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Life has changed, and you have to live it. It's never been like this, it's not legendary.

A brother sent a text message in the middle of the night: "Brother, ask a question, don't be surprised!" "Okay." I replied. "Have you ever played with my wife? Excuse me. "I've met his wife once. He had just started to slip around, and when I heard about it, I forced him into a hotel room for a week. On the third day, a petite woman with a slightly shrewd oval face knocked on the door, handed him a pair of newly bought leather shoes, and left, without saying a word. He said, "It's my wife." Lao Tzu is afraid of her, but he is not afraid, so he should be shy in front of her. Half a year ago, she was arranged to work at the window of the automobile transportation company, and two months ago she got on the long-distance bus to sell tickets by herself, and I only knew about arguing with her about something else. The ticket sales salary on the long-distance bus is higher, but she can't tell the driver clearly, so she is not allowed to work, she said that it is only divorce. After the New Year, the two left. The daughter was taken by his parents to Changsha to study and lived in his sister's house for three or four years. "Brother, I don't even know your wife's name." "Brother, you answer me directly." "Nope." "That bothered." "My skull is numb anyway."

At noon the next day, I drank a glass and a half of wine with a group of people who were looking for me on the street to ask for debts, and went to the Xinchang Hotel to get a room and couldn't sleep. When it was time to go to work, I called a female colleague and asked her to sign in for me, and she agreed; Asked if she was busy in the afternoon, she said she shouldn't, and asked me what was the matter; I asked her to come over, and she said that everyone had gone to work. When she entered the room, her eyes lit up and she smiled and said, "You are calling me for the first time." I said, "Yes." He lowered his head and quickly went to bed and lay down. She came over and sat on the edge of the bed, turned her head to look at me and smiled, and at this time, including the back, she sat on the edge of the bed, dressed neatly, turned her head and said goodbye with a smile, got up and walked to open the door, went out and closed the door, all like a tall model in a street window, and in the middle was a well-behaved and obedient mature girl. When I woke up and went to my wife, it was an old one-bedroom house that I borrowed from a friend, and few people knew about it. After standing in the doorway for a while, she opened the door and let me in, and I almost escaped from this land of ice and fire.

When I returned to the house, I returned the phone after eating the next bowl of beef noodles, and I was all collecting debts. After the phone is connected, let the voice and movements match the words spoken to show that they are honest and innocent, and then make an innocuous affectionate little fork in the middle, and then make a fervent promise to extend the deadline and leave a lingering voice, and wait for the other party's anxious mood to hang up and pull out the next one. After five or six phone calls, getting ready to take a shower, I heard a knock on the door. I borrowed 30,000 yuan from her, and it was more than a year before a female colleague and her husband who worked as a security guard. Went into the house and sat down, handed her husband a cigarette, he took it and put on his face better, he and my little brother-in-law used to be colleagues. After she finished speaking, I said that I would pay 10,000 yuan in interest within three days. It's true, I've arranged it. She reluctantly smiled and agreed, and her husband suddenly said that he would not stop and repay the principal in one lump sum. I looked down and waited for a while, and said yes. It's a lie, I can't raise it. Her husband got up and said that according to the three days you promised, I will send the two of them out and leave. Back on the sofa leaning on a cigarette, a text message came in, it was from the owner of Yunlong Commercial Bank: "Hello! Today is the fourth agreed deadline for repayment, and if you don't answer the phone, you really want us to go to your home to find you? Please reply. I immediately replied, "I'm at home at this time." After a while, an unfamiliar number came in, three times in a row. I thought for a moment and went back: "Hello, who?" A young man's rough voice: "I'm from Yunlong Trading Company, surnamed Ma, where are you?" "Oh, the horse is always good." I said, "I'm at home." "You're welcome, just call me a pony." Pony said, "Then we'll meet you at this time." "Okay, come here." When I finished talking about it and was about to hang up, the pony said, "We're just running errands, so you can set a date at the end, okay?" I paused for a moment and said, "A week, is it convenient?" "Okay." Pony said, "That's it." ”

At the turn of the clock, just as he was about to fall asleep, the brother sent another text message: "I'm going to hack you to death." "I smile bitterly, this person who has stayed in his own world still radiates helpless loneliness and pain." Don't mess with me, brother. "I replied." I mean it. "Understood! Wait for me to sleep well today, and take the initiative to report to you tomorrow, okay? "Haha, my brother is strong." "Do you want me to talk to you?" "No, someone's coming.

On the day I hid in the street of the old house, the police took him to Dalu Mountain. He stayed at home alone, and at night with a knife in one hand and an axe in the other, he continued to patrol the balcony, saying that someone was going to attack him. In the first few days, he only occasionally shouted: "Lao Tzu saw it, you are in the corner downstairs, come up if you have a quantity!" Later, in the middle of the night, he screamed, "You kicked the door open and rushed to the balcony, Lao Tzu will kill you," while slashing his own shadow on the wall and floor with a knife and axe. A retired veteran cadre in the building couldn't stand his toss and dialed 110.

My mother called and said that I didn't do well at night, so I took the first bus to my third sister's house and asked me to finish my busy work and go over for lunch. As soon as I thought that I was not at ease in the unit, I went ahead of time. The younger sisters were there, and the mother said, "Oh, look how thin you are, you are fifty years old, and you are terrified all day long." I smiled and said, "Don't worry, I'm fine." The third sister said, "It's okay! I'm afraid that someone is looking for you every day. I said, "I don't hide from anyone." The eldest sister said: "There are still one or twenty days for the New Year, can those people get the money?" We can't come up with any more money. I bowed my head and said nothing. The second sister said, "Brother, just go out." A lot of bad money is like this, and it's not a scandal. I said, "I'm not going out." The mother immediately said, "Oh, what is going to happen to you, our five families are not having a good year." The little sister said, "Then can you avoid it before the New Year?" You're not tired like this, aren't you? lest my mother be in a hurry, and my father's illness has just stabilized. I thought about it for a moment and said, "Okay, I'll go back to the old house." The mother said, "Then you should go now." I said, "There's something going on today, so I'll leave tomorrow morning." "I would also like to stay at home for one more night. The mother asked, "Do you still have any money?" I laughed. The mother said, "Come and get the money when you leave tomorrow, and don't give it to others at this time." ”

In the afternoon, a brother from the outer part of a small loan company in the urban area called: "Brother Xu, we rushed to the county seat in the evening, are you at home?" I asked, "Brother, are you coming to me to collect debts?" He smiled and said, "We won't urge you this time, we will urge my sister-in-law." "He said his wife's name, and most of the small loan companies I borrowed money from helped me borrow again. I said, "Please raise your noble hand and find a way to do it." I am raising money in other places today, and I will be back in two days, and I will arrange a place to eat and stay immediately. He said, "Okay, I'd like to drink with you again, it's comfortable." However, at night, you have to post a collection note at the door of the community where you live, the wall of the building and the door of the house to take a photo, and you will ask someone to tear it off when we leave. I said, "Thank you, brother, I'll contact you when I get back." "This brother brought someone to my unit for the first time to collect money, and he was murderous, and I received him warmly and sincerely; Half an hour later, everyone walked out of the unit with a smile, got in the car to eat and drink, and I rode a motorcycle to lead the way. In the middle of the next month, he helped me get the directors and hosts of the peripheral departments of four other microfinance companies. After communicating and handling the repayment matters, we went to the riverside barge converted into a river-style restaurant, and drank in the river breeze, the golden full moon rose, and everyone felt the helplessness and happiness of life, and became brothers with a suitable temperament and similar smell. I couldn't see him again because I couldn't lie to him and quickly called him back to inform him of where to eat and stay. I came back from the unit to pack some luggage and supplies, and went directly to the third sister's house. When my mother heard that I was about to leave, she became nervous again and asked, "Oh, what's wrong?" I said, "I'm done, you can go early." "When I took the money she rolled up with a rubber band, my heart ached." Pay attention to yourself. Mother said anxiously. Don't worry, my brother knows how to take care of himself. The third sister reassured. Uh-huh. I replied vaguely, and turned my head to look at my mother as I went out.

That day, I stayed in a three-room, two-story hotel in the alley of the old food station on the street of my hometown, ready to survive the Chinese New Year.

On the first day, after packing up my things and myself, I pulled out the quilt and lay down on the bed to check my mobile phone: there were 98 missed calls and 29 text messages, except for the five missed calls and three text messages from my wife, all of which were debt collection. lit a cigarette and calmed down to block the sixteen numbers of debt collection one by one, replied to their text messages sincerely with a wicked smile, got up and unscrewed the teacup on the table, blew and took a sip on the tea surface of the cup, leaned back on the bed for a while, closed his eyes and thought about his wife, and when the tears were about to welling up, he tentatively replied to her with a text message: "I really can't get the money." She quickly replied: I know, I called her immediately, there was no answer, I think she must have been disappointed in me, but she will still deal with it, she said that the people in the mother's house will help her. The text she sent me earlier was: "What about the money I borrowed from you, you don't care about me?" "I didn't want to do anything else during this time of preparation, and I ran all over this town that I hadn't been to from the time I was born until I left at the age of seventeen, and by the way I took some pictures, and the casual habit of taking pictures has resolved my helpless despair many times.

The next day, I took out all the things I took out and rode out, the weather was quite good, there was occasional ice and fire in the wind, most of the time it was peaceful, I found that there were only rivers and rivers and rivers and lakes and other wilderness that I had not been to. The sun was about to wilt, and when I lay down and woke up from a dream, my mother called to say that my father was seriously ill. My father was 97 years old, and my parents sent my father to my second aunt's house in Xinyang City on the other side of the Xiaohong River before returning to the old house to guard the woods for me. Last year, his second aunt wanted to send him back, and it happened that his father was suffering from lung cancer and undergoing surgery and chemotherapy, and his mother was also in pain every day due to osteoporosis, so his father still stayed there. I heard that my father lived alone in the sentry house on the embankment of the repair section where the third aunt was, and the second and third aunts would send some daily necessities in a few days, clean up for him, and talk to him. I called my aunt and said that I didn't know yet, so I was going to see my father tomorrow. Get up and ride to the new estuary where the river has been during the day, the beach here is planted with Chinese cabbage and poplar, there is a piece of luck that has become a soil yard for the renovation of the Xiaohong River embankment, and the ground breaking construction has begun, and the land can get some compensation, and the outermost collapse has been a long slip, and the Chinese cabbage and the poplars on it are not afraid. The slope of the road looks like a volcanic crater, and some tall poplar trees can be seen falling into the river. The river body bends a 90-degree bend here, a certain year the river water hits out of this breach, and continues to Wuhu Lake and Wenshui flow a hundred miles away to draw two Xiaohong River, the mouth of the river has two waterways separated by sharp reeds, one is connected to the Xiaohong River that flows through Xinyang, and one is connected to the Liujialou behind the old house because of the dry season in the upper reaches of 15 miles away Liujialou turns 90 degrees sharply and breaks five or six kilometers of reeds into the Xiaohong River that flows through Xinyang and is almost abandoned, the river mouth is connected by a clear line. At the foot of the beach there was a green steel mud platform washed out by the water, and I took a picture on it first, and then I wanted to go up to do a sacred thing, thinking that it would be faster to take another road, but I went around a long way but could not pass there, and I could only pick up the reeds and miscellaneous trees and walk through, and the man suddenly went forward like crazy, and drilled out to the shore cliff and breathed a long breath. The sky was already blue, and I groped my way to the platform and stood and rested for a while, and the river in the twilight was full of turbulent and precipitated emptiness, and I gazed and prayed in the direction where my father lived, and it seemed that there was no ancient or modern for a while. After lighting a cigarette, I heard the wheezing sound of the giant beast sleeping from the top of the river in front of me, and my heart fluctuated, and I couldn't help but feel surprised. When I came out again, I went around in circles, and it was much easier.

On the third day, my mother called to say that my father had died, and I didn't like to see rain since I was a child, and I only wanted to pray for him yesterday evening at the mouth of the new river. As soon as I finished washing, my mother called again and told me that she and my father could not rush, and asked me to discuss with my second aunt to see if my father's ashes could be stored in Xinyang first, and we would go to get them back next year and repair the tomb and bury it with my grandmother. At noon, I rushed to the seat with my sister and sister, and saw my father curled up on the bed on his back, covering his face with a stack of yellow paper, I hugged his legs and cried, and my second aunt persuaded me repeatedly. Then I rushed back with my little brother-in-law to get a death certificate for my father, my father's household registration is in the town of my wife's mother's house, which is a little far away, for convenience, I found a former colleague in the old house town and the niece and daughter-in-law who managed the official seal in the old house village, both of them were very difficult, so I called my wife, and she answered: "What are you doing?" "Daddy is dead." I said, "Can you come with me?" "I was delivering oil in the township at this time, and I didn't have time." The wife said. "Oh, then you contact Dad at this time, and ask him to go to the street to write a death certificate for Daddy, I'll rush to get it later, Daddy's household registration is there." "Okay." The wife said. After a while, my wife called and said that the contact was good, and I wanted to say something and held back. Back on the embankment, my father had already left the bed, we burned incense and burned paper to eat noodles, I accompanied my second aunt to drink some wine, and talked about the past while I was drinking. In the evening, a small friend rushed to accompany the vigil, and he also went down the embankment to go back to the house to clear the mahjong, and everyone rubbed their hands to beat Lai, and it was dawn all night. Before supper, my second aunt asked me to go outside and set off the cannon, saying, "Just wait for others to know that we are doing something for my father." I shouted, "Yes." ”

On the morning of the fourth day, the eldest aunt came by car from Xiantao alone, and I asked my little brother-in-law to drive with the second aunt to pick her up. Cremated my father and turned everyone down to eat, drank and talked during the banquet, stayed up all night and was a little cold, and it was much hotter at this time. The little friend said that he wanted to sleep and sleep up and didn't come to dinner, I pulled the third brother-in-law with my aunt and drank for a while, and the sisters called me out to tell my aunts and aunts about my father's funeral, I said that my parents were not in good health and could not come, they told me that they wanted me to convey their hearts, and the expenses of Daddy's funeral should be borne by my house, one is that my father is the eldest of several sisters, and the other is that my father has relied on you to take care of him in recent years. The two aunts disagreed, and the third aunt also took out 3,000 yuan to the younger aunt during the banquet, and I took it and returned it to her, and the eldest aunt gave 1,000 yuan as soon as she came, and the younger aunt also returned it to her. I told the two aunts that you should give me this opportunity in the house, and the second aunt said next to me that it was okay, anyway, we would make a tomb, and we would pay for it then. My sister-in-law talked about sending my father back before, and explained to me that my father wanted to go back. I said that Daddy thought it was too much trouble for you to come and that he still wanted to go back. The second aunt said loudly in agreement, you are right about the latter point, and my eyes rained again. I went back to my room and fell asleep, and I woke up at night feeling relaxed and confused, thinking that my father, a seemingly insignificant person, could be proud of everything after living to be ninety-seven years old. I went out to scrambled egg rice, packed and bought two packs of gold leaf cigarettes, a tube of breakfast biscuits, and a pack of parallel green tea, and when I returned to the room, my wife called and said, "A woman is looking for you to collect debts and come to my mother to find me, so fierce." My mother told her that we were divorced, and she said that it was a fake divorce to avoid debts, and I was about to enter the door when I returned from delivering oil, and my mother motioned for me to avoid it. I was in the house on the side of the road, and my father was here. I said, "Don't worry, half an hour ago a friend sent a text message saying that she was looking for her, and I have asked my friend to persuade her to go back, so I'll contact you again." After a while, my friend replied: Okay, she will leave immediately. I called my wife: "It's okay, what are you going to do?" The wife said, "I spend the night at my mother's place every day when I come back from delivering oil, leave me alone, you pay attention to yourself." ”

On the fifth day, I woke up and saw a message on QQ that I hadn't responded to for a long time, and I opened it and read it, it was a question from my classmate Sanqiu: "Are you okay?" I felt a hint of warmth and replied: Not very good. After packing up and preparing to go out, I saw her reply: "Then come to me." I hesitated for a moment and replied: Okay. She sent the address, and I replied, "I guess I'll be there for you to get off work in the afternoon." She replied: Waiting for you. After going through the early retirement procedures, she worked for a friend in Andu, nearly 150 kilometers away, and her husband was also in the north. Once she called in the afternoon and said that she was back from rest, before I borrowed a little money from her and didn't pay it back, so I said to take her out for dinner, she said that she was going to send her out as a guest, and asked me to go to her house to sit at night for a while, and I agreed. When she had nothing to say, she got up and walked into the room, turned on the light, and called to me: "Come and see, what is the room doing?" I don't usually use it all the time, but when I come back, it's full of dust. I went in behind her and said, "It's like a new house." She turned her head and smiled at me, and tried to turn off the lights and go out, but closed the door.

On the morning of the sixth day, the fragrance of plum flashed on the streets of Andu, and the wax moon was deep. I still have to find a way to pick up my wife and go to eat the New Year's dinner of several families in the house, and then my son will come back. When it was dark, when we arrived at the place where my parents lived, my mother said, "You have seen us too, hurry up." "You can use it." My father chased out the door and stuffed something in my purse.

On the seventh day, I was nervous, I didn't know where I could go and what I could do, packed up my things, closed the door and went downstairs, as soon as I got out of the door of the small hotel, I put on a winter helmet and walked quickly to the black and blue Haojue motorcycle next to a white car stained with yellow and red mud and dust under the trees on the street, opened the trunk, pressed the bulging black backpack into it, covered and locked it, opened the seat board again, took out a pair of black elastic knee pads, glued it tightly, and then put down the seat board, inserted the key into the faucet keyhole to open the car lock, Pick up your right leg and get into the car and sit down, point to the ground with both feet, straighten the dragon head with both hands, pick up the standing frame with your left foot, pinch the brake, turn your head habitually when you are on fire, the right side of the door of the small hotel silently rushed over to one or twenty gentlemen, led by the older one to the door of the small hotel hesitated for two seconds and entered, and the ones behind followed. I instinctively didn't move, none of them knew anyone, except for the last thin man to look this way, but fortunately the motorcycle was parked off and the winter helmet was well worn. When they all went upstairs, I didn't dare to listen to the movement anymore, started the motorcycle and turned right on the street, unhurriedly drove in the direction of the old house on the side of the industrial park, and suddenly turned right into Xiangjiawan Village, crossed the cement road next to the village cemetery and went up the embankment, and then turned right to go in the direction of Guazhou Ferry, I knew that it was difficult for me to come back and live.

They came to me. This small hotel usually has not many guests, and there seems to be no other troublesome people living in these days. It should be that there is an idler on the street for dinner who sees me and thinks it is strange, and wants to get some money, so he turns around and finds out which creditor has ventilated him and reported it. It may also be the little old watch Fang Ping, I have 70,000 yuan in his hands, the first is 40,000 yuan, he said that the bank card that others transferred money to because he used to guarantee a loan lawsuit for an aunt old watch was frozen, and then the money was directly transferred away, there are more than 100,000 yuan of his on it, and the second is 30,000 yuan, he said that after the money on the card was transferred away, his wife had no money to take out the last chemotherapy treatment. Another time, I asked him if he knew a guy who used to go out of the next village and was now in the business of helping people collect debts, and this guy helped one of my creditors collect debts and often came to me for a while. In addition, after turning two hands, the boss of the large area of nearly 40,000 acres of beach land behind the old house owes me a large amount of money, and his driver is the person arranged by the creditor. I'm afraid that he thinks that I don't stay here silently because I'm going to ask him for money in some way, so he wants to force me away or get rid of me, and the people in the old house and his parents say that he can do anything. Do you want to go find Jiawen, he is a boss on this street, about ten days ago, Jian'an specially drove me to pick him up for a meal, saying that I wanted to come back to avoid it because of some troubles, please take care of him, and he agreed. They are comrades-in-arms, and I know him very well, but can he take care of me to the extent that I can continue to live a normal life here, forget it. It doesn't matter what the fuck the reason, I'm going to go out anyway, and I'm pretty lucky to be gone, but I'm afraid no one will know where I've gone, and those stinky dog meat tents can only be thrown away like stinky dog meat until they get enough money.

I glanced down at the street after the intersection where the poplar grove at the foot of the embankment led to the main street. As always, the sun shines on houses, trees, pedestrians and vehicles, casting the shadow it should be, as if it is shining on itself at this moment, nothing special. Turning his head to look outside under the embankment, the roof of the painted machine on the Xiaohong River had just started and walked a short distance, dragging out the tail of the slippery triangular green wave and driving to the dock on the other side, where some people were waiting. There are also one or two boats here who do not pass through the embankment downhill and walk down the plastic steel gazebo slanted into the cement ridge, and the ferry boat will drive back to pick it up after a while, and so on until it gets dark and the boatmen rest. I glanced at the gazebo and withdrew my eyes, took a long breath and increased the throttle to concentrate on the front, and after reciting the Prajnaparamita Heart Sutra three times and the Prajnaparamita Mantra and prayers twenty-seven times, I began to think that the more I did this, the more stable I became. In the past few months, I have been riding a bicycle almost every day, and I have developed this habit of not knowing whether it is good or bad.

There are only 3,600 yuan on the body, and the people in the house can definitely give it again, this time it will not be a short time to go out, only go to Changsha to find Lao Jiang and Lao Mao, and ask them to help find a place to live, and take care of life for the time being, so that it is like a fish returning to the sea, it is difficult for others to find it, even if they find the direction of their escape, there are more, and there are more opportunities for this big city to survive and turn over, I believe that I will definitely make a comeback, and I don't think about this matter anymore. As for his wife, she didn't dare to think or think deeply at the moment, she had borne nearly half of the debt for herself, and she refused to come out together, only to see if her mother's family could help. Before, some local creditors started to come to the door, but fortunately every time she was not at home, she was not disturbed, and I persuaded her to move to a small house where a good friend used to live, and the creditors would not know about the position, and even if they did, they would not know her. This time she lived in her mother's house temporarily, I was afraid that she would be ashamed to speak, and I told her before that if something happened, her mother's family must help answer it, she said she knew. My wife is a hard-working and strong beauty, we have lived together for twenty-seven years, and finally I completely dragged her down, we will not be in the mood for nearly a year, and we can rarely even say something with peace of mind, and find a way to pick her up after we stay. The younger brother-in-law of the third brother-in-law is the captain of the Serious Crime Squadron of the Criminal Police Brigade of the Municipal Public Security Bureau, and the little brother-in-law is also a person who is not easy to provoke but is not afraid of anyone. Parents still live in the old house, after the father retired to take his mother back to help him guard the poplar forest on the slope outside the embankment, because of overwork the year before got lung cancer, twice escaped death, the condition has just stabilized, and now the little cousin is there as a village branch secretary, can take care of it, the younger sisters will go to accompany them every Saturday and Sunday for a day, this habit will not change.

Hey, I can't think about anything else for the time being, and I'll talk about it when I settle down, and people think about good things when they go to the extreme, just think about the pavilion just now and think about gold. In fact, someone knows about me and Jinzi, a friend of the little old cousin Fangping once mentioned it to me vaguely and suspiciously at the wine table, and I pretended to be confused and firmly denied it. Jin Zi was an object introduced by my family when I was a private teacher in high school, when she was fifteen years old and I was seventeen years old, she liked me very much, and we broke up two years later, because she found a love letter I wrote to a female teacher in a rural middle school there while working in a rural supply and marketing cooperative, the female teacher was friends with her, and knew my relationship with her, so I told her, in fact, the female teacher had already talked about a friend, but the two did not get along, and the result was that Jin Zi married the female teacher's boyfriend. Twelve years later, once I was a guest with Rhubarb on the street, the family who was doing the errand lived not far from her house, it was a sunny day in late spring, the sun was warm at noon, and it was a little hot for people to wear single clothes, I sat at the door and saw a tall and plump woman wearing a pale yellow dress curling Nana from the far end of the street, and asked Rhubarb: Which woman is this? Rhubarb said, "You asked on purpose, it's gold." I let out an oh and watched her turn into the yard, and then Rhubarb touched her phone number, pretended to be a mistake and sent her a text message, and I got in touch with her. Once my wife went back to her parents' house, I talked to her all night, and on the third night, my mobile phone stopped, so I used the landline in the house, and the landline was also stopped, and I was ready to pay the bill the next day, who knew that my wife took out the list of landlines after work at noon, and asked me what was going on, and my wife also called Jin Zi in front of me, I told the truth, and told my wife that there was nothing between Jin Zi to reassure her, and in my wife's later words, "You also used a new mobile phone that didn't cost money to appease me", Jin Zi also called me, You want me to coax my wife so that nothing will happen. I asked Jin Zi to Changsha on the National Day that year, I told my wife that I wanted to go out to play for two days, and Jin Zi said to the house that I would go to my sister's place for two days. We opened two rooms and lived separately for two nights, the first night was fine at all, both of them spoke little, they were still as shy as when they were in person, and they talked about friends for two years and never even held hands; The next day I went out to play, and Kaneko gave me a chance, and I realized how good she was. I went to her room that night, and I said, "It's so comfortable with you." Jin Zi said, "You are so simple, otherwise I am yours, I am your person." "Kaneko said that those two days were our honeymoon, and it was logical in the future. If I called, if she was not busy, she would take a ride to the county seat on the same day, and she would go back if there was a return shuttle, and I would accompany her without me; When Kaneko came to the county seat to do business alone, he called me. We get together several times a year, and the two of us are very satisfied and comfortable, and during this time, Kaneko always says, "I am your person", and I am so moved. Two months ago, I went back to the town street with a group of classmates as a guest, after dinner and drinking in the evening, some sang and some went back to the hotel to play cards, I was neither interested in singing nor money to play cards, so I wandered around the street alone, there was no moon in the sky and the weather was cold, I arrived at a quiet intersection where I could go to the embankment, called her, she quickly answered, and asked in surprise: "Are you a guest and didn't go back?" I said, "Well, where are you?" She said, "I just came out singing with someone else." I asked, "Is it convenient to meet?" She said, "Well, where are you going?" I thought for a moment and said, "I'll wait for you in the gazebo at the ferry crossing on the embankment." She said, "Okay." "I got there to smoke a second cigarette, and it was her who came on the phone, and I heard two of her voices, one on the phone, one for a figure not far away, and the sound of high-heeled leather shoes. I walked up, and the figure swayed over and asked a little hesitantly, "Is that you?" I said, "You're coming so fast." She quickly knocked in front of her and whispered, "Lao Tzu came here as soon as the phone was hung up." "I put my phone in my purse, grabbed the hand she was about to lift, and she helped her up. After a while, she chuckled and said, "Oops, I'm so cold like this." I said, "Come with me to the hotel." She touched my hair with both hands and said, "No." I didn't speak, and after a few moments she said, "Go to my house." I looked up and kissed her and said, "You're so embarrassed." She closed her eyes and whispered, "I'm in the house on a business trip, and I want to talk to you about the rules." "When I entered, she was wearing pajamas, squatting down to get a pair of cotton slippers to change for me, the room was warm, the curtains were drawn, and the living room was only a small wall lamp. She asked, "Do you take a shower?" I said, "I washed it out of the hotel first." She went to sit on the sofa and wanted to smoke a cigarette to get used to it, she went to the bedroom with a sigh, and when she was almost at the door, she didn't hear me get up, so she turned her head to look at me and said, "You're a little unaccustomed, aren't you?" I looked at her and smiled and said, "Yes." She turned to me and stretched out her hands and said, "Come!" I stood up, and she looked me in the eye and said, "I should have been yours." "We were like happy objects that had lost their imagination, at least her, and for a long time the room was unusually quiet, with only rhythmic subtle auditory hallucinations. Then she asked, "What about you?" I took a puff on my cigarette and said, "I might go out." Her eyes welled, she took a puff of her cigarette and said, "If it were me, I wouldn't let you get to this point." I took the cigarette from her hand, touched her eyes, and said, "I'd better go back to the hotel." She said, "Yes." Before going out, she stuffed me with a bundle of money and said, "You can use these and contact me at any time if you have something." I said, "Well, I know." She said, "If you can't figure out what you can't do, stop thinking about it and do it blindly, good man!" I said, "Yes." "When I came back this time, I was eager not to contact her, first, for fear of causing her trouble, and second, for fear that she would be sad to see that she was so embarrassed. Thinking of this, I was confused for a while, and my heart said that this is not good, just look at the two sides of the embankment in front. On the left is the river beach, the part of the fish pond and the woods is pleasing to the eye, and the rest of the part grows a miscellaneous shrub and gray-eyed drifting grass, and the reeds are also bent and thin in it, and it seems that days and manpower are indispensable, and what about me?

To Guazhou Ferry is a brick slag road with two lanes wide and paved quite flat on the river beach, nearly four kilometers long, most of the road on both sides is an experimental poplar base that cannot be seen at all times, the leaves are gone, and the woods are white and bright. The reeds planted in the section of the river had already been harvested, and only a few bunches of withered reeds were being loaded onto a barge parked at the bottom of the slope bank, and the work was almost finished. When I got to the wharf, I didn't get out of the car, put down the stand and sat and watched, the five men and two women waiting for the boat must be people who lived their lives, the driver of the van was lying down and sleeping in the driver's seat, he came to pick up people, there was no one on the car, it should be one of the five men and three women, there were people running under the river slope and waving to the docked ferry, and they went up at once, it seems that the ferry is about to leave, and it will take forty-five minutes to get to the wharf here. The river should be yellow, but now it is green, and the sun shines on some seats on the river, and people are a little sleepy, so let's lie down, I think. Wake up again on the dock people and cars are gone, the ferry boat that was going to come over before drove to the opposite shore has crossed the center of the river, the light waves lick the shore foot, the sun has weakened a lot, I think back to the dream just now and can't help but be in a trance, I saw that the barge with reeds is still parked on the shore, there must be people on it, only a little relieved, and turned to look in the direction, and saw a man and a woman walking towards this end with bags and things in their hands, so they got out of the car and pulled up the protective cover of the helmet, and went to the reed field after harvest to pee, goose yellow asparagus grew out of the ground, and some of the tips turned green, It's another year. There are more than a dozen people who came to go to relatives and friends to run errands, scattered and stood and squatted to talk or look at the river or look down to think about it, there are two vans and three cars are on the river license plate, the ferry should be an hour later, I took off my helmet and put it on the board, and went to the river to turn. I took a few photos and was still nervous and bored, so I walked along the dry and hard beach by the river to the other side of the sun and silently recited the "Prajnaparamita Heart Sutra", and after reciting the Prajnaparamita mantra twenty-seven times, I found that I had gone a little far, and I habitually took out my mobile phone to see, there was no information and no phone, and those creditors were blacklisted, and there was no other one, I was a little disappointed, and I thought it would be good to do so. I was about to turn around and go back, and I looked forward again, there were some bones scattered not far away, and there were two reflections on the teeth exposed by the skull. The skeleton was roughly human-shaped and spread diagonally on the wet and dry sand, a gray trouser with a fine canvas belt, a yellow shirt with a yellow background, and a light blue coat, which were rotted after the river rolled up, and I was terrified, and meditated that this poor man was also a little lucky, and what he left behind was complete. I took pictures of the scene one by one, and when I got up, I happened to see a fishing boat with a wire net on the riverside coming silently, so I said to the old man who was squatting on the boat that there was a corpse here, and the old man looked at me silently, and the fishing boat went along the wire net in the water. When I returned to the motorcycle, put on my helmet and sat in the car, I lit a cigarette and smoked but still couldn't calm down, and I thought that my previous sleep was only an arrangement in the dark, and it was also the fate of this poor man, and I told these people who were waiting for the ferry that there was no way, maybe it was the same as the old man, it was best to call the police, and the police would deal with it, one was to see if there were any grievances, and the other was that the police could also properly place the bones. got on the ferry, let the river breeze blow a little more comfortable, and looking back at the road is still sad. After getting off the boat, I rode to a quiet place on the embankment and took out my mobile phone to call the police, lit a cigarette and sat and waited. I hung up my phone and didn't move, poor man, my current situation is also pitiful, I can only do this for you, may we be at peace wherever we go, I meditate.