Liu Xiaohua may have some presbyopia, far away, squinted her eyes, and said: "It's him, it's him, he just doesn't grow up, he is very naïve, you look at the clothes he wears, it's like a child, he's ...... this year It should be twenty-eight years old, hehe. When she spoke, Liu Xiaohua's eyes were full of longing, which was a kind of eyes that cared for distant children, which was the most common and greatest in the world - maternal love.

"Auntie, Zhang Liang performed very well in the factory, the company rewarded him with a bonus of 10,000 yuan, if you send money, the handling fee is very high, not cost-effective, it just so happens that I want to go back to my hometown, I will help you bring it back." Li Zifeng thought about it, if she gave her money in her own name, I am afraid she would not want it, but if she wanted to say that the money was earned by her son, she would be very happy.

What mother in the world doesn't want her child to be productive?

Sure enough, Liu Xiaohua was stunned for a long time, with tears in her happy eyes, and nodded again and again, saying that Liangliang had a future.

Li Zifeng took out a small bottle of potion from his pocket and said, "Auntie, this is the most advanced medicine imported from the United States, it must have an effect on your condition, you can drink it at any time." ”

In fact, it was not a potion, it was Li Zifeng's blood, for ordinary people, the powerful cell regeneration ability in his blood can indeed cure many diseases.

Although Liu Xiaohua was unwell, she insisted on getting up to wash a few apples for Li Zifeng to eat, Li Zifeng asked her to sit quietly and do it herself, and when she was bending down to wash the apples, a person suddenly appeared outside the door, Li Zifeng looked sideways and was shocked.

The clown stood coldly at the door.

"Liangliang?" Liu Xiaohua's tone was a hint of uncertainty, and the clown whispered: "Mom, I'm back, I have something to talk about with my friend, you can rest first." ”

The meaning of the words is obvious, that is, to take Li Zifeng out.

Li Zifeng also turned around and smiled, and said, "Auntie, I haven't seen Zhang Liang for a long time, let's have a good chat, you can rest first." ”

The two walked out of the small bungalow, the clown gritted his teeth, and sneered: "I really didn't expect it, I still underestimated you, and I was able to find this." ”

Li Zifeng said: "Two big men standing in the sun, especially in the center of the courtyard, aren't too particular." ”

"It's not particular, come with me." The clown walked into the church with Li Zifeng and sat in the last row, while facing the statue of Jesus directly in front of him, each looking ahead, like two people who did not know each other at all.

Because there were some old women praying in front of the church, in order not to disturb them, the voices of the two were very quiet.

"I don't know why an honest, taciturn person could be like this, so I'm here to find out."

"Did you find it?"

"Nope."

"Good people have to go through thousands of calamities to become Buddhas, and bad people can put down the butcher's knife to become a Buddha on the ground, the so-called good people are bullied, horses are good to be ridden, your kindness is worthless in the eyes of others, your kindness is just a step for others to kick their noses on the face, this world, no one takes your kindness as a thing, they don't think you are real, they only think you are bullying." The clown clasped his hands together, bowed his head, and made a prayerful gesture.

Li Zifeng glanced at the statue of Jesus in front of him, and also bowed his head in prayer, although he did not believe in any doctrine.

"From a neutral point of view, you are right, but there is always a degree to everything, even if it is murder."

The clown looked up at the priest who had just entered the door and said, "My grandfather was an honest man, who was dragged out and beaten fiercely, pulled by his ears, and kicked during the Cultural Revolution. My father is an honest man, people want to partner with him to do business, as a result, defrauded him of all his property, but also murdered his life, I called the police, but can not find any clues, my mother is a good person, used to do a small business at home, selling noodles on the street, some homeless people passed by, standing next to him and kept swallowing saliva, my mother served him a bowl, did not charge money, I am not praising my parents, I really can't find any human evil in them, I only see good, all good. ”

However, his father's kindness made him murdered, because he was too honest and he believed in people too much, so others killed him, and nine times out of ten. Mother's kindness, let others deceive her, give her fake money, and don't pay it back on credit, because others know that she is good, know that she is honest, and if she doesn't pay back the money she owes, she can't help it, because she can't even speak loudly, let alone quarrel. ”

"My parents taught me from a young age not to cause trouble, to have a kind heart, but I was bullied when I was in school, I was beaten, and I was looking for a job after graduation, and those old employees also bullied me and asked me to do the dirtiest and heaviest work, I don't care, but they still want to humiliate me, and the girls hide far away when they see me, I don't understand why they look down on me, is it because I am cowardly? Are cowardly, honest people destined to be looked down upon by nature? ”

Li Zifeng stopped talking, strictly speaking, he didn't know what to say.

"You sit in the high hall all day long, eat fragrant, drink spicy, and say what are the three principles of dream interpreters, in fact, the three principles you set are correct, and I like them very much, but sometimes they don't apply to this society."

"You have to understand one thing, no matter how far the society progresses, on the basis of composition, it is still based on human beings, it is a human being, he has greed, arrogance, jealousy, these weaknesses can never be eliminated, your so-called three principles are just an idealized country, the real world, very cruel, you are not a child, you will know."

Li Zifeng said: "Among the seven deadly sins, there is a line at the end, this world is not beautiful, but it is worth our struggle, have you heard of it?" ”

"So I'm fighting, I'm fighting for the ideals in my heart, so that family of five has to die, so you have to die too."

"You died because I needed your heart to restrain my strange disease."

"That family of five died because that drunk man was the culprit who murdered my father back then! His wife was also involved in that murder, including their father who also hid it, and as for their two children, if I don't kill them, they will come back when they grow up to kill my relatives, killing one person is killing, killing the whole family is also killing, since you have decided to take revenge, why not kill them all? ”

Li Zifeng was silent.

The priest's prayer also began.

"If I can speak in the tongues of men and the words of angels, but have no love, I will be like a gong and a drum. If I have the power of prophecy, and I understand every mystery, and every knowledge, and have the faith of all, that I may move mountains, but I have no love, I am nothing. If I give all that I have to the poor, and give myself up to be burned, and have no love, it will not profit me. ”

The priest's voice, low and high-spirited, echoed through the church for a long time, and a ray of sunlight shone through the window on Li Zifeng's body, and if it was a few minutes later, the angle of the sun would envelop the clown in with it.

But at the moment when the sun was about to shine on the clown, the clown in the darkness slowly lowered his head, closed his eyes, and said softly, "Amen." ”

Get up and leave.

The sunlight became more and more dazzling, Li Zifeng also slowly lowered his head, that touch of sunlight stretched his figure and reflected on the long table, for a moment, Li Zifeng felt like an innocent child, so naïve that he felt that everything in this world was very beautiful.

And the so-called beauty may be because I have never seen the darkness.

Now that he has seen the darkness, and even the impact of the darkness is difficult to look at the beauty anymore, he really wants to find his previous memories, if he can recover the memories of more than 70 years, he can know what he has experienced in the past 70 years, maybe he will have more thoughts about good and evil, about this world.