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On the way back, Chu Ruojun suddenly felt a little breathless.

The delicate face was a little irritable and worried, and her lips had been pursed white by her unconsciously.

Although she told herself in her heart that her brother-in-law was still very good to her sister, she ..... Lin Changle's haggard and sad look kept appearing in her mind.

If even the mother's family is so powerful that it will inevitably become a fertility tool, then is there still a woman in the world who can live for herself?

She smiled, as if to hide the confusion in her heart.

When she got home, Bai Zhi immediately greeted her: "Miss, you're back." ”

She was married to herself, and even if others called her a young lady, she never changed her words.

"Hmm." Chu Ruojun casually agreed.

"Are you still ready for today's decoction?" Bai Zhi took her coat, "It's not a way to go on like this." ”

Chu Ruojun nodded, Bai Zhi didn't seem to be in a good mood when she saw her, and she didn't know why, "Miss, what's wrong with you?" ”

"It's nothing...... she smiled casually, "you go and prepare." ”

"Hmm."

When the bowl of jet-black decoction was served, Chu Ruojun's mood was still difficult to calm down.

Yes, it's not a way to go on like this, after all, there are still a long days ahead, but if this problem is not explained, she will never be able to let go.

Thinking like this, she still picked up the decoction and looked up.

"Young Master." Greetings from subordinates suddenly sounded outside, Chu Ruojun was a little surprised, why did he come back so early today!

He has been very busy these days, and many people have thrown olive branches to him, and each of them is in the status of a senior administrator, not only officials in the court, but even figures in the rivers and lakes.

Hearing the movement, Bai Zhi subconsciously held the soup bowl and prepared to find a place to hide it first.

"Ruojun." He strode in with a smile, just in time to see the bowl in Bai Zhi's hand, which seemed to have a little medicinal juice left.

"Sick?" Lin Changtian immediately walked over, reached out and touched her forehead, and said worriedly: "What's the matter, I see that your face has not been very good today." ”

"Nothing." Chu Ruojun smiled faintly.

The man frowned unhappily, "You don't tell me anything, I'm still not your husband after all, what kind of illness do you have?" ”

Chu Ruojun raised her eyes to look at him, and suddenly felt a little funny.

Since you have done it, what are you hiding and hiding?

"Long heaven." Chu Ruojun suddenly spoke.

"Hmm." He replied in a low voice.

"I'm not sick." Her expression was flat, "That soup is a happy soup." ”

"Joy soup?" The man raised an eyebrow.

"That's it..... Well..... Soups that can prevent children from having children. ”

Lin Changtian's muscles instantly stiffened, and his pupils contracted violently!

Chu Ruojun looked up at him with a flat expression, "We said a long time ago before we got married, we don't want children, don't we?" ”

Lin Changtian frowned, obviously a little unhappy, he promised her yes, but he was not willing not to have children, and even wanted to have a child that belonged to the two of them.

Before getting married, he thought that as long as he married and became his woman, it would not be a matter of time before he had children, but he didn't expect her to be so insistent.

Lin Changtian took a deep breath and looked down at Chu Ruojun, her eyes were extremely dark, almost emotionless.

He chuckled casually, "That's right, I promised you." ”

Chu Ruojun smiled, as long as he didn't regret it.

He reached for her wrist, "But, I want to regret it." ”

Chu Ruojun's face changed in an instant.

"Repentance?"

"Ruojun....." Lin Changtian looked at her intently, "My father and mother have always been looking forward to having a little grandson or granddaughter, and so am I." ”

"You ....." Chu Ruojun's eyebrows frowned, and her voice added a little displeasure, "You don't use your parents to pressure me, what did you say before you got married, saying that this is the business of the two of us, and it has nothing to do with them." ”

"But I just want a child, and that's not too much." Lin Changtian's expression was still calm, "Isn't it normal to become a biological child?" ”

"It's not excessive, it's normal, but I don't want to." Chu Ruojun's expression was very serious, "If you think that children are more important, you should choose someone who is willing to give birth to children for you, not me." ”

"If you think freedom is more important, you shouldn't have promised me." Lin Changtian retorted subconsciously.

Chu Ruojun looked at him in disbelief, and her voice couldn't help but raise, "It's my father who promised you, I don't have a choice!" ”

Lin Changtian's expression became extremely irritable for a moment, "So you don't want to marry me, but you can't resist under your father's coercion?" ”

Chu Ruojun bowed her head slightly and did not speak.

Lin Changtian clenched her wrist hard, and his voice was eager, "If your father doesn't punish you with dozens of whips, you will really leave with Hongcho?!" ”

Chu Ruojun smiled in a trance, "If I really want to go with him, there are many opportunities, how can my father stop me." ”

"What about Shen Yi, if it were him, would you still be as determined not to have children as you are now?" Lin Changtian's voice was hoarse.

Chu Ruojun's body froze.

After a long time, she suddenly pulled the corners of her lips, and her smile was desolate, "What are you doing mentioning a person who is no longer there?" ”

The man looked pained and hugged her in his arms: "Ruojun, I love you, you are the only person I love from beginning to end, can you make me regret it once, can you give birth to a child for me." ”

Chu Ruojun closed her eyes and shook her head slightly.

"You let go of .....," she said tremblingly, "Lin Changtian, you can go to find other women, and I have no objection to you taking a concubine." ”

"No!" The man's voice was hoarse.

His strength was so great that it seemed like he was going to hold her in his arms.

"Why not?" His voice was rough and hoarse, "You can't be so selfish. ”

Chu Ruojun felt that her chest was suffocating and she was about to lose her breath.

It suddenly dawned on her that all this was so ridiculous.

"Lin Changtian, you let go." She whispered, "You need to calm down now." ”

He let go of his arm and slowly let go of her.

"Am I selfish?" Chu Ruojun reluctantly pulled the corners of her lips, "Yes, I'm just selfish, I'm afraid of dying, I'm afraid that a baby will be born without a mother like me, being called unlucky, being called a dead star, I'm even more afraid that she is a talented girl, but she can't do what she wants to do, that feeling of being suppressed in all aspects...... How do you understand? ”

Chu Ruojun closed her eyes, and tears slipped from the corners of her eyes unconsciously.

How could he understand, how could he know that he was too timid to be proud of.

She is too afraid that she can't do anything about it, can't give her the best future, afraid that the world will change, everything is unpredictable, growing up is an extremely painful thing, why bring an innocent life to this cruel world?

"I'm sorry." Lin Changtian said hoarsely, "I'm talking too much." ”

"It's fine." Chu Ruojun's voice was very soft, she only felt that all the strength in her body had been drained, and she leaned against the table, as if she didn't even have the strength to stand up.

He once thought she really just wanted to be free, but he didn't expect her to think so much.

Lin Changtian stood beside her and watched as the sky darkened little by little.

I don't know how long it took, Bai Zhi knocked lightly on the door and asked in a low voice, "Do you want to eat something?" ”

"No, you don't." Chu Ruojun's voice was hoarse, and her face was extremely haggard.

"Ruojun, don't be angry." Lin Changtian smiled hoarsely, "Even if you are angry with me, don't punish yourself." ”

Chu Ruojun still didn't speak.

Lin Changtian held her hand, "Let Bai Zhi bring something over, you can eat a little, okay?" ”

Chu Ruojun's eyelashes trembled slightly, and she withdrew her hand.

She stretched out her hand and pushed him away, "I never want to live a foolish life, if you really think that the child is very important, then take a concubine, you don't have to worry about my father's side, I will tell my father." ”

Lin Changtian looked at her in a daze, and a wry smile appeared in his heart, was he really too greedy?

Bai Zhi brought the food over, Chu Ruojun drank the soup slowly, and Lin Changtian sat opposite her, looking at her pale cheeks, his heart was very sour.

She was right, if she felt that the child was more important, she shouldn't have casually agreed to her in the first place in order to cater to her heart.

And he was angry and didn't choose to say anything, and he mentioned someone who shouldn't be mentioned, and he was not good.

Chu Ruojun finished drinking the soup, raised his head, and said softly: "Changtian." ”

"Hmm." He quickly agreed.

She lowered her eyes and said softly, "I want to go home for a few days, and you can explain it to your in-laws these days." ”

"Ruojun!" His face turned pale.

"I don't want children anymore." He sincerely retained, his eyes were very bright, "It's true this time, I didn't lie to you, I'll tell you on my father's side, I won't embarrass you." ”

"I just want to go home." She was almost angry, "I miss grandma." ”

"Then you can go during the day and come back at night." Lin Changtian said hoarsely: "Don't you go......"

Chu Ruojun didn't speak.

Lin Changtian tried to kiss her, but she avoided her.

He smiled astringently, rolled his throat, and finally said nothing, got up and walked out.

He told Bai Zhi to take good care of Ruojun, and then turned to leave.

"Where are you going so late?" Bai Zhi asked.

Lin Changtian paused, did not speak, but glanced back, Chu Ruojun was still sitting there, his expression was unshocked, as if he was in a state of emptiness.

His eyes were dark, and he could only turn away in the end.

Chu Ruojun heard the sound of the door closing.

It would be nice if she really liked the child, but she couldn't.

He must be sad, right?

Lin Shuai and Wang Baguio are too, after all, their decision almost ruined their Lin family's incense.

Maybe they also scolded themselves behind their backs, what did they do to have such a daughter-in-law.

Chu Ruojun was lying on the table, looking dazed and at a loss, she felt that she had done something wrong.

From the very beginning, she should stick to her heart, and would rather die alone than marry someone she doesn't love, otherwise she will only bring harm to the other party.