Yan Yu lowered his eyebrows and nodded with a slight smile: "Yes, I can still be Xuancang's general, and I can still lead the Qingyi Guard, there is really no need to even remove my official position." ”

"......," I said, "So, you mean you don't want to continue to work for Xuancang?" ”

Yan Yu smiled and shook his head, "I don't have any ideas, everything but listen to the empress's orders, I just do it." ”

And this empress doesn't have to be me.

"If it's okay, I'll go and stand by outside the door."

As he spoke, Yan Yu got up and bowed slightly to me.

"Brother Yan, you ...... You sit down and we'll talk. ”

Yanyu shook his head, "I don't have anything to say. ”

"But I have."

Yan Yu raised his eyes and looked at me, and said respectfully, "Okay, then I'll sit down." ”

So he sat down across from me and hung his head slightly, the hair on the side of his face obscured his expression, but I thought he was still smiling behind the hair.

Empty laughter is like losing one's soul, giving up all struggles and thinking.

I saw that his dejected appearance was already distressed and about to become numb, and after looking at him for a while, I actually wanted to hug him, and I really wanted to discuss it with him in a gentle voice.

But if there is room for things to turn around, there is another possibility, then it is called negotiation.

There is no other possibility of dead end, what is there to negotiate, I can't sacrifice the innocent Xuanhu, then I can only sacrifice me and everything around me, it is useless to apologize, it is useless to say goodbye, and there is no need for understanding and forgiveness, it is meaningless.

I wasn't supposed to exist, it was supposed to be mysterious, and if I could leave completely, then I had to treat that possibility as an inevitable consequence.

Otherwise, what should be broken is not broken, and how long will those who remain suffer because of me......

Since I want to break it, I can't care about whether I'm happy or not, and I can't care about how cruel my words were before I left. Even, I think it should be as cruel as possible, the more cruel, the more people around me can cut off all nostalgia for me, it's better to get bored when you think of me, don't want to think of me, and don't want to mention me as a person, it's the best.

It's clean and happy.

Sighing silently in my heart, I said, "Brother Yan, what would you do if you were replaced by me?" ”

Yan Yu seemed to think about it, but he didn't seem to think at all, and after a moment of silence, he said, "I'm not you." ”

"I mean, if you were resurrected in someone else, and now you find that this body and that person can be taken back, will you wait for that person to open up and talk to you?"

Yanyu shook his head and said, "I don't know. ”

I said: "Brother Yan, you won't, you are always considerate and take care of the people around you, how can you snatch someone else's body and refuse to return it." ”

Yan Yu said: "Don't ask me, I really don't know. ”

"Okay, then I'll ask you something you know." I paused for a moment, and then said, "If I really leave, disappear, and can't come back, what are your plans?" ”

The side of Yanyu's face trembled, and he said softly, "I...... Not intended. ”

"No plans? Then you have to start thinking about what to do in the future, and what you want to do. If you want to lead the army to fight, stay in Xuancang, if you don't want to, I also hope that you will help Xuancang fight this difficult battle. ”

I know I'm selfish, but Xuan Cang's available generals now really can't point out anyone else except for Yan Yu and the few people in the Qingyi Guards he is deliberately cultivating. Even if I'm gone, Xuanhu needs a domain of words, and Xuancang also needs a domain of words.

Yan Yu's head lowered a little more, and he said, "Okay, I'll lead the army to fight." ”

"And then? What do you want to do? ”

"Then ......" Yanyu seemed to think for a moment and was silent for a moment, and then said, "I don't know. ”

"You don't have any ideas? Not at all? You don't have anything you want to do after I'm gone? It's not like you, Brother Yan! Can you cheer up a bit? ”

In desperation, I got up and stood in front of Yan Yu, trying to touch him, but I knew that my touch would not give him strength, on the contrary, it would only bring him more despair.

Yan Yu raised his head, looked at my clothes, raised his hand, and stroked his fingertips on my abdomen, he said: "What I think, yes, I want to have our own children with you, I want to watch the children grow up day by day, whether it is a boy or a girl, the personality and appearance are like you are the best, like you will always have such ideas, never be stumped by others, what you want to do, you can make your own decisions, so the best, I won't bet my life's plans on a person like me, if that person doesn't need me, I'm a walking corpse, I don't know who I am, where I'm going, what I'm going to do, whether I'm going to talk or laughing, whether I'm going to kill the enemy or going back to the business......"

Whispering, Yanyu slowly stood up, his fingers running over my face again, his eyes were on my face, but his eyes were dilated and lost focus.

"Take Me Away......"

I frowned, "Take you away?" Where is it taking you? ”

Yan Yu smiled and shook his head, "No, you want to run away from me, how can you take me away." ”

"......" I finally grabbed Yan Yu's hand, "Brother Yan, don't do this. ”

"How am I?" Yan Yu tilted his head and smiled miserably, "Sister Wei, should I call you that?" ”

“…… You can call it whatever you want, ...... Yanyu, you look at me, I am not your only sustenance in this life, and being with me is not the only thing you can do in this life, right? You still have your father, eldest sister, you still have so many brothers in Qingyiwei, you still have the huge business of the Yan family to manage, you still have the Wutong Forest Yan Mansion, and the paradise in Sibai County! ”

"I don't want to ......" The corners of Yanyu's eyes gradually reddened, and he shook his head and said, "I don't want any of that...... I just want you ......"

"Yanyu......" I squeezed Yanyu's hand with difficulty, "You know, even if you say such things, I will still leave, you can't keep me." ”

"Haha......" Yanyu suddenly laughed, he pushed away my hand and turned his back to me, propped one hand on the table, laughed a few more times, he said, "Ha...... Sister Wei, I know, so what else do you have to ask? If you want to go, you can go, don't worry about me. ”

I wordlessly looked at this familiar person, the back of the most familiar one. The person who is always tall and handsome is in front of me at this time, and he is depressed, all because of me.

Nodding, I said, "In that case, you go out and keep watch." ”

Yan Yu nodded as well, walked out of the room bypassing me, and then gently closed the door.

Returning to the inside of the bed, he pulled away Lei Jie's clothes and put his hand on Lei Jie's wound.

"Lei Jue, Lei Nian doesn't know how long he can hold Shi Zan back, wake up quickly, wake up and let Shi lead the army back to the barracks and stop making trouble. Then, I'm going to explain to you too, and when I'm done, I'm almost done, and I'll try to get my body back. You see, I've been occupying this body for too long, and Xuanhu and Lei Nian have been hiding it from me for so long, so their pair of hard-working mandarin ducks should also achieve positive results...... As for Xuan Cang, can I ask you for more help? Xuanhu her...... She probably won't be able to bear it...... The language domain may not be able to bear it either...... Lei Jue, wake up soon......"