On November 20, 1977, Wen Min gave birth to a boy weighing seven pounds and six taels in the county hospital. This is really a joy for Mr. Ming and his wife.

But for Wen Min, it is both happy and sad.

Ten months pregnant, waiting for one day to give birth. Although he experienced unbearable pain, when the child's loud cry sounded in his ears, Wen Min's heart was suddenly filled with happiness. The nurse hugged the child and said, "Come on——, let mom see!" Look at this big fat boy, how likable! ”

Wen Min's tears couldn't stop flowing.

The birth of the child means that their mother and son are about to separate, and they may not see each other again in the future, Wen Min can't help but feel sad. - Fate, why did you play such a cruel joke on me?

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According to the requirements, candidates who take the college entrance examination must take the national unified examination in the place of household registration. So Wen Min is going to return to Yongqing.

The night before leaving, Wen Min said to Ming's sister-in-law, "Sister-in-law, I'll leave tomorrow." This farewell, I'm afraid it will be indefinite! Tonight, can you — let the baby sleep with me? As he spoke, tears streamed down his cheeks.

Sister-in-law Ming's tears couldn't be stopped, she picked up the child from the kang and carefully handed it to Wen Min: "Xiaomin, don't worry if the child is handed over to us!" He's our baby! We won't let him suffer the slightest grievance! ”

"I—rest assured!"

Wen Min, like Ming's sister-in-law, poured half a basin of cold water, and tried to add hot water little by little with her hands. When the water temperature is right, open the small quilt and try to wash the baby from head to toe.

This pink, fleshy little man, the child he gave birth to in October, will never be seen again from tomorrow! At this moment, she felt that this was not a piece of flesh that had fallen from her body, but a heart that had been plucked from her chest!

After washing, she gently wiped the water on her son's head, for fear that if she was not careful, she would break her son's delicate skin. After wrapping the child in a towel, she took out a pair of scissors that she had prepared in advance, gently cut a handful of soft hair on her son's head, carefully wrapped it, and put it in a close pocket.

Although Ming's sister-in-law had already fed the child, she still sat on the kang, unbuttoned her clothes, and wanted to feed her son with her own milk. This is the first and last time!

She did not breastfeed the baby after she was born. Because Ming's sister-in-law said that she was afraid that after eating breast milk, the child would not eat milk powder. The other is that I am afraid that after the mother opens the milk, it will be even more sinful to return the milk.

But tonight, no matter what, Wen Min wants his son to take his mother's milk again. The child instinctively sucked in her mother's arms, and with each puff she felt a pain that pierced her heart.

Wen Min muttered with tears in his eyes: "Son, eat a few more bites!" Later...... After that, it will never be ...... I can't eat it! ”

The child is crying! The cry is so loud! - Maybe it's because you can't suck milk.

But in Wen Min's opinion, it is the son who is reluctant to mother! - Mother and son are connected!

"Child, take a good look at Mommy! Can you remember Mom? If you really have the opportunity to meet in the future, will you still be able to recognize your mother? Teardrops fell on the child's face, and the child cried even more.

The child gradually fell asleep. Wen Min still hugged her son tightly, and sang in a low voice with tears: "Child, child, may you sleep soundly." The night is deep, may you sleep sweetly! There is a Venus shining in the distant sky, guarding my child, may you grow up quickly......"

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Heilongjiang's college entrance examination is at the end of December. After the last subject, Dong Lixing and Wen Min stepped on the train home.

Since graduating and going to the countryside to this day, Dong Lixing has not once gone home to visit relatives, and has not even written a letter to his family. Although his father kept sending him all kinds of review materials, and he used them very well, he still felt that he didn't know what to say in the letter, so he simply didn't say it. Today's college entrance examination is over, and my parents have worked hard for so long, it's time to go back and report. Seriously, it's not like he's homesick. Whether it was when the melon shed was besieged by mosquitoes, or when he was alone guarding the airy barn with wind on all sides, he missed the warmth of his home. However, if it weren't for my father's political problems, how could I have ended up in this place? And his heart became hard.

This time, he also brought local specialties: fungus, hazelnuts and hazelnut mushrooms.

As soon as he entered the courtyard gate, he shouted loudly: "Mom! I am back! ”

Hearing the shouting, his mother, sister, and brother all ran out of the house.

But when he saw the black veil on his sister and brother's left arm, he froze! Could it be ——?

My sister pounced on her, crying and beating her brother: "What are you doing here?" Don't you want this home? Didn't you break with us? What are you doing back? You only think about yourself! Do you know? Ever since you failed to be a soldier, Dad has hardly laughed! …… Dad misses you so much! But what about you? You won't even reply to a letter! You can even return the food sent to you! Is there such a son as you? …… Now, Dad—it's gone! In the end, he didn't- he didn't close his eyes......"

Mom came over and took her sister away, wiped away her tears, held Dong Lixing's arm, and said, "It's good to come back, it's good to come back!" - Son, how did you do on the exam? ”

"I did well. I guess I should be able to get in. Dong Lixing didn't seem to have come to his senses, "When did my dad leave?" What kind of disease? Why didn't you tell me? ”

When I entered the house, I saw a large picture frame on the writing desk, which contained a black and white photo of my father.

Next to the frame is a stack of books: "World History", "General History of China", "Modern History of China", "Principles of Marxist Philosophy", "Political Economy", ...... So many books! If you read it yourself, you won't be able to read it anyway, let alone memorize it. However, Dad not only read them all, but also wrote down the summaries. In this exam, Dad's summary notes became his winning weapon.

There is also a large stack of "People's Daily" next to the table, and when you open the newspapers, there are holes of different sizes on each one. He knows that these cuts are all current affairs and politics, because he can always receive international and domestic current affairs clips from his father on a regular basis.

After teaching her sister outside the house, her mother walked in, and when she saw Dong Lixing lying on the table crying bitterly, she couldn't help but shed tears.

"Your dad died half a month ago with ,—— liver cancer. At that time, you were about to take the exam, and your father told me not to tell you, for fear of affecting your mood for the exam. ”

"So, how long has Dad been sick? Why didn't you tell me when Dad was sick? ”

"Your father said that you only have one way out of the college entrance examination, and it can't affect you anymore no matter what! If he tells you about his condition, you will be distracted and you will not be able to learn! Fortunately, the university entrance examination is also a spiritual pillar for your father, otherwise, he may not be able to support it for so long! Reading books, summarizing, and sorting out notes every day is all his spiritual sustenance. The mother tearfully touched the corner of the table on the right side of the desk, "Son, what do you see ——, different here?" ”

Dong Lixing found that the paint on the corner of this table had fallen off, and it was significantly smoother than the other corners.

Mom said, "When your dad was in pain, he used the corner of the table to press against his abdomen, and just like that, he insisted on copying these notes." He said, for so many years, there are no serious textbooks, so what can children take to take the college entrance examination? He wanted to use his last energy to write a set of textbooks for his son by hand. In the end, he couldn't get up, so he drew the points in the book. The last book, Modern History of China, was copied by me according to the key points drawn by your father. ”

Dong Lixing couldn't cry, he held his father's portrait tightly in his arms, knelt on the ground, and couldn't say a word in the thousand words in his heart.

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In the spring of 1978, Dong Lixing and Wen Min received university admission notices respectively. Lixing chose his father's alma mater, Binjiang Normal University, majoring in Chinese language and literature. Wen Min was admitted to a conservatory in another city.

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In the second semester of Dong Lixing's junior year, his mother suddenly came to the college. Lixing was very excited to see his mother and immediately took his mother to their dormitory.

But the mother's face was solemn, and she pulled her son to the empty stands of the stadium and sat down.

"Son, mom is here today because she has an important matter that must be explained to you in person. This is also your dad's wish for many years. The mother took out an envelope from her bag and handed it to her son, "Look at this." ”

Dong Lixing carefully opened the envelope, and inside was a red-headed document, and his father was rehabilitated!

"Your father, he didn't wait until the day he was rehabilitated! But he firmly believes that day will come. When your father was dying, he also instructed that when this day comes, let me tell you that your father has given advice to the organization in the hope that our country can be better! - Son, you don't know the historical background of that year, and your father's affairs have had an impact on your progress. But, son, do you know? Your dad is even more uncomfortable than you! After all these years, why would he rather be a buyer than stay at home? It's because he feels aggrieved! - Can you understand, son? ”

Dong Lixing looked at this "notice of rehabilitation" that was 22 years late, and had mixed feelings. Twenty-two years! was classified into the "black five categories", and he was completely unaware of the humiliation his father endured, and he actually resented him in his heart!

Thinking of the days when he failed to pass the military and political trial, he hardly spoke to his father. He didn't even eat the food that his father put in his bowl with his own hands. He had also seen his father cry secretly, but it made him even more unhappy! I thought: I knew today, why bother in the first place?

After going to the countryside, he cut off contact with his father, and even the food sent by the family was returned intact.

However, the father not only did not blame his son's rebellion, but also gave a mountain of fatherly love and endured the pain to sort out notes for him. If the road to study is to cross a single-plank bridge with thousands of troops, and the father is using his life to make a shortcut for his son!

He couldn't stop crying, he felt that it was his rebellion that hastened his father's departure.

He - can't forgive himself!