My head exploded.

He seemed to be so drunk that he lost his mind, and suddenly lowered his head and frantically mouthed me, and the strong smell of alcohol poured into my mouth.

I pushed him hard, but I couldn't resist the strength of a drunken man. It was as if he had suddenly become a different person, out of his mind, no longer a gentleman, like a vicious wolf, and his very aggressive mouth slowly encroached on my mind.

His hand went up, and the cold temperature brought me back to my senses, and I pushed him away desperately.

"Xue Duyun, don't do this!" My voice was strained.

But in this situation, I didn't dare to shout or scream, I called someone, and it was myself who was embarrassed.

His hand slid into my hair, lifted my chin, and kissed me so deeply and fervently that I couldn't resist it.

His other hand ran over my back and lifted my waist up. His man's structure was against me, and it was so hot through the fabric.

In the quiet tent, his turbid breath spread in my ears, making me even more softened when I was already powerless.

"Xue Duyun, you're drunk! Let go of me! ”

But his sanity had been completely burned away by Gu Yaowang, and I was so anxious that tears rolled in my eyes, but his arms were like iron casting, and I fell into despair in the vain struggle.

His knees suddenly parted from me, and he burst in forcefully.

Tears rolled out of my eyes, and I lost my strength.

Xue Duyun hit me like crazy, I squeezed the quilt tightly, feeling terrible but unable to resist the sensory impact he brought me.

He was probably so drunk that he didn't know where he was, and the sound in his throat was not restrained at all.

I was afraid that others would hear it, so I quickly covered his mouth.

I don't know how long he wanted me, but he finally fell asleep beside me, and in a daze, he pulled me into his arms from time to time, rubbed his head straight into the socket of my neck, and said a low muttered word.

"Happy Birthday!"

My originally hot body was like a basin of cold water suddenly splashed, and it was cold from head to toe in an instant.

It's not my birthday, and that's obviously not for me.

So he did all this to me without even figuring out who I was?

It's hard to describe the feeling in my heart at this moment, in addition to heartache, loss, and a little sadness.

I don't know how long it took, but finally there was an even breathing sound behind me.

I removed the hand he was holding around me, cleaned my body haphazardly, and walked out of the tent.

It was extremely quiet on the observation deck, everyone was asleep, and I don't know from which tent there was still snoring.

I took Xue Duyun's car and rode towards the road I had come.

I just learned to ride a bicycle, and I was a little afraid of walking such a night road, and it was downhill, but I was even more afraid that after Xue Duyun woke up, I didn't know how to face him.

The road was not clear, the speed of the descent was so fast, the wind blinded my eyes, which I had been crying for too long, and I had an uncontrollable panic, so I was afraid that I would rush down the cliff at once, so I slammed on the brakes.

Probably because the brakes were too fast, I planted it as soon as I got over.

My knees and arms grazed the ground, and the car fell to my legs as it fell.

I tried to stand up, but I found that my foot was broken, and I couldn't stand up at all.

Such scenes are so similar, the same on the mountainside in the middle of the night, the same scarred.

I never seem to be able to escape the tricks of fate, every time I feel that happiness is approaching, reality will always give me a hard blow, why?

I don't know how long I sat on the cold road, but I saw a bright light appear uphill, and a figure on a bicycle rushed straight down.

It was far away and very dark, but I recognized him as Xue Duyun.

I didn't expect him to wake up so early.

Xue Duyun saw me from a distance and stopped the car with a creak beside me.

"Wrestling? Did it hurt? He asked very urgently, and the worry in his tone was obvious.

Somehow, my eyes were hot.

He bent down, one hand on my shoulder, one hand through my legs, to hug me, and I silently pushed him away.

He froze.

"Shen Yu, what are you running? Do you think I'm not responsible, or do you think I'm not responsible? ”

I didn't look up, I didn't know what his expression was at the moment, but I could hear his impatience.

"You don't need to be responsible, you got drunk, it was an accident, and I'm not a yellow flower girl, so I have to be responsible."

I really didn't think about making him responsible for this mistake, I just didn't know how to face it, and now that I've faced it, I can only try to make myself look calm and don't care.

Xue Duyun pulled me over my shoulder, and the pitch-black pupils stared at me very seriously.

"Remember what I said in the hospital that day?"

A woman's sensitivities are sometimes beyond imagination, and I seem to be able to guess what he wants to say, but I pretend not to know and don't speak.

"He divorced you today, and I will marry tomorrow." He repeated the words of that day.

"I don't usually remember joking."

Xue Duyun's voice was gloomy, "I'm not kidding. ”

I smiled bitterly and sighed, "Don't make trouble, Xue Duyun, we are all adults, it's not a big deal if you can't control your mistakes when you're drunk, I don't need you to be responsible." ”

His hand on my shoulder suddenly exerted force, and it hurt me.

"I didn't marry you because I slept with you, and I wasn't joking when I was in the hospital that day."

He spoke word by word, very slowly.

I finally looked up and stared at him very calmly, "Why?" ”

Xue Duyun let go of the hand that was holding me, slowly sat down next to me, smoked a cigarette and lit it, under the light of a fire, his brows furrowed slightly, and it was not difficult to see his irritability.

"My grandfather had terminal lymphoma, and the doctor said he would live for two years at most, and he wanted to see me start a family in my lifetime, but I didn't want the women they pushed me on."

This is the first time he has mentioned his family, in fact, I really know very little about him, and I don't know anything about his family situation.

"You don't want those women, just marry me for the second time, Xue Duyun, are you okay?"

Xue Duyun suddenly seemed to be amused by me, and squinted at me with a cigarette in his mouth.

"What happened to the second marriage? Shen Yu, is he so unconfident in himself? ”

Not only did I lose faith in myself, but I also lost faith in my marriage. Because he was hurt too deeply, he became very careful with every step he took, for fear of getting hurt again.

Moreover, who was the woman who called him Brother Yun on the phone that day?

When he hugged me earlier, who did he say "Happy Birthday"?

"I think you should find someone you really like, marriage is a lifelong thing, not child's play." I say.

"Lao Tzu likes to be with you, Lao Tzu just wants to marry you." His words came bluntly and domineeringly.

Well, he's saying that he likes to be with me, not like me. But I admit that the lake of peace of mind has been disturbed by him, but I am no longer seventeen or eighteen years old when it is easy to be deceived by rhetoric.

"This liking is not love." I say.

Xue Duyun tilted his head to look at me, his fingers holding the cigarette on his forehead, and his expression could not hide a trace of exhaustion.

"Shen Yu, everything is too serious, it will be very tiring, there is a process from liking to love, you won't believe it when I say I love you now, right?"

I believe that there is a process of liking and loving, at that time I also thought that Xue Duyun and I would go through such a process, but later I learned that in Xue Duyun's world, his love has long been exhausted, and he no longer has the ability to love someone.

"I don't sleep in a good tent, I have to sit here and blow the cold wind, do you think the two of us are cheap?" Xue Duyun suddenly laughed self-deprecatingly.

It's amazing that I can sit here and talk to him now, which happened like that before.

I said sullenly, "Who told you to chase it?" You can continue to sleep when nothing has happened. ”

Xue Duyun stared at me for a long time, and suddenly grabbed my hand and squeezed it very tightly,

"I'm afraid that I won't be able to drive it, I won't see you when I wake up, I won't see the car when I come out, I think of the stinky technology of your cycling, I'm afraid to pick up your body under the cliff."

His voice, which suddenly became hoarse, was full of impatience born of worry.

Somehow, my tears rolled out in an instant.

I think back to how fast he was coming down the hill, and he probably didn't brake at all, and I am afraid he was in a hurry.

He threw away the cigarette, took off his coat and wrapped me around me, hugged me in his arms, and gently kissed away my tears with his hot lips, and his movements were very gentle.

"Shen Yu, I slept with you because I wanted to marry you, not because I slept with you."

His words were too moving, but his earlier "Happy Birthday" let me know that he had someone in his heart.

But he kissed me softly as if he were a lover, and I couldn't resist such tenderness.

I was so persuaded by him, I leaned motionless into his arms, and my mood calmed down.

"I'll take you to the hospital." He said suddenly.

I said no, but he still called that old Yang to pick us up.

After Lao Yang drove here, Xue Duyun threw the two cars into the trunk, and then carried me into the car and sat in the back seat with me.

After going to the hospital to get medicine and bandaging, he personally drove me home and carried me upstairs.

After putting me on the bed, he put his hands on my sides, and his deep eyes stared at me for a moment.

"What?" I was furious with his intense gaze.

"Tomorrow, bring the household registration book and go to the Civil Affairs Bureau." His expression was serious, not like a joke.

I looked at him and pursed my lips and didn't answer.

"Speak." He shook my arm.

I still kept my mouth shut, and my heart was extremely entangled.

I don't suffer a loss about marrying him, but I know that he has someone else in his heart.

I know I shouldn't have the luxury of getting his heart, but women are always greedy when it comes to feelings.

Suddenly, a dark shadow pressed down in front of me, and as he kissed me, his tongue easily slid in.

He is a man with superb kissing skills, and such kissing skills should be practiced after a hundred battles, right?

Thinking of this, my heart was a little blocked, but I was still kissed by him.

He let go of my lips and admired the way I was kissed by him, smiling charmingly.

"So you like me to make you open your mouth in this way?"