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Yesterday, I watched a movie "Stray Cat Bob" and glanced at my own timid fat orange, which was unbearable.

Originally, I wrote half of the chapters the day before yesterday, and I had to finish writing it in the middle of the night and send it again, but after staying up late, I had a fever the morning before yesterday. Now the bones and muscles are still sour (and then I put a lot of ointment, as if it is to dissipate cold and dampness, in short, cool to relieve soreness).

In the past, when I was in elementary school, I was fine, but in middle school, especially high school, I wouldn't ask for leave even if I was sick, because I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to write my homework after not listening to class for a day, and I just went back from leave, and I had to write twice as much homework the next day. In order to survive, do people nowadays stay up all night without asking for leave to work?

When I was in high school, I would ride my bike to school even if I had a fever and dizziness. When I crossed the street, I was so dizzy that I couldn't even watch TV when I got home.

Including the first two years of part-time work, just graduated and before graduation, part-time or part-time, very stupid, what kind of work, in order to survive, will be desperate, in fact, it is not that you can't find a better one.

Those people who came over told me not to work so hard, my body was important, but I didn't listen, in exchange for my salary being deducted, and I had to be blamed, and I couldn't say bad. Then there is getting sick and injured in the rain and sun (field work).

Life can be chosen, and you can't settle for the next best.

If you choose, don't regret it, because it will only make people continue to regret when they can't live well in the present and can't go back to the past.

Sometimes I write a lot of words and have deletions because I feel that the work is the most important. It's a waste to say too much, and sometimes I feel like I still need to talk nonsense, because even if it's inspirational, record the pace, in short, it's very contradictory.

Maybe it can be written in the current state of mind. Sometimes compromise is easy and easy, persistence is headless, and even if there are glories, the trough will make people feel worse. I have lived a clear life, I have lived a sober life, and I feel that life is very short.

Doing things you don't like and making do with people you don't like for a lifetime may not be the saddest.

The saddest thing is that I can't be with the person I love the most, and I don't have the courage to know what I like to do and what I should do.

Sometimes I feel that people are too close to each other, but a lot of beauty is gone. The apotheosis part is gone, and there are a lot of mediocre shortcomings to show, and sometimes I feel that light companionship is very good.

Therefore, art and literature, whether it is sad and painful or happy, are the refinement and reduction of life, if it is sublimated enough, then it can be preserved, birth, old age, sickness and death will not have an impact, the philosophy of two thousand years ago, the real can stand the test of time.

Sometimes I think that today is tomorrow, and it will be a dream, and the white horse will pass by. Then, I'm watching A Chinese Ghost Story now, just like I did when I came home from school for dinner ten years ago.

In the past, when I was young and sick, I thought that I would definitely study hard, and I always felt that I was stiff.

Although I don't feel old now, and my mood has not changed much from before, I just feel that time is getting less and less, especially when I am sick, and I feel that the things I usually worry about and worry about are not so important.

Sometimes I think, there is so much nonsense, just open a book and write an essay directly to experience life, philosophical experience and autobiography, well, eh, wouldn't it be strange for a person who has not become famous to write an autobiography, no, I'm a small person (it feels like an old man's memoirs). Speaking of memoirs, I haven't read a copy of the Sherlock Holmes detective book memoirs I bought fifteen years ago...... I don't know where I went, but I saw it a few days ago.

The older I get, the more I feel that I don't have enough time to spend, and many things in the past are like dreams, and only the reality that I have worked hard to create is the existence that can be grasped.

Well, I'm going to keep trying to be a salted fish.