Huo Yuan heard her questioning, the corners of his mouth slightly pursed a beautiful arc, he rubbed his chin with one hand, as if he thought of something interesting, and his eyebrows were also dyed with a little joy.

Seeing Huo Yuan's expression, Su Jinsheng pouted unconvinced: "You thought of something beautiful by yourself, and you didn't even share it with me." ”

Her voice was weak, and she didn't sound confident, just because her body had not fully recovered now, and her qi and blood were insufficient.

is so weak, she can't help but feel distressed to the bones.

Huo Yuan stretched out his hand to comb her slightly messy hair, and comforted her softly: "I was wondering if we could sleep together tonight." ”

He stared at Su Jinsheng with a faint gaze.

These days, he basically sleeps in the family ward, because this is a high-risk ward, and the family members of ordinary patients cannot live here, so as not to have any bacteria to infect the patients.

Huo Yuan was dissatisfied, but considering Su Jinsheng's safety, he finally endured it.

Since Su Jinsheng woke up a few days ago, he has repeatedly asked to move over and rest, but he is always afraid that she will not get used to it, because she has just woken up, she has few words, and there is always a faint sadness in her eyes.

He knew that her heart was uncomfortable, and he didn't feel like that.

Now that she had finally regained her vitality and had more words to herself, he couldn't wait to move in.

Being together again, it seems to be back to when we first started to fall in love together.

The feeling is subtle.

Hearing this, Su Jinsheng's eyes were stunned, and then he said: "Although the doctor has relieved the crisis in the intensive ward, I am in this situation now..."

Saying that, there was an imperceptible sadness in her eyes, she wanted to say that her dilapidated body was really not worth mentioning, she woke up this time, as if she had been reassembled, this feeling was very uncomfortable, thinking that she would have to face Huo Yuan in the future, those sweet pictures from before came to mind.

She was even more worried, thinking of his unwavering and careful care, she could not fall or be depressed, but she wanted to return to the same vigor as before, and she seemed to suddenly lose her courage.

Huo Yuan's eyes saw all her changes, her heart was extremely painful, but she had to pretend not to notice it on her face, he slowly sat down on the edge of her bed, leaned over and kissed her forehead: "The past, can we just treat it as if it's over, let's start again, okay?" ”

He was worried from the beginning that this incident would become a barrier and scar in Su Jinsheng's heart, even so, what he was worried about still happened.

At this moment, he found that he didn't even have the courage to sigh.

Not knowing what to say to soothe his mood, he said such a sentence, leaving only Su Jinsheng with burning eyes, waiting for her response.

In the prime of life, no one wants such an accident to happen.

But life doesn't seem to be smooth sailing.

Su Jinsheng looked at Huo Yuan's gentle eyes, his eyes were slightly moist, he moved his lips, and wanted to make a sound, but found that his throat was already choked, and Huo Yuan looked at her and was about to cry.

Leaned over and hugged her, patting her arm gently: "Don't be sad, it's over, it's over, it's over." ”

He repeated this sentence three times, both for Su Jinsheng and for himself.

At this moment, Su Jinsheng seemed to have a chance to vent all her forbearance emotions, she stretched out the hand that could move and held Huo Yuan's arm hard.

Crying like a child.

Huo Yuan didn't have words, just quietly made her cry, he thought, some hidden emotions should be vented in this way, otherwise holding it in his heart will suffocate people.

After a long time, Su Jinsheng felt as if all her strength had been used up, and her voice was low: "I'm sorry, I didn't protect our children." ”

For her and Huo Yuan's first child, after she lost it, she had a deep self-blame in her heart, she subconsciously blamed herself for this matter, if she wasn't so stupid and could have a little scheming, she wouldn't be regarded as a live target.

After losing it, I realized how stupid I was.

Every time she thought of this, she was shameless to face herself, let alone Huo Yuan.

She will never forget the ecstatic expression of Huo Yuan for the first time until she had his child, and she remembered that time, he was excited like a child, picked himself up, and circled in place vigorously, until he felt a wave of dizziness, and then put himself down.

All his expressions at that time, she clearly imprinted in her mind, she felt that she was very happy, going around and around, and she finally found her own good match.

She imagined what Huo Yuan's expression would be when she gave birth to a child, what would be her name if she had a girl, what would she do if she had a boy...

All of this, she had rehearsed in her mind again and again, so much so that when she was bored, she even knitted a sweater with her own hands, with a neutral look.

Since she didn't know if it was a boy or a girl, she knitted a unisex sweater so that both boys and girls could wear it.

Now let's lie quietly in the hotel.

She thought to herself.

She was not only deeply guilty of Huo Yuan, but also a wordless guilt of this unborn child.

Because she was not born yet, she was strangled in the cradle.

Hearing this, Huo Yuan stretched out his rough fingertips and carefully wiped the tears on her face.

His voice involuntarily added a trace of solemnity: "Sheng'er, the doctor said, we still have many opportunities to have children in the future, this child is an accident, you don't want to be sad alone, this matter is my incompetent father after all, I have lived for most of my life, I have never done one thing well, the wedding I said before was also inexplicably delayed, and I went to break the army, don't blame yourself, if you want to blame, blame me, it is always me who made this happen to this point." ”

This matter was like a heavy stone, which pressed Huo Yuan's heart, and sometimes when he was in a bad mood, he was even a little out of breath.

Despite this, life still has to go on, and he has to force such strong emotions into the depths of his heart.

Su Jinsheng looked at Huo Yuan with big teary eyes: "This matter has nothing to do with you, if I wasn't so stupid, I would have let people calculate casually, things must not end like today, I insisted on asking you to go to the army at the beginning, I can't blame you, in fact, I'm just a duplicitous woman, actually... I don't deserve you. ”

The last sentence was said by Su Jinsheng with all his strength, this sentence has been held in his heart for a long, long time, and there has never been a suitable opportunity to say it.

Now that she said it, she felt that her whole body was refreshed.

Hearing this, Huo Yuan's handsome face suddenly turned extremely dark, and he glared at Su Jinsheng fiercely: "What are you talking about, look into my eyes, and say it again?" ”

His whole body exuded a cold air that was three points colder than the cold cellar, to be honest, looking at Su Jinsheng who spit on him like this, he felt that when she said such things, it was like holding a sharp knife, slashing the flesh on her head one by one.

An inexplicable angry emotion came to his heart, and his eyes were gloomy: "Su Jinsheng, you say this, do you know my heart, it's really uncomfortable, at this moment, even if someone stabs me with a knife, it doesn't make people uncomfortable without your words, in my eyes, in my heart, you are all I have, in my life, if there is no existence of you, I feel that I have lost my color, only black and white are left, why are you so cruel, don't you want me?" ”

What he said was a bit of a hope, and it was not like what Huo Yuan, who was honorable, would say.

The last sentence, like a knife, poked Su Jinsheng's heart hard, she actually didn't mean that, she thought about it a lot, such a broken self, she sometimes couldn't help it, such an excellent Huo Yuan, will one day suddenly dislike herself, with this cognition, more and more bad emotions rushed out.

Until it gets out of hand.

She was apprehensive and frightened, but such self-pity is not a matter after all, she decided to say it generously, if Huo Yuan really chooses not to love, she can at least know how she should live in the future.

As the saying goes, it's good to have a plan.

She was a little dumbfounded when asked.

Huo Yuan suddenly got closer, and said slowly: "Can't speak?" Am I like that? What about our promise to be together, have you forgotten it now? Or is it that in your heart, there are already other people in my absence, thinking of using such an excuse to push me away? ”

The reason why he said the latter words was because just as he was thinking, Bai Mu's figure suddenly came into his mind.

Thinking of certain possibilities, he found that jealousy distorted him.

"No, Huo Yuan, you misunderstood me, I'm not.... Whew..."Because Su Jinsheng, who was too excited, suddenly became a little short of breath at this moment, and his little face, which already had a little bit of blood, was as pale as paper at the moment, and it was very infiltrating.

There was even fine sweat on his forehead.

Huo Yuan was startled, and hurriedly reached out to hold her manzhong.

Five minutes later.

The doctor replaced Su Jinsheng with a new bottle of drip, Su Jinsheng didn't know why, only a third of the drip was injected, and he fell asleep.

The doctor sighed and looked at Huo Yuan with burning eyes: "Miss Su's emotions just now were too excited, her heart can't be loaded for the time being, what did Mr. Huo say?" ”