My name is Xie Lingyu, I am an orphan, and it was Master who picked me up and adopted me. I have always treated Master as a Master as a Master, and I have been cautious, for fear that Master would not like it and drive me out. After a long time, I slowly found that Master doted on me very much, even if I lived carelessly, Master would not blame me, would not dislike me, and even if I did something wrong, Master would protect me.

Slowly, I began to be arrogant, relying on the master to like me, I began to be coquettish, began to cheat, began to bully people, anyway, with the master's protection, I am not afraid of others looking for me trouble. But I'm a smart person, and I know that I don't have a good reputation for being arrogant and domineering, so I began to disguise myself, and on the surface I pretended to be pitiful, so that those men wanted to protect me when they saw me, but behind my back, they plotted against those women I didn't like.

I've done a lot of this kind of thing, every time I pretend to be pitiful, others will look at me, and they all feel that the other party is wrong, even if the other party is angry, but because everyone is facing me, I can only suffer a dumb loss. I used this method to beat away a lot of women who coveted the master, the master is nearly middle-aged, still alone, still only loves me alone, spoils me alone, I don't like that there are other women in the eyes of the master.

Maybe the master himself didn't mean anything else about those women, so after I ran away angrily, the master didn't care at all. It's still the same to me as it was at the beginning. It's just that after meeting that woman, everything changes.

That hateful woman is called Shangguan Yao, and she is the third lady of the Shangguan family. Obviously just a low-born concubine, but she has the inheritance that can only be obtained by the concubine, and she is favored by the head of the family, even the concubine and the concubine see her and let her have three points, she is not like me and has to disguise, she is bright and arrogant, but no one dares to say anything about her.

I was very jealous of her from the first time I saw her, the Shangguan family has a prominent background, even the master has relied on the alms of the Shangguan family to achieve today's achievements, and now I still have to listen to the orders of the Shangguan family to do things. She is the most favored young lady in the Shangguan family, she has a face that turns all beings upside down, and she has a talent and wisdom that I can't match. I saw that when Master first saw her, there was a glint in his eyes, and when he taught her, his eyes flashed with indescribable joy when he saw her talent.

That was the first time I saw someone else's existence in Master's eyes, and I could see that Master admired her and liked her very much. She worked very hard in front of Master, put away the arrogance and domineering I usually see, and I knew that she liked Master, just like those women who coveted Master, she liked Master. I have an unprecedented sense of crisis in my heart, and I can feel that this Shangguan Yao is different from the previous woman, she can attract Master.

I was very affectionate to her in front of the Master, although I found that she was disdainful and contemptuous of me in her eyes, I was still very affectionate to her, I suppressed all my dislike for her, and made trouble for her when no one was around, ridiculed her, provoked her, I know how much the Master spoiled me, and if she had a conflict with me, the Master would definitely turn to me and hate her.

With my efforts, we finally had a conflict, in fact, she didn't do anything to me, I deliberately sat on the ground when the master came, crying pear blossoms with rain, sure enough, as I expected, the master nervously asked me how I was, I didn't look at her, let alone ask who was at fault in this matter, for the master, right or wrong is not important, the important thing is whether I was injured or not, whether I suffered a loss.

When Master took me away, I saw the disbelief and despair in Shangguan Yao's eyes, and I knew that Shangguan Yao's heart was cold, she didn't expect that in Master's eyes, she was nothing compared to me.

My original intention was to leave a pimple in Master's heart, so that Master would no longer like her in the future. But what I didn't expect was that the master did not directly dislike her like the women in the past, and let them leave, but persuaded me not to provoke her. Master said that Shangguan Yao is the most promising person in the Shangguan family, and maybe he will inherit the Shangguan family in the future, let me let her do more, and said that he admires her very much, and maybe he will accept her into his own door wall in the future as a closed disciple, her talent is only seen in her life, and he is reluctant to let go.

When I heard this, my heart was cold, I didn't expect her to be so important in Master's heart, knowing that the two of us were not in harmony, Master still wanted to accept her as a closed disciple, and let me let her, which made me both afraid and jealous in my heart. I was even more determined to calculate her and make Master disgusted with her.

When I saw her on the second day, I made sarcastic remarks about her, provoked her, and said things that were very unpleasant, different from my usual words, and I intended to provoke her and make her hurt me, so that the Master would completely dislike her. It's just that what I didn't expect was that this woman would be so ruthless, she actually shot directly to abolish my dantian, and I couldn't even block a move in front of her. Knowing that I became a cripple, I regret not being at the beginning, but there is no regret medicine in the world that can be sold.

The master was very angry when he knew that I had been shattered my dantian, and if he had been according to the master's previous temperament, he would definitely have abolished her regardless of it and avenged me, but even if the master was extremely angry, he just found the head of the Shangguan family and asked the master of the Shangguan family to give an explanation. The two ladies of the Shangguan family came out to testify for Shangguan Yao, but the master did not believe it and cut off the robe with the Shangguan family. When leaving, the arrogant and domineering Shangguan Yao showed a pitiful and dazed look for the first time, she looked at the master with tears in her eyes, and told the master that she just missed and hurt me, she didn't mean to, and asked the master to stay.

At that moment, I actually saw nostalgia and unbearability in Master's eyes, although Master finally took me away and did not see Shangguan Yao again. But I know that Master has already believed in Shangguan Yao in his heart, and the reason why he will protect me is that he has been used to protecting me for about so many years, whether I am right or wrong.

In the next twenty years, I lived worse than death, and I regretted countless times that I shouldn't provoke Shangguan Yao, but it was too late to regret it. I really didn't expect that someone would dare to disregard Master's face and be cruel to me, or the Shangguan Yao who likes Master to the bone. It was only after a long time that I learned how lawless Shangguan Yao was at home and how ruthless her shots were, it was because I didn't know her temperament that I suffered such a big loss.

In the past 20 years, Master has been serving me at my bedside every day, and after I can go to the ground, Master has been by my side every day, accompanying me and protecting me, for fear that I will be bullied. After that, Shangguan Yao also came a few times, crying and begging the master to see her, but the master didn't see her, and drove her out ruthlessly. But looking at her back, Master's eyes were gloomy.

After that, the master would be in a daze with a pen almost every day, I knew that the pen was made by Shangguan Yao and given to the master, Shangguan Yao smiled at the time and said that an elegant person like the master should use a weapon like the judge's pen, which can bring out the master's elegance.

Master is always in a daze with this pen, and I know that Master is missing her. When I saw Master like this day by day, the jealousy in my heart became stronger and stronger, and I also thought of some ways to drive her out of Master's heart, but the more ways I thought about it, the colder my heart became, and I never knew that she was so deeply ingrained in Master's heart.

A master whose heart is no longer with me, even if it is meaningful to be by my side every day, his heart has already flown away with that woman, what can I do if I leave him by my side, it can only increase my own pain and jealousy. I want to get out of here, I want to stay away from Master, I want to forget Master. But my dantian has been broken, even if it is an ordinary woman, I can't do the heavy work, I am a real weak woman, how can I live without the master, as the saying goes, there is no filial son in front of the bed for a long time, who will be willing to take care of me like this except the master.

I endured the discomfort in my heart, and just made do with my master, and there was a knot between the two of us, and the usual days were much quieter, and the atmosphere at home became more and more gloomy. I couldn't practice the Tao anymore, and I was in a bad mood, so I just hid in the study, thinking about reading and hiding to be clean.

But I never dreamed that this trip to the study would allow me to discover a shocking secret.

I saw Master's diary, and Master's diary recorded all his secrets, including that I was his illegitimate daughter, and that he had fallen into someone's trap once, and after being drugged, he found a singer to cure the cure. The singer was unexpectedly pregnant, but the master refused to admit me. The singer was resentful in her heart, and after giving birth to me, she abandoned me, leaving me to live a life of not having three meals and looking at people's faces since I was a child. Until I met Master.

When Master saw me, he thought of the singer, and after inquiring about it, he found out that I was the same child I was the one I had, and he felt guilty in his heart, so he picked me up and raised me. It is precisely because of his guilt that he indulges me in every way, whether it is right or wrong, he protects me and indulges me.

It turned out that I ran away from the woman next to him, but it was just a joke!

I silently closed Master's diary and put the diary back in its place, I cried pear blossoms with rain, but this time, it was not a disguise, it was really sad. I am the illegitimate daughter of the master, I am the person she does not want to recognize, I am the shame he thinks is, an unseemly existence, unconditional protection of me, but only guilt. obviously likes Shangguan Yao, but he drove away from Guan Yao because of his guilt because of his guilt.

I suddenly felt like I was the biggest joke in the world. But so what, I'm already a wasted person, I can only rely on the master to live, even if I know all this, I can only pretend not to know, even though I hate him to the core.

When I saw him in a daze with the pen again, I suddenly smiled, this time I was no longer jealous, I felt relieved of hatred, maybe I was between them, so that they could not be together, it was the greatest revenge, and the physical pain was never as painful as the heart.