Huo Zuo laughed, wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and fell to the floor with his body soft. In this secret small room, he is no longer the omnipotent "Director Huo" with tens of millions of assets, he is just an ordinary person immersed in the weakness and loss of control brought by the ointment. His eyes were still misty, and his strength still hadn't returned. When Huo Zuo reacted, he was picked up by Shen Yibow and walked towards his room.

Returning to the fluffy bed, he rubbed the futon and messed up the jacket on his body. Lying there, he propped up his head and looked at Shen Yigong's eyes. The young man dragged a chair and sat on the edge of his bed, rubbing his face with his hands, holding his breath for a long time without sighing. Huo Zuo stretched out his finger and flicked it on his mandible, telling him: "Qin Mingyue is still my sister after all. She didn't admit it. ”

Shen Yigong took his hand and put it back on the futon: "I'll wait until you sober up a little bit before talking about it." ”

"I know what you're thinking...... Where the spies haunted, Mingyue ran into you with a gun. Huo Zuo turned over on the bed, lying on his back and looking at the dark gold patterns that seemed to flow on the ceiling, "You doubt her, does she doubt you?" If she suspects you, she has one more reason to kill you. ”

"She hates you and wants to kill you, so she will naturally want to kill me."

"Doing things for the Politburo is also a good reason to kill. Who can compare to the Politburo in today's murderous and bloody world? They are all armed with guns, but if you want to ask the justifiable reason for killing, who can't compare to this. ”

Huo Zuo wore an indigo jacket, the buttons were fully open, and part of his shoulders were exposed, and his limbs were slackened on the blue velvet blanket, and his voice was still muffled. Shen Yigong didn't feel good when he saw him like this, he sat on the chair with his shoulders down, and didn't speak for a long time. As for Qin Mingyue's identity, how to deal with it next is not a big problem, he is more concerned about Huo Zuo's "addiction".

He sat quietly, Huo Zuo squinted his eyes and didn't hear any sound, and raised his head slightly to look at him: "Hey, I'm done asking, why don't you leave?" ”

Shen Yigong rubbed the thumb of his right hand with his left hand and looked at him with a calm face.

Huo Zuo smiled stupidly: "Why are you looking at me?" I didn't see enough of it a few years ago, so I'll see it here? ”

He raised his hand, his fingers hooking the hem of his clothes, Shen Yigong lightly grasped his wrist, and his fingertips rubbed against his warm skin. Huo Zuo sat up from the bed, leaned forward towards him, and tentatively raised his hand slightly and put it on his shoulder. Shen Yigong tried to ignore the increasingly ambiguous atmosphere, originally he was just to ask for information related to Qin Mingyue, but now that he had obtained the answer, he should have left. But he couldn't just leave, just refusing what might happen next.

He wanted a stone statue to stiffen and remain motionless, Huo Zuo slowly climbed up his body like a vine, straddled his lap around his shoulders, breathed hot air and touched his skin, and his lips seemed to rub past his ears.

He said: "I've recently ...... Always thinking about the past. It's not just you, it's a lot of people. Some people say that people will be like this when they are old, am I old? ”

Shen Yigong hesitated and put his hand on his lower back, looked at the fine lines at the corners of his eyes and said, "No, it's not too old, right?" ”

"That's starting to get old." Huo Zuo pressed the weight of his body down on him, and continued to whisper, "I thought of the person I loved a long time ago. He sings martial arts, and his monthly income is less than three yuan, which is not as good as me winning more by gambling on pai gow in one night. He was strong, tall, and very silly when he laughed, but he was very comfortable. Is he older than me, two or three? ”

He leaned on Shen Yigong, twisted his fingers behind his back and tilted his head in thought.

"It's like two years old."

Shen Yigong tried his best to hold him up and let him not just slide down. Huo Zuo chuckled and said, "It's a pity that we were too impulsive at that time, and we don't remember how ridiculous this thing was, and we can't remember to hide it." That's how my master knew, and when he asked me to leave him, I was the first time I fought against him so fiercely, and I hadn't killed anyone at that time, and like you, I couldn't do it at first. Killing people is a seemingly simple but actually very complicated thing, but it's a pity that I don't have as good a chance as you, and I can take the enemy with the first killing. Huo Congyi is more ruthless than me. ”

As he spoke, Huo Zuo closed his eyes.

"Later, you know. I told you about it. ”

Later, Huo Congyi covered the man's head and asked him to shoot.

"When the hood was taken off, he said to me - you can kill even the people you love, and there is nothing in this world that you can't kill."

Shen Yigong thought of cigarettes, his addiction, and the scene when a man smoked in front of him. Under the smoke, his gaze is always so erratic, you can never guess what he really thinks.

Thinking of this, Shen Yigong thought of something missing from Huo Zuo's side after meeting again in the past two years: "What about the lighter?" ”

"It's broken."

“…… Don't fix it? ”

"What's the use of fixing it. If it's gone, it's gone, and if it's repaired and put it around, it's still going to go. Huo Zuo raised his head, held Shen Yigong's face, and looked at him with a smile, "I don't have anything, I can't keep it, so I won't want to stay." If it shouldn't be mine, I don't want it either. ”

When he said these words, Shen Yigong inexplicably felt that someone was holding a hammer and hammering it his chest again and again. Even if he has long matured, love is not an essential thing in life, but in such an overly private atmosphere, certain emotions still inevitably affect him.

"Do you want me to feel guilty?"

"I don't want to." Huo Zuo replied.

"So what do you want from me? You made me admit that I couldn't quit you, and I confessed, and you let me see with my own eyes how weak I was trapped in the cage you had woven for me. You made me understand that I can't let go of you and can't forget it, I already knew it. What do you want me to do now? ”

"What do I want from you?" Huo Zuo threw his head back with a smile and exhaled exaggeratedly and helplessly, "Why do you ask me this?" Isn't it now that you have appeared in front of me again and again, emphasizing your presence, repeatedly making demands with me? How can you say that I'm asking you what I'm asking you to do right now? ”

"Then why are you putting this in front of me?"

Huo Zuo was stunned for a moment: "What do you mean by 'this look'?" ”

"You look weak and incompetent. You...... You look terrible. Shen Yigong said, his face couldn't bear to hug him hard and put his head against his chest, "You are extremely tough on the one hand, and you hold me firmly in the palm of your hand as a plaything like eight years ago, and on the other hand, you show such an attitude, which is clearly undefeated, but inexplicably reveals a state of decay." I can't refuse you like this, and I feel even more guilty. If that's what you want, then I'll admit it, you succeeded. ”

"I never thought about it. You just accidentally bumped into it, and you didn't pick the right time. Huo Zuo didn't know what he was justifying, but his personality meant that at this time, even if there was no reason, he had to find a reason for himself.

Shen Yigong understood what he meant, and he shrunk his hand tighter, as if rubbing him into his life: "I really don't understand you, from beginning to end I never knew what you wanted, what you hoped for." I am going to prove myself step by step, to fight for it, to climb and to grab it, I want you to be impressed, let you know that I am also an upright man, no worse than you. But the way you are now makes me feel like a fool doing this, you just look at the jokes, and then continue to manipulate and influence me in your usual ways. ”

"Shen Yigong, I've never thought about it like this."

"What the hell do you want from me? You want to be strong and weak, what do you want to do all this? ”

"I didn't show weakness to you!" He shouted weakly, and began to push his shoulder, trying to escape from his embrace, "Let go, there's nothing to talk about, you go." ”

But the young man did not move, and refused to let go at all.

"No, we want to talk. I still have a lot more to ask you. If you're not trying to show weakness to me, then explain to me why you're addicted. In the past, you were so tough that it made me feel terrible and made the whole Shanghai people frightened, but here, in this room, what do you look like, Huo Zuo...... Are you still the man I tried to escape from my delusional transcendence? ”

Shen Yigong didn't realize that his voice was hoarse when he said these words again. He hugged the other party, didn't look at him from beginning to end, and the voice of the answer did not come, only Huo Zuo suddenly went crazy and beaten: "You let go of me, I didn't do this!" What does it matter to you what I look like! I didn't let you come, and I didn't ask you to come and see me like this, let go of my Shen Yigong, you let go! ”

"You have killed countless people without fear, and you have done many evils without a bottom line. I should have hated you, and if you hadn't done that, I could have hated you completely. But why are you doing this? Step by step, monitor me, control me, and let my deepest hatred and strongest love for you only last one night in the Qin Mansion. Or maybe you don't show up in front of me, and that's it. But why do you want me to see you? Aren't you ruthless? Aren't you evil? Don't you have no bottom line, as long as you can climb up, you can use any means? Then why are you helping me? Why are you doing this, let me spend every day and every night from now on thinking of you. ”

There was really no strength, Huo Zuo finally gave up and stopped struggling, and instead bit Shen Yigong's neck, the man let out a muffled snort, but he didn't see the slightest loosening. The smell of blood spread in his mouth, and Huo Zuo's lips were stained red with blood. He saw that he couldn't even make this guy let go, and finally sighed helplessly, and whispered in his ear:

"You are me, you will be punished."