A few days before the Chinese Valentine's Day, I returned to the small city with Gu Xi.

Huguang Avenue and Luoyu Avenue cross north and south, on the bank of the river, and I stayed in this hotel that was fully booked and had several weddings to be held.

In the several huge gold foundation red brocade billboards at the main entrance, the gilt characters are shining in the sun, and there are pairs and pairs written on them.

"Groom: Wang Hui, bride: Zhang An'an."

She finally came out, slower than I had imagined. The people selected by An An must be one in a million in some aspects, and they are the most ordinary.

Gu Xi looked at it with unfinished eyes, stopped there, and said, "It's really like." He was talking about An An's husband, Wang Hui.

"Actually, back then, Wang Xiang could be regarded as saving me." Gu Xi's eyes suddenly turned red.

After a long time, we rarely lamented the past for more than two years, but we didn't see this Wang Xiang's reborn character, and our hearts were wet. The people who left all left, Zhang Dong is, Wang Xiang is, Xiao Man is, the three fathers are, Uncle Zhao and Uncle Zheng are also.

To each his own, to each his own, but to each he does not get it.

It seems that there is no longer the pain of hatred in my heart, I have hurt for An An, for myself for Zhao Yuan and even for those two children, at this moment there is only a vague smile, those happy times.

"Happy newlyweds. Groom: Yu Huan, bride: Hong Yan. "Sister Hongyan, I have a heart, Uncle Hongxuan is under Jiuquan, I don't know if I can feel at ease?

"This, it feels like yours. But it's a lot darker than you, Hongyan's eyes are really good, I read the collection she sent on the road, so happy! Gu Xi wiped away her tears and held my hand tightly.

"It just so happens that Hongyan said before that he would paste you in the album and help you choose a concubine, and I will discuss this when I go back." I laughed and teased.

"Tin wedding anniversary. Groom: Yun Che, bride: Zhu Ziping. "An old friend who hasn't seen her for many years, will Sister Ziping still be distressed often, the person she loves the most, but she can't understand the sound of her piano? Will I still sigh silently in the letter - maybe I am not content enough.

"The pearl wedding anniversary is a big joy. Groom: Lin Ziwei, bride: Huang Xiya. ”

At that moment, I thought my father was still alive, and the blood in his body seemed to flow backwards. Reason tells me that maybe what my mother will be holding is my father's portrait.

Eleven years, Mother.

Gu Xi and I looked at these familiar names, as if they were like such faces, one by one in the dense galaxy, and they were so bright and brilliant in our lives. It's like they're right in front of you right now.

I gently held Gu Xi's fingers: "I want to say selfishly, accompany me, together." ”

Gu Xi clenched my hand: "Probably, we have all cast a castle in our hearts, this castle has always been indestructible, but as long as there is a crack in it, it will completely collapse... Wenxi, fortunately, after the castle collapsed, maybe the outside world was better. ”

"In those six years, you said that you lived a peaceful life, but in fact, it was very bitter." I hear clearly.

"You work in a fancy restaurant, you isolate yourself from the kitchen, you design the freshest and most delicious dishes every day, but none of them make you happy... Gu Xi! I held him tightly.

"Wenxi, in the past three years, it hasn't been my crack. I can't live in my story anymore, can I? There's never been a three-person movie, and I've never been a part of it, have I? Gu Xi said slowly, stretched out his hand and gently touched the wedding photo of Zheng Kai and Chen Wanxin, his fingertips lingered in Zheng Kairuo's thick eyebrows for a long time, and sighed softly in the cool summer night: "It's so good." ”

"You should be your own protagonist." I hugged Gu Xi.

"Happy newlyweds. Groom: Zheng Kai, bride: Chen Wanxin. I still remember that Zheng Kai once left a video on Weibo, he and Wanxin have always refused to hold a wedding, and they don't want the most important person to be absent.

How can I afford to miss such a day?

"Still haven't contacted your protagonist Zhao Yuan? Do you think this hotel can still have a room tonight? Gu Xi said with a smile.

I was speechless for a moment.

How do I get in touch?

Over the years, I have been accustomed to being with Gu Xi, two quiet people, in a quiet place, it always seems like they are alone, and sometimes they talk like they are talking to themselves. When you are with a group of the same people, you don't know each other, and you don't need to worry about where they come from or where they want to go.

Bearing the wind all the way, it seems that such a familiar human relationship is so heavy that I can't breathe.

I picked up my phone and dialed the familiar number from when I first entered college thirteen years ago, and that Xiao Man had said that it was the only one reserved for me.

The moment the phone was dialed, the familiar voice seemed to ring in my ears, and I was a little distracted, and I almost didn't hold the phone.

Abyss, it's you.

Tired birds return to the forest, lonely boats dock in the harbor, the sunset resurfaces on the sea, the moonlight blooms again from the colorful clouds, the flowers falling in the peach forest return to a tree again, the sky is clear, and the light rain on the Mo only makes the air more clear and transparent. It's like a phone call that has passed through thirteen years, at this time, I am thirty years old, and Zhao Yuan is still a nineteen-year-old boy when I entered school, holding an old-fashioned Nokia.

If so, what can I say?

Perhaps, I will say, A-Yuan, take your father, stay away from here, away ...

You may say that every minute and every second, guard that Wenxi, don't allow him to fade out of your field of vision, don't allow him to run away again, and even, marry Wenxi at that time...

I was enveloped by an inexplicable emotion, and for a moment I didn't know if I was this night or what year?

"And the last one, don't you look up?" Mature and mellow, familiar, long-lost voice, surrounded me.

Wherever he pointed, the large LED screen above his head suddenly glowed dazzlingly, and the LED lights soared into the sky. The grand and solemn wedding march resounded throughout the street, and the busy street suddenly became extremely crowded. The huge text on the screen announced to everyone: "Wedding Joy: Groom: Lin Wenxi, Groom: Zhao Yuan." ”

It turned out that this last scene was for me and him.

At the same time, the fireworks of the nearby fire trees and silver flowers, the two connected hearts of the city, surrounded me and him, in a brilliant light, his eyes gradually blurred, he has melted into my eyes, dizzy heaven and earth, chaotic time, but I know that there is only one him, only one you.

"I'm afraid that you will leave again, I will only dare to open this screen when you come." Zhao Yuan looked at me calmly.

Every night, he was on guard and never left.

He was very calm, but the fireworks bloomed in his clear eyes with excitement, and the swallowing of his throat was slow and weak, like the fatigue and weakness of running tens of thousands of meters and reaching the finish line.

His hands were trembling, his shoulders were trembling, his chest was trembling.

I felt the pulse of the world and my heartbeat, so heavy as the mountains and seas, that it was hard to breathe for a moment.

"If you don't leave, okay." Zhao Yuan hugged me tightly and said quietly.

I grabbed his broad back and rubbed my head against his face, and before I could see him, I was already sinking, as if I wanted to be crushed with him, I wanted to get into his stomach, I wanted to be swallowed by him, I wanted to be swallowed by him, and I wished that every part of the blood was him, it was all him!

I nodded as hard as I could.

Seeing the gentleman, Yunhu doesn't like it.

Zhao Yuan suddenly burst into tears.

I hugged him at a loss, and I wanted to cry, but I couldn't.

I suddenly understood that I probably thought that even if I ran farther, Zhao Yuan would still look for me or wait for me, so I never worried that I wouldn't see him when I came back. And he, every time, thought that I was gone like that, and that I would never come back, and every time he lost it forever and regained it.

The clerks who came and went were stunned for a moment, presumably not understanding why the man who chartered such a luxury hotel could be so out of shape and couldn't help himself. Passers-by came in twos and threes, and then gradually and automatically centered on the two of us, with a radius of four or five meters away, and accurately surrounded the two of us.

The long-lost kiss blooms the epiphany on the snowy mountain.

I know that I will never leave unless I lose my life.

No, I will cherish my life and not go away before him.

For a moment, I thought of life and death, and for a moment, as if life and death were parting at hand, I was suddenly very scared, very afraid that I was about to grow old soon, and I didn't have enough time to accompany him well, not enough time to love him well.

Tears burst down the embankment, and I couldn't stop and didn't want to stop.

Yuan, do you know that your tears are the joy of being lost and regained, but my tears are afraid of the loss of the future. I don't want to lose it again, I lost a Zhang Dong who respects me and loves me and is as affectionate as a promise overnight, and I lose a Hongxuan who loves me and loves me as my own.

I'm afraid, you go away again.

After a long time, Zhao Yuan held my face and wanted to turn my face to look at him: "Fool, then what are you laughing at?" ”

I pointed not far away, and Zhao Yuan couldn't help laughing: "Akai, Akai, you also have today!" ”

There, Zheng Kai hugged Gu Xi tightly into his arms, rubbing Gu Xi's head with his straight chin, loving him as if he had a biological sister.

The two didn't say anything, just four lines of tears, and they went down together.

I suddenly remembered that Wang Xiang said that Zheng Kai would be a good father in the future, and my heart was suddenly relieved.

In my impression, since Uncle Zheng left, Zheng Kai has only shed tears for Wanxin and Gu Xi. A corner of his heart, after all, is forever gentle for Gu Xi.

I saw Gu Xi rubbing Zheng Kai like a kitten, Zheng Kai who disliked Gu Xi lying on him very much in the past, Zheng Kai who said that Gu Xi was disgusting in the past, no longer had any mustard and estrangement.

Gu Xi, who swore that he would not come back to affect Zheng Kai and his wife, once they met, everything was only missed and cherished in each other's eyes.

Wanxin couldn't stop stroking Gu Xi's forehead, the love and tenderness in her eyes were no different from her husband Zheng Kai, she cast her gaze at me, is she grateful, or miss?

I suddenly put my mind at ease, so Zheng Kai, so graceful, how could I make Gu Xi embarrassed between the two?

Tears after tears, laughter after laughter, all the people came out of the depths of the crowd one by one and hugged me one by one. In the crowd, Zhou Nannan and Wang Zhengjuan also appeared.

I hugged Zhou Nannan, said sorry to her deeply, and fisted Zhengjuan a few times.

Joys and sorrows, fate and fate, everything is in the past after all. After all, the two of them have different paths, but she and her two families, their parents married each other, and agreed that the two families will live forever as blood relatives. They agreed with each other that they would have a phone call every day, knowing that you were there and I was in this corner. They agreed that they would inform each other of the color of the bra that day.

This kind of gathering erases all the stumbles of the past.

In the laughter, we knew that Zhao Yuan guessed that I would not go to the airport, the train station, or the long-distance bus, so he asked the big guy to wait around tonight.

Admittedly, I got off the train in the city next door and came back with a taxi.

Then, on the top floor of the hotel, I met my mother, who had been absent for 11 years.

Dressed in plain clothes, his hands folded.

When my mother saw me, she took off her plain clothes, and what she was wearing was a big red long-sleeved pleated shirt that my father Lin Ziwei had bought for my mother.

It wasn't until she saw me that she returned to the red dust.

My mother didn't have a long chat with me, and she must have known everything about me from Zhao Yuan a long time ago.

Her mother went to Xiao Man's parents to find the clothes that Xiao Man wore when she was a child, and asked someone to burn an altar of Buddha incense and burn her letters to Xiao Man in the monastery where she once became a monk.

I also know that it was she, Zhao Yuan and everyone else who contributed to Nannan's return and the final reconciliation between the two patriarchs.

"It's me who asks him to tell me all these years, everything you do, every word, I hope he doesn't fall behind, child, all these years..."

My mother choked up and couldn't speak, and I couldn't say anything more.

I know that she is doing this to reduce the guilt in my heart, and I want to reduce the sin in my heart.

My mother was even more eager to tell me in person that Zhang Shouxi was still alive.

She told me personally that she had been to Inner Mongolia, had met Zhang Dong's parents, and showed me pictures of the clinic.

Unexpectedly, I fell to the ground on the spot, and I was so discouraged that she cried loudly. I don't know why, I always feel that my chest is clogged with endless sourness and endless grievances. Zhao Yuan hugged me, and his heart hurt so much that he beat me on the back.

I can't help myself, I want to take photos like I am speechless, I want to give myself an explanation for the past two years, I want to find a box to put for those tears, and I also want to say sorry to Zhang Dong in person.

Mother said that there was no need, he only remembered that he was Zhang Shouxi.

。。。

She has only been back for two months, and she has done everything for me that a mother can do, for the sake of my peace of mind at a certain moment.

I looked at Zhao Yuan, stroking his clear face, too intense joy and sadness, I hung almost my whole body around his neck, softly, kissed it gently, accidentally had a snot blister, Zhao Yuan actually gave me a mouthful, but embarrassed me.

Mother stroked our heads and smiled.

My mother then called me, my sister Wanxin, and my brother-in-law Zheng Kai in front of her, took our hands, and slowly told her and my biological father everything about her, and asked for some of our opinions.

We know the love between her and her biological father in those years, her despair in those years, and the indulgence she has had since she accompanied her adoptive father, and there were twists and turns, and the four of us cried together.

Zheng Kai said emotionally: "Wanxin never dared to mention her parents in front of others... He was afraid that Zhao Yuan and I would be sad, and when you went to our house as a guest, she was excited and scared... Put away all the things about her father ... As soon as you say this, Wanxin knows that there are still people thinking about him and thinking of him, and Wanxin can also be a good person, as a child, and go to pay tribute on the Qingming Festival. ”

Wanxin silently wept silently: "Brother, I am the one who regrets and is more ashamed than you." I hope for the rest of our lives, together we reconcile, and live, and everything ... ”

I silently thought about Wanxin's words, and my mind flickered.

After three years, in fact, I am even more afraid.

Three years of four seasons, three years of wind and dust, yes, how could I have thought that I should come back sooner and reconcile with myself and fate...

Nodding, the four hands clasped tightly together.

Our mother and son talked about it until the early hours of the morning, and she suddenly smiled lovingly and gently stroked my cheek: "A-Yuan's room is next door, you can go over, tomorrow is a good day for you." ”

"Mom, you... I couldn't help but choke.

"Even if the law doesn't approve it, mom approves it, and your friends approve it. What's more, Wenxi, in the final analysis, as long as you and him recognize each other. Mom said with a smile.

That night, Zhao Yuan and I unexpectedly did not "continue to speak", but just interlocked our fingers, and he hugged me into his arms.

The heart seems to be laid in the ground, and there is no dream all night.

This is the most special wedding, a banquet of 1,000 tables. The flowing water banquet continues from the top floor of the hotel to the ground floor. Four couples, two couples on their wedding anniversary, all relatives and friends gathered.

In addition to the marriage of the bridegroom to the groom with Zhao Yuan, when my mother celebrated the pearl wedding, she brought out two posthumous portraits, one is my biological father Chen Tianjiao, and the other is my father Lin Ziwei.

When Zheng Kai and Wanxin saluted their elders, in addition to kneeling down to the man's mother, Guo Ciyun, they were toasting to the woman's elders, my mother. When Wanxin and Zheng Kai shouted "Mom" in unison, her mother solemnly held Wanxin's hand and handed it to Zheng Kai. Subsequently, Zhao Yuan and I toasted to Hongyan's mother, the widow of Uncle Hongxuan.

At the end of the wedding, except for Zheng Kai, who was full of red light and was still patting his chest to me about the hotel security and reception work he arranged, everyone was drunk and staggered. My mother was too strong to drink, or she was overwhelmed with joy and sorrow, Gu Xi smiled and helped her to rest first, saying that she wanted to talk to him about my affairs in the past few years.

My lovely bridegroom has the grilled fish I have served him in his mouth. The grilled fish on this table, he took me to learn to make it, people say that governing a big country is like cooking a small fresh, such a first half of life, how is it not in little by little, polishing, pouring oil, soup, steaming...

It seems to be the taste of that time again.

The groom helped me block too much wine, and at this moment he was lying in my arms, breathing evenly, and the smile on his face was like a child eating candy, and I heard him murmur slightly: "It's not a dream... ”

And Mengyuan and Mengxi, one was on my left knee for a lunch break, and the other was smiling with satisfaction in his father's arms.

Outside the window, there was a drizzle, the red dust was like a mirror, the beauty of the flowers, the world was like frost, like the flow of water, vaguely at that time, on the field, I couldn't see anything clearly, but you said that you would marry me in the future.

I believe it.