In the first semester of the third year of junior high school, I don't know what my future path should be, my grades, and it is not a problem to study in a key high school, but my parents want Lin to go to the best place to study, and the relatives and friends who have not seen each other for a long time, that is, those who think that Lin is still an obedient and good child in elementary school, are waiting for the excellent events of Lynn to educate their children.

Ignoring the hopes of this world, Lynn befriends entertainment magazines and indulges in dreams of a future of luxury and luxury. thought that he would be favored by a famous director one morning to play a classic TV series, which was popular with half the sky.

The same is coming, the grades can't be assaulted no matter what, and even the speed of writing homework is much slower. After being admitted to the dozen or so in the class, Lin felt for the first time that she was not a piece of study material.

In the second semester of the third year of junior high school, my parents turned the tide and bought back a few thick mock questions for the mathematics, physics and chemistry high school entrance examination, so Lin began to study hard for half a year of making coffee.

Soon spent a long summer vacation to meet high school.

The high school entrance examination did not perform exceptionally at all, but it also made my parents happy for a long time.

I don't know what I did in high school, but I always had short hair, a bob, and a cute little fool. Lynn had a great time here. The silence of this paradise-like place is the elixir that heals my heart. The high school is known as a green school, and the sunshine in my eyes warms my heart, which used to shiver. Flowers are in full bloom.

When the excitement spread to college, it came to an abrupt halt. Happiness flutters in the wind, and then, one after another, falls. Years are buried deep in the earth, and a gust of wind blows away in the amber night sky. The green of the beautiful fence on campus fell like mud, fluttering, and had no backbone. Why aren't you good? Why is there so much talent here!

I was nothing......

Lynn now wonders why she used to be so conceited.

Lynn started a new self-harm, eating a lot of things under indescribable pressure, gaining weight, and seeing her old clothes, she couldn't wear anything. Go shopping and spend the money. And then regret it. Lynn used to like to hear people say that every day is a new day. From the moment the window is opened and the sun shines in, all the sorrows of yesterday will be gone. But who will heal you with an indifferent heart? No one was pitied, and Lyn, who was as silent as dirt, was torn apart little by little and thrown into the endless wilderness.

Countless iron horsemen trampled on this weak grass, and the generals who witnessed the life of the horses also buried a corner of the white bones without horse leather.

Childhood seems to be gone. But Lynn wanted to be a little kid. Short hair, straight black hair, pink t-shirt......

In the beautiful spring, everyone can go kite flying, and the smile stops on people's faces without changing......

The rushing rivers break through the peaks, which requires the collection of countless drops of water, water is people's big and small experience, people need to go through their lives step by step, slowly, and love the people around them calmly, if a large part of them also love themselves, life will be perfect.

3. The beginning of the tragedy

Lynn's evening exam was the final exam of the physics experiment. It's finally over! It seems that everyone hasn't reviewed yet. That's the case at university, where you can wait until two hours before the exam for subjects that aren't particularly important. That's right, Lynn studied engineering. It is easy for engineering students to become people with idle jobs. Lin's father is an engineer and has been in a state-owned enterprise for half his life, so Lin knows that his job is very well implemented. Lynn's mother was a professor at the university not far from her school, and it wasn't a matter of discussing how to get a graduate student as a gangster.

The problem is that people have self-esteem. If you live well in the future, after all, it will be the future, how to solve the face problem now?

Lin is increasingly discovering that Chinese do not live for pleasure, but for face and money. I heard that in the United States, there is no shame in eating relief. I still eat burgers and coke...... However, Lynn has never been to the United States, so who knows what the difference between this and the truth is?

If it was for fun, Lynn wouldn't have to study any engineering. Learn Chinese, be a young journalist, and become a writer if you can't find a job. On weekends, I go to the streets to play the pipa and perform on the street. It seems that the craze for Chinese culture is not much reflected in my own school. The Zhuangzi Courtyard was built, and no one in the class went to see it. When Chinese studies are hot, will those who study Chinese studies be able to find good jobs?

She fell in love with a poor man. That person is already working. Doesn't work well. She is sure of her love, but half of her certainty is that she has no fate with him in this life. How could mom and dad agree? If they agree, what will happen to their face? The circle in which they live does not allow such marriages to be inappropriate. Is it better for a girl to marry one, isn't it, how to downgrade it? It's like I can't get married. Unless that man is developed. She can only wait these three years of college. When I was a senior, there was no doubt that I would go on a blind date.

These, she thought, take one step at a time. Life is so unreal. For whom do you live? For yourself?

Oh, someone in the school jumped off a building to commit suicide, but it didn't even attract the slightest attention from Lynn. No one in the class paid attention to this either. Everyone started to buy physics papers from previous sessions. To buy it so late is nothing more than to give yourself infinite psychological comfort.

Lynn was sure she would do well. Yes, she loves to study now. Slowly, she must be the first in the class. She won't be left behind forever, she has always been a role model for everyone, from birth, it is praise to live with her, her life is the direction that everyone wants to work towards.

Life is sometimes difficult.

Night fell quickly. Lynn has written many novels that never have endings. But every day of her life has an end - to sleep unhappily.

I can't sleep as idle tonight as usual, and it's time for the exam.

Lynn made the cheat sheet. She was an honest child. That's right. But now she is afraid that she will not do well in the exam, and her confidence in the morning has disappeared, and everyone is too good. The management of the school is too strict, and everyone is too hard. In Lynn's class, learning until 2 a.m. is a common occurrence. This seems like a joke to Lynn, and maybe it is something to be praised for others?

She can't study and doesn't want to take the graduate school entrance examination, but why did everyone take the exam? If you don't take the test yourself, will you end up finding a bad job?

Whatever, it's copied. I never do anything illegal and undisciplined, and I don't even violate the class rules, what is such a cheat sheet? What's more, it's physics, a course that everyone wants to do well by cheating!

Lynn did the questions without blushing and heartbeat like everyone else.

It wasn't until the end of the exam that the teacher suddenly walked over to Lin, as if there was an omen, and the teacher suddenly took Lin's papers.

After that, Lynn didn't know anything. Lin numbly chased after the teacher, "Teacher, please, I won't do this again, you can return the paper to me......" The teacher didn't speak, Lin begged and begged, and she was tired. Leaving the classroom, Lynn didn't know where to go.

Walking aimlessly around the campus, I don't know how far I've walked and where I'm going.

4. Forget the whole world

The broadcast began. So Lynn began to listen.

Beautiful jade? Who are you? Why are you alive? Who loves you? Who misses you? Who blesses you? Who is jealous of you? Who is happy when you're with you? Who knows your dreams? Is your future interesting?

Not at all, isn't it? You're Lynn, but who is Lynn? Grandma died, Mom and Dad and my brother. You have no faith, no one in heaven to bless you. You are not good enough, and no one envies your boring life. You are sad that no one is a true friend with you. Your dreams can't come true! In the future, you can't marry the person you love, you can't do the job you like, why don't you just live one day at a time?

"The boy's family is not responsible for this incident." So said it on the radio. Killed his girlfriend in his family, so. So pretty girl, so. Sanmao, who knows how to love, has long been like this. The sky for women is low.

"Give Zhang Lin a warning!" Lin seemed to hear the dean say this. No, this kind of trivial matter does not need to be said by the dean himself......

"Zhang Lin, how did you do such a thing! Write a 5,000-word check and read it in front of your class! I already take care of you if I don't ask you to read in front of the whole grade! Ay! Lynn seemed to hear the counselor say this.

Under the gorgeous robe of life, there are lice.

Some are alive and dead.

I gave you love, and I didn't have the ability to love anymore.

If we can't be together in this life, there will be another life.

The false fantasy is still the little girl's mind.

Never done a thing completely for yourself, never let go of something to do.

Lynn gets into a car she's never been in before, and this one drives toward the city's cemetery.

The scenery along the way is beautiful that Lynn has never seen before. She didn't get off the bus, and drove for 20 stops until she reached the final stop, the cemetery.

It just so happened that Lin thought, 20 years old, after 20 battles of 365 days and 20 lives! Lynn never won once.

Here in the cemetery, there are no tears for everyone, maybe everyone is left with nothing left? The dead are dead, and the living are dead.

The last question that Lynn's mind thought about in the world was how good it would be if she was pregnant, then she would definitely not die now. She's worried. But her body may only be seen by a man named her father.

That's right, she cut her veins. Isn't it uncreative? However, no one went to rescue her. No one paid attention to her. She died in a corner of the cemetery.

She didn't know anything about what happened after death, maybe because she didn't have faith, she didn't go to heaven. There is no need to skip Chinese classes, no need to ask questions from the study committee, no need to take the postgraduate entrance examination, no need to have punishment, no need to study physics, and no need to think about what would happen if you couldn't marry the person you love the most. Of course, there is no need to make a cheat sheet, maybe that's where she belongs?! She finally had a home, and she slept happily.

The sun was setting, everything was dark, someone was crying, and they were dying.

The dream has not yet begun, and it does not have to end.