Chapter 115: Suicidal tendencies

Li Zifeng originally thought that this would be a person dancing hip-hop or playing hip-hop, but who knew that the pictures extracted from his memory were the same, all with unkempt hair, sitting in front of the computer all night, fingers flying on the keyboard, and then looking at the computer, he was using ORD documents, writing article after article.

In the ashtray in front of the computer desk, every time it is stuffed with cigarette butts, the whole room is like a scene after the bombardment of shells, it is confusing, except for these pictures, there are no other pictures, it can be said that Li Zifeng has interpreted dreams for so many years, this is the first customer he has ever seen in the pure and extreme memory picture.

It's too pure, every day except sitting in front of the computer to code words, or code words, there is no other entertainment at all, it can be said that the body of a twenty-year-old, the soul of an eighty-year-old, he has long since died, but he has not been buried.

When he opened his eyes and cleaned his blood, Li Zifeng asked, "Uh...... How to say, you are the first person I have ever met, who can bear it, infinitely lonely, but I don't quite understand the dreams you have, I'm afraid I can't interpret the dreams. ”

In fact, in Brother Xiaoku's dream, Li Zifeng also saw his girlfriend, he really loved his girlfriend, so Li Zifeng couldn't understand, since he loved his girlfriend so much, why did he kill her in his dream? This kind of dream is not at all in line with common sense.

Little Brother Ku said, "Can you see the past in my brain? Obviously, although Xiao Ku tried to maintain a calm tone, he was also a little surprised.

Li Zifeng did not shy away from it, nodded and said: "Yes, but don't worry, I won't probe into other people's privacy, let alone say it, whether you are a dignitary, a peddler and a pawn, whether you are a vicious murderer, or a kind citizen who helps my grandmother cross the road, it has nothing to do with me, it is your secret, and it will eventually rot in your stomach." ”

Brother Xiao Ku didn't care about these at all, and couldn't wait to ask: "Then have you seen what I wrote?" ”

Li Zifeng was stunned, shook his head and said: "I said, I won't explore too much about your privacy, I know that you have written a lot of things, but I didn't pay attention to the specific content." ”

A look of disappointment flashed in Brother Xiaoku's eyes, and he bowed his head slightly, saying, "I want to write a masterpiece, a masterpiece that can be passed on to future generations." ”

"Understand, this should be the wish of every author, I hope you can make it come true." Li Zifeng nodded.

Little Cool asked, "Have you read One Hundred Years of Solitude?" ”

Li Zifeng shook his head, in fact, he had read it.

"Have you ever read Human Disqualification?"

Li Zifeng shook his head, in fact, he had also read it.

"Noise and commotion, have you read it?"

Li Zifeng still shook his head, this time he really hadn't read it.

Brother Xiao Ku said: "I also want to write classics, even if it is an ending like Osamu Dazai or Ryunosuke Akutagawa, I am content in this life, but my daily time is very short, you know?" I don't dare to eat, I don't dare to play games, time runs too fast, I just want to write a classic, but my girlfriend wants me to accompany her to eat, go shopping with her, to make her happy, I love her very much, but I don't have that much time. ”

Li Zifeng said: "I can feel that you are different. This sentence is not flattery, it is Li Zifeng's heart.

Everyone who can achieve great things must endure loneliness in the endless winter, just like Schopenhauer said, either vulgar or lonely, geniuses are lonely, withdrawn, and unsociable.

Without waiting for Brother Xiao Ku to speak, Li Zifeng said again: "Literature, I don't know very well, I only know those who win literary awards, what Mao Dun Literature Award, Nobel Prize, Akutagawa Award, Naoki Award, most of them have rich experience, after all, the experience of our young people is not enough, I see that you are at most twenty-five or sixteen years old, how hard you work, it is a good thing to have goals, as for this dream, I don't think it's anything, if you really want to go to the extreme, I suggest you break up with your girlfriend, be alone, write well, and fight hard." ”

Brother Xiao Ku said: "No, I love my girlfriend very much, if I break up with her, no matter whether I succeed or fail after many years, I will not be able to find her again, even if I really find her, she will not be the same again." ”

Li Zifeng scratched his head, he really wanted to slap him, is the person who wrote it so weird?

"Oh, I love your girlfriend very much, I don't want to break up, I don't want to go shopping with my girlfriend, I want to work hard for my career, there is no perfect thing in this world, it's not easy to do."

Brother Xiao Ku interrupted: "Yes, as long as my girlfriend dies, she will always belong to me, so that she can always be by my side, and I can also have full energy and time to write the story I want." ”

Li Zifeng shook his whole body and gasped, and it was not until this moment that he suddenly realized that he finally understood what was going on in Little Cool's dream.

Before Brother Xiao Ku mentioned Osamu Dazai, Li Zifeng thought that he had suicidal tendencies, but now it seems that it is not. He has no suicidal tendencies, he has homicidal tendencies!

Little cool brother wants to kill his girlfriend!

The selfishness of love to the depths is that you have to die at my hands, and you can't live with other people's men!

Li Zifeng hurriedly said: "No, you see, we are a society under the rule of law, not to mention anything else, on the road of your struggle, suppose that you have done a wrong thing, this wrong thing will waste a lot of your time and energy, and even spend half of your life in prison, how can you write a good story?" ”

At this time, the most important thing is enlightenment.

Brother Xiao Ku didn't say anything, Li Zifeng understood his thoughts, he actually wanted to kill his girlfriend, but he was a little nervous, and he was reluctant to start, at this time, he was hovering between killing and not killing, if something was wrong, the balance would immediately tilt.

"You are an extreme person, and extreme people are generally divided into two kinds, one is a genius and the other is a fool, in short, you are not vulgar, because vulgar people will not have the same thoughts as you. Suppose you are a genius, then you will not make the lowest mistakes, love, I have not experienced it, but I firmly believe that there will be good things in it. Kids, I don't have either, but I really want to have one or two kids, and it should be nice to hear them call me daddy. ”

Li Zifeng struck while the iron was hot, patted Brother Xiaoku's shoulder, and said: "Everyone is different, Osamu Dazai is Osamu Dazai, you are you, and regardless of the height of literature, at least you are two completely different people, then you are destined to have two completely different lives, live well, I believe in your ability, one day you will become famous, don't forget to interpret your dreams here with me, that's good." ”

When Brother Xiao Ku was leaving, Li Zifeng said: "By the way, there is a book called The Old Man and the Sea, which is very good, can you take a look?" ”

"Man can be destroyed, but not defeated, I've seen it." Little Ku's eyes narrowed, and he finally showed a sunny smile.