"Yunhan, I've come to see you." Jun Jiusi inserted the lit incense in front of the spiritual seat, and looked at the portrait of Cui Yunhan hanging on the wall, and was a little stunned for a while.

"Back then, you said that the peach blossoms would bloom next year, and you would get married, so let me send you." Thinking of the past, Jun Jiusi suddenly felt like a dream, kneeling on the ground, in a sour mood, "I promised you with a smile, but I didn't expect that I would miss the appointment." Good bye...... But now. ”

When I said goodbye, it became a farewell.

This is something Jun Jiusi never expected.

"I heard that the second prince was not very good to you, have you ever regretted it in your heart? Regret not leaving secretly with Lu Yi back then? ”

If anyone was there, they would definitely be shocked by what Jun Jiusi said.

You must know that the matter between Cui Yunhan and Lu Yi, even the Cui family only knew about it at the last moment.

Who would have thought that Cui Yunhan and An Xiaojiu hit it off at first sight, and Cui Yunhan told An Xiaojiu all the grievances that they couldn't tell their families.

Let An Xiaojiu help her get an idea.

It's not right, Cui Yunhan seems to be gentle, but in fact, her own decisions will never be easily shaken.

Cui Yunhan just wanted to find someone to talk to back then.

"I hate that I became the princess, but I lost my memory, and let you be so lonely in the capital alone."

Jun Jiusi touched his stomach, and his voice was flat and bland, but the remorse in his heart swept over like a mountain and a sea.

"Yunhan,"

Tears flowed down the corners of his eyes.

The woman's voice was a little aggrieved, "Do you think I'm a disaster?" Back then, I thought that as soon as I died, there would be no more hatred and love entanglements, but ......"

Jun Jiusi closed his eyes, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and tears flowed down his eyes, "I didn't expect it, so I killed Brother Rong." I killed my sister and Brother Rong, and I don't even dare to go to see Jingshu and Jiayue now. ”

"I'm afraid, I'm afraid that one day the two of them will know that their parents and fathers are dead because of me, and I'm afraid that one day they will look at me with that resentful look......"

These scenes, after she regained her memory, often dreamed of them.

I dreamed that Jiayue pointed at her and scolded her: "You are a bad spirit, you killed my mother and my father, why don't you die." ”

I dreamed that Jing Shu glanced at her coldly, and then dragged the angry and sad Jing Shu away, saying, "Jiayue, don't talk to such a person. ”

Almost every night, she would wake up from a nightmare.

She didn't dare to face Jingshu Jiayue, let alone give her sister and brother-in-law a stick of incense.

"Am I cowardly?" Jun Jiusi cried very sadly, as if he wanted to pour out all the sadness that had accumulated in his heart, "If it weren't for my cowardice, Brother Rong wouldn't have died at all." At the very least, the two little girls can still have a daddy. ”

Jun Jiusi wiped his tears, raised his head and stared at Cui Yunhan in the portrait with a pair of big eyes, and whispered: "Yunhan, do you know, that day I saw Jingshu Jiayue turn out a portrait, which is the portrait of Brother Rong, Jiayue pointed to the portrait very excitedly, and asked me if the person above me was her father. She also asked me if I knew her father and what kind of person her father was......"

At that moment, Jun Jiusi was extremely embarrassed and wanted to disappear in place.

There are some things that I don't dare to think about at all.

"You say, why are the two of us in our relationship, like this...... What if you can't? Jun Jiusi asked Cui Yunhan crying and laughing.

Cui Yunhan has liked Lu Yi for many years, but she never dared to say it, or even let Lu Yi know, or let her family know.

She always remembered her responsibility.

"Let's be happy, I'm pregnant again. Yunhan, this time I tried my best to protect him and give birth to him. I want to be a son, not a son. I just think it's easier for boys to live in this world......"

A wall apart.

Ximen Yu grabbed Li Xiaowan and whispered comfort: "Xiaowan, there are some things you have to let her vent out, otherwise she will go crazy if you keep holding it in your heart." ”

"But, it's like this...... I'm afraid she won't be able to hold on. ”

Li Xiaowan looked extremely anxious.

Now Jiusi is not alone, there is a child in his belly, if he is too sad, it is not a joke.

"But if you don't let her vent out, keep hiding it in your heart, she'll go crazy!"

The sentence "She's going crazy" was like a huge hammer, smashing Li Xiaowan's head hard, smashing her into the eyes.

"She's going to be crazy? No, no......" Li Xiaowan subconsciously retorted, but she could hear the uncertainty in that tone.

Ximen Yu sighed.

Although it was said that Jun Jiusi and Cui Yunhan should be alone for a while, but Jun Jiusi's current appearance, Li Xiaowan was not at ease at all.

So he came to the side room with Ximen Yu and waited.

The sound insulation of the room is not very good, so naturally I heard Jun Jiusi's voice.

"Small bowl." Ximen Yu sighed, put his hands on Li Xiaowan's shoulders, bent down slightly, and said seriously, "You must know that there is a limit to what everyone can bear. Otherwise, why would Xiao Jiu commit suicide by cutting his wrists? That's because she couldn't take it anymore. Right now, she has a child now, and she will not have the idea of suicide. But so many things are pressed on the heart, it will drive people crazy! “

This is not alarmist.

What everyone can bear is limited, and when those things overflow, Jun Jiusi's state will get worse and worse, and sooner or later, he will either die or go crazy.

Now that she herself is willing to release some of it, it is also good.

It's better than driving yourself crazy in the future.

"She's Xiao Jiu, she won't ......"

"None of us thought that Xiao Jiu would commit suicide back then, right? Xiao Wan, don't think too much about Xiao Jiu. No matter how strong she is, she is just an ordinary little girl. ”

Yes, when all of them thought that Xiao Jiu had survived, she suddenly committed suicide.

And now......

Calmly said that Xiao Jiu was unwilling to meet Jingshu Jiayue and never worship Xiao Qi Rongjing, Li Xiaowan knew that these things were still pressing on Xiao Jiu's heart, so that she had not been able to come out.

"Okay, I got it." Li Xiaowan was a little depressed.

Why does Xiao Jiu have to endure all this pain all the time?

Obviously, Xiao Jiu wants it, but there are never too many.

Li Xiaowan listened to the whimpering sound from time to time, and felt uncomfortable.

But he firmly remembered what Ximen Yu said just now, and he didn't dare to disturb it at all.

Fortunately, Jun Jiusi didn't let Li Xiaowan worry for too long.

About half an hour later, Jun Jiusi pushed the door and came out.

The eyes were slightly red and swollen, but the woman smiled brightly in the dim sun.