I had the experience of being bitten by a dog when I was a child, and I was very young at that time, under the age of six. The impression was vague, and when I asked my mother later, she said that she had indeed been bitten.

I remember it was a Pomeranian, and then she was dragged away, and this incident left me with serious psychological trauma, and I think it was because of me that it was dealt with, so I have always felt very guilty, and it was an adult who hooked it away with an iron hook, and I was also scared of the rat that the adult scalded the sewer with boiling water.

The same shadow is also seen in the pictures of small animals being abused on the Internet when I was in junior high school, and the paws of dogs in the vegetable market.

At that time, I didn't get vaccinated, and when I was in high school, I said that rabies has an incubation period, and that dog was not a mad dog, it was because I pulled its ears to bite me, but when it came to the incubation period, I was still very afraid of death, so I continued to experience a lot of things in forgetting this panic.

For a while, I started to have some depression, I often suspected that I was sick, I went to the hospital, the doctor said it was okay, but I still felt sick, so I continued to live in this kind of psychological problem.

Sometimes I feel like the more I do, the less I do, and the more I say, the more I get wrong.

My mother told me that a neighbor I knew had died of a bite from a four-year-old dog that had been vaccinated, and I was terrified.

It's like when I first started to get the cats back from the flower and bird market, I couldn't sleep all night, and in the middle of the night, I was searching to see if I would get infected with Toxoplasma gondii, and at that time they had blood in their stools, and I was worried that they would not eat cheap cat food.

There are also concerns about whether the vaccine will fail.

A few days ago, I went out and met a wandering Wangxing, I couldn't tell if it was a Bichon or a white teddy, it bit its tail at me when I went out, and when I came home, it stood next to a pregnant woman who was on the phone, but I could tell that it had no owner.

So I looked at it a few more times, and it began to chase at me, so I asked it to drink some water, and when it came to the door, it didn't come in directly, even if it was very thirsty, it just stuck its head in to drink.

Later, while my family was away, I gave it ticks, bathed it, and secretly boiled chicken wings to eat, which was the case the next day.

On the third day, it started to send my family out of the house, and it could find my house, at this time I found out that it had an abnormal condition, that is, it would bite its hind legs, and a look on the Internet showed that it may have been abused, and it would go crazy when it saw certain stimuli objects.

Today I know what stimulates it, it sees a bark of flesh and bones, the first day I am afraid that I adopted it, its original owner comes back and asks me to go back, and on the fourth day, I am afraid that I will die of rabies, I am afraid that the good Samaritans who feed it water will be hurt, and children.

Because I also have cats that have not been raised, cats that have not been saved, those who have been raised, those who have been lost, and those who are weak, I have no reason to blame anyone, I can only blame myself for not having the ability.

At first, I thought that its owner would be like those who put up a notice about the dog and cry at home, but it seems that I was too naïve, and looking at the dog's behavior, I can know that it is very likely that its owner will abandon it after giving it meat and bones.

So, let it stay at home in the afternoon when it's hot, it's quiet, and let it go to the yard at night, and it will have a feeling of being lost and abandoned.

It's a very smart dog, and it will send people out and come back, and it will be very difficult for others to think that I threw it away when they wait at the door.

In the past few days, I have come to understand a truth, the reason why I am powerless is because I have no money, and the reason why I can't have money is because there is no legal protection.

The dog trainer said that the dog suddenly went crazy when he thought of the original owner.

The docile appearance instantly changed his temperament, and the whites of his eyes were full of red bloodshots.

When I was a child, I liked to watch dog movies very much, and the owners who caused the dogs to wander and hurt the original owners of passers-by could completely disagree with any responsibility, because no one knew who the original owner was. People who are indifferent, and people who are on a whim, often pay no price.

People who sell raw puppies for money, their choices will be good if the puppies live well.

People who don't do anything, many of them will spray caring people, but they praise themselves in the group for being caring.

And to judge whether the person really likes it, just look at whether they have spent money on it.

Abandoned dogs are likely to have to deal with the situation, and it is not happy, and the injured well-meaning passers-by are also pitiful.

We named this dog Xiaobai, we fed it, it was a female dog, it looked like it had a birth.

Some of the cats in the house will be scared when they see it, some will bark at it, and it will also be frightened by the cat's meow.

Now I wash my hands every day until my hands are wrinkled.

Sometimes I think about how good it would be for some developed countries to control the number of stray animals and make laws, but fortunately, we don't have the ability to immigrate at the moment, because everyone in this land needs us.

I love this kingdom and believe that everything that happens when and where I was born has a reason.

We are all trying to create a beautiful reality, to be treated gently in a safer environment for the sake of good and beautiful people.

In the past, I donated money and rarely left messages. Fortunately, it can now be said as a pseudonym, otherwise it is easy to be said to show his vanity.

To do so-called good things, you must do them silently, and then be discovered occasionally, and simple things are always easy to be complicated.

I used to donate a lot because I believed in cause and effect, and I believed in cause and effect very much. Later, I believed that I had to solve the problems I encountered.

Look at those who are even soft-hearted enough to go into debt to save stray animals.

Think that kindness is a choice and must be strong. You have to understand business, and then charity. Being too soft-hearted is a burden.

To live, people must first live for themselves and let their families live well.

Speaking of which, Xiaobai, it is a very sensible puppy with psychological trauma.

I couldn't have deepened its psychological wounds any longer.

I feel very guilty about not being able to raise old animals, including 05 years, before the start of school, my mother friend fostered a little wolf dog in my house for a week, I don't know what happened to it after it went back, I heard that it was given away.

Every time I encounter a catastrophe, I think that if God lets me die, I won't be able to escape, and it's useless to worry too much (I've been sick and other things), but I still have my family and there are still many things to do.

I hope that my family can be well, that I can compete for glory, that I can help people who were born like me, that I can inspire people who have the same experience as me, and that there is a small animal protection law, because a person's life is decades, and I am afraid that when I get old, there will be places that I can't see now, and there are too many helplessness with my limited ability.

Like my mom said, I can't raise it myself.

When we grow up, we have to face the whole cruel reality, once we pick up a cat, we will always be soft-hearted when we see a cat in the future, and we will not let a cat live to old age and die, and it will also lead to not daring to raise it in the future. When it comes to this, it's really not about love or love, it's about energy, economic ability, time, physical strength and willingness to do it.

Indifference can protect oneself, and an overflow of love can also hurt one's family. It's so tiring to be a human being.

Perhaps, every life has its own destiny.

I wish well-meaning people a healthy life. ❤️

Reverence for nature, hard work, for the sake of the small animal protection law, for the sake of innocent animals, they really don't understand anything. It's also to protect the safety of children, just like when I was a kid I just wanted to play with a puppy, not to scratch its ears on purpose.

Now I don't know what to do, so I will write Xiaobai to the next chapter, trying to prove that it existed, and hope that the world will be a better place.