Shen Yigong said that he had never felt so frustrated as he did today.

He tried to save one person's life, even if it was just one more. The rain had been falling last night, and it was clear that the noodles had been washed clean, but the smell of blood seemed to be engraved in his bones - he couldn't do it, whether it was promised to Huo Zuo or Xu Ruonong, or even just to help Xu Zhiqiang bring his mother home......

He also wanted to kill the betrayer with his own hands like that, but in that case, it was impossible for him to shoot Guo Feng in front of the members of the red team. The only thing he could do was to bring the suitcase back and send it to those who really needed it through Huo Zuo's hand.

He also tried to distinguish the real from the fake, and saw through the real from the fake, but the things he could see from his position were too limited. He had never been more eager to do more than he was today.

Huo Zuo looked at him like a child, and put his unplastered hand around his shoulder so that his head could rest on his lap: "Shh...... I know. It makes you nervous and stressed. ”

"I just want to do better." Shen Yigong closed his eyes on his lap, briefly left the past of the two behind, knelt beside him a little weakly, and was alone in the space, even if it was against what he had said, it seemed irrelevant, this relationship was fatal and difficult to let go.

Huo Zuo stretched out his hand and lifted his chin and looked at his face: "So you're here to ask me for money?" ”

"It's borrowing money."

"Being famous and rich means that your past will also be wiped out by someone with a heart, how do you peel off the traces I left on you? Everyone will know that you are my Huo Zuo's apprentice, even if you leave me for three years? ”

"I don't do the same thing as you."

"Where's your money?"

"I'll give it back to you sooner or later."

“…… You know it's unpleasant to borrow money with that attitude. ”

Shen Yigong wanted to get up, but Huo Zuo pinched his jawbone hard: "Don't move." He warned.

"You want me to get down on my knees and beg you?"

Huo Zuo's eyes sank for a moment, the darkness swirled in his eyes, the charcoal fire in the room was burning, making a crackling sound, and in silence, he used the hand that was still able to move to roughly tear open Shen Yigong's collar.

The buttons fell to the ground in an instant, and the man's slender fingertips scratched at the bullet marks on his shoulders.

"I don't want you to beg me." He ran his fingertips across the scar on the man's bare shoulder, ran his strong shoulder, ran his neck and pressed against the side of his face, "You have six bullet marks, all for me. One bullet mark is 10,000, a total of 60,000. ”

"I'll pay you back."

Huo Zuo let go of his hand, fell back into the chair, reached out to take a cigarette and bit it in his mouth: "I'm not polite to you, three points per month, you have to pay me back within six months, and if you don't come out, you will be a cow and a horse for me for the rest of my life." ”

Shen Yigong raised his head, and after a while, he suddenly laughed, and grabbed his wrist with his backhand: "Okay." Life is already owed to you, and I am not afraid to owe it for the rest of my life to be a cow and a horse. ”

The man looked at him with a cigarette between his fingertips: "It's good that you can still beg me so shamelessly." You know, sometimes I want to punch you up when I see your dog-like face outside. Why have you been with me for so long and still put on a righteous face? Are you a good person, what am I? ”

"You're always going to be mad at me, and you want to kill me so much."

"Yes, I want to kill you. I don't know why I just can't do it. Huo Zuo licked his lips and raised his hand to run along the carotid artery in his neck, "Shen Yigong, I am the only person you can ask for in this life, if you are someone else, as long as you dare to kneel down, I will break your leg." ”

"You're right, I'm not really a good person. At least I'm taking advantage of you for not wanting to kill me. ”

"You still have to make inches with me, and ask for them again and again."

"Maybe I'm righteous to others, but I know I can't hide it from you." Shen Yigong stood up and tugged at the collar that could no longer be buttoned, "The things you left me, I sometimes don't know how to get along with them." ”

Huo Zuo propped his head: "You remember that you are my dog." Dogs that have eaten human flesh and drunk human blood. When you opened your mouth, you thought you would go back when you said you would go back? ”

"But you say I can be a man."

"Yes, except for biting me, you are a gesture to everyone."

In this life, if you want to climb high, you have to understand one thing: it is best not to have weaknesses in your life.

With a weakness, it's like a maggot crawling on a wound. The more rotten it is, the more it becomes a piece of stinky meat, and finally it is kicked into the gutter and completely washed away. is over thirty years old, Huo Zuo is too clear about these truths. He has killed many people in his life, relatives, masters, and brothers, but he doesn't know why, he just can't be ruthless to this young man who once followed him.

Even now he turned back and borrowed money from him in such a humble and cunning manner, using what seemed to be a high-sounding reason as an excuse. Huo Zuo understood that he couldn't be ruthless in this matter, and Shen Yigong couldn't get rid of him.

This burst of self-torture secretly gave birth to pleasure inexplicably.

"I can live without you." Shen Yigong sighed, "But my heart can't be controlled." ”

His gaze still swept uncontrollably over the scars on Huo Zuo's body, since he met the man, the other party had never really been seriously injured, let alone the appearance of needing a plaster.

When Huo Zuo heard him say this, he laughed exaggeratedly, and he stood up and made a gesture of sending off guests: "You don't have to just pick up nice things to tell me for money." ”

Shen Yigong also knew that what he said was out of place, and he regretted it a little after he said it, and he lowered his face and was about to leave, but when he just raised his steps, he heard Huo Zuo pass by him and shook off his words.

", I'll have someone here to entertain me later."

The blood in his brain rushed up, and when Shen Yigong reacted, he inexplicably hugged the person from behind Huo's left. His hands were tightened, as if he was really afraid that people would leave him. Huo Zuo lowered his face coldly and broke his fingers: "Let go." ”

Shen Yigong buried his head in his back shoulder and did not speak.

"You're not drunk today, you're here to beg me for money, don't do anything superfluous." Huo Zuo slapped his palm again, "Let go." ”

"You're right, Huo Zuo ......" Shen Yigong's warm breath rubbed against the back of Huo Zuo's neck as he spit out the words, "I've been thinking about you all the time." You've been my addiction all my life, and I can't quit and can't forget it. After you left that day, my mind was all about you. It's all yours...... You gasp, your body ......"

He greedily sniffed the faint smell of tobacco on his shoulder.

"I tried to think about what I was going to do with you in the future. I thought I was going to give it all back to you. But that day you came, and that day in bed I suddenly realized......" he said in a deep voice, "I may never be able to return those things to you." ”

Huo Zuo felt the other party holding his body, such an honest male reaction was more sincere than a thousand words. But it seemed ridiculous, and what he had gained seemed too sad.

"Shen Yigong, I'm more than ten years older than you, if you have something to say, I'll just listen to it. Money for money, love for love, mix together, you are too villainous. ”

Huo Zuo turned around and slapped Shen with a crisp bow and a slap with his right hand. Shen Yigong tilted his head and sneered: "I am the apprentice you taught." There are some things that may not be changed. ”

"I'll give you the money you want. Other? You can't afford it now. ”

"Am I not qualified?"

"Have you ever had?"

Shen Yigong held a breath of air in his eyes, he didn't dwell too much on this issue with Huo Zuo, but he didn't leave like this, he just slowed down, as if he was discouraged, and said calmly: "Okay." Then you can at least tell me why you came back from Tianjin with injuries. ”

"Japanese businessmen want to compete with me. I won, he hurt worse than me. Enough of that? Can you go? ”

Shen Yigong tugged at the collar and nodded to him: "Okay." Enough of that, I'm able to go. ”

Huo Zuo gave him a step away, raised his hand and made a gesture of invitation.

Shen Yigong walked to the door and stopped again: "Since your money can be given to me, within five years, I will also sell the Japanese goods in the Shanghai basic daily necessities market." ”

Huo Zuo opened his eyes and said casually: "Okay, I'll wait." Mr. Shen is so capable, I'll wait and see. ”

Shen Yigong finally opened the door here to leave, and paused before leaving. Huo Zuodu's face was impatient, and he was about to have a seizure, but he heard him say, "I'm leaving." Huo Zuo, I will make you look up to it. ”

The sarcasm, which was already almost on the lips, dissipated inexplicably. Huo Zuo watched him walk out and closed the door, his back was tall and broad, and the muscles and scars on his body revealed the breath of a mature man. The footsteps grew farther and farther away, and the man in the study let out a long sigh and closed his eyes.

Listen to him admit it.

But what if he admits these weaknesses?

Where has this relationship gone now, and how will it go next? What kind of affection can you not quit with? I heard a lot of the oath when I was young and ignorant, but which one really had a good result? played a beautiful game of chess, and I wanted to pull a helper for nothing by relying on love. This abacus is both shameless and obscene enough.

"Men have done this...... Huo Zuo fell back into the chair, and his dry eyes had long forgotten when he cried for love when he was a teenager. He took a cigarette and lit it, but the white mist choked his eyes, choking out a few tears, he looked at the closed door and scolded, "It's useless." ”

Before he finished smoking this cigarette, Xu's mother came and knocked on the door and said, "Master, Mr. Shen is taking the child away." ”

"I just want him to take it away."

"Then the children's room you said is still furnished!"

Huo Zuo looked at the piece of ash that fell in front of the cigarette and sighed: "Arrange it." Who knows when this child will come to live again. ”

Mother Xu got a response and stepped back. The old man sat alone in the study, and he didn't know what to think.

Two days after Shen Yigong returned from Huo Zuo, he received an envelope and a check. On the letter was Huo Zuo's note, saying that the suitcase had been handed over to the people who would leave for the Soviet Union in the near future. Guo Feng, a few days ago, was found floating on the Beihe River, and it is not yet known who moved the hand.

Shen Yigong subconsciously rubbed the new knife marks in his palm, and glanced at the check.

Xiaoqiang was sitting at the dining room table drinking porridge, Shen Yigong put down the letter and walked to rub the child's head: "Xiaoqiang, how about uncle take you to Ningbo tomorrow." ”

"What are we going to Ningbo for?"

"Let's go to Ningbo to see the factory make matches. Not just matches, but also raincoats, chopsticks, and enamel cups. You may have to accompany your uncle to a lot of places during this time! ”

Xu Zhiqiang was very well-behaved, and nodded when he heard this: "It's okay!" I'll accompany you wherever your uncle goes! ”

This kid is now following Shen Yigong like this. Mu Qiuping moved out of this apartment a few days ago and shared a room with the makeup artist of the film crew in the room in front of Shikumen. She said that she took over the film and was filming, and occasionally called one or two times, and when the schedule was busy, there was no message.

Before Shen Yigong left Shanghai, he went to the old shed area again, this time he went mainly to find a few local landlords, he put a contract and renovation agreement in front of several old Shanghai, several looked at each other, said to think about it, and called him the next day to tell him -

"Does the 'Penglai Market' you said really work?"

"It works."

The person in charge made a decision: "Okay! We believe you, the old shed area knows what you Shen Yigong has done in the past few years. Now since you want to let the big guys make money together, then let's help you do this together! ”

It's as if it's going to be done little by little. Venues, domestic products, merchants.

All that left was for him to realize the blueprint of the shopping mall in his mind little by little, and use the 60,000 yuan that Huo Zuo gave him to practice.

After dormant for three years, and seeing through the essence of the so-called partisan struggle, Shen Yigong always vaguely felt that it was time to do something.

At the end of June, amid the laughter of people at the Shanghai railway station, a man took a boy by the hand and boarded a train to Ningbo.

The whistle roared, white smoke filled the air, and the white clouds and blue sky filled the large clock dial on the Bund. People come and go, Shanghai rises and falls, how many people have plunged into the bright lights of Shanghai, and how many people are fighting for money and profit.

After seeing the struggle and the bloodshed, Shen Yigong realized how naïve and naïve what he had done alone. He thought that leading the workers' revolution was great, and he thought that those who wore the sign of rebellion against everything were heroic. The results seem to be ...... It turns out that everyone is just ordinary people.

It is rare for a person like Mr. Xu Ruonong to see more people who betray their comrades for the sake of profit.

Shen Yigong sat in the seat, and Xiao Qiang excitedly looked at the scenery passing by quickly outside the car window. His palm touched the expensive perfume-scented handkerchief in his pocket, and his lips tightened slightly.

In the final analysis, Shanghai Tang is a place where you don't spit out your bones, and if you want to do more, you can only climb to a higher position.

Huo Zuo taught him back then, and he still had to pick up a few points after all.

Just like that person, he can't give up, can't forget, and can't hold back the desire to climb up to him. After that rainy night, Shen Yigong suddenly figured out something.

If this desire becomes a snake that entangles and torments him, then it is better to face it calmly. He knew what he was doing, from start to finish.

He just selfishly and despicably used a love affair to kidnap the lives of two people, and stubbornly followed the right path he believed. He knew what his actions were called, but as the desire to climb to the top intensified, this near-kidnapping became the most advantageous weapon at the moment.

The train is getting farther and farther away from Shanghai, passing through the wasteland and fields. The pale smoke filled the heavens and the earth, like a fiery snake hurtling down its tracks.