"Do you hear that?" Yan Yu asked lightly.

I swallowed a choke in my throat and said, "Listen, I hear you." ”

"Do you hear that?"

I said abruptly, "It should be...... I heard it. ”

"What is it talking about?"

Slowly, my voice became a little unclear, and I said, "I...... I don't know, probably, probably ......"

Yanyu smiled bitterly and stroked the hair on the back of my head, "It's saying 'I'm sorry.'" ”

I tightened my body in Yan Yu's arms, slowly softened, and my head was completely pressed on his shoulder.

Yan Yu chuckled twice, and he sighed with me, and said, "It's saying, 'I love you.'" ”

……

I sighed in resignation, laughing not to mention how desolate it was.

Yan Yu rubbed my hair and sighed, "Even if Lei Nian doesn't say it, I can probably guess the reason why you did these things. But I'm so angry, I don't choose to say anything, obviously you can come and tell me that I can dissipate my anger, and I am still the dearest person around you, but in the end I am still waiting for Lei Nian. ”

This Lei Nian is still a peacemaker after all, and I am extremely grateful for his assertion at the moment.

After stabilizing my emotions, I said, "Brother Yan, I'm sorry, I know it's wrong." ”

Yan Yu smiled bitterly, and said: "You just know your mistakes and make mistakes, you don't speak sincerely, and you are a liar, I don't believe a word of your words, and you can't blame me." ”

I nodded and said, "yes, that's the kind of person I am, ha...... So Brother Yan, I'm not worth it. ”

"But I know so, I still love you, I can't leave you, I will go crazy if I can't see you, if you don't need me, I don't want to live. You say, what can I do? Is it to guard you, listen to your lies, be deceived by you, or ...... Just die?? ”

I sniffed and pushed, Yan Yu didn't insist this time, I touched the edge of the bed, sat on the couch, and lowered my head and thought for a long time.

Then I said, "Brother Yan, you see, I love to lie to you, and I ...... It's not such a fiery character, you see what you say dead or alive, I can't put myself in your shoes to experience your strong emotions, and it's really, I can't understand it. ”

I really can't understand it, maybe Yanyu is young, maybe he is his first love, maybe, I really don't understand what love is.

The unprecedented distress haunts me, and when I say this, I am afraid that Yan Yu will think that I am procrastinating perfunctorily, and I do not have the slightest sincerity to communicate with him.

Yanyu sat down next to me, and I heard him sigh again, and said, "I know that you are cold, even Xiaoying Xiaoze, you are not like ordinary mothers treat children." But if that's the case, you say that you don't love Xiaoying Xiaoze, this statement is also wrong, you must love them more than anyone else. ”

"Ah, well, I know I'm not a good mother, I know." I didn't need anyone to remind me, I knew it all my life.

"Just because you're not an ordinary mother doesn't mean you don't love your children. You're just, the one you love is different from other mothers. ”

I was embarrassed: "Brother Yan, you don't have to make excuses for me, I am indeed not a good mother, as for love, of course I love the children I gave birth to." ”

"You're just pulling the distance of love farther away, you're loving."

"Well, it seems so." I nodded, "I don't like that...... I can't say it, it's slimy, I have to hold and coax, I have to stare at it without blinking, and I remember it all the time, the kind I can't do. ”

"Hmm...... You can't do that. ”

"I really can't do it." I pursed my lips and added, "I know it's not right, but I just can't do it." ”

"Yes, you always have a lot of things to do. ”

"That's what it is...... Excuse me, there aren't that many things that have to be done. "I'm a little embarrassed.

Yan Yu said, "Isn't that much? It's already a lot. ”

Well, I had something to argue about, so I said, "Well, it's quite a lot." ”

"So, when you're done with all this, you'll think of me?"

My throat was dry, and I swallowed again and said, "...... Yes...... Yes......"

"Will it be as much as remembering Xiaoying and Ozawa?"

"Ah......" I sighed once, I didn't understand why Yan Yu had to compare like this, so I thought I was a bad mother, and honestly said: "This ...... In fact...... As long as the child is safe and sound...... I still want more from you......"

"What are you thinking about when you think about me? Do you want me to do anything for you, or do you just think about me? ”

My head began to hurt again, I couldn't help pinching my eyebrows and rubbing them, Yan Yu pulled my hands down, he put his hands on my temples, and pressed lightly: "Think slowly, think about it before answering." ”

After thinking about it, I still couldn't come to a conclusion, so I said the chaotic thoughts intermittently: "Brother Yan, when I miss you, I don't seem to want you to do anything, ah maybe occasionally, very rarely." I just, remembering your face, your eyes, your smile, your kindness to me...... Ah, and the way you hold your child, and the way you hold a fan...... It's like, you know, you're beautiful, the pictures I came up with are beautiful, and I think about it...... Uh, I feel very warm in my heart. ”

"Hmm......" Yan Yu responded softly, and then asked again, "Do you think of other people like this?" ”

I immediately shook my head, "No, no. ”

"Is there really no one else?"

"There really is no one else!"

"Oh." The language domain is very simple and responds again.

Just one word, but I seemed to hear some laughter.

My head was rubbed comfortably by Yanyu, thinking that I hadn't been treated like this for a long time, so I wanted to relax and experience it carefully.

One sentence immediately made me nervous again.

He said, "Do you know that when you say that, you are admitting that you love me." ”

I was puzzled for a while, although I couldn't see the words, but I still turned my head to face him and said, "Really? No way? I didn't mean that. ”

"You've really opened my eyes. In the past, I only knew that I was incomprehensible, but after I met you, I knew what it really was. Why don't you tell me, in the Night Palace, how did Lei Jue fall in love with you? ”

"Him?" I was stunned, "What are you mentioning him for?" Does this have anything to do with him? ”

"It's not related, I just want to know, do you want to talk about it?"

Yanyu was a little aggressive, I remembered the part with Lei Duel, and I only felt that the root of my teeth hurt, but now if I still lie to Yanyu, it will be really shameful, so I said: "Also, there is no love, it's him...... It's more domineering, and I didn't resist, did I...... After going back and forth, I felt like it was over anyway, so be it...... And then it was like that. ”

"So? Which? Yan Yu was puzzled again.

I raised my hand and stroked my forehead, "Brother Yan, don't ask, I'm blind now, I'm quite depressed, I don't want to say any more." ”

"Lei Nian said that you are caused by blood loss and fatigue, and you will be able to raise it for half a month."

"Oh." I guess that's it, otherwise how could Yan Yu come and talk to me regardless of the importance of it.

"Later, he will bring medicinal food, and I will feed you."

“…… Well. ”

"I let Lei Nian live on the second floor, and let the nurse continue to take care of the child, and I will still sleep with you from tonight."

“……”

Yan Yu said again: "When your eyes are good, we will round the house." ”

"......" I don't believe my ears, "you, what do you say?" ”

"Round, room! Since the two are happy, it is cheap at this time, and I can't wait any longer, lest you continue to be confused like this, and come to torture me again, then I really can't live. ”

"But, but you're not...... I'm so vicious......"

"It's all angry talk, if I were you, I would have started killing a long time ago."

That's really ......

I didn't expect it......