It was another snowy day, and I hurried out of the house and came to school before dawn. As soon as I entered the school gate, I saw more than a dozen people busy in the sharing area of the class. When I walked up, I heard a man shouting, "Everyone, hurry up, or the students should come!" ”

"Mr. Chen, it's you!" Ming Hao recognized this person as Chen Jiabao's father.

Chen Jiabao's father, Chen Chuan, said embarrassedly: "Teacher Ming, why did you come so early?" ”

"I've got to see who does good deeds without leaving a name! Where did you find so many people? ”

"What am I doing? - Open a construction company, there are no workers yet! Teacher Ming, now that you know everything, we won't have to work secretly in the future. Let's say okay,—— I'll take care of the snow in your class! - But absolutely not a penny! Chen Chuan said very boldly.

"How can this be? You have your job. ”

"I won't tell you, Mr. Ming, what about me——, first, I have this condition, and there are many workers below. Second, I thank you from the bottom of my heart! Without you, Jiabao and Jiayi would not have such good results; The third is ...... I was a very failed father. Speaking of which, a son and a daughter, both children and daughters. But now——, none of them are close to me! I want to do as much as I can for the kids. ”

Ming Hao was a little confused: "You mean Lu Jiayi is your daughter?" ”

"Yes! - Biological daughter! That's my sweetheart, too! She was originally called Chen Jiayi, but since I divorced his mother, she changed her name to Lu Jiayi after her mother's surname. - It doesn't matter what your surname is, it's always my daughter! ”

"Then, Chen Jiabao ——? with you"

"Jiabao is also my own son, they are half-brothers and sisters. - It's just that Jiabao came back to me relatively late. Chen Chuan was a little embarrassed.

After listening to Chen Chuan's words, Ming Hao was quite puzzled. Chen Jiabao is one year older than Lu Jiayi, why did he return to his father later?

Although his head was full of confusion, he didn't want to ask again, so he said: "Mr. Chen, in fact, I asked my classmates to clear the snow by themselves, for two purposes: one is to exercise these children; Another one, but also to let their body and mind relax. Otherwise, the same learning is indeed too boring! ”

"Ahh Then I get it! I'll keep it for you next time! ”

"Brother Chen, don't wait for the next time! We'll clean up the rest, shall we? We won't be able to do it in the future, so I'll ask you for help. ”

"Well, it's a deal! Don't be polite to me! After saying that, Chen Chuan took people back.

………

In the evening, after settling her mother-in-law and Tiantian, Li Lu returned to their own room, and Ming Hao was still correcting the composition.

"Huh? Your brother can find me today, let me help him with math during the winter break. Li Lu said to Ming Hao.

"Zixuan? - Looking for you directly? You promised? ”

"This kid is willing to learn now, can you not agree? It's just—"

Ming Hao asked, "What?" Is there anything inconvenient? You won't be going anywhere on vacation! ”

"The point is—where to make it up for him? You can't come to our house! ”

"Where are you at home? Can you still go to his house? That's not going to work! ”

Li Lu poked Ming Hao's head with her finger: "You have a lack of tendons in your head, right?" Our mom can live at home now! Zixuan looks so similar to you, what if you chat, Mom knows who his surname is, so what should I do? ”

"Yes! Although my father told us everything about my life before he died, and hoped that I could recognize my biological parents, he was afraid that I would be too lonely in the future. However, in my mother's lifetime, I would not recognize them—— even if I knew it. ”

"Alright, the holidays haven't come yet!" Li Lu made the bed, "Go to bed early, you have to get up early tomorrow!" ”

"Alas! I can't sleep! Sweet. After that, he put down his composition, put on his clothes, and went out and downstairs.

Li Lu felt that her husband was a little abnormal today, so she walked to the balcony and looked down, only to see Minghao take out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, smoke one, take out a lighter, light a cigarette, and stand alone in the cold snow against the cold wind.

What's wrong? Still smoking? - What's wrong?

Li Lu returned to the room and picked up the composition that Ming Hao had just put down on the table.

This is an article by Chen Jiabao, entitled "I don't want to grow up". Li Lu took the bed, leaned against the head of the bed and read:

Reluctance to grow up

Leo Tolstoy said, "Humanity has been given a job, and that is spiritual growth." ”

Turning into a butterfly is a kind of praise for people's growth. It is true that butterflies are beautiful, but most people can't say how bitter the process of metamorphosis is, but I am experiencing it. But whether it can become a butterfly, I dare not imagine! It's just that this torment of spiritual growth hurts me to the bone! So, I don't want to grow up!

I have two families, and I can't tell which one is native.

I just remember how happy my childhood was! Grandma's warm embrace is my happiest cradle; On the floor of the living room at home, my father is my most docile mount; On the way to school, my grandfather was always my most diligent scholar. No matter who is in the house, the first thing that calls every time you enter the door is "baby".

From kindergarten to elementary school, whether I was going to school or leaving school, I always held my grandfather with my left hand and my grandmother with my right hand. Especially in winter, I squatted on the icy road, and my grandparents pulled me and slid on the ground, which was so cool! In that home, it seems that where I am, there is laughter.

However, this happiness soon came to an end!

I remember when I was in the second grade of elementary school, one night, after my father and mother had a fight, I went out on a motorcycle! - After that, he never came back! When I saw my dad again, he was already in a boxy little wooden box!

In those days, my grandmother didn't eat or drink, and the only thing she did was hold me in her arms all day. When my aunt cooks the food, I have to hand it to my grandparents, and they will eat a little.

However, this state of affairs was also quickly broken!

Before the black veil on my left arm was removed, my mother was about to remarry!

I remember that day my grandfather said, "If you take another step, we have no right to stop you." But——, we just have one request, can you leave the baby with us?"

Mom said, "I can't stay, child!" He must come with me! ”

Grandpa, the former bank president, knelt in front of my mother with my grandmother: "Our son is gone, and there is only a baby in his blood!" You take the baby away, isn't this - not killing us? ”

However, the mother said, "I can't keep this child in your house, because ......, he's not your son's blood!" With that, he took out a paternity test, and then, with a deadlift, I left.

That day, my grandfather had a sudden cerebral hemorrhage and passed away, probably to find my father!

……

My mother said that she would take me to my own father and ask me to recognize my ancestors and return to my ancestors.

However, that real father has his own family, and he doesn't even want to see our mother and son!

My mother dragged me to meet my so-called grandfather and grandmother,—— but the grandmother just threw my mother a bank card!

I will never forget the day ,——when my mother forced me to climb to the rooftop of my father's company and took me to jump off the rooftop......

……

So I went to a new home. Got a new dad. There is a new surname - Chen. Although my mother repeatedly told me that this was my biological father, I still couldn't pronounce the word "dad" no matter what.

Later, I knew that my appearance made another girl lose her dad! By blood, she should be my sister. But she will always treat me as an enemy.

How ridiculous! I changed my surname from "Zhang" to "Chen". And my sister changed her surname from "Chen" to "Lu"!

My sister's grandparents were supposed to be my grandparents, but they lived with my sister's mother and daughter, and never allowed our family of three to come to the house, even for the New Year's holiday.

When I was young, my life was very casual, as long as I ate and played well, I didn't think about anything else. Even if there is pain, it is a short-term labor pain, and it will be fine for a while. Not anymore! Every time I think back to the past, it hurts so much!

Love my family, but not my foundation; Where my foundation lies, I am a superfluous person! Because of the loss of me, that family lost its grandfather; But because of me, my sister lost her father. My grandmother, who loved me since I was a child, wanted to see me, and she had to be like a spy to guard against her mother.

Who am I? Whose child am I?

The mother said, "You are the only son of the Chen family. Your father is Mr. Chen, and you are the future Mr. Chen! ”

However, except for a father surnamed Chen, all the people and things in the Chen family have nothing to do with me! Even if you can see it, you can never touch it!

……

During military training, I saw my grandmother in the queue outside the big iron gate of the school, holding on to the iron railing and looking in. I know she's looking for the baby she's been holding since she was a child! But, Grandma, in the midst of all the same hairstyle and uniform, you may find me, your grandson?

I finally managed to rest, but my grandmother was gone! - Grandma, why don't you wait for me a little longer?

I leaned against the bars and looked out......

I don't understand, is it because my grandmother is trapped in the emotional cage and can't get out, or is I also in this cage where I can't sit in prison?

The day after tomorrow is grandma's birthday! When I was a child, I was the one who blew out the candles for her. After all these years of leaving that home, does grandma still think about blowing out candles?

I want to go back to the way I used to be, I really don't want to grow up!

………

Li Lu read this essay with tears in her eyes, she put on her coat, took out a down jacket from the closet, and went downstairs.

She walked up to Minghao and put on a down jacket for him.

"What are you doing down here? Let's go back ,—— let's go! Ming Hao put his arm around Li Lu's shoulders and said.

Li Lu asked, "When was this essay written?" ”

"Yesterday. - What's wrong? ”

"So, Chen Jiabao's grandmother has a birthday tomorrow? So-I'll order a cake tomorrow and let Chen Jiabao go there in the afternoon? ”

Ming Hao picked up Li Lu's face, looked at it carefully, kissed it deeply, and said, "If you have a wife like you, what more can a husband ask for?" ”