"Moonlight, Xiucailang. Ride a white horse and cross the lotus pond. Outside the lotus pond, leeks are planted. Leek flowers, marrying a family. A pond at the door of her own house..."The soft and charming female voice slowly sang the Hakka nursery rhyme, she was not speaking Hakka, and even the tune was not the original tune.

She sings Hakka nursery rhymes, but she uses the dialect of her hometown, and the tunes are hummed at will, but in the hazy and hazy you can still hear a few tones that belong to the Hakka dialect.

A woman sat on a stool, sitting with her back to the door, holding a girl who had just finished crying in her arms, in order to coax the child in her arms, her thin body swayed back and forth in a light arc, and her head was crooked, as if she wanted to stick to the girl's face, but in the end it was not pasted, and the sunlight outside splashed in, blessing some warmth to this already warm scene.

“… Put a carp eight feet long. The carp bears the lamp on her back, and the carp grows in her belly as a school. Be a school and write articles. The article I wrote was gone, and I caught up with the light of the day. The woman's lips were slightly open, and the voice that flowed out was smooth and gentle, like the water of a small stream.

Because her grandmother is a Hakka, she knows this Hakka nursery rhyme, and her grandmother sings it to her mother, and her mother sings it to her, and now she sings it to her daughter.

It's just that her mother died early, and she only went to her grandmother's house during the New Year's holiday, so she didn't know how to speak Hakka, and only learned a little bit, and that little bit of Hakka was not enough for her to sing this nursery rhyme in Hakka.

But she loves to sing this nursery rhyme with her daughter, and she hopes that her daughter can read poetry and books, be a child who knows etiquette, and become a gentle and kind woman when she grows up in the future.

"Xinhui." A voice suddenly sounded in the corridor outside, but there was no one in sight, it should be a kind old grandmother, just like Grandma Cheng in Bingxin's "Superman", "I'm cooking dinner, are you going to bring the moon over?" ”

The woman was startled, and hurriedly looked down at the child in her arms, for fear of waking up her daughter, seeing that her daughter was still sleeping, she breathed a sigh of relief, and walked to the bed with some difficulty.

She reached out and touched the child's face lovingly, her jaw bones were a little sick, her eyes immediately turned red, the child couldn't be hungry anymore, and needed to eat some meat to make up for it.

Then the woman quickly got up and walked outside, and smiled at the old man in front of her: "Grandma Wang doesn't need it, it's enough to eat at your house these days." ”

Grandma Wang chose the green vegetables in her hand and glared at her with some disgust: "What are you talking about, my children have gone out to work, and they are not at home all the year round, just me and the old man are at home, and we don't know how to eat every day, and I don't even know how to scoop a few taels of rice." ”

She sent the green vegetables in her hand forward again: "I don't even know how much to fry this dish to be appropriate, add the dishes and chopsticks of you and the moon, that's just right." ”

Yan Xinhui pursed the corners of her mouth a little embarrassed, obviously these words were to make her feel at ease, but she smiled a little far-fetched, perhaps it was because she knew the kindness of this old man that she was even more embarrassed, she had read so many books since she was a child, how could she eat an old man's meal shamelessly.

"By the way, I bought a pound of meat tonight, doesn't the moon like to eat this?" Grandma Wang thought she had persuaded the woman, "Look at her small body, you can eat more." ”

Yan Xinhui suddenly came to her senses and hurriedly shook her head: "No, Grandma Wang, we really won't go to your place to eat tonight, I'll go out to buy rice and vegetables later." ”

"That's just right, don't go out and buy it, just go to my place and eat together." Grandma Wang hurriedly dissuaded.

Yan Xinhui shook her head, then turned around and walked back to her room quickly, and after picking up the delicate woven handbag, she walked out again, but as soon as she reached the threshold, she stopped and looked back at the child on the bed, gritted her teeth, the things in her eyes became more firm, and walked out directly.

Yan Yue looked at her little self on the bed, and then raised her eyes to look at the door where Yan Xinhui left, and then followed out, as soon as she stepped out of the door, she could see that every family was already preparing dinner, and she also realized that her ghost really came eighteen years ago.

She glanced at the building that resembled a courtyard house in Beijing, this was the family dormitory of Su Jiannian's factory, the first floor was the kitchen for everyone to cook, the second floor and the third floor were the places to live, each family was allocated rooms according to the number of people, and their house was on the second floor, with two rooms.

"Xinhui!" Grandma Wang saw that the woman really wanted to go out, so she quickly put down the dishes in her hand and got up to stop them, "I said that I don't need to buy it, eat it here, I have bought all the meat, why don't you listen to persuasion?" ”

Yan Xinhui still refused, showing a somewhat ugly smile, and then walked briskly and went downstairs.

Meat, the meat in 1998 is still a luxury thing, you can only eat it during the New Year's holiday, Yan Yue sighed, her mother will naturally refuse it embarrassedly.

I remember that at that time, Grandma Wang saw that they had no food, so she called them to eat, Yan Xinhui originally wanted to refuse, but because they had been hungry for two days, Yan Xinhui had to bow her head to eat.

Yan Yue looked at the figure who had just gone out of the gate, tonight was the day her mother jumped off the building, although she knew that she jumped off the building because of despair, but she didn't know that Yan Xinhui had gone out during the day, whether it would have anything to do with her death, she wanted to catch up quickly when she thought about it, but her actions were faster than she thought.

She had teleported to Yan Xinhui's side.

Yan Xinhui walked all the way, and after walking for almost half an hour in leather shoes with thick heels, she turned around and entered a large compound, Yan Yue frowned and stood outside and looked, this is... Where her aunt and uncle and grandmother lived.

"Is there no rice at all?" Yan Xinhui was talking to a shriveled middle-aged woman, who was Yan Yue's aunt, Su Jiannian's sister-in-law, Su Zhang.

Su Zhang glanced at him impatiently: "It's gone." ”

Yan Xinhui lowered her head, and her voice was very small: "But sister-in-law, didn't your family just arrive and get new rice?" ”

"I said it's gone, it's gone, my family has that little rice, and I still have three sons to raise, life is tight enough, where can I divide the extra rice to support you." Su Zhangshi glared, "Just how much Su Yue's female baby can eat, other people's female babies are all raised as dogs, just like you raise a Miss Jingui, just send her to read and buy her some idle books to read, this book is a fool if you read too much." ”

Yan Xinhui bit her lip tightly, her face was already very red: "Child... Men and women should have equal access to education and everything, and a good education can make children grow up to be very good..."

Su Zhang's family had never read a book, and she gave birth to three belts for the Su family, her face was glorious, and when she heard this remark, she directly shouted to stop: "Come on, you tell the third brother every day that you talk like this, what is the final result, tell the third brother to leave, you really deserve it." ”

"Go back and watch your baby girl, I'm going to make dinner." Su Zhang's will leave after burying him.

And Yan Xinhui had been poked by Su Zhang's previous words, and she bit the flesh on the inner wall of her mouth and refused to let go, but after hearing Su Zhang's words, she immediately withdrew from her own pain and stepped forward a few steps to hold Su Zhang's hand: "Sister-in-law, I heard that the second brother won a lot of bonuses yesterday, so you borrowed it two years ago..."

"Borrow... Can you pay back a few yuan of my dozen yuan first, I'll go buy some rice and vegetables and go back. After thinking of the children at home, Yan Xinhui still gritted her teeth and said it, but her face was already red.

Su Zhang shook his hand directly: "What kind of money, I said, I have already returned it to the third brother, you ask him yourself." ”

Yan Xinhui was pushed away, and then gritted her teeth and stepped forward to grab Su Zhang's sleeve: "If Jiannian knew that I lent you money, he would definitely quarrel with me, but Jiannian never said about this matter, sister-in-law must be honest." ”

"The third brother needs money to run with that woman, how can I tell you, let it go quickly!" Su Zhangshi shook her hand again, and found that Yan Xinhui was holding it very tightly this time, so she directly reached out and pushed it hard.

Yan Xinhui was pushed to the ground in an instant, her hands were scratched, and her eyes were already red.

Yan Yue wanted to go up and hug her, but she couldn't, her hand went directly through the woman's body, and the woman hadn't shed tears yet, she shed tears first.

"Zhang! Zhang's! Hurry up and cook, the brothers are about to go home from school. Suddenly, a shrill voice ran out of the house, "But I want my precious grandson to have a hot meal as soon as he gets home." ”

Su Zhang immediately responded with a smile: "Let's go." ”

"Go, go, go!" The person who came out of the house waved his hand to Su Zhang's family, and when he saw Su Zhang's left, he turned his head to look at the person who fell to the ground, and saw the expression of the broom star on his face, "Why are you still here?" ”

Yan Xinhui stood up from the ground with her hands on her hands: "Mom, give me some rice, the moon has to eat, she is growing her body." ”

"Eat? How many people don't have to eat? The person on the other side said in disgust, "Just a girl starved to death, and I don't know what's going on with your belly, I can't give birth to a handle for ten years, no wonder my son wants to go with other women." ”

Yan Yue looked over and saw a face as evil as a rakshasa, this was her grandmother Su Huang, patriarchal thinking, and Xinmin was her cousin and cousin, she remembered that the reason why their family did not live in this compound was because her mother gave birth to her as a girl.

"Mom... It's my fault that I didn't give you a grandchild..."Yan Xinhui never felt that there was any difference between men and women, nor did she feel that there was anything wrong with giving birth to a girl, but she really had no choice but to bow her head today, "But the moon is also your granddaughter, and she has a continuous blood relationship with you, and she is also Jiannian's child, you can't let it go, right?" ”

Su Huang snorted and lost a cold face: "Jiannian ran away with the woman, maybe he will give birth to a little grandson for me outside, and then he will come back and divorce you, I am worried about what your daughter is doing, go quickly." ”

After that, he went to pick up the bamboo broom that swept the road next to him and hit it directly on the woman's body, it was distressing to look at it, Yan Yue also looked at it anxiously, for fear that the bamboo would scratch Yan Xinhui.

"Mom..."Yan Xinhui, who was beaten, stood steadily, even if it hurt very much, she didn't move, until she saw that Su Huang was determined to drive her out, her eyes were hot, tears fell straight down, her lips trembled slightly, and her voice was full of helplessness.

In the end, Yan Xinhui was pushed out of the compound by the powerful Su Huang clan, and after seeing Yan Xinhui being pushed to the ground by herself, she took a bamboo broom into the compound and closed the door again.

Yan Xinhui cried on the ground for a while before she stood up, wiped away her tears with her sleeves, lowered her head to dust off her clothes, and then took the handbag on the ground and walked back.

Yan Yue didn't keep up, just stood at the gate of the compound and watched Yan Xinhui's back, her mother was always like this, just desperate to sobbing on the ground, it was the only vent she couldn't bear in her heart.

Yan Yue glanced at the Su family's compound, and then went in again, she heard that Su Zhang's family was discussing with Su Huang's two people about selling rice, and then took the money from selling rice and her second uncle's bonus to buy a suite, and the rest of the money was used to buy new clothes for Xinmin's brothers, and then buy ten catties of meat to make meatballs to eat.

"Xinhui, eat something quickly." It was Grandma Wang's voice, Yan Yue looked at the source of the sound in a daze, obviously she was still in the Su family's compound in front of her, why did she come home again, obviously it was still daytime in front, why was it night?

Yan Xinhui was secretly wiping her tears in the room, and when she saw Grandma Wang coming in with a board, she quickly got up to greet her: "Grandma Wang, why are you still here?" ”

"I'm not coming, the moon's belly and yours can't growl?" Grandma Wang laughed, put the things in her hand on the table next to her, and glanced at the child who was still sleeping on the bed, "Why are you still asleep, hurry up and eat, I specially left meat for her." ”

Yan Xinhui looked at the two bowls of rice and a bowl of meat on the table, as well as a plate of green vegetables, and couldn't tell what it tasted like, but Grandma Wang thought that she still wanted to refuse, so she went to wake up the child on the bed first: "Moon, get up quickly, Grandma Wang can fry meat for you to eat today." ”

"Really?" The child immediately jumped up from the bed, and then immediately ran off the bed to the table, looking at the meat in the bowl and swallowing, "Grandma Wang is so good." ”

Yan Yue remembered that she was very happy at that time, because she was very hungry at that time, and she didn't fall asleep at that time, she actually woke up a long time ago, but she was afraid that her mother would be even more sad when she woke up hungry, so she pretended to be asleep and continued to lie down.

"If you think grandma is good, then you have to eat it all, and you can't waste food." Grandma Wang looked at the elated child like her own granddaughter, she also had a granddaughter, but that granddaughter Fu Bo died young.

The child nodded, sat down on the stool, and picked up the bowl with both hands to eat.

"The moon?" Yan Xinhui touched her child's head and frowned slightly.

The child immediately understood, turned around and said "thank you" to Grandma Wang, and then gobbled it up.

Yan Xinhui took a breath, and then exhaled without a trace, after Grandma Wang saw it, she stepped forward and patted her on the shoulder, signaling her to go out, and waited until the person came out, and then whispered: "Su Jiannian's stinky boy has been running away with people for a month, what are you going to do in the future?" ”

The night Su Jiannian left, the sound was too loud to wake up Grandma Wang next door, so she was the only informed neighbor.

"I don't know." Yan Xinhui shook her head, "I only studied at home before I got married, and I haven't gone out to work since I got married, so let's look at it." ”

Grandma Wang sighed: "You said that you too, he ran away with Xiao San, and you also said to the outside that he went out to work, and directly said that he cheated and ran away, so that he would have no face to come back to Huaicheng." ”

Yan Xinhui pursed her lips and smiled bitterly.

"Alright, you can go eat first." Grandma Wang didn't dare to say any more, for fear of making this woman sad again, "I'll talk about it slowly in the future, anyway, with me, I won't starve to death for the two of you." ”

Yan Xinhui wanted to say something, but was pushed back by Grandma Wang, and after entering the room, she asked Yan Xinhui to eat quickly, she sat at the dressing table and was bored, looked around, and then picked up a photo and asked Yan Xinhui: "Is it you in this photo, it's weird." ”

"It's me." Yan Xinhui finished eating, put down the dishes and chopsticks, and glanced at it roughly, it was the photo she had just taken out earlier, "That was when I was still at home, before I got married, my father took me to take a photo, saying that he would leave a daughter's last thought." ”

When you get married, it's not your daughter's family, but a woman's family.

Yan Yue also hurried up to take a look, the whole person was stunned, this photo was the photo she saw in the book, she hadn't reacted yet, the scene around her suddenly changed again, she saw her mother writing something on the photo at the desk, and after she finished writing, she sandwiched it into a book, and then called the ten-year-old her to her and gave the book out with her own hands: "Moon, this is a gift from your mother for your tenth birthday, do you like it?" ”

The child is deeply influenced by her mother, and loves to read since she was a child, but her books are going to be turned over and over again, and now she is naturally happy to receive a new book, and she can't care to doubt that today is not her birthday: "I like it very much, thank you Mom." ”

Yan Xinhui's face finally brought a happy smile: "Moon, you must be strong in the future, you have to go out to work like your aunt, don't learn from your mother... Mom is so bad. ”

"Mom isn't bad." The child looked up and pouted at the woman, "Mom has taught the moon a lot of things, and she is even better than the teachers at school." ”

Yan Xinhui smiled, then asked the child to do her homework, she picked up her clothes and went out to wash.

This is the time!

Her mother jumped off the building at this time, she wanted to follow and pull her mother back, but she suddenly couldn't move, the whole person could only stand in place like a sculpture, time passed second by second, she changed from the first anxious to her eyes open with resentment, and then after hearing a shout of "Su Jiannian and his daughter-in-law jumped off the building", hot tears slipped out of her eyes like a decisive flood.

Then she was dizzy, and she returned to her ten-year-old body, and then she ran out as fast as she could, and as soon as she ran out, she stood still in front of the iron railing, and looked as if she were stunned at the open space downstairs, where lay a woman with her face down, her head dripping with blood.

She smelled blood, but instead of vomiting, she sat slumped in place, holding the iron railing with both hands, her eyes staring down in a daze, and then she looked up at the full moon in the sky, which was so bright, and it was still so bright when she looked at it again.

She was very afraid, that heart seemed to be eaten by the moon, but she just couldn't take her eyes off, as if she had been bewitched, even from this time of the night, she could no longer see the full moon.

Then a pair of withered hands covered her eyes, and it was Grandma Wang who ran out after hearing the sound: "Don't look at the moon... Don't look, don't be afraid, grandma is here. ”

"Grandma Wang, Mom... Mommy doesn't want the moon anymore. She couldn't hold back her crying anymore, because she had this reason to cry now, and she didn't have to hide under the covers and cry quietly when she was sad, as she did before.

Now that she is only ten years old, she can cry openly and express her sadness and pain.

Grandma Wang slept with her in her arms that night, and she fell asleep when she cried in a daze, and when she opened her eyes and woke up, she saw the back of the driver's seat, and she felt pain all over her body, even breathing twice.

Yan Yue lowered her gaze slightly, looked at her stomach with difficulty, and then raised her hand to see that her hands were full of blood, it turned out that everything just now was just a dream, a dream before she died.

She wasn't dead yet, not because she was dead, but because the stab wasn't deep, maybe this person wanted to hold her last breath and feel the feeling of falling from a high altitude.

The car was still driving, she didn't know where it had been, only that it hadn't reached the place where she was going to die, and she was so tired.

She was just about to close her eyes when the car stopped, and she felt a coat suddenly cover herself, and then heard the one-eyed dragon say, "Fill up the gas." ”

It's to the gas station.

"Your daughter?" When the staff at the gas station came to grab the gas, they looked into the window of the car and saw only a man with a coat on his belly and a pale face that looked like a dead man, "What's wrong?" ”

Daughter? Yan Yue frowned, and then remembered that this person was a sloppy and unkempt image, looking like a person in his fifties and sixties, but his voice was in his thirties.

The one-eyed dragon also immediately reacted and sighed, deliberately disguising his voice: "It's my daughter, she is seriously ill, and the doctor in this city said that she can't be saved, I don't want to give up, so I plan to take her to the next city to have a look." ”

The staff didn't doubt it too much, only sympathetically said "It's pitiful", and then chatted again.

Yan Yue gritted her teeth, remembering that her mother wrote on the photo in the dream, and then clipped it into the book, and suddenly remembered that she casually stuffed the photo into the pajama pocket last night, she quickly grabbed the last straw, reached out and touched the pocket, and after taking out the photo, she didn't dare to show it, so she hid under her coat, and wrote the help signal "SOS" on the photo with the blood on her hand by feeling.

After writing one side, I went to write the second side for insurance, and after I finished writing, I firmly grasped it in my hand.

Waiting for the opportunity, she clenched her teeth, closed her eyes, listened to the sound outside the car window, and discerned the situation outside, she had to seize the opportunity to throw the photo out, she remembered that her car window was rolled down.

"The money you found." The staff had already put the snatch back and taken the change out.

After the man took it, he said thank you and walked to the door of the driver's seat, Yan Yue gritted her teeth, it was now, the man couldn't see, and when the staff was still there, she used the last bit of strength in her body to throw the photo out of her hand, and then the car also started.

Yan Yue closed her eyes and swallowed her saliva, her face, which originally had other expressions, had regained her calm, whether she died or lived, it all depended on her fate.

She has done her best to stay alive.