It's already more than eleven o'clock, like my grandfather's age, I must have fallen asleep in normal times, looking at his tired face, I knew that he was just called up by my mother, I walked to him and helped him up and sat on the head of the bed, and then stood on the side of the bed in a straight military posture, waiting for the hair to fall without saying a word.

After a long time, grandpa said in a low voice: "Your mother said, you have something to say to me!" ”

I was surprised, shook my head and said, "No! ”

Grandpa nodded lightly a few times, and then said, "Well, then help me turn off the lights, and I'm talking to me when I think about it!" ”

As soon as I heard this, I felt very bad, as long as this light was turned off, I would definitely have to stand here for a night, and immediately said: "Yes, in fact, I want to say, I don't like to be a soldier!" ”

My best explanation for the old scheming is that they never ask why, I have been fighting with my grandfather since I was a child in order to hide my timidity, but I have not been able to succeed once, most of them have been seen through at a glance! This time was no exception, and Grandpa sighed and asked me, "Do you know why I let you be a soldier?" ”

I frowned: "Huh? It's normal for me to be a soldier, it's impossible for my family to break the gun after a few generations of people have touched it, this is our life! ”

Grandpa laughed dryly: "Life, yes, it's all fate!" But you have to know that if it weren't for your grandfather and your father dying early, I would never let you embark on the road of the army, our family has been settling accounts for several lifetimes, and I thought that your grandfather and your father had paid it off, but you ......" and then sighed: "Cough, this is fate!" ”

I was baffled by the old man, what is it, I am used to complaining so casually, if the fate of this thing is really more real, I guess the monks and eunuchs can understand why!

What kind of epiphany and courage do these two professions take......

Grandpa Tai ignored my doubts and said to himself: "Actually, my intention is very simple, it is to put you in the army for protection, so that you will never step into this society, until your next generation appears, and completely abandon the surname Jiang family!" But I didn't expect you to come out after all! ”

Hearing this, I was really blind, and said depressedly: "Grandpa, what do you want to say, I haven't been in prison again, so I'm still out." ”

Grandpa didn't answer my question, but just said to me, "Go back and tell me your arrangements tomorrow morning." ”

I let out a sigh and walked to my mother's bedroom, and when I saw that she hadn't fallen asleep, I complained, "Is the old man demented, how can he speak inexplicably now!" ”

After hearing this, my mother angrily flicked my head and said, "I'm used to you getting more and more unseemly, so grandpa." ”

I stuck my tongue out at her and said, "He said that I should tell him tomorrow what my plans are for the future, but I have only one plan: that is, I haven't slept a few solid nights after being a soldier for so many years, so I will lie in bed for three months first." ”

My mother chuckled and didn't continue the conversation, and lay down to sleep, and I had planned to sleep for three months, but I couldn't sleep this night, but I gradually became clear about what I was about to solve.

……

"Jiang Jun, after you go out of the army, what are you going to do?"

"Your sentence, except for my name, is a sick sentence, first: I will not leave the army, there is food and drink here and there is no need to use my brain, I will fight wherever I point every day, and I will worry less. Second: Even if I leave here, I won't plan for tomorrow, because arranging my life is a very unreliable thing for me! ”

"Alright, come with me on an adventure, how about we go around the world!"

"Holy, risky? You've hit a pig, and now we're not all playing with our lives every day, and you're still thinking about taking risks. I also travel the world, no money. ”

"Well, it's such a happy decision, and the initial goal is set first: ride a bicycle around the boundary line of the earth!"

"You're sick, why are you looking for me!"

"Because among all of them, you and I are the only ones who look like we can't find a daughter-in-law in our lives!"

“……”

The conversation was so short that I can't even remember what the man looked like, because we had only met once on a plane during a cross-border military exercise, and then he didn't open his bag when he parachuted.

……

The next morning, after I helped my grandfather to sit down on a rocking chair in the yard, I said beside him: "Grandpa, I actually like that kind of happy and free life, so I want to go out and play for a while!" ”

This is also one of the few times the old man asks me why, and he still asks three times in a row: "How do you have this idea?" Play? Where to? ”

I replied, "I don't know, but I want to go outside and have some friends, I know what is wrong with me, although it is not good to say that, but part of the reason is that you are used to it, you have protected me so well, I have not even had a scar on my body since I was a child, which is very abnormal for a boy." I'm like a frog at the bottom of a well, looking at the sky so big every day, so I want to go out and see the world, I don't like the institutionalized life of the army, I like the kind of world where I can be free, I can do something happy with my friends, it may not be very productive, but I like it very much. ”

Grandpa's rocking chair shook slightly, and his eyes looked at the sky as if he was talking to himself: "It seems that a wolf is a wolf after all, even if it is encircled for a long time, it can't become a dog!" ”

I understand what he means, because I have his blood in my veins, even if I am a fuck now, but the blood buried in my heart will never be erased, it just lacks a chance to awaken. Then I asked, "Won't you be disappointed?" I'm the only one in our family who has failed the most, I'm really ashamed of you, although I haven't seen grandpa and dad, but they are at least better than me! ”

Grandpa smiled and said indifferently: "Better than you?" Will you be better than you and die that soon? ”

I said depressedly: "You say that about the two of them again, how can you say that they are also your dearest!" ”

At this time, my grandfather turned his gaze to me, and said to me with a cold gaze: "I am not surprised that you will die on the street tomorrow." ”

I was very uncomfortable with this strange domineering, so I quickly changed the topic: "Then you just agree with me to go out and break through!" ”

Grandpa nodded: "I have never objected to anything about you, and this one is no exception, your three generations have been arranged by me so well, so good that your years together have not lived as long as me!" ”

I took a breath and said to him with an ugly expression: "Grandpa, don't talk so much, I didn't want my grandfather and father to die so early, I still have a lot of things to do!" ”

Grandpa smiled: "Oh? So much! Tell me about it! ”

I scratched my head embarrassedly: "For example, talking about someone, traveling around the world, and so on!" I'm all this age, not to mention my girlfriend, all the women around me add up to less than ten, and my mother still accounts for one place! Sometimes I see the buddies who look more girly in the army and want to go up and ask if he is single......"

Grandpa Tai has never been interested in my stinky poverty, and said directly: "Well, I support both of these ideas, but it's still the same sentence: don't die too early, my time is running out, although I never expected me to meet your next generation, but I really don't want to send a white-haired person to a black-haired person again!" ”

Hearing this, I hurriedly waved my hand to him and said: "Yes, yes, the conversation is over here, after listening, I won't go out to travel or anything, go directly to the coffin to lay two coffins, let's bury one together, my mother can get more pension or something." Huh? Pension? Grandpa, your pension is more than my salary every month since you retired, support me! ”

As soon as the words fell, the slight snoring that responded to me had reached my ears, and I glared at him and scolded in a low voice: "Old treacherous and cunning! ”

But it's not hard to understand, it would be strange if I could really fight this hundred-year-old fox, who really crossed more bridges than I walked.

When I got back to the house, I sat down next to my mother and helped her pick the leeks, and she asked me, "How was the discussion?" ”

I nodded and didn't say anything, but I recalled my grandfather's words in my heart, and I always felt a little awkward, as if I was destined to be in danger on this trip, he was reminding, and there was also a hint of concern, this situation was absolutely never before, what kind of temperament my grandfather was born as a horse bandit, one or two lives were nothing in his eyes, even my great-grandson went to the special brigade to perform a live-fire mission, he never comforted, how could he care about my small trip.

However, the words we talked about in the morning were really good, and he didn't feel much anger because of my early discharge, as if he had expected this result. Although I can often hear my grandfather's conversation about putting life and death aside, I can still vaguely feel that there are some other hints in his conversation just now, which I haven't delved into, and I can only understand that he is relieved that I grew up in the army since I was a child, and he is not at ease when I am out of society for the first time. Because I know so little about his old man over the years, I don't know much more stories than a new recruit.

In addition, there are many mysteries in our family, how did grandpa and dad die? How did mom become mute? What did grandpa have with that bandit back then, even to the point of defecting with a large army? The most puzzling thing is what did Grandpa Tai start with, is it really with a sense of pride, I don't believe in this kind of thing when he is killed, or is he originally a second generation of bandits?

The more I think about it, the more confused I become, I haven't asked for a result for so many years, hoping that a moment of doubt can't help me at all, putting aside that little doubt, he can agree with my idea of going out of the house I am still very surprised, which makes me very relieved, and also makes me more confident.

And why do I go, I naturally have a plan in my heart, but I will go out for a long time, and I can finally accompany my mother at home, and accompany my grandfather who has not had much time, if I leave, I will inevitably be a little reluctant in my heart!

As for worrying about this kind of word, my grandfather never allowed me to say it, and if he had to let him shoot me if necessary, he would not hesitate to do it. So I have been instilled with a kind of thinking since I was a child: if a man wants to do something, he must put aside those unnecessary emotions, and if he wants to get something, he must fight with blood and exchange his life!

But if I had the courage to shoot someone, I'd have people kicked out of the army.

In the few minutes I accompanied my mother to wash the vegetables, I also told her my thoughts, but more of a confession: "Mom, I'm sorry, I haven't been home for a few days and I'm going out again, but this time I will definitely not go out alone, I will definitely bring you a daughter-in-law back!" ”

My mother chuckled and flicked my head, and then gestured with her hand: "It's still the same sentence, my mother believes in you, do what you want, take what you want, grab what you want, and grab it if you can't get it, our family doesn't need any bullshit people, but what our Jiang family wants to do is not impossible." ”

After hearing these words, I stopped my hand in mid-air and made a stop gesture, speechless for a long time, it's really my own mother, it's really not a family that doesn't enter the door, this tone is exactly the same as my grandfather, fortunately my grandfather and my father died early, if they all think like this, educate me like this every day, my pure little heart will make them become Texas chainsaw murderers sooner or later!

After holding it for a long time, I said to her: "I still don't want my daughter-in-law back......"