had written it with all her might knowing she was going to die.

It reads, "Today I feel that something is wrong, my body is very heavy and I always break out in a cold sweat, and my face has become bad, I don't know what's going on, but the pen fairy didn't succeed, Li Qianyu didn't die, I always feel that I died first, it seems that my life has always been so a failure, I can't do anything, it's okay to die like this, I don't have to suffer in the future, I've long been tired of this kind of life, I really want to see their guilty eyes, if you can care more about me, I won't be like this." ”

This sentence pierced my heart, from beginning to end she actually wanted to get more attention, but the eyes of the people around her never fell on her, she always felt that she was abandoned, a useless person who was neglected, and even her parents have always denied her.

Who wants to live such a life?

But I now have a new idea.,Who is this "she" in the diary in public.,It must be a girl.,And proficient in magic and supernatural things.,The most important thing is that I'm in charge of this matter now.,History is always strikingly similar.,I already have the right person in my heart.,Now you have to control your emotions.。

I squatted down and looked at Li Qianyu, she slowly raised her head to look at me, tears were still flowing in her eyes, her eyes were very helpless, as if she was more disappointed with guilt, she thought that she had a good relationship with Chen Tingting, but in the end she kept hating herself, and even wanted to kill herself.

There are so many hidden secrets hidden in this pink diary, they are hidden by the pink appearance, and in fact they have been occupied by hatred, jealousy, disappointment, and compromise, and I can understand why the pen fairy chose to possess her.

She really has a lot of grievances, almost a day is happy, such a person is naturally the best choice for the pen fairy, she probably didn't think that she would catch fire, but the last thing should be

easily believed what others said, and that woman was still so cruel.

I looked at Li Qianyu and said: "How do you feel about your life now, although you have no parents since you were a child, but your sister has been trying her best to protect you and give you the best things, your grandmother will pick up waste to subsidize the family, all people are moving forward with a heavy load, only you live alone in an environment that others envy and are still unconscious or even dissatisfied, do you think this is good?"

Only now can she listen to what she has done, and she knows how hateful what she has done, she nodded and said, "Now that I know that I was wrong, and I know how happy I am, I will be fine in the future." ”

(End of chapter)