1. The sacrifice is not complete

Liangzi began to regain consciousness a little, and only remembered to make an appointment with Huo Heng to have dinner together for her.

The two of them ordered a table of dishes, a steamed white fish, a stewed egg with clams, a Dongshan old tofu, and finally a bowl of mushroom and salted meat soup. In normal times, Liangzi didn't have much chance to eat these exquisite dishes, but this time he was with Huo Heng, and he was nervous and happy.

Warmed a small pot of rice wine, bitter in the mouth, with a strong taste of traditional Chinese medicine, after entering the abdomen, the warm feeling rising from the dantian made Liangzi's whole person excited, and couldn't help but pour two large cups.

What happened after that, and how I got to this place, I really don't remember it at all.

His body was so weak that he couldn't do it, and his feet were floating in the air, staggering forward, step by step as if he were stepping on cotton.

"Ryoko, sober up and tell me where your home is?"

Huo Heng took Liangzi's fleshy hand and walked around the quiet community again and again, he had been walking for more than ten minutes, and the security guard had asked several times, but he still hadn't found the right place, and he couldn't help but feel a little angry.

"Didn't I tell you? Room 1113, Building 9, why are you so verbose, always asking me, always asking me? ”

Through drunkenness, Liangzi dared to make a small character, and the last sentence ended with a particularly long finish, with a coquettish flavor in it.

Liangzi's whole body was weak and weak, so he simply let go of Huo Heng's hand, sat down on the edge of the flower bed, and felt a churn in his stomach, and suddenly turned his head, and the food he had eaten at night became foul after being corroded by stomach acid, and all of it gushed out of his throat. It was so uncomfortable that my whole stomach was about to vomit, and I brought out two lines of tears.

Seeing Liangzi's painful appearance, Huo Heng dissipated his anger, quickly patted her back, and after she vomited, sat down next to her, so that her head rested comfortably on her left shoulder, and finally took out a tissue from her bag and patiently wiped the stains on the corners of her mouth.

"Ryoko, how are you feeling now?"

"Much better."

The little man in front of him was completely unguarded, his eyes were closed like a stray kitten, and by the faint light of the street lamp two meters away in the middle of the night, he could see that the long and dense eyelashes trembled slightly, like a small feather fan, the mouth was slightly open, the lower lip was slightly thicker than the upper lip, and it was a soft pink under the light.

Huo Heng's heart became hot, mixed with a trace of indescribable pity, and he couldn't help but put his mouth up.

Shocked to be kissed, Ryoko's consciousness returned a little, and her body shrank back, ending the short kiss.

"I just threw up, it's dirty, don't you dislike me?"

Standing up in a panic, he found that his body was shaking uncontrollably, but despite this, he still tried his best to maintain his previous reserve as a little girl.

There was a mess in his head, "He just took the initiative to kiss me, right?" Am I dreaming? How is that possible? ”

"I love you, Ryoko." Without waiting for Liangzi to think too much, Huo Heng stood up, pulled Liangzi over, hugged him in his arms and continued the kiss just now.

And then there's a little bit of realism, and Ryoko feels that it's not like words, it turns out that just being kissed by a crush is such a dizzying thing.

His lips and tongue were soft and slightly sweet, but he was eager to burrow into his mouth, and when the two tongues were constantly entangled and collided, Ryoko thought, for no reason, the green snake and the white snake playing in the lake.

I felt that my legs were too soft and too soft to stand steadily.

Huo Heng hugged Liangzi's waist tightly with both hands, like an extremely cold person who couldn't wait to draw warmth from Liangzi.

Huo Heng heard his head "boom".

This piece of undeveloped green field, this is exclusive to the beauty of twenty years old.

There was only one bold thought left in my head.

Liangzi didn't know that Huo Heng was so bold, although it was late at night, there was no guarantee that they would be safe, about hugging and kissing, Liangzi didn't even dare to think about it three hours ago. But Liangzi really couldn't stand this feeling of numbness when the two of them touched their limbs, his head shook even more, and his body was a little softer, as if he had no bones.

"I can't stand it anymore, let's find your house quickly."

"Hmm."

Huo Heng took Liangzi's hand and continued to walk forward, Liangzi was a little shy, felt that his cheeks were hot, and followed obediently.

After walking around the neighborhood for five minutes, Ryoko couldn't walk anymore, so he dared to say, "Why don't we go to the hotel?" ”

"Really? Are you serious, Ryoko? ”

Huo Heng looked at Liangzi in surprise, he really couldn't imagine that Liangzi, who had always been old and steady, could say such a thing.

"Hmm."

"But we don't have ID cards."

Immediately deflated.

"Then let's fight in the field!"

Huo Heng wanted to laugh a little, this little girl could really do anything when she was drunk.

"Are you serious?"

"Hmm!"

Even after hearing the affirmative answer, Huo Heng still couldn't believe his ears, he knew very well what to do, and sent the little girl home safely, and then went home to sleep. But he hesitated, in the past eight years since he got married, he has always done his duty, whether it is to his virtuous wife at home or to his colleagues in the hospital, he has always adhered to his moral bottom line and principles, and has never exceeded the slightest rule, but today he has a bad mind in the face of such a twenty-year-old girl for some reason.

What an exciting word "field......

A word that will make my wife's face red just by saying it......

Can he do that? And with a little girl who is nearly half her age?

Huo Heng constantly hypnotized himself, and he was so crazy because of alcohol.

Holding Ryoko's hand tightly, he walked to a dark and hidden corner, and a fleeting worry slipped through his mind, and he felt really excited, as if the whole world was his own.

A strong desire to conquer spreads in the chest cavity and translates into rough physical movements towards Ryoko.

Ryoko was very obedient, completely leaving the woman's shyness behind, leaving only a tragic sense of sacrifice for him leaping to his heart. There is a slight coolness, in early summer, although the temperature outside is not suitable, it is not cold, and you can hear the sharp chirping of insects, as if it is in your ears. Liangzi didn't dare to let herself think too much about what to do if she was found by others to do such a shameful thing in public, let it go, what are you afraid of, maybe she won't come tomorrow, her mind is full of the man in front of her, the man she has secretly admired for a long time.

Liangzi didn't know what to do, he let himself be what he was, his head was at a loss, he didn't know how to proceed, and it still didn't work according to Huo Heng's method.

"It hurts so much." Liangzi lay on Huo Heng's chest and didn't want to move.

I tried several times but still didn't succeed, so I was both discouraged.

"Then let's not do it." Huo Heng felt that the fire in his head was extinguished little by little, and he was very disappointed, and he couldn't show it in his tone, so he simply spit out a few words.

At that time, Ryoko was completely sober, a little scared, afraid that he would be unhappy, afraid that it would end hastily, and then it would really end between the two.

It was an unsuccessful sacrifice, and no one fully got anyone.

"I've let you down."

"How so."

"I'm sorry."

"Fool, it's not your fault."

"Really?"

"What are you lying to do! Get dressed quickly, it's not good to be found by others. ”

After getting dressed and standing up, Huo Heng kissed Liangzi on the forehead, took Liangzi's hand and walked out of the dark grass, and took out his mobile phone from his pocket, "I have to send you back quickly, it's already three o'clock in the morning." Where exactly do you live? ”

"Room 1113, Building 9, Qianjiang Garden."

"What? Qianjiang Garden? Didn't you say your home is in the South Garden?! ”

"What the hell are you talking about, I haven't heard of any Shunan Garden, did you hear it wrong?!" Ryoko felt like her head was about to explode, what was this?

"Forget it, let's take a taxi to Qianjiang Garden now."

2. Women and fantasies

When the alarm clock rang at six o'clock in the morning, Ryoko opened her eyes extremely reluctantly, turned off her phone, turned over, and shrunk into the quilt, thinking about whether to go home tomorrow, anyway, the ticket has not been bought. But when I closed my eyes, my mind was full of pictures of me and Huo Heng kissing me last night, I didn't dare to think about it and couldn't help but think about it, the more I thought about it, the more I felt like the helplessness and embarrassment when I peeked at the yellow video for the first time, and the relationship with Huo Heng was originally frank and unrestrained, but now it is like a thick layer of dust.

After tossing and turning, I finally decided to get up and go home.

The suitcase was packed early in the morning, and the pestle was next to the bed. The head doesn't hurt much, it's just a little confused, like being injected with muddy water, when brushing my teeth, I have been retching, symbolically brushing twice, raising my head, the face of the person in the mirror is sallow, the dark circles are a little heavy, the lips are white, I can't bear to look at it anymore, I just pass the water casually, and I don't bother to use the facial cleanser.

I didn't want to pick up the clothes I wore yesterday and threw them at the end of the bed, so I opened my suitcase and threw it in.

That was to eat the last meal with Huo Heng and deliberately sent Xiao Yue Minwen to go shopping together, white shirt and light blue wide-legged pants, shopping for a long time, and finally picked it in the Yichun store, when trying on this dress, Yue Minwen's eyes lit up, and he said that it was very beautiful, and the body curve was very well outlined. Liangzi gritted her teeth, paid hundreds of yuan and walked out of the store before she felt distressed, and she was not willing to eat dinner for several days.

After packing himself up, he went to change his shoes, only to find that the upper of the small black leather shoe was stained with a lot of yellow mud, and the heel of his right foot fell off, once again thinking of the pulling with Huo Heng in the grass last night, "It should be that I stepped on the shoes at that time!" ”

Liangzi shook his head helplessly, what kind of thing have you done here, I bought it newly, and I haven't worn it a few times. He sighed lightly and threw it in the trash.

Simply cleaned up this small room of only six square meters, once complained that it was small and dark, and the ventilation was not good, like a damp bear biscuit placed in the corner, it smelled wet and sticky, and there was a musty smell, but now that it is leaving, it is a little reluctant. Before leaving the house, I thought that I would have to sit on the bus for hours, eat a banana, and my mouth was fine, but as soon as I went down my esophagus and into my stomach, I felt nauseous. After hesitating, he picked up a box of gold classics on the table and put it in his satchel. While locking the door, he sent a WeChat message to Yue Minwen, who could not get off work until about half past seven, and then dragged the not very heavy suitcase downstairs.

Liangzi arrived at the station twenty minutes before the departure, and sat down in a relatively high vacant seat, except for the driver, the bus was empty, but in less than fifteen minutes, it was full of people one after another.

Ryoko sat by the window. When the car was about to start, a short-haired woman with a black satchel on her back and food and mineral water in her hands got into the car in a panic, stood at the door of the car and glanced around the carriage towards Liangzi, with a smile on her face: "Excuse me, can I sit here?" ”

It wasn't until the woman sat down next to her that the nearsighted Ryoko noticed her dry, frizzy hair and the soybean-sized hole two inches above the right knee of the nude stockings.

All the good feelings were lost in an instant.

The woman really wanted to talk to Liangzi, "Is your hometown also from Jiangzhou?" ”

Due to the sequelae of drunkenness, Ryoko didn't want to speak, nodded expressionlessly, but thought in his heart that if he had nothing to say, he would just stay quietly, and he was on the same bus to the same destination, big sister, this opening statement was really uncomfortable......

"My hometown is too, fellow countryman. What do you do here? I think you're pretty young. ”

As she spoke, the woman untied the food bag at her feet, took out a packet of jujube cakes, opened the outer package, and said, "Have you had breakfast?" Come on a little bit, shall we? ”

"No, no, I've eaten it. I still have a carton of milk in my bag, you can eat it yourself. ”

Smelling the smell of jujube cake, Liangzi's stomach began to churn again, and she remembered that when she was a child, she opened it and kept putting it in the refrigerator to produce a very peculiar smell of jujube yogurt that she had not finished drinking.

"Look at your little girl's politeness!"

I thought that the woman would eat quietly, but I didn't expect to say it while eating, so that Ryoko had to be vigilant all the time to see if the dregs of the jujube cake would squirt out of her mouth.

"I'm a beauty worker, I'm thirty-one years old this year, I gave birth to two babies, my daughter is eight years old this year, and my youngest son is three years old, can't you see it? The main thing is that the usual maintenance is good, this woman still has to be good to herself, usually pay more attention to maintenance, run more beauty salons, and those who have done beauty are different! ”

Ryoko looked at the wrinkles in the corners of the woman's eyes and nodded her head repeatedly.

"Why are you going back to your hometown at this time? It's not a year, it's not a festival. ”

"I'm a college student, I came here for an internship, and now I have to go back to school to prepare for graduation."

"College students? Hello college students, when they graduate in the future, they can find a better job, and they don't have to do some hard work all their lives like us, and look at people's faces all day long. ”

"Why are you going back to your hometown at this time?"

The woman's eyes moistened before she could speak, and she forced down her tears, smiled reluctantly, and laughed out of the folds in the corners of her eyes, helplessness and sadness were all revealed in the folds, "My father and I both work here, and the two children are left to their grandmother to take care of." My mother suddenly felt unwell a few days ago, and the two children called every day to say that they missed us, so I had to go back to take care of us for a while. Alas, it's nothing to come out to work, but it's really hard for the children and tired of my parents. But what can be done? The salary in my hometown is low, and it is not easy to find a job, so how can I support several people in this family? It doesn't matter if you suffer in your hometown, the key is that the two children, in addition to food and clothing, the most important thing is to go to school, which requires a lot ......of money."

Before she finished speaking, the woman's mobile phone rang, it was her two children, who had already heard that their mother was going home, and asked very excitedly on the other end of the phone.

The woman smiled again, her gaze looking at the phone screen was particularly soft.

Ryoko turned his head and looked out the window, in this world, it is not easy for him to live alone, but what does everyone rely on to support himself to live hard?

In fact, the hole in the woman's right knee doesn't look so dazzling.

Take out the headphones from the bag and listen to the music, not to listen to the woman's phone. The speed of the car was fast, and the tall street lights and blue street signs on both sides quickly recoiled and retreated. Ryoko can't be sure, will the path she is taking now take again in the future? Will you ever see the streetlights, signs, lakes, villages, and rivers you encounter again? Can people who have waved goodbye be able to meet again?

opened WeChat over and over again, clicked on Huo Heng's avatar, and slowly browsed his circle of friends.

The minutes ticked by, seven o'clock, seven and a half, eight o'clock, eight and a half o'clock, nine o'clock, a quarter of nine...... Ryoko became more and more anxious, and kept thinking, "Did he regret it?" ”

Did he choose to turn a blind eye to what happened last night? I'm leaving, so did he choose to forget about me? ”

"yes, that's right, what are you in his eyes? An ignorant and stupid female college student. ”

I closed my eyes hard and forced myself to sleep, but the harder I tried, the more the bad psychological hints rolled in my heart like a huge wave, and at this moment she was like a person who had fallen into the water struggling helplessly in the water, but she knew that she was falling into a sea area that no one could save. There are a million thoughts churning in my head, like a pot of boiling water that is constantly bubbling and bubbling.

The woman next to her slowly fell asleep, Ryoko was a little envious, watching the woman's head sway from side to side with the bumps of the car, she even had an evil idea, hoping that the road could be more bumpy, preferably to the extent that it could wake up the woman, she wanted to say something to the woman again, no matter what.