5. Confession

Huo Heng and Liangzi's chats during the day were intermittent. Ryoko's answers are always very short, she answers whatever he asks, and sometimes she doesn't reply to messages, and when she replies, most of the time she responds is "yes." "Okay. "I'm fine. Such concise and detached words made Huo Heng very discouraged, and even began to wonder if Liangzi didn't want to have anything to do with him. But he had a strong premonition that Ryoko's heart was not as cold as she had shown.

Huo Heng felt that this day had been a mess.

was supposed to go back to his mother to see the child, but he made a list of a lot of grinding things for himself to numb himself, not because he didn't want to go back, but because there were too many things at hand and he couldn't pull away. After a brief lunch, Huo Heng changed the outer screen of his mobile phone, with a hint of luck, but fortunately, it was just a broken external screen. After repairing the phone, he went to the barber shop he often went to, and his hair was not very long, but he just wanted to fix it again, and he tried to recall which hairstyle he had cut in the first place, Ryoko's eyes were shining, but his eyes were erratic, and he never dared to look at him, but he smirked and said that it looked good. He just wanted to cut that hairstyle back on, and Ryoko said that if it looks good, it will be the best, but he is too old to think about it, and he is really annoyed. So he asked the barber who often cut his hair, which hairstyle was cut for him before the Spring Festival last year, but how many hairstyles the barber had to cut every day, how can he remember, isn't this embarrassing? He joked that it was all outdated, and he would cut a special one that was trending recently. Huo Heng wanted to stubbornly say in his heart that I just wanted to cut back that hairstyle, but he couldn't help it, after all, how could his character be so difficult for others? I could only helplessly watch from the mirror as the barber cut his hair short little by little.

After cutting, Huo Heng looked at himself seriously in the mirror, looked at the left half of his face and turned his head sideways to observe the right half, this face is small, the eyes are big and bright, but the eye bags are very heavy, the whites of the eyes are yellow, and the turbidity after some years of polishing is in it, not like Liangzi's eyes, which are clear and innocent without worldliness. The wrinkles at the corners of his eyes also climbed up, and they were the most obvious when he laughed, but Ryoko said that he was the most beautiful when he laughed, isn't this little girl a fool? No, Ryoko won't tell lies, but will she simply want to make herself happy?

At this moment, Huo Heng could no longer answer his own questions. If you look closely, the skin on his face is a little dry and dull, but in fact, he is only thirty-five years old, so he shouldn't be too old, right? However, it is true that at this age, should you consider buying some cosmetics and face masks for maintenance?

Thinking like this, Huo Heng came to the supermarket unconsciously after leaving the barber shop, and walked straight to the cosmetics area, but there were a lot of cosmetics, and there were so many samples, he walked back and forth several times, and he really didn't know what to buy. Just when he was worried, a saleswoman wearing heavy makeup and about 30 years old came over and asked him kindly and professionally if he needed help.

When I finally got home, the sun was setting, and it was nearly five o'clock, and the dusk sunlight was pouring into the room through the window. He felt that everything was very boring, if he could not be completely sure of Ryoko's intentions.

When I came to the bathroom, I stood in front of the mirror again and looked at myself, the newly cut hairstyle was actually not bad, his baby face could be controlled by any hairstyle, but no matter how beautiful this hairstyle was, what was the point if it couldn't get the affirmation of Ryoko? If you think about it carefully, in fact, the person in the mirror is not bad, a decent job, a stable source of income, even if you are old, it is not bad, even if you don't pay attention to maintenance, you still look a few years younger than your peers, so you will look younger with a little maintenance in the future, right? Thinking like this, Huo Heng suddenly had a lot of self-confidence, and opened the mobile phone network to buy a lot of men's facial masks.

Then let's decide so, let's have a showdown with Ryoko tonight and make everything clear.

It's easy to decide, but how do you start the conversation? At about eight o'clock in the night, Huo Heng had already washed up and lay on the bed, holding his mobile phone in both hands, his brows locked, and he kept flipping through the chat records with Liangzi all day during the day.

"What is Ryoko doing?"

Be careful to start the conversation with the most conservative question.

"Just got out of the shower."

Huo Heng's fingertips quickly tapped the phone screen, typed a large paragraph, and received another message from Liangzi before he finished editing, "I'm very tired, I want to rest early." ”

Huo Heng was a little annoyed, and angrily deleted the edited content word by word. I really want to continue chatting, but I'm afraid of disturbing Liangzi's rest, and my heart is extremely entangled, so I look at the chat interface in a daze.

"Actually, you don't have to take the initiative to talk to me so awkwardly, and don't feel sorry for me, I really don't care."

Seeing the news sent by Liangzi again, the nerves in Huo Heng's head jumped and jumped, what did Liangzi mean by this? Did she think she had only accosted her so much because of guilt? Awkward chat? He didn't think, didn't Ryoko feel from his words how hard he was trying to start a new topic?

"Ryoko! I've got to talk to you about it! ”

"Ryoko, I want to make sure to you that I have my heart for you, I'm sorry for what happened last night, but please believe that it's not drunken sex, I really like you, I can't help myself! I've been thinking about you all day today, thinking about you all the time. I've liked you since the first time I saw you crying in the hospital, but I didn't dare to be honest with myself, I always felt that I had evil thoughts about you that I shouldn't have, so I didn't dare to face you many times. Ryoko, I hope you can give me a chance to make amends, okay? ”

It wasn't until he pressed the send button that Huo Heng breathed a long sigh of relief, some of the words were very incoherent and logical, and even the preface did not match the afterword, but he just wanted to say that this feeling of spreading all the words in his heart in front of Liangzi was simply too cool, especially when he told his beloved, Liangzi, it must be his own Liangzi!

"Huo Heng, are you serious about saying this?"

"Yes, I'm telling you very seriously and soberly now, I really love you, Ryoko." When he typed this passage, Huo Heng suddenly had a kind of spirit in his heart that regarded death as home, that is, the momentum of a soldier who drank a large bowl of wine before setting out for battle.

"But we can't do that, you have a family, you have a wife and children. What do they do if we're together? ”

"I don't know, but if we can't be together, what do I do, and what do you do? Isn't it cruel for the two of us that two people who obviously love each other can't be together? ”

"I'm sorry Huo Heng, you let me think about it, and I'll tell you the answer tomorrow?"

"Good! I love you, Ryoko! ”

"Sleep, good night, I'm so tired."

"Good night and a good rest."

Huo Heng didn't want to end the conversation with Liangzi, but he couldn't force Liangzi to give him an answer.

After turning off the light, Huo Heng lay on the bed so stiffly, the room was not very dark, there was the light of the street lamp projected through the window. What has been coming to mind is still the bits and pieces that happened with Ryoko last night, so exciting, that is the passion that a man should be rich in!

And in the dark, the eyes of Ryoko who are blinded by lust are so charming and moving......

Even if he was apprehensive, Huo Heng still believed that Liangzi would definitely promise him and force himself to sleep, maybe he would meet Liangzi in his dreams......

6. Bad girl

I packed my things and prepared to go back to school, but there was nothing to pack, and the suitcase was placed in the corner and never opened at all. could have been ruthless to his father, but before leaving, Liangzi still took 1,000 yuan in cash from his wallet and secretly put it under his father's pillow.

After all, this is the first amount of money he has earned.

Even if you are short on money, you can still find a way to save money.

Either way, that person was the father, the one who gave her blood and life.

At dinner in the morning, Dad said that he was going to take her to the train station, and it was almost time at this time, but he didn't see him, and he thought he went to the supermarket downstairs, but fortunately, Liangzi was not surprised by Dad's behavior.

She just brought some hometown specialties to her roommates, and her luggage was not much, so she was used to dragging her luggage back and forth between cities.

Besides, Liangzi didn't expect her father to really send her, the heavy rain at the beginning of high school has washed away all expectations for her father, and now looking back, it's just a person packing up and going to the provincial capital to study, and it just happened to be a heavy rainstorm, what's there to be sad about?

If she could, she really wanted to say to the fifteen-year-old Liangzi, what are you afraid of, people are lonely in life, and those who rely on themselves are the bravest.

In fact, it's good not to send it, and she won't feel embarrassed because she has nothing to say along the way, but she is at ease, and Liangzi comforts herself happily.

Ryoko likes to take the train, and the noisier the environment, the more she can be silently in the crowd. During the journey, the accents of different places are so beautiful when they are mixed together. Ryoko likes to listen to accents from all over the place, and for Ryoko, all kinds of hometown dialects are treasures scattered everywhere, and if she has the ability, she really wants to make a phonetic encyclopedia that includes local dialects from all over China, even if some of them she doesn't understand at all.

If you're lucky, you'll be able to meet some interesting people and hear some interesting stories from them.

But this time, Ryoko didn't have time to take care of this.

The four-hour journey was all spent chatting with Huo Heng. They've been typing, they've been chatting, and it's not clear what exactly they're talking about, but that doesn't prevent them from talking, what does it matter if they keep talking nonsense, couples just have to keep talking nonsense to be more like a couple. Occasionally, Huo Heng would send a long voice, accompanied by the sound of the train clanging, his voice was so soft and charming, every word was like a small note, and after being connected in his mouth, it became the most fascinating movement.

Every voice sent by Huo Heng, Liangzi had to listen to it several times before he would give up.

Sometimes, Huo Heng will say, "Liangzi, let's make a video, shall we?" Every time, Ryoko would blush and refuse, "How inappropriate it is to be in a public place like this on the train!" In fact, she was just ashamed to see him.

It feels extremely sweet to listen to the voice, but if you want a video, you ......

Ryoko's face turned red again, and when she touched it, it was still hot.

Yes, Ryoko is in love, knowing that the other party is a married man.

Receiving Huo Heng's sudden confession the night before, Liangzi was extremely shocked. After saying goodnight, I couldn't sleep all night, turned on the light and lay down, only after lying down did I remember how to turn on the light, got up and turned off the light and went back to bed again, and wanted to get up to go to the toilet, and the whole night was spent in such repeated tosses.

Ryoko didn't dare to quiet herself that night, and when she was quiet, she would ask herself repeatedly, how could it be? How could Huo Heng fall in love with a little-known girl like himself? First of all, Liangzi is extremely sure that he is deeply in love with Huo Heng, but if his love for Huo Heng is mixed with admiration, respect, and worship, then what about Huo Heng himself?

Huo Heng is twelve years older than himself, what does it mean to be twelve years old? Twelve years old means that he had already graduated from elementary school when she was born; She was still at the age of nursing, and he had learned to fall in love; When she could only sit obediently in front of the TV to watch cartoons or drool over candy commercials on TV, he may have been madly obsessed with Jackie Chan, Jet Li, and Nicholas Tse, and learned countless Cantonese love songs; When she was still struggling with the difficulty of memorizing the ninety-nine multiplication table, he had been admitted to a prestigious university and began to chase his dream of medicine...... There are many, many differences that can't be measured by these simple examples, so what does Huo Heng like about himself? In Huo Heng's eyes, will she be just a little girl who hasn't grown yet? Huo Heng didn't know his true self at all, could his confessions just want to be responsible for what happened that night? What worries her the most is whether he is just playing?

Could he just be playing?

What made Ryoko feel uneasy was this last question, which puzzled Ryoko all night, and in the end Ryoko only asked herself one question: If he was just playing, would you still want to be with him?

So Ryoko compromised with herself, and her heart told herself, yes, her person, her heart longed for that person from beginning to end, and she didn't complain even if she was toyed with and applauded.

In fact, Ryoko was ready to be toyed with back that night, wasn't she?

Ryoko is a bad girl.

Again and again, she kept hypnotizing herself.

Bad girls are depraved, selfish, and never think about others, nor do they feel the slightest bit of self-reproach for the bad things they have done, so she forces herself not to think about his wife, son, and who she will hurt by doing so, because all she wants to do is such a bad girl.

Liangzi didn't dare to imagine that there would be any possibility with Huo Heng in the future, and she didn't dare to try that he would divorce and be with her forever, and she couldn't think that far. In fact, when she agreed to fall in love with Huo Heng, what she had was an attitude that love was counted day by day, the stolen happiness was destined not to last long, she just wanted to live in the present, everything in the future is unknown, how far is the future? Maybe she'll die tomorrow and won't have to worry about it anymore.

What's more, Ryoko doesn't have any sorrow about him, there is nothing in this world that can make her feel sad, if there is, it is herself, why was she born in the world, why is she alive. If one day she understands what she lives for, or if she really loses interest in living, she will die, really, just like the original Veronica, Veronica is a character written by Brazilian writer Paulo Coelho, to be honest, when reading the book "Veronica Decided to Die", she very much agreed with Veronica's reasons for wanting to die, which was also the first time she found a character from the book that could produce a soul collision, but Ryoko didn't like the ending of this novel, What has been decided should be done unwaveringly, which is why she and Veronica cannot be good friends. If Veronica finally chooses to die, she will keep her in her heart as a best friend and confidant.

Veronica didn't.

If she decides to die, nothing will change her mind, at least that's what Ryoko thinks.

7. The warmth of each

Ryoko didn't tell everyone in advance that she was coming back, just as a surprise.

The key was inserted into the lock hole, and for a moment he forgot whether to turn left or right, stuck out his tongue, scratched his head again, and hid his embarrassment, but fortunately the door opened with a "click". What catches my eye is the dormitory that has been absent for more than three months, the beige floor tiles, the wood-colored tables and chairs, the bunk bed boards, the curtains with light blue patterns, the pink cherry blossom trees painted on the ceiling little by little, the clothes hanging everywhere and the messy shoes and socks all over the floor, all of which are so familiar, but they have not changed. You see, the water dispenser is still blistering up from time to time, like a little goldfish.

Everyone had already noticed it the moment the door was opened, but when Liangzi really appeared in front of everyone with his suitcase, it was not surprising that he gave everyone a big surprise. The first to react was Wang Xiao, who climbed down from the bed in amazement, "Liangzi! , is that you? Am I hallucinating because I miss you too much?! ”

As soon as he put down his luggage and didn't have time to pack it, Wang Xiao excitedly rushed up and gave Liangzi a bear hug, and his eyes turned red in an instant.

"Silly girl, what are you crying about?"

Liang Shan's glory of the king was halfway through, and he flashed back directly, and Li Yunyun, who was going to the toilet, quickly lifted his pants and ran out when he heard the sound, the four of them didn't speak, they hugged each other tightly first, and then when they separated, you look at me and I look at you, all of them turned into red-eyed cats, and they couldn't help but burst into laughter.

"Hey, look at you guys, why I cried when I left, and you still cry when I come back."

Wang Xiao came over and hugged Liangzi's waist again, "Didn't you cry too, and you still talked about us." ”

My heart was full of emotion, and the whole person relaxed, "The king of Shanshan is not fighting?" You retreat halfway like this, but you will be scolded very badly! ”

Liang Shan sat on the edge of the bed obediently and said, "It's not as good as you, everything in the world is not as good as you." ”

Li Yunyun moved over two stools and put them in front of Liangzi and Wang Xiao, "Xiaoxiao, don't let go of your pig's trotters and let Liangzi sit down and rest, the train ride of more than four hours is enough." ”

Wang Xiao flattened her mouth, reluctantly let go of Liangzi who was being embraced, and then sat side by side with Liangzi, leaning on her shoulder like a coquettish leaning on her head.

"You've lost weight. A person has suffered a lot outside, right? ”

Liang Shan was the first to notice that Liangzi's cheeks were sunken, and he couldn't help but feel distressed.

"Lost weight? I don't think so, but I'm so glad you can say that! Come, come, praise me, praise me for being thin! ”

Li Yunyun poked Liangzi's head with his fingertips, "Come on, you, should I really praise you?" ”

Liangzi tilted his head to Wang Xiao's head in a particularly exaggerated manner, "Ah! I was poked to death by the dormitory master, please Comrade Wang Xiao and Comrade Liang Shan inherit my ant Huabei as soon as possible! ”

Li Yunyun smiled helplessly, and the topic that should have been sad added a lot of joy.

Got together and talked for a while, the time was not early, everyone went back to their respective beds to do their own things, Ryoko began to pack up things, took out hometown specialties and snacks from the suitcase and divided them for everyone, sorted out the few clothes before going to the bathroom to wash, and when she came back, her table was also full of snacks and fruits, and everyone pretended that nothing had happened, Ryoko smiled, this dormitory is like this, Everyone is quietly taking out their own things and sharing them with everyone.

Liangzi's heart was full of emotion, and he carefully looked at the dormitory, this small place of less than fifteen square meters but accommodating four people is like his home......

"Why did you ignore me at school?"

"No, I talked to the young ladies for a while."

"If you want to say it, I haven't seen you for so long, and there must be a lot to say. Envy. ”

"Envy what?"

"I envy them that they can see you every day in the future."

“……”

"Hurry up and rest, you have to go to work tomorrow."

"Okay, you too. Good night, miss you. ”

"Good night."

"Don't you tell me you miss me?!"

Liangzi hid in the quilt and snickered, how can a big man be so naïve as a child when he cares?

"Okay, okay, miss you."

was indeed sleepy, and after turning off the phone for less than two minutes, Ryoko fell asleep deeply.

Huo Heng here also fell asleep soon after putting down his mobile phone. Since Ryoko agreed to be with him in the morning, his mood has been beautiful all day, and the whole person seems to be drifting in the clouds, a little unbelievable, but when he realized that this was indeed the case, he couldn't help but sigh, "Ah, it turns out that I am still a very attractive person." ”

Huo Heng was also relatively busy this day, after washing up in the morning, he went back to his hometown, and after the family sat together to discuss, he decided to take his mother to live at home for a few months. Before that, the child was hired to take care of him, because he often had to work overtime, and it was always inconvenient to go to the kindergarten to pick up the child. But anyway, it's always not safe to have someone else take care of it, and it would be nice if it was your own mother, and the child likes to be close to his grandmother.

After having lunch in his hometown, Huo Heng half-leaned on the sofa and drank tea, the residential buildings opposite the window reflected the bright and brilliant daylight, and the weather was very good.

After drinking tea, his eyes turned to the room, the three-and-a-half-year-old son sat quietly playing with blocks, in fact, he didn't know how to play, just piled up one by one, piled higher and higher, and finally collapsed after being unstable to a certain height, the son was not discouraged, piled up again and again, and then watched it collapse again and again, and was never tired.

The perseverance of children is beyond the reach of these adults, and the things that make them happy are so pure and simple.

The mother walked around the room, packed her luggage, and bought the next food and clothing for her wife, what food was in the refrigerator, which cabinet to change clothes in, and so on, and repeated over and over again.

In fact, he also invited his father, but his father insisted on not going, so he was no longer reluctant. Looking at the scene of his father listening to his mother seriously, Huo Heng couldn't help but fantasize about whether this was the same situation when he was old, but what surprised Huo Heng was that even though he was deeply in love with Liangzi, what appeared in his mind was his wife's face.

After dinner in the hometown, he drove the mother and son back, along the way the son was a little noisy, the mother has been coaxing beside him, and then he turned on the stereo in the car, played a few children's songs, I don't know whether it was tossed tired or the hypnotic effect of children's rhymes, the son finally fell asleep, the mother held the son in her arms, tilted her head to the side, and slept shallowly.

The road was a little blocked, and it was already more than eight o'clock when he got home, and his son still hadn't woken up, Huo Heng carefully carried his son back to the room and helped his mother pack his luggage before going to wash.

After exchanging goodnight with Ryoko, the day is finally over, but when will we meet again?

Huo Heng began to think silently in his heart.