The eldest grandmother's legs and feet are not very good, and she has to hold on to the wall to slowly move to the door, she patted her uncle and said, "Let Xiao Fei and them come in, what is it to stand at the door?" ”

Uncle Mi let out an "oh" and stepped out of the door.

I said to my grandmother, "Grandma, we won't go in, I came this time mainly to ask if my dad has ever been back." ”

"It's so late, you don't come in, where are you sleeping?" As she spoke, the grandmother beckoned us to enter the house.

To be honest, I really don't want to live in the village, but if I want to go back to Chongqing, I have to drive for five or six hours, and I can bear it, but Li Huaishan has just recovered from his injury, his body is weak, and now he is tired.

Looking at Li Huaishan like this, I am afraid that if he bumps for a few more hours, his body will not be able to stand up.

In addition, the eldest grandmother warmly invited us into the house, and I couldn't refuse, so I took Li Huaishan and Yan Yanan across the threshold.

I stretched out my hand to hold my grandmother's elbow and escorted her all the way to the sofa in the center of the inquiry, she supported the sofa armrest with her hand, sat down slowly, and said to me: "How many years have passed, Xiao Fei has grown so big." ”

Uncle Mi said on the side: "It's been eleven years." ”

I don't have a hot mind now, and as soon as I sit down, I ask, "My dad came back five years ago?" ”

The eldest grandmother said: "Yes, I came back, met the old man and left, and I don't know what the two of them said." ”

"And where is my grandfather now?"

As I spoke, I glanced over to the side of the room, where my grandmother had come out.

The eldest grandmother sighed sullenly and pointed to the ceiling above her head: "Gone, left three years ago." Hepatocarcinoma. ”

The old village chief has passed away?

Hearing my grandmother say this, the last bit of hope in my heart was also extinguished, but I didn't expect that the only villager who had seen my dad five years ago just left.

My uncle said to me, "When the old man left, he was very peaceful and did not suffer any offense. ”

I was only thinking about my father's affairs, but when I heard the news of the death of the old village chief, I didn't feel sad at all.

I remember when I was a child, the old village chief and the eldest grandmother were very good to me, at that time, the family was poor, and I couldn't afford to buy new clothes during the New Year's holidays.

How many years have passed, I still remember this warmth, but I am still grateful, but I have forgotten how to be sad.

The indifference of my family to life is once again reflected in me.

I wanted to make a sad face, but I found that I couldn't, so I had to keep my head down and hide my face in the shadow of my shoulder.

My grandmother asked me, "Have you eaten it?" ”

I just said no hunger.

She smiled and asked Uncle Mi to get us something to eat, and then slowly stood up on the back of the sofa and said to me, "It's not early, eat and drink and go to sleep." ”

Uncle Mi hurriedly went up to take a hand, helped the grandmother to the bedroom, and then went to the kitchen to help us prepare meals.

There are three or four rooms in my grandmother's house, she lives in one, my uncle lives in one, and the remaining one room, Li Huaishan and I gave it to Yan Yanan, and the two of us slept on the sofa.

After eating, Uncle Mi went back to his room without a sound, and Li Huaishan and I lay on the sofa in the living room, tossing and turning and couldn't sleep.

I've been pondering repeatedly, when my dad came back five years ago, why did he meet with the old village chief, judging from my uncle's initial reaction, when my dad came back, his whereabouts should be very hidden, if there were other people outside the old village chief, there were other people who saw my dad, all of them were from the villagers, and the news would definitely reach my uncle's ears, but he said that my dad never came back.

What did my dad say to the old village chief at that time, and why did he avoid the whole village and just meet with the old village chief?

But the answers to these questions were buried in the loess mound with the death of the old village chief.

Li Huaishan turned over several times on the sofa in a row, and he didn't close his eyes, so I asked him: "Why can't you sleep, what are you thinking?" ”

Li Huaishan smacked his lips: "It's inconvenient to say it now, but I'll tell you tomorrow." ”

With that, he turned his body to the inside of the couch, turning his back to me.

In the second half of the night, Li Huaishan finally fell asleep, but I still had my eyes open and couldn't fall asleep.

The next morning, Uncle Mi got up to help us prepare breakfast, and then went to the field with a hoe, in the cold winter season, there should be no crops to plant in the field, and I don't know what he is going to do.

In the past, when I lived in the village, my grandmother always got up very early, and I used to hear my mother say that every day before dawn, my grandmother was already walking on the small road of the village, and at that time, every household had not yet risen, and the grandmother was the only one on the long dirt road.

I don't know if it's because of my age, it's inconvenient to get up in the morning, or something else, until we finished eating and cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks, the bedroom where my grandmother slept still didn't open the door.

When Li Huaishan came out of the kitchen with a rag, he glanced at the door of the side bedroom and frowned.

I don't know why he's frowning.

After wiping the table, Li Huaishan said to me: "It's not early, if we want to rush back to Chongqing at noon, we have to leave early." ”

I tilted my head to look at him, and he raised his chin at me, and said, "It doesn't make sense for you to stay any longer, so you might as well go back sooner." ”

Thinking about it, anyway, in this old village, I can't find news with my father, it's better to go back to Chongqing early, I also told my second aunt yesterday, if the time is right, invite him and Xiaowei to dinner at noon.

I sighed, walked to the side door, knocked lightly on the door twice, and whispered, "Grandma, we are going back to Chongqing." ”

Immediately, the voice of the eldest grandmother came from the house: "Oh, let's go, I don't have convenient legs, so I won't send you." ”

After saying this, the room fell completely silent, and the people inside seemed to prick up their ears and silently listened to the sounds outside.

I felt a little weird in my heart, but I didn't think much about it, so I greeted Li Huaishan and Yan Yanan and left the village chief's house together.

When I went back, Li Huaishan was still driving, and I sat in the back seat, with them.

It wasn't until Li Huaishan drove the car out of the village that I asked him: "What did you think last night, why did you fall asleep so late?" ”

Li Huaishan glanced at me in the rearview mirror and said, "You are too impetuous. ”

Why did you suddenly talk about this?

I heard Li Huaishan continue: "If you are calm enough, you should be able to see that this grandmother and your uncle don't want you to come back at all." ”

Yan Yanan also turned his head to me and said, "I feel this way too. This morning, too, your uncle has been carrying a hoe a long time ago, but this season, what is he doing in the field, I have seen when he comes, whether there is a greenhouse in this place. And that big grandmother, an old man like this, sleeps less, and wakes up earlier than us, but she just hides in the house and refuses to come out, haven't you thought about why? ”

When she said this, I was also stunned: "Why? ”

Li Huaishan: "People just avoid you." Alas, or I say that you are not quiet enough in your heart, and you can't see such obvious things. ”

I scratched my scalp a little irritably: "But they ...... Why do you want to avoid me? ”

Li Huaishan said: "Although I can't figure out why, I think it's out of kindness that they avoid you." Actually, your grandmother is still very good to you, otherwise you wouldn't have let us live at home last night. ”

Yan Yanan also said: "I think they may know something related to Uncle Feng Yu, and they are afraid that you will ask more, so they deliberately avoid you." ”

As soon as these words came out, my brain suddenly opened up, and I immediately shouted at Li Huaishan: "Turn around, let's go back!" ”

"Don't go back," Li Huaishan shook his head: "Your heart and eyes have learned in vain, can't you still see that there are some things, no matter how much you ask, they won't say it." I'm thinking about it, if you want to know what happened to your parents at the beginning, it's better to start with the Su family, after all, your old man has done a great job, it's just a drop of water, even the people in the village are willing to help him keep secrets. ”

Yan Yanan completely disagreed with Li Huaishan's proposal: "Don't go to the Su family, you are a bad person now, and once you enter the door of the Su family, you may not be able to get out." The people of their family can't wait for you to change your surname to Su quickly. ”

Li Huaishan glanced at me from the rearview mirror again and said, "But I think so, this kind of thing can't be rushed, you better be down-to-earth and get mixed up." When one day you are strong enough and well-connected, it will be much easier to find your dad at that time. ”

"But shall we just leave?" I was a little annoyed: "If the villagers in the village really knew something, I came, but I didn't ask for clarification......"

Li Huaishan opened his mouth to interrupt me: "What happened to your parents back then may not be so simple. I was wondering last night if they would be implicated once they opened their mouths in front of you, and there might be chaos in the stockade. ”

Yu Yanan also said: "Uncle Feng Yu has not heard from him for so many years, there must be a hardship, you still don't have to be in such a hurry to find him, he doesn't want to show up, there must be a reason for him." ”

I leaned on the back of the car and let out a long breath: "Sister, do you know why I went back to my house in the first place?" ”

Yan Yanan nodded sullenly: "I know." ”

After saying this, the people in the car fell silent.

I want to go back to the village, find my grandmother and uncle, and ask them what they are hiding from me, but I also know that Li Huaishan's words are reasonable, and no matter how anxious I am, I can't turn around and go back.

Until now, I can clearly remember what the old cat looked like when he died, although his death was not directly related to me, and I didn't force him to go to the deserted village. But his death made me understand one thing, once ordinary people who have not cultivated are involved in the affairs of the industry, it is almost impossible to get out of the business.

Even the two survivors, the gnats and the mines, were not pulled into the line by us?

Who said that the money in the industry seems to be easy to make, but the danger is not something that ordinary people can imagine, even marginal people like gnats and landmines will have times when their lives are not guaranteed.

As soon as you enter the industry, it is as deep as the sea, and this opaque black water is not something that anyone can wade.

For me, the people in the village are, after all, villagers who have lived together for nine years, and I don't want to drag them into the water.

(End of chapter)