Chapter 134: I Can't Afford Your Promise
Xu Man looks like this now, living like a dead man who has collapsed excessively, her arms are as thin as firewood, her eye sockets are sunken, and her complexion is pale, she is no longer the appearance of a beautiful woman ten years ago, she is lying on the hospital bed in prostration, her whole body is covered by snow-white sheets, only one head is exposed, and it seems that she only sees a skeleton.
Shen Yeling's death, Xu Man's life is worse than death, only their children and Luo Xiaoqi are still alive, Luo Xiaoqi asked people to bring the child to Xu Man to see her, who knew that Xu Man's sight aroused her original idea of survival, crying and shouting for Luo Xiaoqi to save her.
But it was too late, Xu Man seemed to have been robbed of her body by Duan Changqing and went crazy, what did Shen Yeling say a few days ago that she didn't want her, she didn't want her and her child to die like this, she cried for a long time looking for death and life, and now she wants the doctor to cure her illness, she wants to live well to take care of her children.
It was only after the doctor discussed Xu Man's condition with Luo Xiaoqi that Luo Xiaoqi gradually knew that Xu Man had been infected with the disease for several years, even if he had contracted it in Beiping, and now that he had a child, maybe the child would inherit such a disease in the future. In short, it would be good for Xu Man to live for a week this time.
Luo Xiaoqi also hopes that Xu Man can survive, but Xu Man will really not survive, if she was in the past, maybe she still believed that man will win the day, grabbed the doctor's collar, and wrote a prescription for Xu Man to treat Xu Man, but now that she grows older, the more she believes in fate, and whatever fate God arranges for you, you can only let him go.
Since Xu Man was sent to the hospital, there will always be an old man of half a hundred on the empty seat at the end of the hospital, that is Master Yu in Shen Yeling's opera team, he has been sitting every day after teaching his apprentices to practice, and he has not come into the room to see, from day to night, just sitting like a Buddha statue.
Luo Xiaoqi took this opportunity to chat with him, and he told Luo Xiaoqi very vaguely, saying that Xu Man was sick, which was Lin Daiyu's life, and he didn't live long, just because Duan Changqing didn't deserve to die, he just gave the rest of his life to Xu Man when he died, and Xu Man was able to have all these times stolen and stole Duan Changqing.
Luo Xiaoqi couldn't stand Master Yu's suspicions, and ordered his subordinates to take him to another place to meditate, and take him to any corner of the hospital, at least don't meditate in the place where she often appears.
But if you want to talk about how Duan Changqing's people are crazy, Luo Xiaoqi really hasn't seen it, but the mentally deranged madman has been driven crazy by her a lot, and now Xu Man is very different from their madness, she always looks normal every once in a while, the previous survival and later death, in the end, gradually became quiet, and began to catch up with knitting.
When she walked into the ward this time, the only thing she saw was Xu Man in front of the hospital bed, the morning sun shining on her through the window, and from a distance it seemed to be glowing, like an angel approaching heaven.
。 She glanced up at Luo Xiaoqi, and cast a kind smile, which made Luo Xiaoqi look sad, and soon Yi'an would have no mother, and her mother would soon be reunited with her father below.
She smiled at Luo Xiaoqi, and Luo Xiaoqi also gave her a smiling face: "Miss Luo, thank you this time, Yi An and I can survive."
Shen Yeling chose the child's name early before her death, and the little girl's name was Yi An, and she also hoped that she would live a simple and safe life.
Luo Xiaoqi looked at the clothes she was making, the clothes were small, and the clothes next to her were bigger than the ones in her hands, Luo Xiaoqi looked at it and quipped: "You want to make all the children's clothes in one day."
Xu Man kept smiling, and his hands shook from time to time with every stitch, sometimes he sewed several wrong places with just one stitch, Luo Xiaoqi knew that she was in pain on her body, and she was so dazzled that she shook out a lot of sweat on her body before sewing it to the right place.
Waiting for Xu Man to finish sewing a row of threads, he gradually looked at Luo Xiaoqi: "I can't leave a good one for my child, I can only leave the clothes made by myself, girl, if my child asks her who her father and mother are in the future, don't tell her that my reputation is bad enough, I just hope she can live a good life without our identity."
Luo Xiaoqi frowned: "What are you talking nonsense, you still have a long way to go in the future If you don't like life here, I can take you and your mother to live somewhere else, let alone change your identity, even if you want to change your life."
Luo Xiaoqi said with a little ease, so far she didn't dare to tell her that Xu Man's life was coming, and even if Luo Xiaoqi didn't say that Xu Man felt it, the two of them just tacitly agreed.
Xu Man's smile on his face for a long time was moved by Luo Xiaoqi, and he still remembered that a few years ago in Beiping, Shen Yeling, who was handsome and full of youthful atmosphere, also said similar things to her, she was moved at that time, and now it is the same, their uncle and nephew are the same, which can make people tempting.
Xu Man started slightly, face to face, and planned to have a heart-to-heart relationship with Luo Xiaoqi: "Miss Luo, I have such a bad reputation outside, do you really have no mustard in your heart."
She asked like this, Luo Xiaoqi didn't dare to look at her, to say that there was no such thing as a difference in heart, there are many examples of rumors and rumors outside, not to mention how Xu Man views Luo Xiaoqi, just the ugly things that Luo Xiaoqi was rumored to have done all kinds of evil before, so people have to turn away.
"I know, you're not such a person", Luo Xiaoqi thought for a long time and could only answer this, she was not interested in women talking, women were sensitive, and as soon as they saw it, it was equivalent to revealing the truth.
How do you know that Xu Man said in the next sentence: "It's because of Erlang, the second miss of the Hang family has a much better reputation than me, she is the eldest lady in the boudoir, and I am indeed a pheasant in the mountains", she laughed at herself and compared herself to the 'pheasant' in the mountains, but she felt funny.
Luo Xiaoqi put on a serious posture and planned to talk to her: "You are a geisha, Mr. Jiang said that the eldest lady raised in the boudoir is not as good as the famous prostitutes in the Xue Pavilion, you and her are just from the same background, there is nothing to be inferior to."
Luo Xiaoqi is not very good at persuading, and what he said is just stumbling, Xu Man smiled: "That's because of Erlang, whoever your uncle marries, you will also be good to her, because what your uncle thinks is good, you will also feel good, Miss Luo, is what I said right?"
These words stunned Luo Xiaoqi, if he really couldn't talk to a woman, her essence was undoubtedly revealed, Luo Xiaoqi drowned a mouthful of saliva, and the sweat on his hands was brewing between his fingers before noon.
Then she said: "So, Miss Luo, your attitude towards me and Miss Hang's attitude all depend on my Erlang."
Luo Xiaoqi gritted his teeth in shame and replied hesitantly: "It was she who betrayed my uncle first, and I should only teach her a lesson."
Luo Xiaoqi felt that chatting with Xu Man was terrible, and when she thought of it, she turned her wheelchair like walking, Xu Man stopped her again, and said again and again: "My child still doesn't let her know my identity, I want him to be clean, and it seems to make him feel that his mother is also clean."
When she went to visit Xu Man a few times, she was very peaceful, and it seemed that the gossip outside was nothing to her, but she still cared about the child today, Luo Xiaoqi's heart was sour, and she nodded heavily with tears.
Early the next morning, Zhang Shangzhi and Xu Ruliang came to see Xu Man one after another, Xu Man touched their heads with illness, the technique was still a loving mother, and what she said was also a loving mother, teaching them to listen to Master Yu in the future, and this troupe will rely on them to support it in the future.
"I have followed your master for so many years, and I have seen with my own eyes how he and his senior brother have grown into a drama class, and they have suffered a lot, so you should cherish it."
Several apprentices nodded silently, all of them couldn't cry, only Zhang Shangzhi's mind was simple, and he actually cried loudly, Xu Ruliang blocked his mouth, and didn't want him to spoil the atmosphere.
When the moon and stars are scarce at night, everything that should be said is said cleanly, and the people who should be seen are also seen, if Zhang Changxin and his wife come to lock her soul again, she can go peacefully in her sleep.
There are ups and downs in this life, there are ups and downs, the only regret is that she can't go back cleanly after being sick, I just hope that she will suffer the hardships of the next life together with this life, and just be a clean person in the next life.
Xu Man was lying on the bed, looking at the starry blue sky next to him, and finally smelled the breath of death, she knew that she could go down to reunite with her Shen Lang, and the living people made him look upset, so it was better to go down and see them.
But she was not in a hurry, she wanted to get up and take one last look at her child, that was the last thought she left in the world, she was suddenly a little scared, afraid that she didn't have the strength to run to see her son, she was the only one left in the empty house, she stretched out her hand in vain and grabbed it, grabbed a void, and silently evoked two words: "Yi'an".
A tear slipped through the corner of her eye, overwhelming the severe pain and suffocation, Xu Man grabbed the last bit of strength in his life and pulled the clothes at the head of the bed, took the tip of his nose and sniffed, imagining the scene of the child wearing this dress, she has nothing worthy of the child's memory, only this clothes, I hope that after she wears it, the child can proudly say that my mother made it.
Then this is enough.
The pain gradually disappeared, her body gradually floated up, like a dream, she walked through a dark and long corridor, and at the end of that corridor was a piece of light, and in the depths of the light was a Shen Ye Ling.
Shen Yeling was the same as ten years ago, at that time he should have been Shen Huai'an, accompanied Jiang Yuan to see her, ran away shyly, and after a few days, he came shyly and gave her a note full of promises, and she was also the bright appearance of ten years ago, peerless Fanghua, peaceful everything, she had never experienced hardship, she returned the promise that Shen Yeling came to give him again.
At this moment, she didn't let him redeem herself, she just treated him as a passerby to get together and disperse, and without him, she would experience another pain, even if she lived a mediocre life: "No, it's bad for you, I can't afford your promise."